The Egoist

(1879)

by George Meredith

        TABLE OF CONTENTS


PRELUDE
CHAPTER 1. A Minor Incident Showing an Hereditary Aptitude in the Use of the Knife
CHAPTER 2. The Young Sir Willoughby
CHAPTER 3. Constantia Durham
CHAPTER 4. Laetitia Dale
CHAPTER 5. Clara Middleton
CHAPTER 6. His Courtship
CHAPTER 7. The Betrothed
CHAPTER 8. A Run with the Truant; a Walk with the Master
CHAPTER 9. Clara and Laetitia Meet: They are Compared
CHAPTER 10. In which Sir Willoughby Chances to Supply the Title for Himself
CHAPTER 11. The Double-Blossom Wild Cherry-Tree
CHAPTER 12. Miss Middleton and Mr. Vernon Whitford
CHAPTER 13. The First Effort After Freedom
CHAPTER 14. Sir Willoughby And Laetitia
CHAPTER 15. The Petition for a Release
CHAPTER 16. Clara And Laetitia
CHAPTER 17. The Porcelain Vase
CHAPTER 18. Colonel De Craye
CHAPTER 19. Colonel de Craye and Clara Middleton
CHAPTER 20. An Aged and a Great Wine
CHAPTER 21. Clara's Meditations
CHAPTER 22. The Ride
CHAPTER 23. Treats of the Union of Temper and Policy
CHAPTER 24. Contains an Instance of the Generosity Of Willoughby
CHAPTER 25. The Flight in Wild Weather
CHAPTER 26. Vernon in Pursuit
CHAPTER 27. At The Railway Station
CHAPTER 28. The Return
CHAPTER 29. In Which the Sensitiveness of Sir Willoughby Is Explained: And He Receives Much Instruction
CHAPTER 30. Treating of the Dinner-Party at Mrs. Mountstuart Jenkinson's
CHAPTER 31. Sir Willoughby Attempts and Achieves Pathos
CHAPTER 32. Laetitia Dale Discovers a Spiritual Change and Dr Middleton a Physical
CHAPTER 33. In Which the Comic Muse has an Eye on Two Good Souls
CHAPTER 34. Mrs. Mountstuart and Sir Willoughby
CHAPTER 35. Miss Middleton And Mrs. Mountstuart
CHAPTER 36. Animated Conversation At A Luncheon-Table
CHAPTER 37. Contains Clever Fencing and Intimations of the Need for it
CHAPTER 38. In Which We Take a Step to the Centre of Egoism
CHAPTER 39. In the Heart of the Egoist
CHAPTER 40. Midnight: Sir Willoughby and Laetitia: With Young Crossjay Under a Coverlet
CHAPTER 41. The Rev. Dr. Middleton, Clara, and Sir Willoughby
CHAPTER 42. Shows the Divining Arts of a Perceptive Mind
CHAPTER 43. In which Sir Willoughby is Led to Think that the Elements have Conspired Against Him
CHAPTER 44. Dr Middleton, The Ladies Eleanor And Isabel, And Mr. Dale
CHAPTER 45. The Patterne Ladies: Mr. Dale: Lady Busshe and Lady Culmer: With Mrs. Mountstuart Jenkinson
CHAPTER 46. The Scene of Sir Willoughby's Generalship
CHAPTER 47. Sir Willoughby And His Friend Horace De Craye
CHAPTER 48. The Lovers
CHAPTER 49. Laetitia and Sir Willoughby
CHAPTER 50. Upon which the Curtain Falls




Prelude: A Chapter of which the Last Page Only is of any Importance



Comedy is a game played to throw reflections upon social life, and it deals with
human nature in the drawing-room of civilized men and women, where we have
no dust of the struggling outer world, no mire, no violent crashes, to make the
correctness of the representation convincing. Credulity is not wooed through the
impressionable senses; nor have we recourse to the small circular glow of the
watchmaker's eye
1 to raise in bright relief minutest grains of evidence for the
routing of incredulity.
The Comic Spirit conceives a definite situation for a num-
ber of characters, and rejects all accessories in the exclusive pursuit of them and
their speech. For being a spirit, he hunts the spirit in men; vision and ardour consti-
tute his merit; he has not a thought of persuading you to believe in him. Follow
and you will see. But there is a question of the value of a run at his heels.


Now the world is possessed of a certain big book, the biggest book on earth; that
might indeed be called the Book of Earth; whose title is the Book of Egoism, and it
is a book full of the world's wisdom. So full of it, and of such dimensions is this
book, in which the generations have written ever since they took to writing, that
to be profitable to us the Book needs a powerful compression.


Who, says the notable humourist, in allusion to this Book, who can studiously tra-
vel through sheets of leaves now capable of a stretch from the Lizard
2 to the last
few poor pulmonary snips and shreds of leagues dancing on their toes for cold,
ex-
plorers tell us, and catching breath by good luck, like dogs at bones about a table,
on the edge of the Pole? Inordinate unvaried length, sheer longinquity, staggers
the heart, ages the very heart of us at a view.
And how if we manage finally to
print one of our pages on the crow-scalp
3 of that solitary majestic outsider? We may
get him into the Book; yet the knowledge we want will not be more present with us
than it was when the chapters hung their end over the cliff you ken of at Dover,
4
where sits our great lord and master contemplating the seas without upon the reflex

In other words, as I venture to translate him (humourists are difficult: it is a
piece of their humour to puzzle our wits),
the inward mirror, the embracing and con-
densing spirit, is required to give us those interminable milepost piles of matter

(extending well-nigh to the very Pole) in essence, in chosen samples, digestibly. I
conceive him to indicate that the realistic method of a conscientious
transcription
of all the visible, and a repetition of all the audible, is mainly accountable for
our present branfulness,
5 and that prolongation of the vasty and the noisy, out of
which, as from an undrained fen, steams the malady of sameness, our modern malady.

We have the malady, whatever may be the cure or the cause.
We drove in a body to Sci-
ence the other day for an antidote; which was as if tired pedestrians should mount
the engine-box of headlong trains; and Science introduced us to our o'er-hoary an-
cestry
6--them in the Oriental posture; whereupon we set up a primaeval chattering to
rival the Amazon forest nigh nightfall, cured, we fancied.
And before daybreak our
disease was hanging on to us again, with the extension of a tail. We had it fore
and aft. We were the same, and animals into the bargain. That is all we got from
Science.


Art is the specific.7 We have little to learn of apes, and they may be left. The
chief consideration for us is, what particular practice of Art in letters is the
best for the perusal of the Book of our common wisdom; so that
with clearer minds
and livelier manners we may escape, as it were, into daylight and song from a land
of fog-horns. Shall we read it by the watchmaker's eye in luminous rings eruptive
of the infinitesimal, or pointed with examples and types under the broad Alpine
survey of the spirit
born of our united social intelligence, which is the Comic
Spirit? Wise men say the latter. They tell us that there is a constant tendency
in the Book
to accumulate excess of substance, and such repleteness, obscuring the
glass it holds to mankind, renders us inexact in the recognition of our individual
countenances: a perilous thing for civilization.
And these wise men are strong in
their opinion that we should encourage the Comic Spirit, who is after all our own
offspring, to relieve the Book. Comedy, they say, is the true diversion, as it is
likewise
the key of the great Book, the music of the Book. They tell us how it con-
denses whole sections of the book in a sentence, volumes in a character; so that a
fair pan of a book outstripping thousands of leagues when unrolled may be compassed
in one comic sitting.


For verily, say they, we must read what we can of it, at least the page before us,
if we would be men. One, with an index
8 on the Book, cries out, in a style pardonable
to his fervency: The remedy of your frightful affliction is here, through the still-
atory of Comedy, and not in Science, nor yet in Speed, whose name is but another for
voracity.
Why, to be alive, to be quick in the soul, there should be diversity in the
companion throbs of your pulses. Interrogate them. They lump along like the old lob-
legs of Dobbin the horse; or do their business like cudgels of carpet-thwackers expel-
ling dust or the cottage-clock pendulum teaching the infant hour over midnight simple
arithmetic. This too in spite of Bacchus.
9 And let them gallop; let them gallop with
the God bestriding them; gallop to Hymen, gallop to Hades,
10 they strike the same note.
Monstrous monotonousness has enfolded us as with the arms of Amphitrite!
11 We hear
a shout of war for a diversion.—Comedy he
12 pronounces to be our means of read-
ing swiftly and comprehensively.
She it is who proposes the correcting of pretentio-
usness, of inflation, of dulness, and of the vestiges of rawness and grossness to be
found among us. She is the ultimate civilizer, the polisher, a sweet cook.
If, he says,
she watches over sentimentalism with a birch-rod, she is not opposed to romance. You
may love, and warmly love, so long as you are honest. Do not offend reason. A lover
pretending too much by one foot's length of pretence, will have that foot caught in her
trap. In Comedy is the singular scene of charity issuing of disdain under the stroke of
honourable laughter: an Ariel released by Prospero's wand from the fetters of the dam-
ned witch Sycorax.
13 And this laughter of reason refreshed is floriferous,14 like the mag-
ical great gale of the shifty Spring deciding for Summer. You hear it giving the delicate spi-
rit his liberty. Listen, for comparison, to an unleavened society: a low as of the udderful
cow past milking hour!
15 O for a titled ecclesiastic to curse to excommunication that un-
holy thing!—So far an enthusiast perhaps; but he should have a hearing.

Concerning pathos, no ship can now set sail without pathos; and we are not totally de-
ficient of pathos; which is, I do not accurately know what, if not
the ballast, reduci-
ble to moisture
16 by patent process, on board our modern vessel; for it can hardly be the
cargo, and the general water supply has other uses; and ships well charged with it seem
to sail the stiffest:—there is a touch of pathos.
The Egoist surely inspires pity. He
who would desire to clothe himself at everybody's expense, and is of that desire con-
demned to strip himself stark naked, he, if pathos ever had a form, might be taken for
the actual person. Only he is not allowed to rush at you, roll you over and squeeze your
body for the briny drops.
There is the innovation.

You may as well know him out of hand, as a gentleman of our time and country, of wealth
and station;
a not flexile figure, do what we may with him; the humour of whom scarcely
dimples the surface and is distinguishable but by very penetrative, very wicked imps,

whose fits of roaring below at some generally imperceptible stroke of his quality, have
first made the mild literary angels aware of something comic in him,
when they were one
and all about to describe the gentleman on the heading of the records baldly (where bre-
vity is most complimentary) as a gentleman of family and property, an idol of a decorous
island that admires the concrete.
Imps have their freakish wickedness in them to kindle
detective vision: malignly do they love to uncover ridiculousness in imposing figures.
Wherever they catch sight of Egoism they pitch their camps, they circle and squat, and
forthwith they trim their lanterns, confident of the ludicrous to come.
So confident that
their grip of an English gentleman, in whom they have spied their game, never relaxes un-
til
he begins insensibly to frolic and antic, unknown to himself, and comes out in the na-
tive steam which is their scent of the chase.
Instantly off they scour, Egoist and imps.
They will, it is known of them, dog a great House for centuries, and be at the birth of
all the new heirs in succession, diligently taking confirmatory notes, to join hands and
chime their chorus in one of their merry rings round the tottering pillar of the House,
when his turn arrives; as if they had (possibly they had) smelt of old date a doomed col-
ossus of Egoism in that unborn, unconceived inheritor of the stuff of the family. They
dare not be chuckling while Egoism is valiant, while sober, while socially valuable, nati-
onally serviceable. They wait.


Aforetime a grand old Egoism built the House. It would appear that ever finer essences of
it are demanded to sustain the structure; but especially would it appear that a reversion
to the gross original, beneath a mask and in a vein of fineness, is an earthquake at the
foundations of the House.
Better that it should not have consented to motion, and have
held stubbornly to all ancestral ways, than have bred that anachronic spectre.
17 The sight,
however, is one to make our squatting imps in circle grow restless on their haunches, as
they bend eyes instantly, ears at full cock, for the commencement of the comic drama of
the suicide. If this line of verse be not yet in our literature,

                
Through very love of self himself he slew,

let it be admitted for his epitaph.




CHAPTER 1: A Minor Incident Showing an Hereditary Aptitude in the Use of the Knife



There was an ominously anxious watch of eyes visible and invisible1 over the infancy of Will-
oughby
, fifth in descent from Simon Patterne, of Patterne Hall, premier of this family, a
lawyer, a man of solid acquirements and stout ambition, who well understood the foundation-
work of a House, and was endowed with the power of saying No to those first agents of des-
truction, besieging relatives. He said it with the resonant emphasis of death to younger
sons.2 For if the oak is to become a stately tree, we must provide against the crowding of
timber. Also the tree beset with parasites prospers not.
A great House in its beginning
lives, we may truly say, by the knife. Soil is easily got, and so are bricks, and a wife,
and children come of wishing for them, but the vigorous use of the knife is a natural gift
and points to growth. Pauper Patternes were numerous
when the fifth head of the race was
the hope of his county. A Patterne was in the Marines.
3

The country and the chief of this family were simultaneously informed of the existence of
one Lieutenant Crossjay Patterne, of the corps of the famous hard fighters, through an act
of heroism of the unpretending cool sort which kindles British blood, on the part of the
modest young officer, in the storming of some eastern riverain stronghold, somewhere about
the coast of China.
4 The officer's youth was assumed on the strength of his rank, perhaps
likewise from the tale of his modesty: "he had only done his duty"
. Our Willoughby was then
at College, emulous of the generous enthusiasm of his years, and strangely impressed by the
report, and the printing of his name in the newspapers. He thought over it for several months,
when, coming to his title and heritage, he sent Lieutenant Crossjay Patterne a cheque for a
sum of money amounting to the gallant fellow's pay per annum, at the same time showing his
acquaintance with the first, or chemical, principles of generosity, in the remark to friends
at home, that "blood is thicker than water". The man is a Marine, but he is a Patterne. How
any Patterne should have drifted into the Marines, is of the order of questions which are
senselessly asked of the great dispensary.
5 In the complimentary letter accompanying his
cheque, the lieutenant was invited to present himself at the ancestral Hall, when convenient
to him, and he was assured that he had given his relative and friend a taste for a soldier's
life. Young Sir Willoughby was fond of talking of his "military namesake and distant cousin,
young Patterne—the Marine". It was funny; and
not less laughable was the description of his
namesake's deed of valour: with the rescued British sailor inebriate, and the hauling off to
captivity of the three braves of the black dragon on a yellow ground, and the tying of them
together back to back by their pigtails, and driving of them into our lines upon a newly de-
vised dying-top style of march that inclined to the oblique, like the astonished six eyes of
the celestial prisoners, for straight they could not go.
6 The humour of gentlemen at home is
always highly excited by such cool feats. We are a small island, but you see what we do. The
ladies at the Hall, Sir Willoughby's mother, and his aunts Eleanor and Isabel, were more af-
fected than he by the circumstance of their having a Patterne in the Marines. But how then!

We English have ducal blood in business: we have, genealogists tell us, royal blood in common
trades. For all our pride we are a queer people; and you may be ordering butcher's meat of a
Tudor, sitting on the cane-bottom chairs of a Plantagenet.
By and by you may . . . but cherish
your reverence.
7 Young Willoughby made a kind of shock-head8 or football hero of his gallant
distant cousin, and wondered occasionally that the fellow had been content to dispatch a let-
ter of effusive thanks without availing himself of the invitation to partake of the hospital-
ities of Patterne.

He was one afternoon parading between showers on the stately garden terrace of the Hall, in
company with his affianced, the beautiful and dashing Constantia Durham,
followed by knots of
ladies and gentlemen vowed to fresh air before dinner, while it was to be had.
Chancing with
his usual happy fortune (we call these things dealt to us out of the great hidden dispensary,
chance) to glance up the avenue of limes,
as he was in the act of turning on his heel at the
end of the terrace, and it should be added, discoursing with passion's privilege of the pas-
sion of love to Miss Durham, Sir Willoughby, who was anything but obtuse, experienced a pre-
sentiment upon espying a thick-set stumpy man
crossing the gravel space from the avenue to
the front steps of the Hall, decidedly not bearing the stamp of the gentleman "on his hat, his
coat, his feet, or anything that was his," Willoughby subsequently observed to the ladies of
his family in the Scriptural style of gentlemen who do bear the stamp.
His brief sketch of
the creature was repulsive. The visitor carried a bag, and his coat-collar was up, his hat
was melancholy; he had the appearance of a bankrupt tradesman absconding;
no gloves, no
umbrella.


As to the incident we have to note, it was very slight. The card of Lieutenant Patterne was
handed to Sir Willoughby, who laid it on the salver, saying to the footman, "Not at home."

He had been
disappointed in the age, grossly deceived in the appearance of the man claiming
to be his relative in this unseasonable fashion; and his acute instinct advised him swiftly
of the absurdity of introducing to his friends a heavy unpresentable senior as the celebrated
gallant
Lieutenant of Marines, and the same as a member of his family! He had talked of the
man too much, too enthusiastically, to be able to do so. A young subaltern, even if passably
vulgar in figure, can be shuffled through by the aid of the heroical story humourously exag-
gerated in apology for his aspect. Nothing can be done with a mature and stumpy Marine of
that rank.
Considerateness dismisses him on the spot, without parley. It was performed by
a gentleman supremely advanced at a very early age in the art of cutting.


Young Sir Willoughby spoke a word of the rejected visitor to Miss Durham, in response to
her startled look:
"I shall drop him a cheque," he said, for she seemed personally wounded,
and had a face of crimson.


The young lady did not reply.


Dating from the humble departure of Lieutenant Crossjay Patterne up the limes-avenue9 un-
der a gathering rain-cloud, the ring of imps in attendance on Sir Willoughby maintained their
station with strict observation of his movements at all hours; and were comparisons in quest,
the sympathetic eagerness of the eyes of caged monkeys for the hand about to feed them,
would supply one. They perceived in him a fresh development and very subtle manifestation
of the very old thing from which he had sprung.




CHAPTER 2: The Young Sir Willoughby



These little scoundrel imps, who have attained to some respectability as the dogs and pets
of the Comic Spirit,
had been curiously attentive three years earlier, long before the pub-
lic announcement of his engagement to the beautiful Miss Durham, on the day of Sir Willou-
ghby's majority, when Mrs. Mountstuart Jenkinson said her word of him.
Mrs. Mountstuart was
a lady certain to say the remembered, if not the right, thing.
Again and again was it confirmed
on days of high celebration, days of birth or bridal, how sure she was to hit the mark that
rang the bell; and away her word went over the county
1: and had she been an uncharitable
woman
she could have ruled the county with an iron rod of caricature, so sharp was her
touch. A grain of malice would have sent county faces and characters awry into the cur-
rency.
2 She was wealthy and kindly, and resembled our mother Nature in her reasonable anti-
pathies to one or two things which none can defend, and her decided preference of persons
that shone in the sun.
3 Her word sprang out of her. She looked at you, and forth it came:
and it stuck to you,
as nothing laboured or literary could have adhered. Her saying of La-
etitia Dale:
"Here she comes with a romantic tale on her eyelashes," was a portrait of La-
etitia. And that of Vernon Whitford:
"He is a Phoebus Apollo turned fasting friar," painted
the sunken brilliancy of the lean long-walker and scholar at a stroke.


Of the young Sir Willoughby, her word was brief; and there was the merit of it on a day
when he was hearing from sunrise to the setting of the moon salutes in his honour, songs
of praise and Ciceronian eulogy. Rich, handsome, courteous, generous, lord of the Hall,
the feast and the dance, he excited his guests of both sexes to a holiday of flattery.
And, says Mrs. Mountstuart,
while grand phrases were mouthing round about him, "You see
he has a leg."


That you saw, of course.
But after she had spoken you saw much more. Mrs. Mountstuart said
it just as others utter empty nothings, with never a hint of a stress.
Her word was taken
up, and very soon, from the extreme end of the long drawing-room, the circulation of some-
thing of Mrs. Mountstuart's was distinctly perceptible. Lady Patterne sent a little Hebe
down, skirting the dancers, for an accurate report of it; and even the inappreciative lips
of a very young lady transmitting the word could not damp the impression of its weighty
truthfulness.
4 It was perfect! Adulation of the young Sir Willoughby's beauty and wit, and
aristocratic bearing and mien, and of his moral virtues, was common; welcome if you like,
as a form of homage; but common, almost vulgar, beside Mrs. Mountstuart's quiet little
touch of nature. In seeming to say infinitely less than others, as Miss Isabel Patterne
pointed out to Lady Busshe, Mrs. Mountstuart comprised all that the others had said, by
showing the needlessness of allusions to the saliently evident.
She was the aristocrat
reproving the provincial. "He is everything you have had the goodness to remark, ladies
and dear sirs, he talks charmingly, dances divinely, rides with the air of a commander-
in-chief, has the most natural grand pose possible without ceasing for a moment to be the
young English gentleman he is. Alcibiades, fresh from a Louis IV perruquier, could not
surpass him:
whatever you please; I could outdo you in sublime comparisons, were I minded
to pelt him.5 Have you noticed that he has a leg?"

So might it be amplified. A simple-seeming word of this import is the triumph of the spir-
itual, and where it passes for coin of value, the society has reached a high refinement:
Arcadian by the aesthetic route.6 Observation of Willoughby was not, as Miss Eleanor Pat-
terne pointed out to Lady Culmer,
drawn down to the leg, but directed to estimate him from
the leg upward. That, however, is prosaic. Dwell a short space on Mrs. Mountstuart's word;
and whither, into what fair region, and with how decorously voluptuous a sensation, do not
we fly, who have, through mournful veneration of the Martyr Charles, a coy attachment to
the Court of his Merrie Son, where the leg was ribanded with love-knots and reigned
.7 Oh!
it was a naughty Court. Yet have we dreamed of it as the period
when an English cavalier
was grace incarnate
; far from the boor now hustling us in another sphere; beautifully man-
nered, every gesture dulcet
. And if the ladies were . . . we will hope they have been tra-
duced. But if they were, if they were too tender, ah! gentlemen were gentlemen then—worth
perishing for! There is this dream in the English country; and it must be
an aspiration
after some form of melodious gentlemanliness
which is imagined to have inhabited the is-
land at one time; as among our poets the dream of the period of a circle of chivalry here
is encouraged for the pleasure of the imagination.

Mrs. Mountstuart touched a thrilling chord. "In spite of men's hateful modern costume, you
see he has a leg."


That is, the leg of the born cavalier is before you: and obscure it as you will, dress de-
generately, there it is for ladies who have eyes. You see it: or, you see he has it. Miss
Isabel and Miss Eleanor disputed the incidence of the emphasis, but surely, though a slight
difference of meaning may be heard, either will do: many, with a good show of reason, throw
the accent upon leg. And the ladies knew for a fact that Willoughby's leg was exquisite;
he had a cavalier court-suit in his wardrobe.
Mrs. Mountstuart signified that the leg was
to be seen because it was a burning leg. There it is, and it will shine through!
He has the
leg of Rochester, Buckingham, Dorset, Suckling;
8 the leg that smiles, that winks, is obse-
quious to you, yet perforce of beauty self-satisfied; that twinkles to a tender midway be-
tween imperiousness and seductiveness, audacity and discretion;
between "You shall worship
me", and "I am devoted to you;" is your lord, your slave, alternately and in one.
It is a
leg of ebb and flow and high-tide ripples. Such a leg, when it has done with pretending to
retire, will walk straight into the hearts of women. Nothing so fatal to them.


Self-satisfied it must be. Humbleness does not win multitudes or the sex. It must be vain
to have a sheen. Captivating melodies
(to prove to you the unavoidableness of self-satis-
faction when you know that you have hit perfection), listen to them closely,
have an inner
pipe of that conceit almost ludicrous when you detect the chirp.


And you need not be reminded that he has the leg without the naughtiness. You see eminent
in him what we would fain have brought about in
a nation that has lost its leg in gaining
a possibly cleaner morality
. And that is often contested; but there is no doubt of the loss
of the leg.


Well, footmen and courtiers and Scottish Highlanders, and the corps de ballet, draymen too,
have legs, and staring legs, shapely enough.
9 But what are they? not the modulated instru-
ment we mean—simply legs for leg-work, dumb as the brutes. Our cavalier's is the poetic
leg, a portent, a valiance.
10 He has it as Cicero had a tongue. It is a lute to scatter
songs to his mistress; a rapier, is she obdurate. In sooth a leg with brains in it, soul.


And its shadows are an ambush, its lights a surprise. It blushes, it pales, can whisper,
exclaim. It is a peep, a part revelation, just sufferable, of the Olympian god—Jove play-
ing carpet-knight.
11

For the young Sir Willoughby's family and his thoughtful admirers, it is not too much to
say that Mrs. Mountstuart's little word fetched an epoch of our history to colour the
evening of his arrival at man's estate.
12 He was all that Merrie Charles's court should
have been, subtracting not a sparkle from what it was. Under this light he danced, and
you may consider the effect of it on his company.

He had received the domestic education of a prince. Little princes abound in a land of
heaped riches. Where they have not to yield military service to an Imperial master, they
are necessarily
here and there dainty during youth, sometimes unmanageable, and as they
are bound in no personal duty to the State, each is for himself, with full present, and
what is more, luxurious, prospective leisure for the practice of that allegiance. They
are sometimes enervated by it: that must be in continental countries. Happily our cli-
mate and our brave blood precipitate the greater number upon the hunting-field, to do
the public service
13 of heading the chase of the fox, with benefit to their constitutions.
Hence a manly as well as useful race of little princes, and Willoughby was as manly as
any. He cultivated himself, he would not be outdone in popular accomplishments. Had the
standard of the public taste been set in philosophy, and the national enthusiasm centred
in philosophers, he would at least have worked at books. He did work at science, and had
a laboratory.
His admirable passion to excel, however, was chiefly directed in his youth
upon sport; and so great was the passion in him, that it was commonly the presence of ri-
vals which led him to the declaration of love.14

He knew himself, nevertheless, to be the most constant of men in his attachment to the
sex. He had never discouraged Laetitia Dale's devotion to him, and even when he followed
in the sweeping tide of the beautiful Constantia Durham (whom Mrs. Mountstuart called
"The Racing Cutter"), he thought of Laetitia, and looked at her. She was a shy violet.


Willoughby's comportment while the showers of adulation drenched him might be likened to
the composure of Indian Gods15 undergoing worship, but unlike them he reposed upon no
seat of amplitude to preserve him from a betrayal of intoxication; he had to continue trip-
ping, dancing, exactly balancing himself, head to right, head to left, addressing his idolaters
in phrases of perfect choiceness. This is only to say that it is easier to be a wooden i-
dol than one in the flesh;
yet Willoughby was equal to his task. The little prince's edu-
cation teaches him that he is other than you, and by virtue of the instruction he rece-
ives, and also something, we know not what, within, he is enabled to maintain his posture
where you would be tottering. Urchins upon whose curly pates grave seniors lay their hands
with conventional encomium and speculation, look older than they are immediately, and
Willoughby looked older than his years, not for want of freshness, but because he felt that
he had to stand eminently and correctly poised.


Hearing of Mrs. Mountstuart's word on him, he smiled and said, "It is at her service."

The speech was communicated to her, and
she proposed to attach a dedicatory strip of silk.
And then they came together, and there was wit and repartee suitable to the electrical at-
mosphere of the dancing-room, on the march to a magical hall of supper
. Willoughby conduct-
ed Mrs. Mountstuart to the supper-table.

"Were I," said she, "twenty years younger, I think I would marry you, to cure my infatu-
ation."

"Then let me tell you in advance, madam," said he, "that I will do everything to obtain a
new lease of it, except divorce you."


They were infinitely wittier, but so much was heard and may be reported.

"It makes the business of choosing a wife for him superhumanly difficult!" Mrs. Mountstu-
art observed, after listening to the praises she had set going again when the ladies were
weeded of us, in Lady Patterne's Indian room, and could converse unhampered upon their
own ethereal themes.
16

"Willoughby will choose a wife for himself," said his mother.



CHAPTER 3. Constantia Durham



The great question for the county was debated in many households, daughter-thronged and
daughterless, long subsequent to the memorable day of Willoughby's coming of age. Lady
Busshe was for Constantia Durham. She laughed at Mrs Mountstuart Jenkinson's notion of Lae-
titia Dale.
She was a little older than Mrs. Mountstuart, and had known Willoughby's father,
whose marriage into the wealthiest branch of the Whitford family had been strictly sagacious.
"Patternes marry money; they are not romantic people," she said. Miss Durham had money, and
she had health and beauty: three mighty qualifications for a Patterne bride. Her father, Sir
John Durham, was a large landowner in the western division of the county; a pompous gentle-
man, the picture of a father-in-law for Willoughby. The father of Miss Dale was a battered army
surgeon from India, tenant of one of Sir Willoughby's cottages bordering Patterne Park.
His
girl was portionless and a poetess. Her writing of the song in celebration of the young bar-
onet's birthday was thought a clever venture, bold as only your timid creatures can be bold.
She let the cat out of her bag of verse before the multitude; she almost proposed to her hero
in her rhymes. She was pretty; her eyelashes were long and dark, her eyes dark-blue, and her
soul was ready to shoot like a rocket out of them at a look from Willoughby.
And he looked,
he certainly looked, though he did not dance with her once that night, and danced repeatedly
with Miss Durham. He gave Laetitia to Vernon Whitford for the final dance of the night, and
he may have looked at her so much in pity of an elegant girl allied to such a partner. The
"Phoebus Apollo turned fasting friar" had entirely forgotten his musical gifts in motion. He
crossed himself and crossed his bewildered lady, and crossed everybody in the figure, extort-
ing shouts of cordial laughter from his cousin Willoughby. Be it said that the hour was four
in the morning, when dancers must laugh at somebody, if only to refresh their feet, and the
wit of the hour administers to the wildest laughter.
Vernon was likened to Theseus in the
maze, entirely dependent upon his Ariadne; to a fly released from a jam-pot; to a "salvage,"or
green, man caught in a web of nymphs and made to go the paces.
1 Willoughby was inexhaust-
ible in the happy similes he poured out
to Miss Durham across the lines of Sir Roger de Cov-
erley, and they were not forgotten, they procured him a reputation as a
convivial sparkler.2
Rumour went the round that he intended to give Laetitia to Vernon for good, when he could
decide to take Miss Durham to himself; his generosity was famous; but that decision, though
the rope was in the form of a knot, seemed reluctant for the conclusive close haul; it pre-
ferred the state of slackness;
and if he courted Laetitia on behalf of his cousin, his cou-
sinly love must have been greater than his passion, one had to suppose. He was generous en-
ough for it, or for marrying the portionless girl himself.

There was a story of a brilliant young widow of our aristocracy who had very nearly snared
him. Why should he object to marry into our aristocracy? Mrs. Mountstuart asked him, and he
replied that the girls of that class have no money, and he doubted the quality of their
blood. He had his eyes awake. His duty to his House was a foremost thought with him, and
for such a reason he may have been more anxious to give the slim and not robust Laetitia
to Vernon than accede to his personal inclination. The mention of the widow singularly of-
fended him, notwithstanding the high rank of the lady named. "A widow?" he said. "I!" He
spoke to a widow; an oldish one truly; but
his wrath at the suggestion of his union with a
widow led him to be for the moment oblivious of the minor shades of good taste.
3 He desired
Mrs. Mountstuart to contradict the story in positive terms. He repeated his desire; he was
urgent to have it contradicted, and said again, "A widow!" straightening his whole figure
to the erectness of the letter I.
She was a widow unmarried a second time, and it has been
known of the stedfast women who retain the name of their first husband, or do not hamper
his title with a little new squire at their skirts, that they can partially approve the ob-
jections indicated by Sir Willoughby. They are thinking of themselves when they do so, and
they will rarely say, "I might have married;" rarely within them will they avow that, with
their permission, it might have been. They can catch an idea of a gentleman's view of the
widow's cap.
But a niceness that could feel sharply wounded by the simple rumour of his al-
liance with the young relict of an earl was mystifying. Sir Willoughby unbent. His military
letter I took a careless glance at itself lounging idly and proudly at ease in the glass of
his mind, decked with a wanton wreath,
as he dropped a hint, generously vague, just to show
the origin of the rumour, and the excellent basis it had for not being credited.
He was
chidden. Mrs. Mountstuart read him a lecture. She was however able to contradict the tale
of the young countess. "There is no fear of his marrying her, my dears."

Meanwhile there was a fear that he would lose his chance of marrying the beautiful Miss
Durham.

The dilemmas of little princes are often grave. They should be dwelt on now and then for
an example to poor struggling commoners, of the slings and arrows assailing fortune's most
favoured men, that we may preach contentment to the wretch who cannot muster wherewith-
al to marry a wife, or has done it and trots the streets, pack-laden, to maintain the dame and
troops of children painfully reared to fill subordinate stations. According to our reading,
a moral is always welcome in a moral country, and especially so when silly envy is to be
chastised by it, the restless craving for change rebuked.
4 Young Sir Willoughby, then, stood
in this dilemma:--a lady was at either hand of him; the only two that had ever, apart from
metropolitan conquests,
5 not to be recited, touched his emotions. Susceptible to beauty, he
had never seen so beautiful a girl as Constantia Durham. Equally susceptible to admiration
of himself, he considered Laetitia Dale a paragon of cleverness. He stood between the queenly
rose and the modest violet. One he bowed to; the other bowed to him. He could not have both;
it is the law governing princes and pedestrians alike.
But which could he forfeit? His grow-
ing acquaintance with the world taught him to put an increasing price on the sentiments of
Miss Dale. Still
Constantia's beauty was of a kind to send away beholders aching. She had
the glory of the racing cutter full sail on a winning breeze; and she did not court to win
him, she flew. In his more reflective hour the attractiveness of that lady which held the
mirror to his features was paramount. But he had passionate snatches when the magnetism of
the flyer drew him in her wake
. Further to add to the complexity, he loved his liberty; he
was princelier free; he had more subjects, more slaves; he ruled arrogantly in the world of
women; he was more himself.
His metropolitan experiences did not answer to his liking the
particular question, Do we bind the woman down to us idolatrously by making a wife of her?


In the midst of his deliberations, a report of the hot pursuit of Miss Durham, casually men-
tioned to him by Lady Busshe, drew an immediate proposal from Sir Willoughby. She accepted
him, and they were engaged.
She had been nibbled at, all but eaten up, while he hung dubita-
tive; and though that was the cause of his winning her, it offended his niceness. She had
not come to him out of cloistral purity, out of perfect radiancy. Spiritually, likewise,
was he a little prince, a despotic prince. He wished for her to have come to him out of an
egg-shell, somewhat more astonished at things than a chicken, but as completely enclosed
before he tapped the shell, and seeing him with her sex's eyes first of all men
. She talked
frankly of her cousins and friends, young males. She could have replied to his bitter wish:
"Had you asked me on the night of your twenty-first birthday, Willoughby!" Since then
she
had been in the dust of the world,
and he conceived his peculiar antipathy, destined to be
so fatal to him, from the earlier hours of his engagement. He was quaintly incapable of a
jealousy of individuals. A young Captain Oxford
6 had been foremost in the swarm pursuing
Constantia. Willoughby thought as little of Captain Oxford as he did of Vernon Whitford.

His enemy was the world, the mass, which confounds us in a lump, which has breathed on her
whom we have selected, whom we cannot, can never, rub quite clear of her contact with the
abominated crowd. The pleasure of the world is to bowl down our soldierly letter I; to en-
croach on our identity, soil our niceness. To begin to think is the beginning of disgust
of the world.


As soon the engagement was published all the county said that there had not been a chance
for Laetitia, and Mrs. Mountstuart Jenkinson humbly remarked, in an attitude of penitence,
"I'm not a witch." Lady Busshe could claim to be one; she had foretold the event. Laetitia
was of the same opinion as the county. She had looked up, but not hopefully. She had only
looked up to the brightest, and, as he was the highest, how could she have hoped?
She was
the solitary companion of a sick father, whose inveterate prognostic of her, that she would
live to rule at Patterne Hall, tortured the poor girl in proportion as he seemed to derive
comfort from it.
The noise of the engagement merely silenced him; recluse invalids cling
obstinately to their ideas. He had observed Sir Willoughby in the society of his daughter,
when the young baronet revived to a sprightly boyishness immediately. Indeed, as big boy
and little girl, they had played together of old. Willoughby had been a handsome, fair boy.
The portrait of him at the Hall, in a hat, leaning on his pony, with crossed legs, and long
flaxen curls over his shoulders, was the image of her soul's most present angel; and, as a
man, he had--she did not suppose intentionally--subjected her nature to bow to him; so
submissive was she, that it was fuller happiness for her to think him right in all his actions
than to imagine the circumstances different.
This may appear to resemble the ecstasy of the
devotee of Juggernaut,
7 It is a form of the passion inspired by little princes, and we need
not marvel that a conservative sex should assist to keep them in their lofty places. What
were there otherwise to look up to?
We should have no dazzling beacon-lights if they were
levelled and treated as clod earth; and it is worth while for here and there a woman to be
burned, so long as women's general adoration of an ideal young man shall be preserved.
8 Pur-
ity is our demand of them. They may justly cry for attraction. They cannot have it brighter
than in the universal bearing of the eyes of their sisters upon a little prince, one who has
the ostensible virtues in his pay, and can practise them without injuring himself to make
himself unsightly. Let the races of men be by-and-by astonished at their Gods, if they
please. Meantime they had better continue to worship.


Laetitia did continue. She saw Miss Durham at Patterne on several occasions. She admired the
pair. She had a wish to witness the bridal ceremony. She was looking forward to the day with
that mixture of eagerness and withholding which we have as we draw nigh the disenchanting
termination of an enchanting romance, when Sir Willoughby met her on a Sunday morning, as
she crossed his park solitarily to church. They were within ten days of the appointed cere-
mony. He should have been away at Miss Durham's end of the county. He had, Laetitia knew,
ridden over to her the day before; but there he was; and very unwontedly, quite surprisingly,
he presented his arm to conduct Laetitia to the church-door, and talked and laughed in a way
that reminded her of a hunting gentleman she had seen once rising to his feet, staggering
from an ugly fall across hedge and fence into one of the lanes of her short winter walks.
"All's well, all sound, never better, only a scratch!" the gentleman had said, as he reeled
and pressed a bleeding head. Sir Willoughby chattered of his felicity in meeting her. "I am
really wonderfully lucky," he said, and he said that and other things over and over, incess-
antly talking, and telling an anecdote of county occurrences, and
laughing at it with a mouth
that would not widen.
He went on talking in the church porch, and murmuring softly some steps
up the aisle, passing the pews of Mrs. Mountstuart Jenkinson and Lady Busshe. Of course he
was entertaining, but what a strangeness it was to Laetitia! His face would have been half
under an antique bonnet. It came very close to hers, and the scrutiny he bent on her was most
solicitous.

After the service, he avoided the great ladies by sauntering up to within a yard or two of
where she sat; he craved her hand on his arm to lead her forth by the park entrance to the
church, all the while
bending to her, discoursing rapidly, appearing radiantly interested in
her quiet replies, with fits of intentness that stared itself out into dim abstraction.
She
hazarded the briefest replies for fear of not having understood him.


One question she asked: "Miss Durham is well, I trust?"

And he answered "Durham?" and said, "There is no Miss Durham to my knowledge."

The impression he left with her was, that he might yesterday during his ride have had an
accident and fallen on his head.

She would have asked that, if she had not known him for
so thorough an Englishman, in his
dislike to have it thought that accidents could hurt even when they happened to him
.

He called the next day to claim her for a walk. He assured her she had promised it, and he
appealed to her father, who could not testify to a promise he had not heard, but begged her
to leave him to have her walk. So once more she was in the park with Sir Willoughby, listen-
ing to his raptures over old days. A word of assent from her sufficed him. "I am now myself,"
was one of the remarks he repeated this day. She dilated on the beauty of the park and the
Hall to gratify him.


He did not speak of Miss Durham, and Laetitia became afraid to mention her name.

At their parting, Willoughby promised Laetitia that he would call on the morrow. He did not
come; and she could well excuse him, after her hearing of the tale.

It was a lamentable tale. He had ridden to Sir John Durham's mansion, a distance of thirty
miles, to hear, on his arrival, that Constantia had quitted her father's house two days pre-
viously on a visit to an aunt in London, and had just sent word that she was the wife of Cap-
tain Oxford, hussar, and messmate of one of her brothers. A letter from the bride awaited
Willoughby at the Hall. He had ridden back at night, not caring how he used his horse in or-
der to get swiftly home, so forgetful of himself was he under the terrible blow.
That was the
night of Saturday. On the day following, being Sunday, he met Laetitia in his park, led her
to church, led her out of it, and the day after that, previous to his disappearance for some
weeks, was walking with her in full view of the carriages along the road.

He had, indeed, you see, been very fortunately, if not considerately, liberated by Miss Durham.
He, as a man of honour, could not have taken the initiative, but the frenzy of a jealous girl
might urge her to such a course; and how little he suffered from it had been shown to the world.
Miss Durham, the story went, was his mother's choice for him against his heart's inclinations;
which had finally subdued Lady Patterne. Consequently, there was no longer an obstacle between
Sir Willoughby and Miss Dale. It was a pleasant and romantic story, and it put most people in
good humour with the county's favourite, as his choice of a portionless girl of no position
would not have done without the shock of astonishment at the conduct of Miss Durham, and the
desire to feel that so prevailing a gentleman was not in any degree pitiable. Constantia was
called "that mad thing"
. Laetitia broke forth in novel and abundant merits; and one of the
chief points of requisition in relation to Patterne--a Lady Willoughby who would entertain well
and animate the deadness of the Hall, became a certainty when her gentleness and liveliness and
exceeding cleverness were considered. She was often a visitor at the Hall by Lady Patterne's
express invitation, and sometimes on these occasions Willoughby was there too, superintending
the filling up of his laboratory, though he was not at home to the county; it was not expected
that he should be yet. He had taken heartily to the pursuit of science, and spoke of little else.
Science, he said, was in our days the sole object worth a devoted pursuit. But the sweeping re-
mark could hardly apply to Laetitia, of whom he was the courteous, quiet wooer you behold when
a man has broken loose from an unhappy tangle to return to the lady of his first and strongest
affections.


Some months of homely courtship ensued, and then, the decent interval prescribed by the situa-
tion having elapsed, Sir Willoughby Patterne left his native land on a tour of the globe.



CHAPTER 4. Laetitia Dale



That was another surprise to the county.

Let us not inquire into the feelings of patiently starving women; they must obtain some suste-
nance of their own, since, as you perceive, they live; evidently they are not in need of a great
amount of nourishment; and we may set them down for creatures with a rushlight
1 of animal fire
to warm them. They cannot have much vitality who are so little exclamatory. A corresponding sen-
timent of patient compassion, akin to scorn, is provoked by persons having the opportunity for
pathos, and declining to use it. The public bosom was open to Laetitia for several weeks, and
had she run to it to bewail herself she would have been cherished in thankfulness for a country
drama.
There would have been a party against her, cold people, critical of her pretensions to
rise from an unrecognized sphere to be mistress of Patterne Hall, but there would also have been
a party against Sir Willoughby, composed of the two or three revolutionists, tired of the yoke,
which are to be found in England when there is a stir;
a larger number of born sympathetics,
ever ready to yield the tear for the tear; and here and there a Samaritan soul prompt to succour
poor humanity in distress. The opportunity passed undramatized. Laetitia presented herself at
church with a face mildly devout, according to her custom, and she accepted invitations to the
Hall, she assisted at the reading of Willoughby's letters to his family, and fed on dry husks
of him wherein her name was not mentioned; never one note of the summoning call for pathos did
this young lady blow.

So, very soon the public bosom closed.
She had, under the fresh interpretation of affairs, too
small a spirit to be Lady Willoughby of Patterne; she could not have entertained becomingly;
he
must have seen that the girl was not the match for him in station, and off he went to conquer
the remainder of a troublesome first attachment, no longer extremely disturbing, to judge from
the tenour of his letters; really incomparable letters! Lady Busshe and Mrs. Mountstuart Jenkin-
son enjoyed a perusal of them. Sir Willoughby appeared as a splendid young representative island
lord in these letters to his family, despatched from the principal cities of the United States
of America. He would give them a sketch of "our democratic cousins", he said. Such cousins! They
might all have been in the Marines. He carried his English standard over that continent, and by
simply jotting down facts, he left an idea of the results of the measurement to his family and
friends at home. He was an adept in the irony of incongruously grouping.
The nature of the Equ-
ality under the stars and stripes was presented in this manner. Equality! Reflections came occa-
sionally: "These cousins of ours are highly amusing. I am among the descendants of the Roundheads.2
Now and then an allusion to old domestic differences, in perfect good temper. We go on in our way;
they theirs, in the apparent belief that Republicanism operates remarkable changes in human na-
ture. Vernon tries hard to think it does. The upper ten of our cousins are the Infernal of Paris.
3
The rest of them is Radical England, as far as I am acquainted with that section of my country."--
Where we compared, they were absurd; where we contrasted, they were monstrous. The contrast of
Vernon's letters with Willoughby's was just as extreme. You could hardly have taken them for rel-
atives travelling together, or Vernon Whitford for a born and bred Englishman. The same scenes
furnished by these two pens might have been sketched in different hemispheres. Vernon had no
irony. He had nothing of
Willoughby's epistolary creative power, which, causing his family and
friends to exclaim: "How like him that is!"
conjured them across the broad Atlantic to behold
and clap hands at his lordliness.


They saw him distinctly, as with the naked eye; a word, a turn of the pen, or a word unsaid,
offered the picture of him in America, Japan, China, Australia, nay, the continent of Europe,
holding an English review of his Maker's grotesques. Vernon seemed a sheepish fellow, without
stature abroad, glad of a compliment, grateful for a dinner, endeavouring sadly to digest all
he saw and heard. But one was a Patterne; the other a Whitford. One had genius; the other pot-
tered after him with the title of student. One was the English gentleman wherever he went; the
other was a new kind of thing, nondescript, produced in England of late, and not likely to come
to much good himself, or do much good to the country.


Vernon's dancing in America was capitally described by Willoughby. "Adieu to our cousins!" the
latter wrote on his voyage to Japan. "I may possibly have had some vogue in their ball-rooms, and
in showing them an English seat on horseback: I must resign myself if I have not been popular a-
mong them. I could not sing their national song-if a congery
4 of states be a nation-and I must
confess I listened with frigid politeness to their singing of it. A great people, no doubt. Adieu to
them. I have had to tear old Vernon away. He had serious thoughts of edith settling, means to co-
rrespond with some of them." On the whole, forgetting two or more "traits of insolence" on the
part of his hosts, which he cited, Willoughby escaped pretty comfortably. The President had been,
consciously or not, uncivil, but one knew his origin! Upon
these interjections, placable flicks of
the lionly tail addressed to Britannia the Ruler, who expected him in some mildish way to lash
terga cauda in retiring,
Sir Willoughby Patterne passed from a land of alien manners; and ever af-
ter he spoke of America respectfully and pensively, with a tail tucked in, as it were.
5 His travels
were profitable to himself. The fact is, that there are cousins who come to greatness and must
be pacified, or they will prove annoying. Heaven forefend a collision between cousins!6

Willoughby returned to his England after an absence of three years.7 On a fair April morning, the
last of the month, he drove along his park palings, and, by the luck of things, Laetitia was the
first of his friends whom he met. She was crossing from field to field with a band of school-child-
ren, gathering wild flowers for the morrow May-day. He sprang to the ground and seized her hand.
"Laetitia Dale!" he said.
He panted. "Your name is sweet English music! And you are well?" The an-
xious question permitted him to read deeply in her eyes. He found the man he sought there, squeezed
him passionately, and let her go,
saying: "I could not have prayed for a lovelier home-scene to wel
come me than you and these children flower-gathering. I don't believe in chance. It was decreed that
we should meet. Do not you think so?"


Laetitia breathed faintly of her gladness.

He begged her to distribute a gold coin among the little ones; asked for the names of some of them,
and repeated: "Mary, Susan, Charlotte--only the Christian names, pray!
8 Well, my dears, you will bring
your garlands to the Hall to-morrow morning; and mind, early! no slugabeds tomorrow; I suppose I am
browned, Laetitia?"
9 He smiled in apology for the foreign sun, and murmured with rapture: "The green
of this English country is unsurpassed. It is wonderful. Leave England and be baked, if you would ap-
preciate it. You can't, unless you taste exile as I have done--for how many years? How many?"

"Three," said Laetitia.

"Thirty!" said he. "It seems to me that length. At least, I am immensely older. But looking at you, I
could think it less than three. You have not changed. You are absolutely unchanged. I am bound to hope
so. I shall see you soon. I have much to talk of, much to tell you. I shall hasten to call on your fa-
ther. I have specially to speak with him. I--what happiness this is, Laetitia! But I must not forget I
have a mother. Adieu; for some hours--not for many!"

He pressed her hand again. He was gone.

She dismissed the children to their homes. Plucking primroses was hard labour now--a dusty business.
She could have wished that her planet had not descended to earth, his presence agitated her so; but
his enthusiastic patriotism was like a shower that, in the Spring season of the year, sweeps against
the hard-binding East and melts the air and brings out new colours, makes life flow;
and her thoughts
recurred in wonderment to the behaviour of Constantia Durham. That was Laetitia's manner of taking up
her weak-ness once more. She could almost have reviled the woman who had given this beneficent magic-
ian, this path-etic exile, of the aristocratic sunburned visage and deeply scrutinizing eyes, cause
for grief. How deeply his eyes could read!
The starveling of patience awoke to the idea of a feast.
The sense of hunger came with it, and hope came, and patience fled. She would have rejected hope to
keep patience nigh her; but surely it can not always be Winter! said her reasoning blood, and we must
excuse her as best we can if she was assured, by her restored warmth that Willoughby came in the or-
der of the revolving seasons, marking a long Winter past.
He had specially to speak with her father,
he had said. What could that mean? What, but--! She dared not phrase it or view it.

At their next meeting she was "Miss Dale".

A week later he was closeted with her father.

Mr. Dale, in the evening of that pregnant day, eulogized Sir Willoughby as a landlord. A new lease
of the cottage was to be granted him on the old terms, he said. Except that Sir Willoughby had con-
gratulated him in the possession of an excellent daughter, their interview was one of landlord and
tenant, it appeared; and Laetitia said, "So we shall not have to leave the cottage?" in a tone of
satisfaction, while
she quietly gave a wrench to the neck of the young hope in her breast. At night
her diary received the line: "This day I was a fool. To-morrow?"

To-morrow and many days afterwards there were dashes instead of words.


Patience travelled back to her sullenly. As we must have some kind of food, and she had nothing else,
she took to that and found it dryer than of yore. It is a composing but a lean dietary. The dead are
patient, and we get a certain likeness to them in feeding on it unintermittingly overlong. Her holl-
owed cheeks with the fallen leaf in them pleaded against herself to justify her idol for not looking
down on one like her.
She saw him when he was at the Hall. He did not notice any change. He was exce-
edingly gentle and courteous. More than once she discovered his eyes dwelling on her, and then he
looked hurriedly at his mother, and Laetitia had to shut her mind from thinking, lest thinking should
be a sin and hope a guilty spectre. But had his mother objected to her? She could not avoid asking
herself. His tour of the globe had been undertaken at his mother's desire; she was an ambitious lady,
in failing health; and she wished to have him living with her at Patterne, yet seemed to agree that
he did wisely to reide in London
.

One day Sir Willoughby, in the quiet manner which was his humour, informed her that he had become a
country gentleman; he had abandoned London, he loathed it as the burial-place of the individual man.

He intended to sit down on his estates and have his cousin Vernon Whitford to assist him in managing
them, he said; and very amusing was his description of his cousin's shifts to live by literature,
and add enough to a beggarly income to get his usual two months of the year in the Alps. Previous to
his great tour, Willoughby had spoken of Vernon's judgement with derision; nor was it entirely un-
known that Vernon had offended his family pride by some extravagant act. But after their return he
acknowledged Vernon's talents, and seemed unable to do without him.

The new arrangement gave Laetitia a companion for her walks.
Pedestrianism was a sour business to
Willoughby
, whose exclamation of the word indicated a willingness for any amount of exercise on horse-
back; but she had no horse,
and so, while he hunted, Laetitia and Vernon walked, and the neighbour-
hood speculated on the circumstances, until the ladies Eleanor and Isabel Patterne engaged her more
frequently for carriage exercise, and Sir Willoughby was observed riding beside them.

A real and sunny pleasure befell Laetitia in the establishment of young Crossjay Patterne under her
roof; the son of the lieutenant, now captain, of Marines; a boy of twelve with the sprights of twelve
boys in him, for whose board and lodgement Vernon provided by arrangement with her father.
10 Vernon
was one of your men that have no occupation for their money, no bills to pay for repair of their property,
and are insane to spend. He had heard of Captain Patterne's large family, and proposed to have his el-
dest boy at the Hall, to teach him; but
Willoughby declined to house the son of such a father, predict-
ing that the boy's hair would be red, his skin eruptive, and his practices detestable. So Vernon, hav-
ing obtained Mr. Dale's consent to accommodate this youth, stalked off to Devonport, and brought back
a rosy-cheeked, round-bodied rogue of a boy, who fell upon meats and puddings, and defeated them, with
a captivating simplicity in his confession that he had never had enough to eat in his life.
He had gone
through a training for a plentiful table. At first, after a number of helps, young Crossjay would sit
and sigh heavily, in contemplation of the unfinished dish. Subsequently, he told his host and hostess
that he had two sisters above his own age, and three brothers and two sisters younger than he: "All
hungry!" said the boy.


His pathos was most comical. It was a good month before he could see pudding taken away from table
without a sigh of regret that he could not finish it as deputy for the Devonport household.
11 The pranks
of the little fellow, and his revel in a country life, and muddy wildness in it, amused Laetitia from morn-
ing to night.
She, when she had caught him, taught him in the morning; Vernon, favoured by the chase,
in the afternoon. Young Crossjay would have enlivened any household.
He was not only indolent, he was
opposed to the acquisition of knowledge through the medium of books, and would say: "But I don't want
to!" in a tone to make a logician thoughtful. Nature was very strong in him. He had, on each return
of the hour for instruction, to be plucked out of the earth, rank of the soil, like a root, for the
exercise of his big round headpiece on those tyrannous puzzles.
But the habits of birds, and the place
for their eggs, and the management of rabbits, and the tickling of fish,
12 and poaching joys with com-
bative boys of the district, and how to wheedle a cook for a luncheon for a whole day in the rain, he
soon knew of his great nature.
His passion for our naval service was a means of screwing his attention
to lessons after he had begun to understand that the desert had to be traversed to attain midshipman's
rank. He boasted ardently of his fighting father, and, chancing to be near the Hall as he was talking
to Vernon and Laetitia of his father, he propounded a question close to his heart, and he put it in
these words, following: "My father's the one to lead an army!" when he paused. "I say, Mr. Whitford,
Sir Willoughby's kind to me, and gives me crown-pieces, why wouldn't he see my father, and my father
came here ten miles in the rain to see him, and had to walk ten miles back, and sleep at an inn?"

The only answer to be given was, that Sir Willoughby could not have been at home. "Oh! my father saw
him, and Sir Willoughby said he was not at home," the boy replied, producing an odd ring in the ear by
his repetition of "not at home" in the same voice as the apology, plainly innocent of malice.
Vernon
told Laetitia, however, that the boy never asked an explanation of Sir Willoughby.

Unlike the horse of the adage, it was easier to compel young Crossjay to drink of the waters of in-
struction than to get him to the brink. His heart was not so antagonistic as his nature, and by de-
grees, owing to a proper mixture of discipline and cajolery, he imbibed. He was whistling at the cook's
windows after a day of wick-ed truancy, on an April night, and reported adventures over the supper sup-
plied to him. Laetitia entered the kitchen with a reproving forefinger. He jumped to kiss her,
and went
on chattering of a place fifteen miles distant, where he had seen Sir Willoughby riding with a young
lady. The impossibility that the boy should have got so far on foot made Laetitia doubtful of his ver-
acity, until she heard that a gentleman had taken him up on the road in a gig, and had driven him to a
farm to show him strings of birds' eggs and stuffed birds of every English kind, kingfishers, yaffles,
black woodpeckers, goat-sucker owls, more mouth than head, with dusty, dark-spotted wings, like moths;
all very circumstantial. Still, in spite of his tea at the farm, and ride back by rail at the gentle-
man's expense, the tale seemed fictitious to Laetitia until Crossjay related how that he had stood to
salute on the road to the railway, and taken off his cap to Sir Willoughby, and Sir Willoughby had
passed him, not noticing him, though the young lady did, and looked back and nodded. The hue of truth
was in that picture.


Strange eclipse, when the hue of truth comes shadowing over our bright ideal planet. It will not seem
the planet's fault, but truth's. Reality is the offender; delusion our treasure that we are robbed of.
Then begins with us the term of wilful delusion, and its necessary accompaniment of the disgust of re-
ality; exhausting the heart much more than patient endurance of starvation.


Hints were dropping about the neighbourhood; the hedgeways twittered, the tree-tops cawed. Mrs. Mount-
stuart Jenkinson was loud on the subject: "Patterne is to have a mistress at last, you say? But there
never was a doubt of his marrying--he must marry; and, so long as he does not marry a foreign woman, we
have no cause to complain. He met her at Cherriton. Both were struck at the same moment. Her father is,
I hear, some sort of learned man; money; no land. No house either, I believe. People who spend half
their time on the Continent. They are now for a year at Upton Park. The very girl to settle down and
entertain when she does think of settling. Eighteen, perfect manners; you need not ask if a beauty.
Sir Willoughby will have his dues. We must teach her to make amends to him?but don't listen to Lady
Busshe! He was too young at twenty-three or twenty-four. No young man is ever jilted; he is allowed to
escape. A young man married is a fire-eater bound over to keep the peace; if he keeps it he worries it.
At thirty-one or thirty-two he is ripe for his command, because he knows how to bend. And Sir Willough-
by is a splendid creature, only wanting a wife to complete him. For a man like that to go on running
about would never do. Soberly?no! It would soon be getting ridiculous. He has been no worse than other
men, probably better--infinitely more excusable; but now we have him, and it was time we should. I shall
see her and study her, sharply, you may be sure; though I fancy I can rely on his judgement."


In confirmation of the swelling buzz, the Rev. Dr. Middleton and his daughter paid a flying visit to
the Hall, where they were seen only by the members of the Patterne family. Young Crossjay had a short
conversation with Miss Middleton, and ran to the cottage full of her--she loved the navy and had a mer-
ry face. She had a smile of very pleasant humour according to Vernon. The young lady was outlined to
Laetitia as tall, elegant, lively; and painted as carrying youth like a flag. With her smile of "very
pleasant humour", she could not but be winning.

Vernon spoke more of her father, a scholar of high repute; happily, a scholar of an independent for-
tune. His maturer recollection of Miss Middleton grew poetic, or he described her in an image to suit
a poetic end: "She gives you an idea of the Mountain Echo.
13 Doctor Middleton has one of the grandest
heads in England."

"What is her Christian name?" said Laetitia.

He thought her Christian name was Clara.

Laetitia went to bed and walked through the day conceiving the Mountain Echo the swift, wild spirit,
Clara by name, sent fleeting on a far half circle by the voice it is roused to subserve; sweeter than
beautiful, high above drawing-room beauties as the colours of the sky; and if, at the same time, el-
egant and of loveable smiling, could a man resist her? To inspire the title of Mountain Echo in any
mind, a young lady must be singularly spiritualized.
Her father doated on her, Vernon said. Who would
not? It seemed an additional cruelty that the grace of a poetical attractiveness should be round her,
for this was robbing Laetitia of some of her own little fortune, mystical though that might be. But
a man like Sir Willoughby had claims on poetry, possessing as he did every manly grace; and to think
that Miss Middleton had won him by virtue of something native to her likewise, though mystically,
touched Laetitia with a faint sense of relationship to the chosen girl.
"What is in me, he sees on
her." It decked her pride to think so, as a wreath on the gravestone. She encouraged her imagina-
tion to brood over Clara, and invested her designedly with romantic charms, in spite of pain; the
ascetic zealot hugs his share of Heaven--most bitter, most blessed?in his hair-shirt and scourge,
and Laetitia's happiness was to glorify Clara.
Through that chosen rival, through her comprehen-
sion of the spirit of Sir Willoughby's choice of one such as Clara, she was linked to him yet.


Her mood of ecstatic fidelity was a dangerous exaltation; one that in a desert will distort the brain,
and in the world where the idol dwells will put him, should he come nigh, to its own furnace-test,
and get a clear brain out of a burnt heart.
She was frequently at the Hall, helping to nurse Lady
Patterne. Sir Willoughby had hitherto treated her as a dear insignificant friend, to whom it was un-
necessary that he should mention the object of his rides to Upton Park.

He had, however, in the contemplation of what he was gaining, fallen into anxiety about what he might
be losing. She belonged to his brilliant youth; her devotion was the bride of his youth; he was a man
who lived backward almost as intensely as in the present; and, notwithstanding Laetitia's praiseworthy
zeal in attending on his mother, he suspected some unfaithfulness: hardly without cause: she had not
looked paler of late; her eyes had not reproached him;
the secret of the old days between them had been
as little concealed as it was exposed. She might have buried it, after the way of woman, whose bosoms
can be tombs, if we and the world allow them to be; absolutely sepulchres, where you lie dead, ghastly.
Even if not dead and horrible to think of, you may be lying cold, somewhere in a corner. Even if em-
balmed, you may not be much visited. And how is the world to know you are embalmed? You are no better
than a rotting wretch to the world that does not have peeps of you in the woman's breast, and see
lights burning and an occasional exhibition of the services of worship. There are women--tell us not
of her of Ephesus!--that have embalmed you, and have quitted the world to keep the tapers alight, and
a stranger comes, and they, who have your image before them, will suddenly blow out the vestal flames
and treat you as dust to fatten the garden of their bosoms for a fresh flower of love.
14 Sir Willoughby
knew it; he had experience of it in the form of the stranger; and he knew the stranger's feelings to-
ward his predecessor and the lady.


He waylaid Laetitia, to talk of himself and his plans: the project of a run to Italy. Enviable? Yes,
but in England you live the higher moral life. Italy boasts of sensual beauty; the spiritual is yours.
"I know Italy well; I have often wished to act as a cicerone
15 to you there. As it is, I suppose I
shall be with those who know the land as well as I do, and will not be particularly enthusiastic:--
if
you are what you were?" He was guilty of this perplexing twist from one person to another in a sen-
tence more than once.
While he talked exclusively of himself it seemed to her a condescension. In time
he talked principally of her, beginning with her admirable care of his mother; and he wished to intr-
oduce "a Miss Middleton" to her; he wanted her opinion of Miss Middleton; he relied on her intuition
of character, had never known it err.

"If I supposed it could err, Miss Dale, I should not be so certain of myself. I am bound up in my good
opinion of you, you see; and you must continue the same, or where shall I be?" Thus he was led to dwell
upon friendship, and the charm of the friendship of men and women, "Platonism", as it was called. "I
have laughed at it in the world, but not in the depth of my heart.
The world's platonic attachments are
laughable enough. You have taught me that the ideal of friendship is possible--when we find two who are
capable of a disinterested esteem. The rest of life is duty; duty to parents, duty to country. But fri-
endship is the holiday of those who can be friends.
Wives are plentiful, friends are rare. I know how
rare!"


Laetitia swallowed her thoughts as they sprang up. Why was he torturing her?--to give himself a holiday?
She could bear to lose him--she was used to it--and bear his indifference, but not that he should disfi-
gure himself; it made her poor.
It was as if he required an oath of her when he said: "Italy! But I
shall never see a day in Italy to compare with the day of my return to England, or know a pleasure so
exquisite as your welcome of me. Will you be true to that? May I look forward to just another such mee-
ting?"


He pressed her for an answer. She gave the best she could. He was dissatisfied, and to her hearing it
was hardly in the tone of manliness that he entreated her to reassure him; he womanized his language.

She had to say: "I am afraid I can not undertake to make it an appointment, Sir Willoughby," before he
recovered his alertness, which he did, for he was anything but obtuse, with the reply, "You would keep
it if you promised, and freeze at your post.
So, as accidents happen, we must leave it to fate. The
will's the thing.
You know my detestation of changes. At least I have you for my tenant, and wherever
I am, I see your light at the end of my park."

"Neither my father nor I would willingly quit Ivy Cottage," said Laetitia.

"So far, then," he murmured. "You will give me a long notice, and it must be with my consent if you
think of quitting?"

"I could almost engage to do that," she said.

"You love the place?"

"Yes; I am the most contented of cottagers."


"I believe, Miss Dale, it would be well for my happiness were I a cottager."

"That is the dream of the palace. But to be one, and not to wish to be other, is quiet sleep in compa-
rison."

"You paint a cottage in colours that tempt one to run from big houses and households."

"You would run back to them faster, Sir Willoughby."

"You may know me," said he, bowing and passing on contentedly. He stopped. "But I am not ambitious."

"Perhaps you are too proud for ambition, Sir Willoughby."


"You hit me to the life!"

He passed on regretfully. Clara Middleton did not study and know him like Laetitia Dale.

Laetitia was left to think it pleased him to play at cat and mouse. She had not "hit him to the life",
or she would have marvelled in acknowledging how sincere he was.


At her next sitting by the bedside of Lady Patterne she received a certain measure of insight that might
have helped her to fathom him, if only she could have kept her feelings down.

The old lady was affectionately confidential in talking of her one subject, her son. "And here is anoth-
er dashing girl, my dear; she has money and health and beauty; and so has he; and it appears a fortunate
union; I hope and pray it may be;
but we begin to read the world when our eyes grow dim, because we read
the plain lines
, and I ask myself whether money and health and beauty on both sides have not been the mu-
tual attraction.
We tried it before; and that girl Durham was honest, whatever we may call her. I should
have desired an appreciative thoughtful partner for him, a woman of mind, with another sort of wealth and
beauty. She was honest, she ran away in time; there was a worse thing possible than that. And now we have
the same chapter, and the same kind of person, who may not be quite as honest; and I shall not see the
end of it. Promise me you will always be good to him; be my son's friend; his Egeria,
16 he names you. Be
what you were to him when that girl broke his heart, and no one, not even his mother, was allowed to see
that he suffered anything. Comfort him in his sensitiveness. Willoughby has the most entire faith in you.
Were that destroyed--I shudder! You are, he says, and he has often said, his image of the
constant woman."

Laetitia's hearing took in no more. She repeated to herself for days:
"His image of the constant woman!"
Now, when he was a second time forsaking her, his praise of her constancy wore the painful ludicrousness
of the look of a whimper on the face.




CHAPTER 5. Clara Middleton



The great meeting of Sir Willoughby Patterne and Miss Middleton had taken place at Cherriton Grange, the
seat of a county grandee, where
this young lady of eighteen was first seen rising above the horizon. She
had money and health and beauty, the triune of perfect starriness, which makes all men astronomers.
He
looked on her, expecting her to look at him. But as soon as he looked he found that he must be in motion
to win a look in return. He was one of a pack; many were ahead of him, the whole of them were eager. He
had to debate within himself
how best to communicate to her that he was Willoughby Patterne, before her
gloves were too much soiled to flatter his niceness, for here and there, all around, she was yielding her
hand to partners--obscurant males whose touch leaves a stain. Far too generally gracious was Her Starri-
ness to please him.
The effect of it, nevertheless, was to hurry him with all his might into the heat of
the chase, while yet he knew no more of her than that he was competing for a prize, and Willoughby Pat-
terne was only one of dozens to the young lady.


A deeper student of Science than his rivals, he appreciated Nature's compliment in the fair ones choice
of you. We now scientifically know
1 that in this department of the universal struggle, success is awarded
to the bettermost.
You spread a handsomer tail than your fellows, you dress a finer top-knot, you pipe a
newer note, have a longer stride; she reviews you in competition, and selects you. The superlative is mag-
netic to her.
She may be looking elsewhere, and you will see?the superlative will simply have to beckon,
away she glides. She cannot help herself; it is her nature, and her nature is the guarantee for the noblest
races of men to come of her. In complimenting you, she is a promise of superior offspring.
Science thus--
or it is better to say--an acquaintance with science facilitates the cultivation of aristocracy. Consequently
a successful pursuit and a wresting of her from a body of competitors, tells you that you are the best man.
What is more, it tells the world so.

Willoughby aired his amiable superlatives in the eye of Miss Middleton; he had a leg.
He was the heir of
successful competitors. He had a style, a tone, an artist tailor, an authority of manner; he had in the
hopeful ardour of the chase among a multitude a freshness that gave him advantage; and together with his
undeviating energy when there was a prize to be won and possessed, these were scarce resistible. He spared
no pains, for
he was adust and athirst for the winning-post. He courted her father, aware that men like-
wise, and parents pre-eminently, have their preference for the larger offer, the deeper pocket, the broader
lands, the respectfuller consideration. Men, after their fashion, as well as women, distinguish the better-
most, and aid him to succeed,
as Dr. Middleton certainly did in the crisis of the memorable question pro-
posed to his daughter within a month of Willoughby's reception at Upton Park. The young lady was aston-
ished at his whirlwind wooing of her, and bent to it like a sapling. She begged for time; Willoughby could
barely wait. She unhesitatingly owned that she liked no one better, and he consented. A calm examination
of his position told him that it was unfair so long as he stood engaged, and she did not. She pleaded a de-
sire to see a little of the world before she plighted herself. She alarmed him; he assumed the amazing god
of love under the subtlest guise of the divinity. Willingly would he obey her behests, resignedly languish,
were it not for his mother's desire to see the future lady of Patterne established there before she died.
Love shone cunningly through the mask of filial duty, but the plea of urgency was reasonable. Dr. Middle-
ton thought it reasonable, supposing his daughter to have an inclination. She had no disinclination, though
she had a maidenly desire to see a little of the world--grace for one year, she said. Willoughby reduced the
year to six months, and granted that term, for which, in gratitude, she submitted to stand engaged; and that
was no light whispering of a word. She was implored to enter the state of captivity by the pronunciation of
vows--a private but a binding ceremonial. She had health and beauty, and money to gild these gifts; not
that he stipulated for money with his bride, but it adds a lustre to dazzle the world; and, moreover,
the
pack of rival pursuers hung close behind, yelping and raising their dolorous throats to the moon. Captive
she must be.


He made her engagement no light whispering matter. It was a solemn plighting of a troth. Why not? Having
said, I am yours, she could say, I am wholly yours, I am yours forever, I swear it, I will never swerve
from it, I am your wife in heart, yours utterly; our engagement is written above. To this she considerat-
ely appended, "as far as I am concerned"; a piece of somewhat chilling generosity,
and he forced her to
pass him through love's catechism in turn, and came out with fervent answers that bound him to her too
indissolubly to let her doubt of her being loved. And I am loved! she exclaimed to her heart's echoes,
in simple faith and wonderment. Hardly had she begun to think of love ere the apparition arose in her
path.
She had not thought of love with any warmth, and here it was. She had only dreamed of love as one
of the distant blessings of the mighty world, lying somewhere in the world's forests, across wild seas,
veiled, encompassed with beautiful perils, a throbbing secrecy, but too remote to quicken her bosom's
throbs. Her chief idea of it was, the enrichment of the world by love.


Thus did Miss Middleton acquiesce in the principle of selection.

And then did the best man of a host blow his triumphant horn, and loudly.

He looked the fittest; he justified the dictum of Science. The survival of the Patternes was assured. "I
would," he said to his admirer, Mrs. Mountstuart Jenkinson, "have bargained for health above everything,
but she has everything besides--lineage, beauty, breeding: is what they call an heiress, and is the most
accomplished of her sex."
With a delicate art he conveyed to the lady's understanding that Miss Middleton
had been snatched from a crowd, without a breath of the crowd having offended his niceness. He did it
through sarcasm at your modern young women, who run about the world nibbling and nibbled at, until they
know one sex as well as the other, and are not a whit less cognizant of the market than men; pure, pos-
sibly; it is not so easy to say innocent; decidedly not our feminine ideal. Miss Middleton was different:
she was the true ideal, fresh-gathered morning fruit in a basket, warranted by her bloom.


Women do not defend their younger sisters for doing what they perhaps have done--lifting a veil to be
seen, and peeping at a world where innocence is as poor a guarantee as a babe's caul
2 against shipwreck.
Women of the world never think of attacking the sensual stipulation for perfect bloom, silver purity, which
is redolent of the Oriental origin of the love-passion of their lords.
Mrs. Mountstuart congratulated Sir
Willoughby on the prize he had won in the fair western-eastern.
3

"Let me see her," she said; and Miss Middleton was introduced and critically observed.

She had the mouth that smiles in repose. The lips met full on the centre of the bow and thinned along to
a lifting dimple; the eye-lids also lifted slightly at the outer corners, and seemed, like the lip into
the limpid cheek, quickening up the temples, as with a run of light, or the ascension indicated off a
shoot of colour. Her features were playfellows of one another, none of them pretending to rigid correct-
ness, nor the nose to the ordinary dignity of governess among merry girls, despite which the nose was of
a fair design, not acutely interrogative or inviting to gambols. Aspens imaged in water, waiting for the
breeze, would offer a susceptible lover some suggestion of her face: a pure, smooth-white face, tenderly
flushed in the cheeks, where the gentle dints, were faintly intermelting even during quietness. Her eyes
were brown, set well between mild lids, often shadowed, not unwakeful.
Her hair of lighter brown, swell-
ing above her temples on the sweep to the knot, imposed the triangle of the fabulous wild woodland visage
from brow to mouth and chin, evidently in agreement with her taste; and the triangle suited her; but her
face was not significant of a tameless wildness or of weakness; her equable shut mouth threw its long
curve to guard the small round chin from that effect; her eyes wavered only in humour, they were steady
when thoughtfulness was awakened; and at such seasons the build of her winter-beechwood hair lost the
touch of nymphlike and whimsical, and strangely, by mere outline, added to her appearance of studious
concentration. Observe the hawk on stretched wings over the prey he spies, for an idea of this change
in the look of a young lady whom Vernon Whitford could liken to the Mountain Echo, and Mrs. Mountstuart
Jenkinson pronounced to be
"a dainty rogue in porcelain"4.

Vernon's fancy of her must have sprung from her prompt and most musical responsiveness. He preferred the
society of her learned father to that of a girl under twenty engaged to his cousin, but
the charm of her
ready tongue and her voice was to his intelligent understanding wit, natural wit, crystal wit, as oppo-
sed to the paste-sparkle
5 of the wit of the town. In his encomiums he did not quote Miss Middleton's wit;
nevertheless, he ventured to speak of it to Mrs. Mountstuart, causing that lady to say: "Ah, well, I have
not noticed the wit. You may have the art of drawing it out."

No one had noticed the wit.
The corrupted hearing of people required a collision of sounds, Vernon suppo-
sed. For his part, to prove their excellence, he recollected a great many of Miss Middleton's remarks;
they came flying to him; and so long as he forbore to speak them aloud, they had a curious wealth of mean-
ing. It could not be all her manner, however much his own manner might spoil them. It might be, to a cer-
tain degree,
her quickness at catching the hue and shade of evanescent conversation. Possibly by remembe-
ring the whole of a conversation wherein she had her place, the wit was to be tested;
only how could any
one retain the heavy portion? As there was no use in being argumentative on a subject affording him per-
sonally, and apparently solitarily, refreshment and enjoyment, Vernon resolved to keep it to himself. The
eulogies of her beauty, a possession in which he did not consider her so very conspicuous, irritated him
in consequence. To flatter Sir Willoughby, it was the fashion to exalt her as one of the types of beauty;
the one providentially selected to set off his masculine type. She was compared to those delicate flowers,
the ladies of the Court of China, on rice-paper.
6 A little French dressing would make her at home on the
sward by the fountain among the lutes and whispers of the bewitching silken shepherdesses who live though
they never were. Lady Busshe was reminded of the favourite lineaments of the women of Leonardo, the angels
of Luini.
7 Lady Culmer had seen crayon sketches of demoiselles of the French aristocracy resembling her.
Some one mentioned an antique statue of a figure breathing into a flute: and the mouth at the flutestop
might have a distant semblance of the bend of her mouth, but this comparison was repelled as grotesque.


For once Mrs. Mountstuart Jenkinson was unsuccessful.

Her "dainty rogue in porcelain" displeased Sir Willoughby. "Why rogue?" he said. The lady's fame for hit-
ting the mark fretted him,
and the grace of his bride's fine bearing stood to support him in his objection.
Clara was young, healthy, handsome; she was therefore fitted to be his wife, the mother of his children,
his companion picture. Certainly they looked well side by side. In walking with her, in drooping to her,
the whole man was made conscious of the female image of himself by her exquisite unlikeness. She complet-
ed him, added the softer lines wanting to his portrait before the world.
He had wooed her rageingly; he
courted her becomingly; with the manly self-possession enlivened by watchful tact which is pleasing to
girls.
He never seemed to undervalue himself in valuing her: a secret priceless in the courtship of
young women that have heads; the lover doubles their sense of personal worth through not forfeiting his
own.
Those were proud and happy days when he rode Black Norman over to Upton Park, and his lady looked
forth for him and knew him coming by the faster beating of her heart.


Her mind, too, was receptive. She took impressions of his characteristics, and supplied him a feast. She
remembered his chance phrases; noted his ways, his peculiarities,
as no one of her sex had done. He than-
ked his cousin Vernon for saying she had wit.
She had it, and of so high a flavour that the more he
thought of the epigram launched at her the more he grew displeased. With the wit to understand him, and
the heart to worship, she had a dignity rarely seen in young ladies.

"Why rogue?" he insisted with Mrs. Mountstuart.

"I said--in porcelain," she replied.

"Rogue perplexes me."

"Porcelain explains it."

"She has the keenest sense of honour."

"I am sure she is a paragon of rectitude."

"She has a beautiful bearing."

"The carriage of a young princess!"

"I find her perfect."

"And still she may be a dainty rogue in porcelain."


"Are you judging by the mind or the person, ma'am?"

"Both."

"And which is which?"

"There's no distinction."


"Rogue and mistress of Patterne do not go together."

"Why not? She will be a novelty to our neighbourhood and an animation of the Hall."

"To be frank, rogue does not rightly match with me."

"Take her for a supplement."

"You like her?"

"In love with her! I can imagine life-long amusement in her company. Attend to my advice: prize the
porcelain and play with the rogue."


Sir Willoughby nodded, unilluminated. There was nothing of rogue in himself, so there could be nothing
of it in his bride. Elfishness, tricksiness, freakishness, were antipathetic to his nature; and he argued
that it was impossible he should have chosen for his complement a person deserving the title. It would
not have been sanctioned by his guardian genius. His closer acquaintance with Miss Middleton squared with
his first impressions;
you know that this is convincing; the common jury justifies the presentation of
the case to them by the grand jury; and his original conclusion that she was essentially feminine, in o-
ther words, a parasite and a chalice
,8 Clara's conduct confirmed from day to day. He began to instruct her
in the knowledge of himself without reserve, and she, as she grew less timid with him, became more reflec-
tive.

"I judge by character," he said to Mrs. Mountstuart.

"If you have caught the character of a girl," said she.

"I think I am not far off it."

"So it was thought by the man who dived for the moon in a well."


"How women despise their sex!"

"Not a bit. She has no character yet. You are forming it, and pray be advised and be merry; the solid is
your safest guide; physiognomy and manners will give you more of a girl's character than all the divings
you can do. She is a charming young woman, only she is one of that sort."

"Of what sort?" Sir Willoughby asked, impatiently.

"Rogues in porcelain."

"I am persuaded I shall never comprehend it."

"I cannot help you one bit further."

"The word rogue!"

"It was dainty rogue."

"Brittle, would you say?"


"I am quite unable to say."

"An innocent naughtiness?"

"Prettily moulded in a delicate substance."

"You are thinking of some piece of Dresden you suppose her to resemble."

"I dare say."

"Artificial?"

"You would not have her natural?"

"I am heartily satisfied with her from head to foot, my dear Mrs. Mountstuart."

"Nothing could be better. And sometimes she will lead, and generally you will lead, and everything will
go well, my dear Sir Willoughby."


Like all rapid phrasers, Mrs. Mountstuart detested the analysis of her sentence. It had an outline in
vagueness, and was flung out to be apprehended, not dissected.
Her directions for the reading of Miss Mid-
dleton's character were the same that she practised in reading Sir Willoughby's, whose physiognomy and
manners bespoke him what
she presumed him to be, a splendidly proud gentleman, with good reason.

Mrs. Mountstuart's advice was wiser than her procedure, for she stopped short where he declined to begin.

He dived below the surface without studying that index-page. He had won Miss Middleton's hand; he believ-
ed he had captured her heart; but he was not so certain of his possession of her soul, and he went after
it. Our enamoured gentleman had therefore no tally of Nature's writing above to set beside his discoveries
in the deeps. Now it is a dangerous accompaniment of this habit of driving, that where we do not light on
the discoveries we anticipate, we fall to work sowing and planting;
which becomes a disturbance of the gen-
tle bosom.
Miss Middleton's features were legible as to the mainspring of her character. He could have seen
that she had a spirit with a natural love of liberty, and required the next thing to liberty, spaciousness,
if she was to own allegiance.
Those features, unhappily, instead of serving for an introduction to the wit-
hin, were treated as the mirror of himself. They were indeed of an amiable sweetness to tempt an accepted
lover to angle for the first person in the second.
9 But he had made the discovery that their minds differed
on one or two points, and
a difference of view in his bride was obnoxious to his repose. He struck at it
recurringly to show her error under various aspects. He desired to shape her character to the feminine of
his own, and betrayed the surprise of a slight disappointment at her advocacy of her ideas. She said imme-
diately: "It is not too late, Willoughby," and wounded him, for he wanted her simply to be material in his
hands for him to mould her; he had no other thought. He lectured her on the theme of the infinity of love.
How was it not too late? They were plighted; they were one eternally; they could not be parted. She listen-
ed gravely, conceiving the infinity as a narrow dwelling where a voice droned and ceased not.
However, she
listened. She became an attentive listener.



CHAPTER 6. His Courtship



The world was the principal topic of dissension between these lovers. His opinion of the world
affected her like a creature threatened with a deprivation of air. He explained to his darling
that lovers of necessity do loathe the world. They live in the world, they accept its benefits,
and assist it as well as they can. In their hearts they must despise it, shut it out, that
their love for one another may pour in a clear channel, and with all the force they have. They
cannot enjoy the sense of security for their love unless they fence away the world. It is, you
will allow, gross; it is a beast.
1 Formally we thank it for the good we get of it; only we two
have an inner temple where the worship we conduct is actually, if you would but see it, an ex-
communication of the world. We abhor that beast to adore that divinity. This gives us our one-
ness, our isolation, our happiness. This is to love with the soul.
Do you see, darling?

She shook her head; she could not see it. She would admit none of the notorious errors, of the
world; its backbiting, selfishness, coarseness, intrusiveness, infectiousness. She was young.
She might, Willoughby thought, have let herself be led; she was not docile. She must be up in
arms as a champion of the world; and one saw she was hugging her dream of a romantic world,
nothing else.
She spoilt the secret bower-song he delighted to tell over to her. And how,
Powers of Love! is love-making to be pursued if we may not kick the world out of our bower
and wash our hands of it? Love that does not spurn the world when lovers curtain themselves
is a love--is it not so?--that seems to the unwhipped, scoffing world to go slinking into
basiation's obscurity,
2 instead of on a glorious march behind the screen. Our hero had a
strong sentiment as to the policy of scorning the world for the sake of defending his per-
sonal pride and (to his honour, be it said) his lady's delicacy.


The act of seeming put them both above the world, said retro Sathanas!3 So much, as a piece
of tactics: he was highly civilized: in the second instance,
he knew it to be the world which
must furnish the dry sticks for the bonfire of a woman's worship. He knew, too, that he was
prescribing poetry to his betrothed, practicable poetry. She had a liking for poetry, and
sometimes quoted the stuff in defiance of his pursed mouth and pained murmur: "I am no po-
et;" but his poetry of the enclosed and fortified bower, without nonsensical rhymes to catch
the ears of women, appeared incomprehensible to her, if not adverse. She would not burn the
world for him; she would not, though a purer poetry is little imaginable, reduce herself to
ashes, or incense, or essence, in honour of him, and so, by love's transmutation, literally
be the man she was to marry. She preferred to be herself, with the egoism of women!
She
said it: she said: "I must be myself to be of any value to you, Willoughby." He was inde-
fatigable in his lectures on the aesthetics of love.
Frequently, for an indemnification to
her (he had no desire that she should be a loser by ceasing to admire the world), he dwelt
on his own youthful ideas; and his original fancies about the world were presented to her
as a substitute for the theme.

Miss Middleton bore it well, for she was sure that he meant well. Bearing so well what was
distasteful to her, she became less well able to bear what she had merely noted in observa-
tion before; his view of scholarship; his manner toward Mr. Vernon Whitford, of whom her
father spoke warmly;
the rumour concerning his treatment of a Miss Dale. And the country
tale of Constantia Durham sang itself to her in a new key. He had no contempt for the
world's praises. Mr. Whitford wrote the letters to the county paper which gained him ap-
plause at various great houses, and he accepted it, and betrayed a tingling fright lest
he should be the victim of a sneer of the world he contemned. Recollecting his remarks,
her mind was afflicted by the "something illogical" in him that we readily discover when
our natures are no longer running free, and then at once we yearn for a disputation. She
resolved that she would one day, one distant day, provoke it--upon what? The special point
eluded her.
The world is too huge a client, and too pervious,4 too spotty, for a girl to
defend against a man.
That "something illogical" had stirred her feelings more than her
intellect to revolt. She could not constitute herself the advocate of Mr. Whitford. Still
she marked the disputation for an event to come.


Meditating on it, she fell to picturing Sir Willoughby's face at the first accents of his
bride's decided disagreement with him. The picture once conjured up would not be laid. He
was handsome; so correctly handsome, that a slight unfriendly touch precipitated him into
caricature. His habitual air of happy pride, of indignant contentment rather, could easily
be overdone. Surprise, when he threw emphasis on it, stretched him with the tall eyebrows
of a mask--limitless under the spell of caricature; and in time, whenever she was not ple-
ased by her thoughts, she had that, and not his likeness, for the vision of him. And it
was unjust, contrary to her deeper feelings; she rebuked herself, and as much as her
naughty spirit permitted, she tried to look on him as the world did; an effort inducing
reflections upon the blessings of ignorance. She seemed to herself beset by a circle
of imps, hardly responsible for her thoughts.


He outshone Mr. Whitford in his behaviour to young Crossjay. She had seen him with the
boy, and
he was amused, indulgent, almost frolicsome, in contradistinction to Mr. Whit-
ford's tutorly sharpness. He had the English father's tone of a liberal allowance for
boys' tastes and pranks, and he ministered to the partiality of the genus for pocket-mo-
ney.
He did not play the schoolmaster, like bookworms who get poor little lads in their
grasp.

Mr. Whitford avoided her very much. He came to Upton Park on a visit to her father, and
she was not particularly sorry that she saw him only at table. He treated her by fits to
a level scrutiny of deep-set eyes unpleasantly penetrating. She had liked his eyes. They
became unbearable; they dwelt in the memory as if they had left a phosphorescent line.

She had been taken by playmate boys in her infancy to peep into hedge-leaves, where the
mother-bird brooded on the nest; and
the eyes of the bird in that marvellous dark thick-
set home, had sent her away with worlds of fancy. Mr. Whitford's gaze revived her susce-
ptibility, but not the old happy wondering.
She was glad of his absence, after a certain
hour that she passed with Willoughby, a wretched hour to remember.
Mr. Whitford had left,
and Willoughby came, bringing bad news of his mother's health. Lady Patterne was fast
failing. Her son spoke of the loss she would be to him; he spoke of the dreadfulness of
death. He alluded to his own death to come carelessly, with a philosophical air.

"All of us must go! our time is short."

"Very," she assented.


It sounded like want of feeling.

"If you lose me, Clara!"

"But you are strong, Willoughby."

"I may be cut off to-morrow."

"Do not talk in such a manner."

"It is as well that it should be faced."

"I cannot see what purpose it serves."

"Should you lose me, my love!"

"Willoughby!"

"Oh, the bitter pang of leaving you!"

"Dear Willoughby, you are distressed; your mother may recover; let us hope she will; I
will help to nurse her; I have offered, you know; I am ready, most anxious. I believe I
am a good nurse."

"It is this belief--that one does not die with death!"

"That is our comfort."

"When we love?"

"Does it not promise that we meet again?"

"To walk the world and see you perhaps--with another!"

"See me?--Where? Here?"

"Wedded . . . to another. You! my bride; whom I call mine; and you are! You would be still
--in that horror!
But all things are possible; women are women; they swim in infidelity,
from wave to wave! I know them."


"Willoughby, do not torment yourself and me, I beg you."

He meditated profoundly, and asked her: "Could you be such a saint among women?"

"I think I am a more than usually childish girl."

"Not to forget me?"

"Oh! no."

"Still to be mine?"

"I am yours."

"To plight yourself?"

"It is done."

"Be mine beyond death?"

"Married is married, I think."


"Clara! to dedicate your life to our love! Never one touch; not one whisper! not a thought,
not a dream! Could you--it agonizes me to imagine . . . be inviolate? mine above?--mine
before all men, though I am gone:--true to my dust?
Tell me. Give me that assurance. True
to my name!--Oh, I hear them. 'His relict!'
5 Buzzings about Lady Patterne. 'The widow.' If
you knew their talk of widows! Shut your ears, my angel! But if she holds them off and
keeps her path, they are forced to respect her. The dead husband is not the dishonoured
wretch they fancied him, because he was out of their way. He lives in the heart of his
wife. Clara! my Clara! as I live in yours, whether here or away; whether you are a wife
or widow, there is no distinction for love--I am your husband--say it--eternally. I must
have peace; I cannot endure the pain. Depressed, yes; I have cause to be. But it has haun-
ted me ever since we joined hands. To have you--to lose you!"

"Is it not possible that I may be the first to die?" said Miss Middleton.


"And lose you, with the thought that you, lovely as you are, and the dogs of the world bar-
king round you, might . . . Is it any wonder that I have my feeling for the world? This
hand!--the thought is horrible. You would be surrounded; men are brutes; the scent of un-
faithfulness excites them, overjoys them. And I helpless! The thought is maddening. I see
a ring of monkeys grinning. There is your beauty, and man's delight in desecrating.
You
would be worried night and day to quit my name, to . . . I feel the blow now. You would
have no rest for them, nothing to cling to without your oath."

"An oath!" said Miss Middleton.

"It is no delusion, my love, when I tell you that with this thought upon me I see a ring
of monkey faces grinning at me; they haunt me. But you do swear it! Once, and I will never
trouble you on the subject again. My weakness! if you like. You will learn that it is
love, a man's love, stronger than death."

"An oath?" she said, and moved her lips to recall what she might have said and forgotten.
"To what? what oath?"

"That you will be true to me dead as well as living! Whisper it."

"Willoughby, I shall be true to my vows at the altar."

"To me! me!"

"It will be to you."

"To my soul. No heaven can be for me--I see none, only torture, unless I have your word,
Clara. I trust it. I will trust it implicitly. My confidence in you is absolute."

"Then you need not be troubled."

"It is for you, my love; that you may be armed and strong when I am not by to protect
you."

"Our views of the world are opposed, Willoughby."

"Consent; gratify me; swear it. Say: 'Beyond death.' Whisper it. I ask for nothing more.
Women think the husband's grave breaks the bond, cuts the tie, sets them loose. They wed
the flesh--pah! What I call on you for is nobility; the transcendent nobility of faith-
fulness beyond death. 'His widow!' let them say; a saint in widowhood."


"My vows at the altar must suffice."

"You will not? Clara!"

"I am plighted to you."

"Not a word?--a simple promise? But you love me?"

"I have given you the best proof of it that I can."

"Consider how utterly I place confidence in you."

"I hope it is well placed."

"I could kneel to you, to worship you, if you would, Clara!"

"Kneel to Heaven, not to me, Willoughby.
I am--I wish I were able to tell what I am. I
may be inconstant; I do not know myself. Think; question yourself whether I am really
the person you should marry. Your wife should have great qualities of mind and soul. I
will consent to hear that I do not possess them, and abide by the verdict."

"You do; you do possess them!" Willoughby cried. "When you know better what the world
is, you will understand my anxiety.
Alive, I am strong to shield you from it; dead,
helpless--that is all. You would be clad in mail, steel-proof, inviolable, if you
would . . . But try to enter into my mind; think with me, feel with me. When you have
once comprehended the intensity of the love of a man like me, you will not require
asking. It is the difference of the elect and the vulgar; of the ideal of love from
the coupling of the herds.
We will let it drop. At least, I have your hand. As long
as I live I have your hand. Ought I not to be satisfied? I am; only I see further
than most men, and feel more deeply. And now I must ride to my mother's bedside.
She dies Lady Patterne! It might have been that she . . . But she is a woman of wo-
men! With a father-in-law! Just heaven! Could I have stood by her then with the same
feelings of reverence?
A very little, my love, and everything gained for us by civi-
lization crumbles; we fall back to the first mortar-bowl we were bruised and stirred
in.
My thoughts, when I take my stand to watch by her, come to this conclusion, that,
especially in women, distinction is the thing to be aimed at.
Otherwise we are a wel-
tering human mass. Women must teach us to venerate them, or we may as well be bleat-
ing and barking and bellowing.
So, now enough. You have but to think a little. I must
be off. It may have happened during my absence. I will write. I shall hear from you?
Come and see me mount Black Norman. My respects to your father. I have no time to pay
them in person. One!"

He took the one--love's mystical number--from which commonly spring multitudes; but, on
the present occasion, it was a single one, and cold. She watched him riding away on his
gallant horse,
as handsome a cavalier as the world could show, and the contrast of his
recent language and his fine figure was a riddle that froze her blood. Speech so fore-
ign to her ears, unnatural in tone, unmanlike even for a lover (who is allowed a softer
dialect), set her vainly sounding for the source and drift of it.
She was glad of not
having to encounter eyes like Mr. Vernon Whitford's.


On behalf of Sir Willoughby, it is to be said that his mother, without infringing on
the degree of respect for his decisions and sentiments exacted by him, had talked to
him of Miss Middleton, suggesting a volatility of temperament in the young lady that
struck him as consentaneous with Mrs Mountstuart's "rogue in porcelain", and alarmed
him as the independent observations of two world-wise women. Nor was it incumbent upon
him personally to credit the volatility in order, as far as he could, to effect the
soul-insurance of his bride, that he might hold the security of the policy. The desire
for it was in him; his mother had merely tolled a warning bell that he had put in mo-
tion before. Clara was not a Constantia. But she was a woman, and he had been deceived
by women, as a man fostering his high ideal of them will surely be. The strain he adopt-
ed was quite natural to his passion and his theme. The language of the primitive sent-
iments of men is of the same expression at all times, minus the primitive colours when
a modern gentleman addresses his lady.


Lady Patterne died in the winter season of the new year. In April Dr Middleton had to
quit Upton Park, and he had not found a place of residence, nor did he quite know what
to do with himself in the prospect of his daughter's marriage and desertion of him.
Sir Willoughby proposed to find him a house within a circuit of the neighbourhood of
Patterne. Moreover, he invited the Rev. Doctor and his daughter to come to Patterne
from Upton for a month, and make acquaintance with his aunts, the ladies Eleanor and
Isabel Patterne, so that it might not be so strange to Clara to have them as her house-
mates after her marriage. Dr. Middleton omitted to consult his daughter before accept-
ing the invitation, and it appeared, when he did speak to her, that it should have
been done. But she said, mildly, "Very well, papa."


Sir Willoughby had to visit the metropolis and an estate in another county, whence he
wrote to his betrothed daily. He returned to Patterne in time to arrange for the wel-
come of his guests; too late, however, to ride over to them; and, meanwhile, during
his absence, Miss Middleton had bethought herself that she ought to have given her
last days of freedom to her friends. After the weeks to be passed at Patterne, very
few weeks were left to her, and she had a wish to run to Switzerland or Tyrol and see
the Alps; a quaint idea, her father thought. She repeated it seriously, and Dr. Mid-
dleton perceived a feminine shuttle of indecision at work in her head, frightful to
him, considering that they signified hesitation between the excellent library and
capital wine-cellar of Patterne Hall, together with the society of that promising
young scholar, Mr. Vernon Whitford, on the one side, and a career of hotels--equiva-
lent to being rammed into monster artillery with a crowd every night, and shot off
on a day's journey through space every morning--on the other.

"You will have your travelling and your Alps after the ceremony," he said.

"I think I would rather stay at home," said she.

Dr Middleton rejoined: "I would."

"But I am not married yet papa."

"As good, my dear."

"A little change of scene, I thought . . ."

"We have accepted Willoughby's invitation. And he helps me to a house near you."

"You wish to be near me, papa?"

"Proximate--at a remove: communicable."

"Why should we separate?"

"For the reason, my dear, that you exchange a father for a husband."

"If I do not want to exchange?"

"To purchase, you must pay, my child. Husbands are not given for nothing."

"No. But I should have you, papa!"

"Should?"

"They have not yet parted us, dear papa."

"What does that mean?" he asked, fussily. He was in a gentle stew already, appre-
hensive of a disturbance of the serenity precious to scholars by postponements of
the ceremony and a prolongation of a father's worries.

"Oh, the common meaning, papa," she said, seeing how it was with him.


"Ah!" said he, nodding and blinking gradually back to a state of composure, glad to
be appeased on any terms; for mutability is but another name for the sex, and it is
the enemy of the scholar.

She suggested that two weeks of Patterne would offer plenty of time to inspect the
empty houses of the district, and should be sufficient, considering the claims of
friends, and the necessity of going the round of London shops.

"Two or three weeks," he agreed, hurriedly, by way of compromise with that fearful
prospect.



CHAPTER 7. The Betrothed



During the drive from Upton to Patterne, Miss Middleton hoped, she partly believ-
ed, that there was to be a change in Sir Willoughby's manner of courtship. He had
been so different a wooer. She remembered with some half-conscious desperation of
fervour what she had thought of him at his first approaches, and in accepting him.
Had she seen him with the eyes of the world, thinking they were her own? That look
of his, the look of "indignant contentment", had then been a most noble conquering
look, splendid as a general's plume at the gallop. It could not have altered. Was
it that her eyes had altered?


The spirit of those days rose up within her to reproach, her and whisper of their
renewal: she remembered
her rosy dreams and the image she had of him, her throbbing
pride in him, her choking richness of happiness: and also her vain attempting to be
very humble, usually ending in a carol, quaint to think of, not without charm, but
quaint, puzzling.


Now men whose incomes have been restricted to the extent that they must live on
their capital, soon grow relieved of the forethoughtful anguish wasting them by the
hilarious comforts of the lap upon which they have sunk back, insomuch that they are
apt to solace themselves for their intolerable anticipations of famine in the house-
hold by giving loose to one fit or more of reckless lavishness.Lovers in like mann-
er live on their capital from failure of income: they, too, for the sake of stifling
apprehension and piping to the present hour, are lavish of their stock, so as rapid-
ly to attenuate it: they have their fits of intoxication in view of coming famine:

they force memory into play, love retrospectively, enter the old house of the past
and ravage the larder, and would gladly, even resolutely, continue in illusion if
it were possible for the broadest honey-store of reminiscences to hold out for a
length of time against a mortal appetite:
which in good sooth stands on the alter-
native of a consumption of the hive or of the creature it is for nourishing.
Here
do lovers show that they are perishable. More than the poor clay world they need
fresh supplies, right wholesome juices; as it were, life in the burst of the bud,
fruits yet on the tree, rather than potted provender. The latter is excellent for
by-and-by, when there will be a vast deal more to remember, and appetite shall have
but one tooth remaining.
Should their minds perchance have been saturated by their
first impressions and have retained them,loving by the accountable light of reason,
they may have fair harvests, as in the early time; but that case is rare. In other
words,
love is an affair of two, and is only for two that can be as quick, as cons-
tant in intercommunication as are sun and earth, through the cloud or face to face.

They take their breath of life from one another in signs of affection, proofs of
faithfulness, incentives to admiration. Thus it is with men and women in love's
good season.
But a solitary soul dragging a log must make the log a God to rejoice
in the burden. That is not love.


Clara was the least fitted of all women to drag a log. Few girls would be so rapid
in exhausting capital. She was feminine indeed, but she wanted comradeship, a liv-
ing and frank exchange of the best in both, with the deeper feelings untroubled.
To
be fixed at the mouth of a mine, and to have to descend it daily, and not to disco-
ver great opulence below; on the contrary, to be chilled in subterranean sunlessness,
without any substantial quality that she could grasp, only the mystery of the ineff-
icient tallow-light in those caverns of the complacent-talking man: this appeared to
her too extreme a probation for two or three weeks. How of a lifetime of it!


She was compelled by her nature to hope, expect and believe that Sir Willoughby
would again be the man she had known when she accepted him. Very singularly, to
show her simple spirit at the time, she was unaware of any physical coldness to him;
she knew of nothing but her mind at work, objecting to this and that, desiring chan-
ges. She did not dream of
being on the giddy ridge of the passive or negative senti-
ment of love, where one step to the wrong side precipitates us into the state of
repulsion.


Her eyes were lively at their meeting--so were his. She liked to see him on the steps,
with young Crossjay under his arm. Sir Willoughby told her in his pleasantest humour
of the boy's having got into the laboratory that morning to escape his task-master,
and blown out the windows. She administered a chiding to the delinquent in the same
spirit, while Sir Willoughby
led her on his arm across the threshold, whispering:
"Soon for good!"
In reply to the whisper, she begged for more of the story of young
Crossjay. "Come into the laboratory," said he, a little less laughingly than softly;

and Clara begged her father to come and see young Crossjay's latest pranks. Sir Will-
oughby whispered to her of the length of their separation, and his joy to welcome her
to the house where she would reign as mistress very won.
He numbered the weeks. He
whispered: "Come." In the hurry of the moment she did not examine a lightning terror
that shot through her.
It passed, and was no more than the shadow which bends the
summer grasses, leaving a ruffle of her ideas, in wonder of her having feared herself
for something.
Her father was with them. She and Willoughby were not yet alone.

Young Crossjay had not accomplished so fine a piece of destruction as Sir Willough-
by's humour proclaimed of him. He had connected a battery with a train of gunpowder,
shattering a window-frame and unsettling some bricks. Dr. Middleton asked if the
youth was excluded from the library, and rejoiced to hear that it was a sealed door
to him. Thither they went. Vernon Whitford was away on one of his long walks.

"There, papa, you see he is not so very faithful to you," said Clara.

Dr Middleton stood frowning over MS notes on the table, in Vernon's handwriting. He
flung up the hair from his forehead and dropped into a seat to inspect them closely.
He was now immoveable.
Clara was obliged to leave him there. She was led to think that
Willoughby had drawn them to the library with the design to be rid of her protector,
and she began to fear him. She proposed to pay her respects to the ladies Eleanor and
Isabel. They were not seen, and a footman reported in the drawing-room that they were
out driving. She grasped young Crossjay's hand. Sir Willoughby dispatched him to Mrs.
Montague, the housekeeper, for a tea of cakes and jam.

"Off!" he said, and the boy had to run.

Clara saw herself without a shield.

"And the garden!" she cried. "I love the garden; I must go and see what flowers are
up with you. In spring I care most for wild flowers, and if you will show me daffod-
ils and crocuses and anemones . . ."

"My dearest Clara! my bride!" said he.

"Because they are vulgar flowers?" she asked him, artlessly, to account for his deta-
ining her.

Why would he not wait to deserve her!--no, not deserve--to reconcile her with her real
position; not reconcile, but to repair the image of him in her mind, before he claimed
his apparent right!

He did not wait. He pressed her to his bosom.


"You are mine, my Clara--utterly mine; every thought, every feeling. We are one: the
world may do its worst. I have been longing for you, looking forward. You save me from
a thousand vexations. One is perpetually crossed. That is all outside us. We two! With
you I am secure! Soon! I could not tell you whether the world's alive or dead.
My dea-
rest!"

She came out of it with the sensations of the frightened child that has had its dip in
sea-water, sharpened to think that after all it was not so severe a trial. Such was
her idea; and she said to herself immediately: What am I that I should complain? Two
minutes earlier she would not have thought it; but humiliated pride falls lower than
humbleness.

She did not blame him; she fell in her own esteem; less because she was the betrothed
Clara Middleton, which was now palpable as a shot in the breast of a bird, than that
she was a captured woman, of whom it is absolutely expected that she must submit, and
when she would rather be gazing at flowers. Clara had shame of her sex. They cannot
take a step without becoming bondwomen: into what a slavery! For herself, her trial
was over, she thought. As for herself, she merely complained of a prematureness and
crudity best unanalyzed. In truth, she could hardly be said to complain. She did but
criticize him and
wonder that a man was unable to perceive, or was not arrested by
perceiving, unwillingness, discordance, dull compliance; the bondwoman's due instead
of the bride's consent. Oh, sharp distinction, as between two spheres!


She meted him justice; she admitted that he had spoken in a lover-like tone. Had it
not been for the iteration of "the world", she would not have objected critically to
his words, though they were words of downright appropriation. He had the right to use
them, since she was to be married to him. But if he had only waited before playing
the privileged lover!

Sir Willoughby was enraptured with her. Even so purely coldly, statue-like, Dian-like,1
would he have prescribed his bride's reception of his caress. The suffusion of crim-
son coming over her subsequently, showing her divinely feminine in reflective bashful-
ness, agreed with his highest definitions of female character.


"Let me conduct you to the garden, my love," he said.

She replied: "I think I would rather go to my room."

"I will send you a wild-flower posy."

"Flowers, no; I do not like them to be gathered."

"I will wait for you on the lawn."

"My head is rather heavy."

His deep concern and tenderness brought him close.

She assured him sparklingly that she was well. She was ready to accompany him to the
garden and stroll over the park.


"Headache it is not," she added.

But she had to pay the fee for inviting a solicitous accepted gentleman's proximity.

This time she blamed herself and him, and the world he abused, and destiny into the bar-
gain. And she cared less about the probation; but
she craved for liberty. With a frigid-
ity that astonished her, she marvelled at the act of kissing, and at the obligation it
forced upon an inanimate person to be an accomplice. Why was she not free? By what
strange right was it that she was treated as a possession?


"I will try to walk off the heaviness," she said.

"My own girl must not fatigue herself."

"Oh, no; I shall not."

"Sit with me. Your Willoughby is your devoted attendant."

"I have a desire for the air."

"Then we will walk out."

She was horrified to think how far she had drawn away from him, and now placed her hand
on his arm to appease her self-accusations and propitiate duty. He spoke as she had wish-
ed, his manner was what she had wished; she was his bride, almost his wife; her conduct
was a kind of madness; she could not understand
it.

Good sense and duty counselled her to control her wayward spirit.

He fondled her hand, and to that she grew accustomed; her hand was at a distance. And
what is a hand? Leaving it where it was, she treated it as a link between herself and
dutiful goodness.
Two months hence she was a bondwoman for life! She regretted that she
had not gone to her room to strengthen herself with a review of her situation, and meet
him thoroughly resigned to her fate. She fancied she would have come down to him amica-
bly. It was his present respectfulness and easy conversation that tricked her burning
nerves with the fancy.
Five weeks of perfect liberty in the mountains, she thought,
would have prepared her for the days of bells. All that she required was a separation
offering new scenes, where she might reflect undisturbed, feel clear again.
He led her
about the flower-beds; too much as if he were giving a convalescent an airing. She cha-
fed at it, and pricked herself with remorse. In contrition she expatiated on the beauty
of the garden.


"All is yours, my Clara."

An oppressive load it seemed to her! She passively yielded to the man in his form of at-
tentive courtier; his mansion, estate, and wealth overwhelmed her. They suggested the
price to be paid. Yet she recollected that on her last departure through the park she
had been proud of the rolling green and spreading trees.
Poison of some sort must be op-
erating in her. She had not come to him to-day with this feeling of sullen antagonism;
she had caught it here.


"You have been well, my Clara?"

"Quite."

"Not a hint of illness?"

"None."

"My bride must have her health if all the doctors in the kingdom die for it! My darl-
ing!"


"And tell me: the dogs?"

"Dogs and horses are in very good condition."

"I am glad. Do you know, I love those ancient French chateaux and farms in one, where
salon windows look on poultry-yard and stalls. I like that homeliness with beasts and
peasants."

He bowed indulgently.

"I am afraid we can't do it for you in England, my Clara."

"No."

"And I like the farm," said he. "But I think our drawing-rooms have a better atmosphere
off the garden. As to our peasantry, we cannot, I apprehend, modify our class demarca-
tions without risk of disintegrating the social structure."

"Perhaps. I proposed nothing."

"My love, I would entreat you to propose if I were convinced that I could obey."

"You are very good."

"I find my merit nowhere but in your satisfaction."


Although she was not thirsting for dulcet sayings, the peacefulness of other than invi-
tations to the exposition of his mysteries and of their isolation in oneness,
inspired
her with such calm that she beat about in her brain, as if it were in the brain, for
the specific injury he had committed. Sweeping from sensation to sensation, the young,
whom sensations impel and distract, can rarely date their disturbance from a particul-
ar one; unless it be some great villain injury that has been done; and
Clara had not
felt an individual shame in his caress; the shame of her sex was but a passing protest,
that left no stamp.
So she conceived she had been behaving cruelly, and said, "Willou-
ghby"; because she was aware of the omission of his name in her previous remarks. His
whole attention was given to her.

She had to invent the sequel. "I was going to beg you, Willoughby, do not seek to spoil
me. You compliment me. Compliments are not suited to me. You think too highly of me. It
is nearly as bad as to be slighted. I am . . . I am a . . ." But she could not follow
his example; even as far as she had gone,
her prim little sketch of herself, set beside
her real, ugly, earnest feelings, rang of a mincing simplicity, and was a step in false-
ness.
How could she display what she was?

"Do I not know you?" he said.

The melodious bass notes, expressive of conviction on that point, signified as well as
the words that no answer was the right answer.
She could not dissent without turning his
music to discord, his complacency to amazement. She held her tongue, knowing that he did
not know her, and speculating on the division made bare by their degrees of the knowl-
edge, a deep cleft.


He alluded to friends in her neighbourhood and his own. The bridesmaids were mentioned.

"Miss Dale, you will hear from my aunt Eleanor, declines, on the plea of indifferent
health. She is rather a morbid person, with all her really estimable qualities. It will
do no harm to have none but young ladies of your own age; a bouquet of young buds:
though one blowing flower among them . . .
However, she has decided. My principal ann-
oyance has been Vernon's refusal to act as my best man."

"Mr. Whitford refuses?"

"He half refuses. I do not take no from him. His pretext is a dislike to the ceremony."

"I share it with him."

"I sympathize with you. If we might say the words and pass from sight! There is a way
of cutting off the world: I have it at times completely: I lose it again, as if it
were a cabalistic phrase one had to utter. But with you! You give it me for good. It
will be for ever, eternally, my Clara. Nothing can harm, nothing touch us; we are one
another's. Let the world fight it out; we have nothing to do with it."


"If Mr. Whitford should persist in refusing?"

"So entirely one, that there never can be question of external influences. I am, we
will say, riding home from the hunt: I see you awaiting me: I read your heart as
though you were beside me. And I know that I am coming to the one who reads mine!
You have me, you have me like an open book, you, and only you!"

"I am to be always at home?" Clara said, unheeded, and relieved by his not hearing.

"Have you realized it?--that
we are invulnerable! The world cannot hurt us: it cannot
touch us. Felicity is ours, and we are impervious in the enjoyment of it. Something
divine! surely something divine on earth?
Clara!--being to one another that between
which the world can never interpose! What I do is right: what you do is right. Perfect
to one another! Each new day we rise to study and delight in new secrets. Away with
the crowd!
We have not even to say it; we are in an atmosphere where the world cannot
breathe."

"Oh, the world!" Clara partly carolled on a sigh that sunk deep.

Hearing him talk as one exulting on the mountain-top, when she knew him to be in the
abyss, was very strange, provocative of scorn.


"My letters?" he said, incitingly.

"I read them."

"Circumstances have imposed a long courtship on us, my Clara; and I, perhaps lament-
ing the laws of decorum--I have done so!--still felt the benefit of the gradual initi-
ation. It is not good for women to be surprised by a sudden revelation of man's char-
acter. We also have things to learn--there is matter for learning everywhere. Some
day you will tell me the difference of what you think of me now, from what you
thought when we first . . . ?"

An impulse of double-minded acquiescence caused Clara to stammer as on a sob.

"I--I daresay I shall."

She added, "If it is necessary."

Then she cried out:
"Why do you attack the world? You always make me pity it."

He smiled at her youthfulness. "I have passed through that stage. It leads to my sen-
timent. Pity it, by all means."

"No," said she, "but pity it, side with it, not consider it so bad. The world has
faults; glaciers have crevices, mountains have chasms; but is not the effect of the
whole sublime? Not to admire the mountain and the glacier because they can be cruel,
seems to me . . . And the world is beautiful."


"The world of nature, yes. The world of men?"

"Yes."

"My love, I suspect you to be thinking of the world of ballrooms."

"I am thinking of the world that contains real and great generosity, true heroism.
We see it round us."

"We read of it. The world of the romance writer!"


"No: the living world. I am sure it is our duty to love it. I am sure we weaken
ourselves if we do not. If I did not, I should be looking on mist, hearing a
perpetual boom instead of music. I remember hearing Mr. Whitford say that cynicism
is intellectual dandyism without the coxcomb's feathers; and it seems to me that
cynics are only happy in making the world as barren to others as they have made it
for themselves."

"Old Vernon!" ejaculated Sir Willoughby, with a countenance rather uneasy, as if
it had been flicked with a glove. "He strings his phrases by the dozen."


"Papa contradicts that, and says he is very clever and very simple."

"As to cynics, my dear Clara, oh, certainly, certainly: you are right. They are
laughable, contemptible. But understand me. I mean, we cannot feel, or if we feel
we cannot so intensely feel, our oneness, except by dividing ourselves from the
world."

"Is it an art?"

"If you like. It is our poetry! But does not love shun the world?
Two that love
must have their sustenance in isolation."

"No: they will be eating themselves up."


"The purer the beauty, the more it will be out of the world."

"But not opposed."

"Put it in this way," Willoughby condescended. "Has experience the same opinion
of the world as ignorance?"

"It should have more charity."

"Does virtue feel at home in the world?"

"Where it should be an example, to my idea."

"Is the world agreeable to holiness?"

"Then, are you in favour of monasteries?"


He poured a little runlet of half laughter over her head, of the sound assumed by
genial compassion.


It is irritating to hear that when we imagine we have spoken to the point.

"Now in my letters, Clara . . ."

"I have no memory, Willoughby!"

"You will, however, have observed that I am not completely myself in my letters . . ."

"In your letters to men you may be."

The remark threw a pause across his thoughts.
He was of a sensitiveness terribly
tender. A single stroke on it reverberated swellingly within the man, and most,
and infuriately searching, at the spots where he had been wounded, especially
where he feared the world might have guessed the wound. Did she imply that he had
no hand for love-letters?
Was it her meaning that women would not have much taste
for his epistolary correspondence? She had spoken in the plural, with an accent
on "men". Had she heard of Constantia? Had she formed her own judgement about the
creature?
The supernatural sensitiveness of Sir Willoughby shrieked a peal of af-
firmatives.
He had often meditated on the moral obligation of his unfolding to
Clara the whole truth of his conduct to Constantia; for whom, as for other suic-
ides, there were excuses. He at least was bound to supply them. She had behaved
badly; but had he not given her some cause? If so, manliness was bound to confess
it.

Supposing Clara heard the world's version first!
Men whose pride is their back-
bone suffer convulsions where other men are barely aware of a shock, and Sir
Willoughby was taken with galvanic jumpings of the spirit within him, at the idea
of the world whispering to Clara that he had been jilted.


"My letters to men, you say, my love?"

"Your letters of business."

"Completely myself in my letters of business?" He stared indeed.

She relaxed the tension of his figure by remarking: "You are able to express your-
self to men as your meaning dictates. In writing to . . . to us it is, I suppose, more
difficult."

"True, my love. I will not exactly say difficult. I can acknowledge no difficulty.

Language, I should say, is not fitted to express emotion. Passion rejects
it."

"For dumb-show and pantomime?"

"No; but the writing of it coldly."

"Ah, coldly!"


"My letters disappoint you?"

"I have not implied that they do."

"My feelings, dearest, are too strong for transcription. I feel, pen in hand, like
the mythological Titan at war with Jove, strong enough to hurl mountains, and find-
ing nothing but pebbles. The simile is a good one.
You must not judge of me by my
letters."

"I do not; I like them," said Clara.
2

She blushed, eyed him hurriedly, and seeing him complacent, resumed,
"I prefer the
pebble to the mountain;
but if you read poetry you would not think human
speech incapable of. . ."

"My love, I detest artifice. Poetry is a profession."

"Our poets would prove to you . . ."

"As I have often observed, Clara, I am no poet."

"I have not accused you, Willoughby."


"No poet, and with no wish to be a poet. Were I one, my life would supply material,
I can assure you, my love. My conscience is not entirely at rest. Perhaps the heav-
iest matter troubling it is that in which I was least wilfully guilty.
You have heard
of a Miss Durham?"

"I have heard--yes--of her."

"She may be happy. I trust she is. If she is not, I cannot escape some blame. An in-
stance of the difference between myself and the world, now. The world charges it u-
pon her. I have interceded to exonerate her."

"That was generous, Willoughby."


"Stay. I fear I was the primary offender. But I, Clara, I, under a sense of honour,
acting under a sense of honour, would have carried my engagement through."

"What had you done?"

"The story is long, dating from an early day, in the 'downy antiquity of my youth',
as Vernon says."

"Mr. Whitford says that?"

"One of old Vernon's odd sayings.
It's a story of an early fascination."

"Papa tells me Mr. Whitford speaks at times with wise humour."

"Family considerations?the lady's health among other things; her position in the
calculations of relatives?intervened. Still there was the fascination. I have to
own it. Grounds for feminine jealousy."

"Is it at an end?"

"Now? with you? my darling Clara! indeed at an end, or could I have opened my in-
most heart to you! Could I have spoken of myself so unreservedly that in part you
know me as I know myself! Oh, but would it have been possible to enclose you with
myself in that intimate union? so secret, unassailable!"

"You did not speak to her as you speak to me?"

"In no degree."

"What could have! . . ." Clara checked the murmured exclamation.

Sir Willoughby's expoundings on his latest of texts would have poured forth,
had
not a footman stepped across the lawn to inform him that his builder was in the
laboratory and requested permission to consult with him.

Clara's plea of a horror of the talk of bricks and joists excused her from accom-
panying him. He had hardly been satisfied by her manner, he knew not why. He left
her, convinced that he must do and say more to reach down to her female intelli-
gence.

She saw young Crossjay, springing with pots of jam in him, join his patron at a
bound, and taking a lift of arms, fly aloft, clapping heels. Her reflections were
confused. Sir Willoughby was admirable with the lad. "Is he two men?" she thought;
and the thought ensued, "Am I unjust?"
She headed a run with young Crossjay to di-
vert her mind.




CHAPTER 8. A Run with the Truant; A Walk with the Master



The sight of Miss Middleton running inflamed young Crossjay with the passion of the
game of hare and hounds. He shouted a view-halloo, and flung up his legs.
She was
fleet; she ran as though a hundred little feet were bearing her onward smooth as wa-
ter over the lawn and the sweeps of grass of the park,
so swiftly did the hidden
pair multiply one another to speed her. So sweet was she in her flowing pace, that
the boy, as became his age, translated admiration into a dogged frenzy of pursuit,
and continued pounding along, when far outstripped, determined to run her down or
die. Suddenly her flight wound to an end in a dozen twittering steps, and she sank.
Young Crossjay attained her, with just breath enough to say: "You are a runner!"

"I forgot you had been having your tea, my poor boy," said she.

"And you don't pant a bit!" was his encomium.

"Dear me, no; not more than a bird. You might as well try to catch a bird."

Young Crossjay gave a knowing nod. "Wait till I get my second wind."

"Now you must confess that girls run faster than boys."

"They may at the start."

"They do everything better."

"They're flash-in-the-pans."

"They learn their lessons."

"You can't make soldiers or sailors of them, though."

"And that is untrue. Have you never read of Mary Ambree? and Mistress Hannah Snell
of Pondicherry?
1 And there was the bride of the celebrated

William Taylor. And what do you say to Joan of Arc? What do you say to Boadicea? I
suppose you have never heard of the Amazons."

"They weren't English."

"Then it is your own countrywomen you decry, sir!"

Young Crossjay betrayed anxiety about his false position, and begged for the stor-
ies of Mary Ambree and the others who were English.

"See, you will not read for yourself, you hide and play truant with Mr. Whitford,
and the consequence is you are ignorant of your country's history."

Miss Middleton rebuked him, enjoying his wriggle between a perception of her fun
and an acknowledgment of his peccancy.
She commanded him to tell her which was the
glorious Valentine's day of our naval annals; the name of the hero of the day, and
the name of his ship.
2 To these questions his answers were as ready as the guns of
the good ship Captain, for the Spanish four-decker.

"And that you owe to Mr. Whitford," said Miss Middleton.

"He bought me the books," young Crossjay growled, and plucked at grass blades and
bit them, foreseeing dimly but certainly the termination of all this.

Miss Middleton lay back on the grass and said: "Are you going to be fond of me,
Crossjay?"

The boy sat blinking. His desire was to prove to her that he was immoderately
fond of her already; and he might have flown at her neck had she been sitting up,
but her recumbency and eyelids half closed excited wonder in him and awe. His
young heart beat fast.


"Because, my dear boy," she said, leaning on her elbow, "you are a very nice boy,
but an ungrateful boy, and there is no telling whether you will not punish any one
who cares for you. Come along with me; pluck me some of these cowslips, and the
speedwells near them; I think we both love wild-flowers." She rose and took his
arm. "You shall row me on the lake while I talk to you seriously."


It was she, however, who took the sculls at the boat-house, for she had been a
play-fellow with boys, and knew that one of them engaged in a manly exercise is
not likely to listen to a woman.

"Now, Crossjay," she said. Dense gloom overcame him like a cowl. She bent across
her hands to laugh. "As if I were going to lecture you, you silly boy!" He began
to brighten dubiously. "I used to be as fond of birdsnesting as you are. I like
brave boys, and I like you for wanting to enter the Royal Navy. Only, how can you
if you do not learn? You must get the captains to pass you, you know.
Somebody
spoils you: Miss Dale or Mr. Whitford."

"Do they?" sung out young Crossjay.

"Sir Willoughby does?"

"I don't know about spoil. I can come round him."

"I am sure he is very kind to you. I dare say you think Mr. Whitford rather severe.
You should remember he has to teach you, so that you may pass for the navy. You
must not dislike him because he makes you work. Supposing you had blown yourself
up today! You would have thought it better to have been working with Mr. Whit-
ford."


"Sir Willoughby says, when he's married, you won't let me hide."

"Ah! It is wrong to pet a big boy like you. Does not he what you call tip you,
Crossjay?"

"Generally half-crown pieces. I've had a crown-piece. I've had sovereigns."

"And for that you do as he bids you? And he indulges you because you . . . Well,
but though Mr. Whitford does not give you money, he gives you his time, he tries
to get you into the navy."

"He pays for me."

"What do you say?"

"My keep. And, as for liking him, if he were at the bottom of the water here, I'd
go down after him. I mean to learn. We're both of us here at six o'clock in the
morning, when it's light, and have a swim. He taught me. Only, I never cared for
schoolbooks."


"Are you quite certain that Mr. Whitford pays for you."

"My father told me he did, and I must obey him. He heard my father was poor, with
a family. He went down to see my father. My father came here once, and Sir Willo-
ughby wouldn't see him. I know Mr. Whitford does. And Miss Dale told me he did. My
mother says she thinks he does it to make up to us for my father's long walk in
the rain and the cold he caught coming here to Patterne."

"So you see you should not vex him, Crossjay. He is a good friend to your father
and to you. You ought to love him."

"I like him, and I like his face."

"Why his face?"

"It's not like those faces! Miss Dale and I talk about him. She thinks that Sir
Willoughby is the best-looking man ever born."

"Were you not speaking of Mr. Whitford?"

"Yes; old Vernon. That's what Sir Willoughby calls him," young Crossjay excused
himself to her look of surprise. "Do you know what he makes me think of?--his eyes,
I mean. He makes me think of Robinson Crusoe's old goat in the cavern.
3 I like him
because he's always the same, and you're not positive about some people. Miss Mid-
dleton, if you look on at cricket, in comes a safe man for ten runs. He may get
more, and he never gets less; and you should hear the old farmers talk of him in
the booth. That's just my feeling."

Miss Middleton understood that some illustration from the cricketing-field was in-
tended to throw light on the boy's feeling for Mr. Whitford. Young Crossjay was
evidently warming to speak from his heart. But the sun was low, she had to dress
for the dinner-table, and she landed him with regret, as at a holiday over. Before
they parted, he offered to swim across the lake in his clothes, or dive to the bed
for anything she pleased to throw, declaring solemnly that it should not be lost.


She walked back at a slow pace, and sung to herself above her darker-flowing
thoughts, like the reed-warbler on the branch beside the night-stream; a simple
song of a lighthearted sound, independent of the shifting black and grey of the
flood underneath.


A step was at her heels.

"I see you have been petting my scapegrace."

"Mr. Whitford! Yes; not petting, I hope. I tried to give him a lecture. He's a
dear lad, but, I fancy, trying."

She was in fine sunset colour, unable to arrest the mounting tide. She had been
rowing, she said; and, as he directed his eyes, according to his wont, penetra-
tingly, she defend-ed herself by fixing her mind on Robinson Crusoe's old goat
in the recess of the cavern.

"I must have him away from here very soon," said Vernon. "Here he's quite spoil-
ed. Speak of him to Willoughby. I can't guess at his ideas of the boy's future,
but the chance of passing for the navy won't bear trifling with, and if ever
there was a lad made for the navy, it's Crossjay."

The incident of the explosion in the laboratory was new to Vernon.

"And Willoughby laughed?" he said. "There are sea-port crammers who stuff young
fellows for examination, and we shall have to pack off the boy at once to the
best one of the lot we can find. I would rather have had him under me up to the
last three months, and have made sure of some roots to what is knocked into his
head. But he's ruined here.
And I am going. So I shall not trouble him for many
weeks longer. Dr. Middleton is well?"

"My father is well, yes. He pounced like a falcon on your notes in the library."

Vernon came out with a chuckle.

"They were left to attract him. I am in for a controversy."

"Papa will not spare you, to judge from his look."

"I know the look."

"Have you walked far to-day?"

"Nine and a half hours.
My Flibbertigibbet4 is too much for me at times, and I
had to walk off my temper."

She cast her eyes on him, thinking of the pleasure of dealing with a temper hon-
estly coltish, and manfully open to a specific.
5

"All those hours were required?"


"Not quite so long."

"You are training for your Alpine tour."

"It's doubtful whether I shall get to the Alps this year. I leave the Hall, and
shall probably be in London with a pen to sell."

"Willoughby knows that you leave him?"

"As much as Mont Blanc knows that he is going to be climbed by a party below. He
sees a speck or two in the valley."


"He has not spoken of it."

"He would attribute it to changes . . ."

Vernon did not conclude the sentence.

She became breathless, without emotion, but checked by the barrier confronting an
impulse to ask, what changes? She stooped to pluck a cowslip.


"I saw daffodils lower down the park," she said. "One or two; they're nearly over."

"We are well off for wild flowers here," he answered.

"Do not leave him, Mr. Whitford."

"He will not want me."

"You are devoted to him."

"I can't pretend that."

"Then it is the changes you imagine you foresee . . . If any occur, why should they
drive you away?"

"Well, I'm two and thirty, and have never been in the fray: a kind of nondescript,
half scholar, and by nature half billman
6 or bowman or musketeer; if I'm worth any-
thing, London's the field for me. But that's what I have to try."

"Papa will not like your serving with your pen in London: he will say you are worth
too much for that."

"Good men are at it; I should not care to be ranked above them."

"They are wasted, he says."

"Error! If they have their private ambition, they may suppose they are wasted. But
the value to the world of a private ambition, I do not clearly understand."

"You have not an evil opinion of the world?" said Miss Middleton, sick at heart as
she spoke, with the sensation of having invited herself to take a drop of poison.

He replied: "One might as well have an evil opinion of a river: here it's muddy,
there it's clear; one day troubled, another at rest. We have to treat it with com-
mon sense."


"Love it?"

"In the sense of serving it."

"Not think it beautiful?"

"Part of it is, part of it the reverse."


"Papa would quote the 'mulier formosa.'"
7

"Except that 'fish' is too good for the black extremity. 'Woman' is excellent for
the upper."

"How do you say that?--not cynically, I believe. Your view commends itself to my
reason."

She was grateful to him for not stating it in ideal contrast with Sir Willough-
by's view. If he had,
so intensely did her youthful blood desire to be enamoured
of the world, that she felt he would have lifted her off her feet. For a moment a
gulf beneath had been threatening. When she said, "Love it?" a little enthusiasm
would have wafted her into space fierily as wine;
but the sober, "In the sense of
serving it", entered her brain, and was matter for reflection upon it and him.

She could think of him in pleasant liberty, uncorrected by her woman's instinct of
peril. He had neither arts nor graces; nothing of his cousin's easy social front-
face. She had once witnessed the military precision of his dancing, and had to
learn to like him before she ceased to pray that she might never be the victim of
it as his partner. He walked heroically, his pedestrian vigour being famous, but
that means one who walks away from the sex, not excelling in the recreations where
men and women join hands. He was not much of a horseman either. Sir Willoughby en-
joyed seeing him on horseback. And he could scarcely be said to shine in a drawing-
room, unless when seated beside a person ready for real talk. Even more than his
merits, his demerits pointed him out as a man to be a friend to a young woman who
wanted one.
His way of life pictured to her troubled spirit an enviable smoothness;
and his having achieved that smooth way she considered a sign of strength;
and she
wished to lean in idea upon some friendly strength.
His reputation for indifference
to the frivolous charms of girls clothed him with a noble coldness, and gave him
the distinction of a far-seen solitary iceberg in Southern waters.
The popular no-
tion of hereditary titled aristocracy resembles her sentiment for a man that would
not flatter and could not be flattered by her sex: he appeared superior almost to
awfulness.
8 She was young, but she had received much flattery in her ears, and
by it she had been snared; and he, disdaining to practise the fowler's arts or to
cast a thought on small fowls, appeared to her to have a pride founded on natur-
al loftiness.


They had not spoken for awhile, when Vernon said abruptly, "The boy's future ra-
ther depends on you, Miss Middleton. I mean to leave as soon as possible, and I
do not like his being here without me, though you will look after him, I have no
doubt. But you may not at first see where the spoiling hurts him. He should be
packed off at once to the crammer, before you are Lady Patterne. Use your influ-
ence. Willoughby will support the lad at your request. The cost cannot be great.
There are strong grounds against my having him in London, even if I could manage
it. May I count on you?"

"I will mention it: I will do my best," said Miss Middleton, strangely dejected
.

They were now on the lawn, where Sir Willoughby was walking with the ladies El-
eanor and Isabel, his maiden aunts.

"You seem to have coursed the hare and captured the hart." he said to his bride.

"Started the truant and run down the paedagogue," said Vernon.


"Ay, you won't listen to me about the management of that boy," Sir Willoughby
retorted.

The ladies embraced Miss Middleton. One offered up an ejaculation in eulogy of
her looks, the other of her healthfulness: then both remarked that with indul-
gence young Crossjay could be induced to do anything.
Clara wondered whether in-
clination or Sir Willoughby had disciplined their individuality out of them and
made them his shadows, his echoes. She gazed from them to him, and feared him.
But as yet she had not experienced the power in him which could threaten and
wrestle to subject the members of his household to the state of satellites.

Though she had in fact been giving battle to it for several months, she had
held her own too well to perceive definitely the character of the spirit oppo-
sing her.

She said to the ladies, "Ah, no! Mr. Whitford has chosen the only method for
teaching a boy like Crossjay."

"I propose to make a man of him," said Sir Willoughby.

"What is to become of him if he learns nothing?"

"If he pleases me, he will be provided for. I have never abandoned a depend-
ent."


Clara let her eyes rest on his and, without turning or dropping, shut them.

The effect was discomforting to him. He was very sensitive to the intentions
of eyes and tones; which was one secret of his rigid grasp of the dwellers in
his household. They were taught that they had to render agreement under sharp
scrutiny. Studious eyes, devoid of warmth, devoid of the shyness of sex, that
suddenly closed on their look, signified a want of comprehension of some kind,
it might be hostility of understanding. Was it possible he did not possess her
utterly? He frowned up.

Clara saw the lift of his brows, and thought, "My mind is my own, married or not."

It was the point in dispute.




CHAPTER 9. Clara and Laetitia Meet: They are Compared



An hour before the time for lessons next morning young Crossjay was on the
lawn with a big bunch of wild flowers. He left them at the hall door for Miss
Middleton, and vanished into bushes.

These vulgar weeds were about to be dismissed to the dustheap by the great
officials of the household; but as it happened that Miss Middleton had seen
them from the window in Crossjay's hands, the discovery was made that they
were indeed his presentation-bouquet, and a footman received orders to place
them before her. She was very pleased.
The arrangement of the flowers bore
witness to fairer fingers than the boy's own in the disposition of the rings
of colour, red campion and anemone, cowslip and speedwell, primroses and
wood-hyacinths; and rising out of the blue was a branch bearing thick white
blossom, so thick, and of so pure a whiteness,
that Miss Middleton, while
praising Crossjay for soliciting the aid of Miss Dale, was at a loss to
name the tree.

"It is a gardener's improvement on the Vestal
1 of the forest, the wild cher-
ry," said Dr. Middleton, "and in this case we may admit the gardener's
claim to be valid, though I believe that, with his gift of double blossom,
he has improved away the fruit. Call this the Vestal of civilization, then;
he has at least done something to vindicate the beauty of the office as
well as the justness of the title."

"It is Vernon's Holy Tree the young rascal has been despoiling," said Sir
Willoughby merrily.

Miss Middleton was informed that this double-blossom wild cherry-tree was
worshipped by Mr. Whitford.

Sir Willoughby promised he would conduct her to it.

"You," he said to her, "can bear the trial; few complexions can; it is to
most ladies a crueller test than snow.
Miss Dale, for example, becomes old
lace within a dozen yards of it. I should like to place her under the tree
beside you."

"Dear me, though; but that is investing the hamadryad
2 with novel and ter-
rible functions," exclaimed Dr. Middleton.

Clara said: "Miss Dale could drag me into a superior Court to show me fad-
ing beside her in gifts more valuable than a complexion."


"She has a fine ability," said Vernon.

All the world knew, so Clara knew of Miss Dales romantic admiration of
Sir Willoughby; she was curious to see Miss Dale and study the nature of
a devotion that might be, within reason, imitable--for
a man who could
speak with such steely coldness of the poor lady he had fascinated? Well,
perhaps it was good for the hearts of women to be beneath a frost; to be
schooled, restrained, turned inward on their dreams. Yes, then, his cold-
ness was desireable; it encouraged an ideal of him. It suggested and seem-
ed to propose to Clara's mind the divineness of separation instead of the
deadly accuracy of an intimate perusal. She tried to look on him as Miss
Dale might look, and while partly despising her for the dupery she envied,
and more than criticizing him for the inhuman numbness of sentiment which
offered up his worshipper to point a complimentary comparison,
she was a-
ble to imagine a distance whence it would be possible to observe him un-
critically, kindly, admiringly; as the moon a handsome mortal, for exam-
ple.


In the midst of her thoughts, she surprised herself by saying: "I certain-
ly was difficult to instruct. I might see things clearer if I had a fine ability.
I never remember to have been perfectly pleased with my immediate les-
son . . ."3

She stopped, wondering whither her tongue was leading her; then added, to
save herself, "And that may be why I feel for poor Crossjay."

Mr. Whitford apparently did not think it remarkable that she should have
been set off gabbling of "a fine ability", though the eulogistic phrase
had been pronounced by him with an impressiveness to make his ear aware
of an echo.

Sir Willoughby dispersed her vapourish confusion. "Exactly," he said. "I
have insisted with Vernon, I don't know how often, that you must have
the lad by his affections. He won't bear driving. It had no effect on
me. Boys of spirit kick at it. I think I know boys, Clara."


He found himself addressing eyes that regarded him as though he were a
small speck, a pin's head, in the circle of their remote contemplation.
They were wide; they closed.

She opened them to gaze elsewhere.

He was very sensitive.


Even then, when knowingly wounding him, or because of it, she was trying
to climb back to that altitude of the thin division of neutral ground,
from which we see a lover's faults and are above them, pure surveyors.

She climbed unsuccessfully, it is true; soon despairing and using the
effort as a pretext to fall back lower.
4

Dr. Middleton withdrew Sir Willoughby's attention from the imperceptible
annoyance.

"No, sir, no: the birch! the birch!
5 Boys of spirit commonly turn into solid
men, and the solider the men the more surely do they vote for Busby.

For me, I pray he may be immortal in Great Britain. Sea-air nor mountain-
air is half so bracing. I venture to say that the power to take a licking is
better worth having than the power to administer one. Horse him and birch
him if Crossjay runs from his books."

"It is your opinion, sir?" his host bowed to him affably, shocked on be-
half of the ladies.


"So positively so, sir, that I will undertake, without knowledge of
their antecedents, to lay my finger on the men in public life who have
not had early Busby. They are ill-balanced men. Their seat of reason is
not a concrete. They won't take rough and smooth as they come. They make
bad blood, can't forgive, sniff right and left for approbation, and are
excited to anger if an East wind does not flatter them. Why, sir, when
they have grown to be seniors, you find these men mixed up with the non-
sense of their youth; you see they are unthrashed. We English beat the
world because we take a licking well. I hold it for a surety of a proper
sweetness of blood."


The smile of Sir Willoughby waxed ever softer as the shakes of his head
increased in contradictoriness. "And yet," said he, with the air of con-
ceding a little after having answered the Rev. Doctor and convicted him
of error, "Jack requires it to keep him in order. On board ship your ar-
gument may apply. Not, I suspect, among gentlemen. No."


"Good-night to you, gentlemen!" said Dr. Middleton.

Clara heard Miss Eleanor and Miss Isabel interchange remarks:

"Willoughby would not have suffered it!"

"It would entirely have altered him!"

She sighed and put a tooth on her under-lip. The gift of humourous fancy
is in women fenced round with forbidding placards; they have to choke it;

if they perceive a piece of humour, for instance, the young Willoughby
grasped by his master,--and
his horrified relatives rigid at the sight
of preparations for the seed of sacrilege, they have to blindfold the
mind's eye.
They are society's hard-drilled soldiery. Prussians that
must both march and think in step. It is for the advantage of the civi-
lized world, if you like, since men have decreed it, or matrons have so
read the decree; but here and there a younger woman, haply an uncorrect-
ed insurgent of the sex matured here and there, feels that her lot was
cast with her head in a narrower pit than her limbs.

Clara speculated as to whether Miss Dale might be perchance a person
of a certain liberty of mind.
She asked for some little, only some little,
free play of mind in a house that seemed to wear, as it were, a cap of iron.
Sir Willoughby not merely ruled, he throned, he inspired: and how? She had
noticed an irascible sensitiveness in him alert against a shadow of disa-
gree-ment; and as he was kind when perfectly appeased, the sop was offered
by him for submission. She noticed that even Mr. Whitford forbore to alarm
the sentiment of authority in his cousin. If he did not breathe Sir Will-
oughby, like the ladies Eleanor and Isabel, he would either acquiesce in
a syllable or be silent. He never strongly dissented. The habit of the
house, with its iron cap, was on him, as it was on the servants, and
would be, oh, shudders of the shipwrecked that see their end in drown-
ing! on the wife.


"When do I meet Miss Dale?" she inquired.

"This very evening, at dinner," replied Sir Willoughby.

Then, thought she, there is that to look forward to.

She indulged her morbid fit, and shut up her senses that she might live
in the anticipation of meeting Miss Dale; and, long before the approach
of the hour,
her hope of encountering any other than another dull adher-
ent of Sir Willoughby had fled.
So she was languid for two of the three
minutes when she sat alone with Laetitia in the drawing-room before the
rest had assembled.

"It is Miss Middleton?" Laetitia said, advancing to her. "My jealousy
tells me; for you have won my boy Crossjay's heart, and done more to
bring him to obedience in a few minutes than we have been able to do
in months."

"His wild flowers were so welcome to me," said Clara.

"He was very modest over them. And I mention it because boys of his age
usually thrust their gifts in our faces fresh as they pluck them, and
you were to be treated quite differently."

"We saw his good fairy's hand."

"She resigns her office;
but I pray you not to love him too well in re-
turn; for he ought to be away reading with one of those men who get boys
through their examinations. He is, we all think, a born sailor, and his
place is in the navy."


"But, Miss Dale, I love him so well that I shall consult his interests
and not my own selfishness.
And, if I have influence, he will not be a
week with you longer. It should have been spoke of today; I must have
been in some dream; I thought of it, I know. I will not forget to do
what may be in my power."


Clara's heart sank at the renewed engagement and plighting of herself
involved in her asking a favour, urging any sort of petition. The cause
was good. Besides, she was plighted already.

"Sir Willoughby is really fond of the boy," she said.

"He is fond of exciting fondness in the boy," said Miss Dale. "He has not
dealt much with children. I am sure he likes Crossjay; he could not othe-
rwise be so forbearing; it is wonderful what he endures and laughs at."

Sir Willoughby entered.
The presence of Miss Dale illuminated him as the
burning taper lights up consecrated plate.
6 Deeply respecting her for her
constancy, esteeming her for a model of taste, he was never in her society
without that happy consciousness of shining which calls forth the treasur-
es of the man; and these it is no exaggeration to term unbounded, when all
that comes from him is taken for gold.


The effect of the evening on Clara was to render her distrustful of her la-
ter antagonism. She had unknowingly passed into the spirit of Miss Dale, Sir
Willoughby aiding; for she could sympathize with the view of his constant
admirer on seeing him so cordially and smoothly gay; as one may say, domest-
ically witty, the most agreeable form of wit. Mrs Mountstuart Jenkinson dis-
cerned that he had a leg of physical perfection; Miss Dale distinguished it
in him in the vital essence; and before either of these ladies
he was not
simply a radiant, he was a productive creature, so true it is that praise is
our fructifying sun.
He had even a touch of the romantic air which Clara rem-
embered as her first impression of the favourite of the county; and strange
she found it to observe this resuscitated idea confronting her experience.
What if she had been captious, inconsiderate? Oh, blissful revival of the
sense of peace! The happiness of pain departing was all that she looked for,
and
her conception of liberty was to learn to love her chains, provided that
he would spare her the caress
. In this mood she sternly condemned Constantia.
"We must try to do good; we must not be thinking of ourselves; we must make
the best of our path in life." She revolved these infantile precepts with
humble earnestness; and not to be tardy in her striving to do good, with a
remote but pleasurable glimpse of Mr. Whitford hearing of it,
she took the
opportunity to speak to Sir Willoughby on the subject of young Crossjay, at
a moment when, alighting from horseback, he had shown himself to advantage
among a gallant cantering company. He showed to great advantage on horseback
among men, being invariably the best mounted, and he had a cavalierly style,
possibly cultivated, but effective. On foot his raised head and half-dropped
eyelids too palpably assumed superiority.


"Willoughby, I want to speak," she said, and shrank as she spoke, lest he
should immediately grant everything in the mood of courtship, and invade her
respite; "I want to speak of that dear boy Crossjay. You are fond of him. He
is rather an idle boy here, and wasting time . . ."

"Now you are here, and when you are here for good, my love for good . . ." he
fluttered away in loverliness, forgetful of Crossjay, whom he presently took up.
"The boy recognizes his most sovereign lady, and will do your bidding, though
you should order him to learn his lessons! Who would not obey?
Your beauty a-
lone commands. But what is there beyond?--a grace, a hue divine, that sets you
not so much above as apart, severed from the world."

Clara produced an active smile in duty, and pursued: "If Crossjay were sent
at once to some house where men prepare boys to pass for the navy, he would
have his chance, and the navy is distinctly his profession. His father is a
brave man, and he inherits bravery, and he has a passion for a sailor's life;
only he must be able to pass his examination, and he has not much time."

Sir Willoughby gave a slight laugh in sad amusement.

"My dear Clara, you adore the world; and I suppose you have to learn that there
is not a question in this wrangling world about which we have not disputes and
contests ad nauseam.
7 I have my notions concerning Crossjay, Vernon has his. I
should wish to make a gentleman of him. Vernon marks him for a sailor. But Ver-
non is the lad's protector, I am not. Vernon took him from his father to in-
struct him, and he has a right to say what shall be done with him. I do not in-
terfere. Only I can't prevent the lad from liking me. Old Vernon seems to feel
it. I assure you I hold entirely aloof. If I am asked, in spite of my disappro-
val of Vernon's plans for the boy, to subscribe to his departure, I can but
shrug, because, as you see, I have never opposed. Old Vernon pays for him, he
is the master, he decides, and if Crossjay is blown from the masthead in a gale,
the blame does not fall on me. These, my dear, are matters of reason."

"I would not venture to intrude on them," said Clara, "if I had not suspected
that money . . ."

"Yes," cried Willoughby; "and it is a part. And let old Vernon surrender the
boy to me, I will immediately relieve him of the burden on his purse. Can I do
that, my dear, for the furtherance of a scheme I condemn? The point is thus:
latterly I have invited Captain Patterne to visit me: just previous to his de-
parture for the African Coast, where Government despatches Marines when there
is no other way of killing them, I sent him a special invitation. He thanked me
and curtly declined. The man, I may almost say, is my pensioner. Well, he calls
himself a Patterne, he is undoubtedly a man of courage, he has elements of our
blood, and the name. I think I am to be approved for desiring to make a better
gentleman of the son than I behold in the father: and seeing that life from an
early age on board ship has anything but made a gentleman of the father, I hold
that I am right in shaping another course for the son."

"Naval officers . . ." Clara suggested.

"Some," said Willoughby. "But they must be men of birth, coming out of homes of
good breeding. Strip them of the halo of the title of naval officers, and I fear
you would not often say gentlemen when they step into a drawing-room. I went so
far as to fancy I had some claim to make young Crossjay something different. It
can be done: the Patterne comes out in his behaviour to you, my love; it can be
done. But if I take him, I claim undisputed sway over him. I cannot make a gentl-
eman of the fellow if I am to compete with this person and that. In fine, he
must look up to me, he must have one model."

"Would you, then, provide for him subsequently?"

"According to his behaviour."

"Would not that be precarious for him?"

"More so than the profession you appear inclined to choose for him?"

"But there he would be under clear regulations."

"With me he would have to respond to affection."

"Would you secure to him a settled income? For an idle gentleman is bad enough;
a penniless gentleman . . ."

"He has only to please me, my dear, and he will be launched and protected."

"But if he does not succeed in pleasing you?"

"Is it so difficult?"

"Oh!" Clara fretted.


"You see, my love, I answer you," said Sir Willoughby.

He resumed: "But let old Vernon have his trial with the lad. He has his own ideas.
Let him carry them out. I shall watch the experiment."

Clara was for abandoning her task in sheer faintness.

"Is not the question one of money?" she said, shyly, knowing Mr. Whitford to be
poor.

"Old Vernon chooses to spend his money that way." replied Sir Willoughby. "If it
saves him from breaking his shins and risking his neck on his Alps, we may consi-
der it well employed."

"Yes," Clara's voice occupied a pause.

She seized her languor as it were a curling snake and cast it off. "But I under-
stand that Mr. Whitford wants your assistance. Is he not--not rich? When he leaves
the Hall to try his fortune in literature in London, he may not be so well able
to support Crossjay and obtain the instruction necessary for the boy: and it
would be generous to help him."

"Leaves the Hall!" exclaimed Willoughby. "I have not heard a word of it. He made
a bad start at the beginning, and I should have thought that would have tamed him:
had to throw over his Fellowship; ahem. Then he received a small legacy some time
back, and wanted to be off to push his luck in Literature: rank gambling, as I
told him. Londonizing can do him no good. I thought that nonsense of his was over
years ago. What is it he has from me?--about a hundred and fifty a year: and it
might be doubled for the asking: and all the books he requires: and these writers
and scholars no sooner think of a book than they must have it. And do not suppose
me to complain. I am a man who will not have a single shilling expended by those
who serve immediately about my person.
I confess to exacting that kind of depend-
ency. Feudalism is not an objectionable thing if you can be sure of the lord. You
know, Clara, and you should know me in my weakness too, I do not claim servitude,
I stipulate for affection. I claim to be surrounded by persons loving me. And with
one? . . . dearest! So that we two can shut out the world; we live what is the
dream of others. Nothing imaginable can be sweeter. It is a veritable heaven on
earth. To be the possessor of the whole of you! Your thoughts, hopes, all."


Sir Willoughby intensified his imagination to conceive more: he could not, or
could not express it, and pursued: "But what is this talk of Vernon's leaving me?
He cannot leave. He has barely a hundred a year of his own. You see, I consider
him. I do not speak of the ingratitude of the wish to leave.
You know, my dear,
I have a deadly abhorrence of partings and such like. As far as I can, I sur-
round myself with healthy people specially to guard myself from having my feel-
ings wrung;
and excepting Miss Dale, whom you like--my darling does like her?"--
the answer satisfied him; "with that one exception, I am not aware of a case that
threatens to torment me. And here is a man, under no compulsion, talking of lea-
ving the Hall! In the name of goodness, why? But why? Am I to imagine that the
sight of perfect felicity distresses him? We are told that the world is 'desperately
wicked'. I do not like to think it of my friends; yet otherwise their conduct is of-
ten hard to account for."


"If it were true, you would not punish Crossjay?" Clara feebly interposed.

"I should certainly take Crossjay and make a man of him after my own model, my
dear. But who spoke to you of this?"

"Mr. Whitford himself. And let me give you my opinion, Willoughby, that he will
take Crossjay with him rather than leave him, if there is a fear of the boy's
missing his chance of the navy.""Marines appear to be in the ascendant," said
Sir Willoughby, astonished at the locution and pleading in the interests of a
son of one. "Then Crossjay he must take. I cannot accept half the boy. I am,"
he laughed, "the legitimate claimant in the application for judgement before
the wise king. Besides, the boy has a dose of my blood in him; he has none of
Vernon's, not one drop."

"Ah!"

"You see, my love?"

"Oh! I do see; yes."

"I put forth no pretensions to perfection," Sir Willoughby continued. "I can bear
a considerable amount of provocation; still I can be offended, and I am unforgiv-
ing when I have been offended. Speak to Vernon, if a natural occasion should
spring up. I shall, of course, have to speak to him. You may, Clara, have obser-
ved a man who passed me on the road as we were cantering home, without a hint of
a touch to his hat. That man is a tenant of mine, farming six hundred acres, Hop-
pner by name: a man bound to remember that I have, independently of my position,
obliged him frequently. His lease of my ground has five years to run.
8 I must say
I detest the churlishness of our country population, and where it comes across me
I chastise it.
Vernon is a different matter: he will only require to be spoken to.
One would fancy the old fellow laboured now and then under a magnetic attraction
to beggary. My love," he bent to her and checked their pacing up and down, "you
are tired?"

"I am very tired to-day," said Clara.

His arm was offered. She laid two fingers on it, and they dropped when he attempt-
ed to press them to his rib.

He did not insist. To walk beside her was to share in the stateliness of her walk-
ing.


He placed himself at a corner of the door-way for her to pass him into the house,
and doated on her cheek, her ear, and the softly dusky nape of her neck, where this
way and that the little lighter-coloured irreclaimable curls running truant from
the comb and the knot--curls, half-curls, root-curls, vine-ringlets, wedding-rings,
fledgling feathers, tufts of down, blown wisps--waved or fell, waved over or up or
involutedly, or strayed, loose and downward, in silken paws, hardly any of them
much thicker than a crayon shading, cunninger than long round locks of gold to
trick the heart.


Laetitia had nothing to show resembling such beauty.



CHAPTER 10. In which Sir Willoughby Chances to Supply the Title for Himself



Now Vernon was useful to his cousin; he was the accomplished secretary of a man
who governed his estate shrewdly and diligently, but had been once or twice un-
lucky in his judgements pronounced from the magisterial bench as a justice of the
Peace, on which occasions
a half column of trenchant English supported by an ap-
posite classical quotation impressed Sir Willoughby
with the value of such a sec-
retary in a controversy. He had no fear of that fiery dragon of scorching breath--
the newspaper press--while Vernon was his right hand man; and as he intended to
enter Parliament, he foresaw the greater need of him. Furthermore, he liked his
cousin to date his own controversial writings, on classical subjects, from Pat-
terne Hall. It caused his house to shine in a foreign field; proved the service
of scholarship by
giving it a flavour of a bookish aristocracy that, though not
so well worth having, and indeed in itself contemptible, is above the material
and titular; one cannot quite say how. There, however, is the flavour. Dainty
sauces are the life, the nobility, of famous dishes; taken alone, the former
would be nauseating, the latter plebeian.
It is thus, or somewhat so, when you
have a poet, still better a scholar, attached to your household. Sir Willoughby
deserved to have him, for he was above his county friends in his apprehension
of the flavour
bestowed by the man; and having him, he had made them conscious
of their deficiency. His cook, M. Dehors, pupil of the great Godefroy, was not
the only French cook in the county; but his cousin and secretary, the rising
scholar, the elegant essayist, was an unparalleled decoration; of his kind, of
course.
Personally, we laugh at him; you had better not, unless you are fain
to show that the higher world of polite literature is unknown to you. Sir Will-
oughby could create an abject silence at a county dinner-table by an allusion
to Vernon "at work at home upon his Etruscans or his Dorians"; and he paused a
moment to let the allusion sink, laughed audibly to himself over his eccentric
cousin, and let him rest.

In addition, Sir Willoughby abhorred the loss of a familiar face in his domes-
tic circle. He thought ill of servants who could accept their dismissal without
petitioning to stay with him. A servant that gave warning partook of a certain
fiendishness. Vernon's project of leaving the Hall offended and alarmed the hand
Letty Dale to him at last!" he thought, yielding in bitter generosity to the con-
ditions imposed on him by the ungenerousness of another. For, since his engage-
ment to Miss Middleton, his electrically forethoughtful mind had seen in Miss
Dale, if she stayed in the neighbourhood, and remained unmarried, the governess
of his infant children, often consulting with him. But here was a prospect dash-
ed out. The two, then, may marry, and live in a cottage on the borders of his
park; and Vernon can retain his post, and Laetitia her devotion. The risk of
her casting it of had to be faced. Marriage has been known to have such an ef-
fect on the most faithful of women that a great passion fades to naught in
their volatile bosoms when they have taken a husband. We see in women especia-
lly the triumph of the animal over the spiritual.
Nevertheless, risks must be
run for a purpose in view.

Having no taste for a discussion with Vernon, whom it was his habit to confound
by breaking away from him abruptly when he had delivered his opinion, he left it
to both the persons interesting themselves in young Crossjay to imagine that he
was meditating on the question of the lad, and to imagine that it would be wise
to leave him to meditate; for he could be preternaturally acute in reading any
of his fellow-creatures if they crossed the current of his feelings. And, mean-
while, he instructed the ladies Eleanor and Isabel to bring Laetitia Dale on a
visit to the Hall, where dinner-parties were soon to be given and a pleasing
talker would be wanted, where also a woman of intellect, steeped in a splendid
sentiment, hitherto a miracle of female constancy, might stir a younger woman to
some emulation. Definitely to resolve to bestow Laetitia upon Vernon was more
than he could do; enough that he held the card.

Regarding Clara, his genius for perusing the heart which was not in perfect har-
mony with him through the series of responsive movements to his own, informed
him of a something in her character that might have suggested to Mrs Mountstuart
Jenkinson her indefensible, absurd "rogue in porcelain". Idea there was none in
that phrase; yet,
if you looked on Clara as a delicately inimitable porcelain
beauty, the suspicion of a delicately inimitable ripple over her features touch-
ed a thought of innocent roguery, wildwood roguery; the likeness to the costly
and lovely substance appeared to admit a fitness in the dubious epithet. He de-
tested but was haunted by the phrase.


She certainly had at times the look of the nymph that has gazed too long on the
faun, and has unwittingly copied his lurking lip and long sliding eye. Her play
with young Crossjay resembled a return of the lady to the cat; she flung herself
into it as if her real vitality had been in suspense till she saw the boy. Sir
Willoughby by no means disapproved of a physical liveliness that promised him
health in his mate; but
he began to feel in their conversations that she did
not sufficiently think of making herself a nest for him. Steely points were op-
posed to him when he, figuratively, bared his bosom to be taken to the softest
and fairest. She reasoned: in other words, armed her ignorance.
She reasoned
against him publicly, and lured Vernon to support her. Influence is to be cou-
nted for power,
and her influence over Vernon was displayed in her persuading
him to dance one evening at Lady Culmer's, after his melancholy exhibitions of
himself in the art; and not only did she persuade him to stand up fronting her,
she manoeuvred him through the dance like a clever boy cajoling a top to come
to him without reeling, both to Vernon's contentment and to Sir Willoughby's;
for he was the last man to object to a manifestation of power in his bride.
Considering her influence with Vernon, he renewed the discourse upon young
Crossjay; and, as he was addicted to system, he took her into his confidence,
that she might be taught to look to him and act for him.


"Old Vernon has not spoken to you again of that lad?" he said.

"Yes, Mr. Whitford has asked me."

"He does not ask me, my dear!"

"He may fancy me of greater aid than I am."

"You see, my love, if he puts Crossjay on me, he will be off. He has this craze
for 'enlisting' his pen in London, as he calls it; and I am accustomed to him;
I don't like to think of him as a hack scribe, writing nonsense from dictation
to earn a pitiful subsistence; I want him here; and, supposing he goes, he of-
fends me; he loses a friend; and it will not be the first time that a friend
has tried me too far;
but if he offends me, he is extinct."

"Is what?" cried Clara, with a look of fright.

"He becomes to me at once as if he had never been. He is extinct."


"In spite of your affection?"

"On account of it, I might say. Our nature is mysterious, and mine as much so
as any. Whatever my regrets, he goes out. This is not a language I talk to the
world. I do the man no harm; I am not to be named unchristian. But . . . !"

Sir Willoughby mildly shrugged, and indicated a spreading out of the arms.

"But do, do talk to me as you talk to the world, Willoughby; give me some re-
lief!"

"My own Clara, we are one. You should know me at my worst, we will say, if
you like, as well as at my best."


"Should I speak too?"

"What could you have to confess?"

She hung silent; the wave of an insane resolution swelled in her bosom and
subsided before she said, "Cowardice, incapacity to speak."

"Women!" said he.

We do not expect so much of women; the heroic virtues as little as the vices.
They have not to unfold the scroll of character.

He resumed, and by his tone she understood that she was now in the inner
temple of him: "I tell you these things; I quite acknowledge they do not el-
evate me. They help to constitute my character. I tell you most humbly that
I have in me much--too much of the fallen archangel's pride."

Clara bowed her head over a sustained in-drawn breath.

"It must be pride," he said, in a reverie superinduced by her thoughtful-
ness over the revelation, and glorying in the black flames demoniacal where-
with he crowned himself
.

"Can you not correct it?" said she.


He replied, profoundly vexed by disappointment: "I am what I am. It might
be demonstrated to you mathematically that it is corrected by equivalents
or substitutions in my character. If it be a failing--assuming that."

"It seems one to me: so cruelly to punish Mr. Whitford for seeking to im-
prove his fortunes."

"He reflects on my share in his fortunes. He has had but to apply to me for
his honorarium to be doubled."


"He wishes for independence."

"Independence of me!"

"Liberty!"

"At my expense!"

"Oh, Willoughby!"

"Ay, but this is the world, and I know it, my love; and beautiful as your
incredulity may be, you will find it more comforting to confide in my know-
ledge of the selfishness of the world. My sweetest, you will?--you do! For
a breath of difference between us is intolerable. Do you not feel how it
breaks our magic ring? One small fissure, and we have the world with its
muddy deluge!
--But my subject was old Vernon. Yes, I pay for Crossjay, if
Vernon consents to stay. I waive my own scheme for the lad, though I think
it the better one. Now, then, to induce Vernon to stay. He has his ideas
about staying under a mistress of the household; and therefore, not to con-
test it--he is a man of no argument; a sort of lunatic determination takes
the place of it with old Vernon!
--let him settle close by me, in one of my
cottages; very well, and to settle him we must marry him."

"Who is there?" said Clara, beating for the lady in her mind.

"Women," said Willoughby, "are born match-makers, and the most persuasive
is a young bride. With a man--and a man like old Vernon!--she is irresisti-
ble. It is my wish, and that arms you. It is your wish, that subjugates
him. If he goes, he goes for good. If he stays, he is my friend. I deal
simply with him, as with every one. It is the secret of authority. Now
Miss Dale will soon lose her father. He exists on a pension; she has the
prospect of having to leave the neighbourhood of the Hall, unless she is
established near us. Her whole heart is in this region; it is the poor
soul's passion. Count on her agreeing. But she will require a little woo-
ing: and old Vernon wooing!
Picture the scene to yourself, my love. His
notion of wooing. I suspect, will be to treat the lady like a lexicon,
and turn over the leaves for the word, and fly through the leaves for an-
other word, and so get a sentence. Don't frown at the poor old fellow, my
Clara; some have the language on their tongues, and some have not. Some
are very dry sticks; manly men, honest fellows, but so cut away, so pol-
ished away from the sex, that they are in absolute want of outsiders to
supply the silken filaments to attach them.
Actually!" Sir Willoughby laugh-
ed in Clara's face to relax the dreamy stoniness of her look. "But I can
assure you, my dearest, I have seen it. Vernon does not know how to
speak--as we speak. He has, or he had, what is called a sneaking affec-
tion for Miss Dale. It was the most amusing thing possible; his courtship!--
the air of a dog with an uneasy conscience, trying to reconcile himself
with his master! We were all in fits of laughter. Of course it came to nothing."

"Will Mr. Whitford," said Clara, "offend you to extinction if he declines?"

Willoughby breathed an affectionate "Tush!" to her silliness.


"We bring them together, as we best can. You see, Clara, I desire, and I
will make some sacrifices to detain him."

"But what do you sacrifice?--a cottage?" said Clara, combative at all
points.

"An ideal, perhaps.
I lay no stress on sacrifice. I strongly object to sep-
arations. And therefore, you will say, I prepare the ground for unions? Put
your influence to good service, my love. I believe you could persuade him
to give us the Highland fling on the drawing-room table."

"There is nothing to say to him of Crossjay?"

"We hold Crossjay in reserve."

"It is urgent."

"Trust me. I have my ideas. I am not idle. That boy bids fair for a capital
horseman. Eventualities might . . ." Sir Willoughby murmured to himself,
and addressing his bride, "The cavalry? If we put him into the cavalry, we
might make a gentleman of him--not be ashamed of him. Or, under certain eve-
ntualities, the Guards. Think it over, my love. De Craye, who will, I sup-
pose, act best man for me, supposing old Vernon to pull at the collar,1 is
a Lieutenant-Colonel in the Guards, a thorough gentleman--of the brainless
class, if you like, but an elegant fellow; an Irishman; you will see him,
and I should like to set a naval lieutenant beside him in a drawingroom,
for you to compare them and consider the model you would choose for a boy
you are interested in.
Horace is grace and gallantry incarnate; fatuous,
probably: I have always been too friendly with him to examine closely. He
made himself one of my dogs, though my elder, and seemed to like to be at
my heels. One of the few men's faces I can call admirably handsome;--with
nothing behind it, perhaps. As Vernon says, 'a nothing picked by the vul-
tures and bleached by the desert'.
Not a bad talker, if you are satisfied
with keeping up the ball. He will amuse you. Old Horace does not know how
amusing he is!"


"Did Mr. Whitford say that of Colonel De Craye?"

"I forget the person of whom he said it. So you have noticed old Vernon's
foible? Quote him one of his epigrams, and he is in motion head and heels!
It is an infallible receipt for tuning him. If I want to have him in good
temper, I have only to remark, 'as you said'. I straighten his back in-
stantly."

"I," said Clara, "have noticed chiefly his anxiety concerning the boy; for
which I admire him."

"Creditable, if not particularly far-sighted and sagacious. Well, then,
my dear, attack him at once; lead him to the subject of our fair neigh-
bour. She is to be our guest for a week or so, and the whole affair might
be concluded far enough to fix him before she leaves. She is at present
awaiting the arrival of a cousin to attend on her father. A little gentle
pushing will precipitate old Vernon on his knees as far as he ever can un-
bend them; but when a lady is made ready to expect a declaration, you know,
why, she does not--does she?--demand the entire formula?--though some bea-
utiful fortresses . . ."


He enfolded her. Clara was growing hardened to it. To this she was fated;
and not seeing any way to escape, she invoked a friendly frost to strike
her blood, and passed through the minute unfeelingly. Having passed it,
she reproached herself for making so much of it, thinking it a lesser en-
durance than to listen to him. What could she do?--she was caged; by her
word of honour, as she at one time thought; by her cowardice, at another;
and dimly sensible that the latter was a stronger lock than the former,
she mused on the abstract question whether a woman's cowardice can be so
absolute as to cast her into the jaws of her aversion. Is it to be concei-
ved? Is there not a moment when it stands at bay? But haggard-visaged Hon-
our then starts up claiming to be dealt with in turn; for having courage
restored to her, she must have the courage to break with honour, she must
dare to be faithless, and not merely say, I will be brave, but be brave e-
nough to be dishonourable. The cage of a plighted woman hungering for her
disengagement has two keepers, a noble and a vile; where on earth is crea-
ture so dreadfully enclosed? It lies with her to overcome what degrades
her, that she may win to liberty by overcoming what exalts.


Contemplating her situation, this idea (or vapour of youth taking the god-
like semblance of an idea) sprang, born of her present sickness, in Clara's
mind; that it must be an ill-constructed tumbling world where the hour of
ignorance is made the creator of our destiny by being forced to the deci-
sive elections upon which life's main issues hang. Her teacher had brought
her to contemplate his view of the world.

She thought likewise: how must a man despise women, who can expose himself
as he does to me!

Miss Middleton owed it to Sir Willoughby Patterne that she ceased to think
like a girl. When had the great change begun? Glancing back, she could ima-
gine that it was near the period we call in love the first--almost from the
first. And she was led to imagine it through having become barred from ima-
gining her own emotions of that season. They were so dead as not to arise
even under the form of shadows in fancy. Without imputing blame to him, for
she was reasonable so far,
she deemed herself a person entrapped. In a
dream somehow she had committed herself to a life-long imprisonment; and,
oh terror! not in a quiet dungeon; the barren walls closed round her, talk-
ed, called for ardour, expected admiration.

She was unable to say why she could not give it; why she retreated more and
more inwardly; why she invoked the frost to kill her tenderest feelings. She
was in revolt, until a whisper of the day of bells reduced her to blank sub-
mission; out of which a breath of peace drew her to revolt again in gradual
rapid stages, and once more the aspect of that singular day of merry black-
ness felled her to earth. It was alive, it advanced, it had a mouth, it had
a song.
She received letters of bridesmaids writing of it, and felt them as
waves that hurl a log of wreck to shore. Following which afflicting sense of
antagonism to the whole circle sweeping on with her, she considered the pos-
sibility of her being in a commencement of madness. Otherwise might she not
be accused of a capriciousness quite as deplorable to consider? She had writ-
ten to certain of these young ladies not very long since of this gentleman--
how?--in what tone? And was it her madness then?--her recovery now? It seem-
ed to her that to have written of him enthusiastically resembled madness more
than to shudder away from the union; but standing alone, opposing all she has
consented to set in motion, is too strange to a girl for perfect justificat-
ion to be found in reason when she seeks it.

Sir Willoughby was destined himself to supply her with that key of special
insight which revealed and stamped him in a title to fortify her spirit of
revolt, consecrate it almost.

The popular physician of the county and famous anecdotal wit, Dr. Corney,
had been a guest at dinner overnight, and the next day there was talk of
him, and of the resources of his art displayed by Armand Dehors2 on his hear-
ing that he was to minister to the tastes of a gathering of hommes d'esprit.
Sir Willoughby glanced at Dehors with his customary benevolent irony in
spea-king of the persons, great in their way, who served him. "Why he can-
not give us daily so good a dinner, one must, I suppose, go to French nature
to learn. The French are in the habit of making up for all their deficien-
cies with enthusiasm. They have no reverence; if I had said to him, 'I want
something particularly excellent, Dehors', I should have had a commonplace
dinner. But they have enthusiasm on draught, and that is what we must pull
at. Know one Frenchman and you know France. I have had Dehors under my eye
two years, and I can mount his enthusiasm at a word. He took hommes d'esprit
to denote men of letters. Frenchmen have destroyed their nobility, so, for
the sake of excitement, they put up the literary man--not to worship him;
that they can't do; it's to put themselves in a state of effervescence.
They will not have real greatness above them, so they have sham. That they
may justly call it equality, perhaps! Ay, for all your shake of the head,
my good Vernon! You see, human nature comes round again, try as we may to
upset it, and the French only differ from us in wading through blood to
discover that they are at their old trick once more; 'I am your equal,
sir, your born equal. Oh! you are a man of letters? Allow me to be in a
bubble about you!'
Yes, Vernon, and I believe the fellow looks up to you
as the head of the establishment. I am not jealous. Provided he attends
to his functions! There's a French philosopher3 who's for naming the days
of the year after the birthdays of French men of letters. Voltaire-day,
Rousseau-day, Racine-day, so on. Perhaps Vernon will inform us who takes
April 1st."

"A few trifling errors are of no consequence when you are in the vein of
satire," said Vernon. "Be satisfied with knowing a nation in the person
of a cook."

"They may be reading us English off in a jockey!" said Dr. Middleton. "I
believe that jockeys are the exchange we make for cooks; and our neighbo-
urs do not get the best of the bargain."

"No; but, my dear good Vernon, it's nonsensical," said Sir Willoughby;
"why be bawling every day the name of men of letters?"

"Philosophers."

"Well, philosophers."

"Of all countries and times. And
they are the benefactors of humanity."

"Bene--!" Sir Willoughby's derisive laugh broke the word. "There's a pre-
tension in all that, irreconcilable with English sound sense
. Surely you
see it?"


"We might," said Vernon, "if you like, give alternative titles to the
days, or have alternating days, devoted to our great families that per-
formed meritorious deeds upon such a day."

The rebel Clara, delighting in his banter, was heard: "Can we furnish
sufficient?"

"A poet or two could help us."

"Perhaps a statesman," she suggested.

"A pugilist, if wanted."


"For blowy days," observed Dr. Middleton, and hastily in penitence pick-
ed up the conversation he had unintentionally prostrated, with a general
remark on new-fangled notions, and a word aside to Vernon; which created
the blissful suspicion in Clara that her father was indisposed to second
Sir Willoughby's opinions even when sharing them.


Sir Willoughby had led the conversation. Displeased that the lead should
be withdrawn from him, he turned to Clara and related one of the after-
dinner anecdotes of Dr. Corney; and another, with a vast deal of human
nature in it, concerning a valetudinarian gentleman, whose wife chanced
to be desperately ill, and he went to the physicians assembled in consul-
tation outside the sick-room, imploring them by all he valued, and in
tears, to save the poor patient for him, saying: "She is everything to
me, everything; and if she dies I am compelled to run the risks of marr-
ying again; I must marry again; for she has accustomed me so to the lit-
tle attentions of a wife, that in truth I can't. I can't lose her! She
must be saved!" And the loving husband of any devoted wife wrung his
hands.

"Now, there, Clara, there you have the Egoist," added Sir Willoughby.
"That is the perfect Egoist. You see what he comes to--and his wife!
The man was utterly unconscious of giving vent to the grossest selfish-
ness."

"An Egoist!" said Clara.

"Beware of marrying an Egoist, my dear!" He bowed gallantly; and so
blindly fatuous did he appear to her, that she could hardly believe
him guilty of uttering the words she had heard from him, and kept her
eyes on him vacantly till she came to a sudden full stop in the thoughts
directing her gaze. She looked at Vernon, she looked at her father, and
at the ladies Eleanor and Isabel.
None of them saw the man in the word,
none noticed the word; yet this word was her medical herb, her illumi-
nating lamp, the key of him (and, alas, but she thought it by feeling
her need of one), the advocate pleading in apology for her. Egoist!
She beheld him--unfortunate, self-designated man that he was!--in his
good qualities as well as bad under the implacable lamp, and his good
were drenched in his first person singular. His generosity roared of I
louder than the rest.
Conceive him at the age of Dr. Corney's hero:
"Pray, save my wife for me. I shall positively have to get another if
I lose her, and one who may not love me half so well, or understand the
peculiarities of my character and appreciate my attitudes." He was in
his thirty-second year, therefore a young man, strong and healthy, yet
his garrulous return to his principal theme, his emphasis on I and me,
lent him the seeming of an old man spotted with decaying youth.

"Beware of marrying an Egoist."

Would he help her to escape? The idea of the scene ensuing upon her pet-
ition for release, and the
being dragged round the walls of his egoism,
and having her head knocked against the corners, alarmed her with sensa-
tions of sickness.


There was the example of Constantia. But that desperate young lady had
been assisted by a gallant, loving gentleman; she had met a Captain Ox-
ford.

Clara brooded on those two until they seemed heroic. She questioned her-
self. Could she . . . ? were one to come? She shut her eyes in languor,
leaning the wrong way of her wishes, yet unable to say No.

Sir Willoughby had positively said beware! Marrying him would be a deed
committed in spite of his express warning. She went so far as to conceive
him subsequently saying: "I warned you."
She conceived the state of marr-
iage with him as that of a woman tied not to a man of heart, but to an
obelisk lettered all over with hieroglyphics, and everlastingly hearing
him expound them, relishing renewing his lectures on them.

Full surely this immovable stone-man would not release her. This petrifa-
ction of egoism would from amazedly to austerely refuse the petition.
His
pride would debar him from understanding her desire to be released. And
if she resolved on it, without doing it straightway in Constantia's mann-
er, the miserable bewilderment of her father, for whom such a complicat-
ion would be a tragic dilemma, had to be thought of. Her father, with all
his tenderness for his child, would make a stand on the point of honour;
though certain to yield to her, he would be distressed in a tempest of
worry; and Dr. Middleton thus afflicted threw up his arms, he shunned
books, shunned speech, and resembled a castaway on the ocean, with no-
thing between himself and his calamity. As for the world, it would be
barking at her heels. She might call the man she wrenched her hand from,
Egoist; jilt, the world would call her. She dwelt bitterly on her agree-
ment with Sir Willoughby
regarding the world, laying it to his charge
that her garden had become a place of nettles, her horizon an unlighted
fourth side of a square.


Clara passed from person to person visiting the Hall. There was universal,
and as she was compelled to see, honest admiration of the host. Not a soul
had a suspicion of his cloaked nature. Her agony of hypocrisy in accepting
their compliments as the bride of Sir Willoughby Patterne was poorly moder-
ated by contempt of them for their infatuation. She tried to cheat herself
with the thought that they were right and that she was the foolish and wick-
ed inconstant. In her anxiety to strangle the rebelliousness which had been
communicated from her mind to her blood, and was present with her whether
her mind was in action or not, she encouraged the ladies Eleanor and Isabel
to magnify the fictitious man of their idolatry, hoping that she might en-
ter into them imaginatively, that she might to some degree subdue herself
to the necessity of her position. If she partly succeeded in stupefying her
antagonism, five minutes of him undid the work.

He requested her to wear the Patterne pearls for a dinner-party of grand la-
dies, telling her that he would commission Miss Isabel to take them to her.
Clara begged leave to decline them, on the plea of having no right to wear
them. He laughed at her modish modesty. "But really it might almost be class-
ed with affectation," said he. "I give you the right. Virtually you are my
wife."


"No."

"Before heaven?"

"No. We are not married."

"As my betrothed, will you wear them, to please me?"

"I would rather not. I cannot wear borrowed jewels. These I cannot wear. For-
give me, I cannot. And, Willoughby," she said, scorning herself for want of
fortitude in not keeping to the simply blunt provocative refusal,
"does one
not look like a victim decked for the sacrifice?--the garlanded heifer you
see on Greek vases, in that array of jewellery?"


"My dear Clara!" exclaimed the astonished lover, "how can you term them bor-
rowed, when they are the Patterne jewels, our family heirloom pearls, unmatch-
ed, I venture to affirm, decidedly in my county and many others, and passing
to the use of the mistress of the house in the natural course of things?"


"They are yours, they are not mine."

"Prospectively they are yours."

"It would be to anticipate the fact to wear them."

"With my consent, my approval? at my request?"

"I am not yet . . . I never may be . . ."

"My wife?" He laughed triumphantly, and silenced her by manly smothering.

Her scruple was perhaps an honourable one, he said. Perhaps the jewels were
safer in their iron box. He had merely intended a surprise and gratification
to her.

Courage was coming to enable her to speak more plainly, when his discontinu-
ing to insist on her wearing the jewels, under an appearance of deference of
her wishes, disarmed her by touching her sympathies.

She said, however, "I fear we do not often agree, Willoughby."

"When you are a little older!" was the irritating answer.

"It would then be too late to make the discovery."

"The discovery, I apprehend, is not imperative, my love."

"It seems to me that our minds are opposed."

"I should," said he, "have been awake to it at a single indication, be sure."

"But I know," she pursued, "I have learned that the ideal of conduct for wo-
men is to subject their minds to the part of an accompaniment."

"For women, my love? my wife will be in natural harmony with me."

"Ah!" She compressed her lips. The yawn would come. "I am sleepier here than
anywhere."

"Ours, my Clara, is the finest air of the kingdom. It has the effect of sea-
air."

"But if I am always asleep here?"

"We shall have to make a public exhibition of the Beauty."

This dash of his liveliness defeated her.

She left him, feeling the contempt of the brain feverishly quickened and
fine-pointed, for the brain chewing the cud in the happy pastures of unawake-
dness.
So violent was the fever, so keen her introspection, that she spared
few, and Vernon was not among them. Young Crossjay, whom she considered the
least able of all to act as an ally, was the only one she courted with a
real desire to please him, he was the one she affectionately envied; he was
the youngest, the freest, he had the world before him, and he did not know
how horrible the world was, or could be made to look. She loved the boy
from expecting nothing of him. Others, Vernon Whitford, for instance, could
help, and moved no hand.
He read her case. A scrutiny so penetrating under
its air of abstract thoughtfulness, though his eyes did but rest on her a
second or two, signified that he read her line by line, and to the end--ex-
cepting what she thought of him for probing her with that sharp steel of
insight without a purpose.


She knew her mind's injustice. It was her case, her lamentable case--the im-
patient panic-stricken nerves of a captured wild creature which cried for
help. She exaggerated her sufferings to get strength to throw them off, and
lost it in the recognition that they were exaggerated: and out of the con-
flict issued recklessness, with a cry as wild as any coming of madness; for
she did not blush in saying to herself. "If some one loved me!" Before hear-
ing of Constantia, she had mused upon liberty as a virgin Goddess--men were
out of her thoughts; even the figure of a rescuer, if one dawned in her mind,
was more angel than hero.
That fair childish maidenliness had ceased. With
her body straining in her dragon's grasp, with the savour of loathing, una-
ble to contend, unable to speak aloud, she began to speak to herself, and
all the health of her nature made her outcry womanly: "If I were loved!"--
not for the sake of love, but for free breathing; and her utterance of it
was to insure life and enduringness
to the wish, as the yearning of a mother
on a drowning ship is to get her infant to shore. "If some noble gentleman
could see me as I am and not disdain to aid me!
Oh! to be caught up out of
this prison of thorns and brambles.
I cannot tear my own way out. I am a co-
ward. My cry for help confesses that. A beckoning of a finger would change
me, I believe.
I could fly bleeding and through hootings to a comrade. Oh!
a comrade! I do not want a lover. I should find another Egoist, not so bad,
but enough to make me take a breath like death. I could follow a soldier,
like poor Sally or Molly. He stakes his life for his country, and a woman
may be proud of the worst of men who do that.
Constantia met a soldier. Per-
haps she prayed and her prayer was answered. She did ill. But, oh, how I
love her for it! His name was Harry Oxford. Papa would call him her Perseus.4
She must have felt that there was no explaining what she suffered. She had
only to act, to plunge. First she fixed her mind on Harry Oxford. To be able
to speak his name and see him awaiting her, must have been relief, a reprieve.
She did not waver, she cut the links, she signed herself over. Oh, brave
girl! what do you think of me? But I have no Harry Whitford,
5 I am alone. Let
anything be said against women; we must be very bad to have such bad things
written of us: only, say this, that to ask them to sign themselves over by
oath and ceremony, because of an ignorant promise, to the man they have been
mistaken in, is . . . it is--"
the sudden consciousness that she had put an-
other name for Oxford, struck her a buffet, drowning her in crimson.



CHAPTER 11. The Double-Blossom Wild Cherry-Tree



Sir Willoughby chose a moment when Clara was with him and he had a good
retreat through folding-windows to the lawn, in case of cogency on the
enemy's part, to attack his cousin regarding the preposterous plot to
upset the family by a scamper to London: "By the way, Vernon, what is
this you've been mumbling to everybody save me, about leaving us to
pitch yourself into the stew-pot and be made broth of? London is no bet-
ter, and you are fit for considerably better. Don't, I beg you, continue
to annoy me. Take a run abroad, if you are restless. Take two or three
months, and join us as we are travelling home; and then think of settl-
ing, pray. Follow my example, if you like. You can have one of my cot-
tages, or a place built for you. Anything to keep a man from destroying
the sense of stability about one. In London, my dear old fellow, you lose
your identity. What are you there? I ask you, what? One has the feeling
of the house crumbling when a man is perpetually for shifting and cannot
fix himself. Here you are known, you can study at your ease; up in London
you are nobody; I tell you honestly, I feel it myself, a week of London
literally drives me home to discover the individual where I left him. Be
advised. You don't mean to go."


"I have the intention," said Vernon.

"Why?"

"I've mentioned it to you."

"To my face?"

"Over your shoulder is generally the only chance you give me."

"You have not mentioned it to me, to my knowledge. As to the reason, I
might hear a dozen of your reasons, and I should not understand one. It's
against your interests and against my wishes. Come, friend, I am not the
only one you distress. Why, Vernon, you yourself have said that the Eng-
lish would be very perfect Jews if they could manage to live on the pat-
riarchal system. You said it, yes, you said it!--but I recollect it clear-
ly. Oh, as for your double-meanings, you said the thing, and you jeered at
the incapacity of English families to live together, on account of bad
temper; and now you are the first to break up our union! I decidedly do
not profess to be a perfect Jew, but I do . . ."

Sir Willoughby caught signs of a probably smiling commerce between his
bride and his cousin. He raised his face, appeared to be consulting his
eyelids, and resolved to laugh:
"Well, I own it. I do like the idea of
living patriarchally."
He turned to Clara. "The Rev. Doctor one of us!"

"My father?" she said.

"Why not?"

"Papa's habits are those of a scholar."

"That you might not be separated from him, my dear!"

Clara thanked Sir Willoughby for the kindness of thinking of her father,
mentally analysing the kindness, in which at least she found no unkindness,
scarcely egoism, though she knew it to be there.


"We might propose it," said he.

"As a compliment?"

"If he would condescend to accept it as a compliment. These great scholars!
. . . And if Vernon goes, our inducement for Dr. Middleton to stay . . . But
it is too absurd for discussion . . . Oh, Vernon, about Master Crossjay; I
will see to it."

He was about to give Vernon his shoulder and step into the garden, when Cla-
ra said, "You will have Crossjay trained for the navy, Willoughby? There is
not a day to lose."

"Yes, yes; I will see to it. Depend on me for holding the young rascal in
view."

He presented his hand to her to lead her over the step to the gravel,
sur-
prised to behold how flushed she was.

She responded to the invitation by putting her hand forth from a bent elbow,
with hesitating fingers. "It should not be postponed, Willoughby."

Her attitude suggested a stipulation before she touched him.


"It's an affair of money, as you know, Willoughby," said Vernon. "If I'm in
London, I can't well provide for the boy for some time to come, or it's not
certain that I can."

"Why on earth should you go?"

"That's another matter. I want you to take my place with him."

"In which case the circumstances are changed. I am responsible for him, and
I have a right to bring him up according to my own prescription."


"We are likely to have one idle lout the more."

"I guarantee to make a gentleman of him."

"We have too many of your gentlemen already."

"You can't have enough, my good Vernon."

"They're the national apology for indolence. Training a penniless boy to be
one of them is nearly as bad as an education in a thieves' den;
he will be
just as much at war with society, if not game for the police."

"Vernon, have you seen Crossjay's father, the now Captain of Marines? I think
you have."

"He's a good man and a very gallant officer."


"And in spite of his qualities he's a cub, and an old cub. He is a captain
now, but he takes that rank very late, you will own. There you have what you
call a good man, undoubtedly a gallant officer, neutralized by the fact that
he is not a gentleman.
Holding intercourse with him is out of the question.
No wonder Government declines to advance him rapidly. Young Crossjay does not
bear your name. He bears mine, and on that point alone I should have a voice
in the settlement of his career. And I say emphatically that a drawing-room
approval of a young man is the best certificate for his general chances in
life.
I know of a City of London merchant of some sort, and I know a firm of
lawyers, who will have none but University men at their office; at least,
they have the preference."


"Crossjay has a bullet head, fit neither for the University nor the drawing-
room," said Vernon; "equal to fighting and dying for you, and that's all."


Sir Willoughby contented himself with replying, "The lad is a favourite of
mine."

His anxiety to escape a rejoinder caused him to step into the garden, leav-
ing Clara behind him. "My love!" said he, in apology, as he turned to her.
She could not look stern, but she had a look without a dimple to soften it,
and her eyes shone.
For she had wagered in her heart that the dialogue she
provoked upon Crossjay would expose the Egoist. And there were other motives,
wrapped up and intertwisted, unrecognizable, sufficient to strike her with
worse than the flush of her self-knowledge of wickedness when she detained
him to speak of Crossjay before Vernon.

At last it had been seen that she was conscious of suffering in her associa-
tion with this Egoist! Vernon stood for the world taken into her confidence.
The world, then, would not think so ill of her, she thought hopefully, at
the same time that she thought most evilly of herself.
But self-accusations
were for the day of reckoning; she would and must have the world with her,
or the belief that it was coming to her, in the terrible struggle she fore-
saw within her horizon of self, now her utter boundary.
She needed it for
the inevitable conflict.
Little sacrifices of her honesty might be made.
Considering how weak she was, how solitary, how dismally entangled, daily
disgraced beyond the power of any veiling to conceal from her fiery sensa-
tions, a little hypocrisy was a poor girl's natural weapon. She crushed her
conscientious mind with the assurance that it was magnifying trifles:
not
entirely unaware that she was thereby preparing it for a convenient blind-
ness in the presence of dread alternatives; but the pride of laying such
stress on small sins gave her purity a blush of pleasure and overcame the
inner warning. In truth she dared not think evilly of herself for long,
sailing into battle as she was. Nuns and anchorites may; they have leisure.
She regretted the forfeits she had to pay for self-assistance, and, if it
might be won, the world's; regretted, felt the peril of the loss, and took
them up and flung them.


"You see, old Vernon has no argument," Willoughby said to her.

He drew her hand more securely on his arm to make her sensible that she
leaned on a pillar of strength.

"Whenever the little brain is in doubt, perplexed, undecided which course to
adopt, she will come to me, will she not?
I shall always listen," he resumed,
soothingly. "My own!
and I to you when the world vexes me. So we round our
completeness.
You will know me; you will know me in good time. I am not a
mystery to those to whom I unfold myself. I do not pretend to mystery: yet,
I will confess, your home--your heart's--Willoughby is not exactly identical
with the Willoughby before the world. One must be armed against that rough
beast."

Certain is the vengeance of the young upon monotony; nothing more certain.
They do not scheme it, but
sameness is a poison to their systems; and venge-
ance is their heartier breathing, their stretch of the limbs, run in the fields;
nature avenges them.


"When does Colonel De Craye arrive?" said Clara.

"Horace? In two or three days. You wish him to be on the spot to learn his
part, my love?"

She had not flown forward to the thought of Colonel De Craye's arrival; she
knew not why she had mentioned him; but now she flew back, shocked, first in-
to shadowy subterfuge, and then into the criminal's dock.

"I do not wish him to be here. I do not know that he has a part to learn. I
have no wish. Willoughby, did you not say I should come to you and you would
listen?--will you listen? I am so commonplace that I shall not be understood
by you unless you take my words for the very meaning of the words. I am unwor-
thy.
I am volatile. I love my liberty. I want to be free . . ."

"Flitch!" he called.

It sounded necromantic.

"Pardon me, my love," he said. "The man you see yonder violates my express in-
junction that he is not to come on my grounds,
and here I find him on the bor-
ders of my garden!"

Sir Willoughby waved his hand to the abject figure of a man standing to inter-
cept him.

"Volatile, unworthy, liberty--my dearest!" he bent to her when the man had ap-
peased him by departing, "you are at liberty within the law, like all good wo-
men; I shall control and direct your volatility; and your sense of worthiness
must be re-established when we are more intimate; it is timidity. The sense of
unworthiness is a guarantee of worthiness ensuing. I believe I am in the vein
of a sermon! Whose the fault? The sight of that man1 was annoying. Flitch was a
stable-boy, groom, and coachman, like his father before him, at the Hall thirty
years; his father died in our service. Mr. Flitch had not a single grievance
here; only one day the demon seizes him with the notion of bettering himself he
wants his independence, and he presents himself to me with a story of a shop in
our county town.--
Flitch! remember, if you go you go for good.--Oh, he quite
comprehended.--Very well; good-bye, Flitch;--the man was respectful: he looked
the fool he was very soon to turn out to be.
Since then, within a period of sev-
eral years, I have had him, against my express injunctions, ten times on my
grounds.
It's curious to calculate. Of course the shop failed, and Flitch's in-
dependence consists in walking about with his hands in his empty pockets,
and
looking at the Hall from some elevation near."


"Is he married? Has he children?" said Clara.

"Nine; and a wife that cannot cook or sew or wash linen."

"You could not give him employment?"

"After his having dismissed himself?"

"It might be overlooked."

"Here he was happy. He decided to go elsewhere, to be free--of course, of my
yoke. He quitted my service against my warning.
Flitch, we will say, emigrated
with his wife and children, and the ship foundered. He returns, but his place
is filled; he is a ghost here, and I object to ghosts."


"Some work might be found for him."

"It will be the same with old Vernon, my dear. If he goes, he goes for good. It
is the vital principle of my authority to insist on that.
A dead leaf might as
reasonably demand to return to the tree. Once off, off for all eternity!
I am
sorry, but such was your decision, my friend. I have, you see, Clara, elements
in me--"

"Dreadful!"

"Exert your persuasive powers with Vernon. You can do well-nigh what you will
with the old fellow. We have Miss Dale this evening for a week or two. Lead him
to some ideas of her.--
Elements in me, I was remarking, which will no more bear
to be handled carelessly than gunpowder. At the same time, there is no reason
why they should not be respected, managed with some degree of regard for me and
attention to consequences.
Those who have not done so have repented."

"You do not speak to others of the elements in you," said Clara.

"I certainly do not: I have but one bride," was his handsome reply.

"Is it fair to me that you should show me the worst of you?"

"All myself, my own?"

His ingratiating droop and familiar smile rendered "All myself" so affectionat-
ely meaningful in its happy reliance upon her excess of love, that at last she
understood she was expected to worship him and uphold him for whatsoever he might
be, without any estimation of qualities: as indeed love does, or young love does:
as she perhaps did once, before he chilled her senses. That was before her "lit-
tle brain" had become active and had turned her senses to revolt.

It was on the full river of love that Sir Willoughby supposed the whole floating
bulk of his personality to be securely sustained; and therefore it was that, be-
lieving himself swimming at his ease, he discoursed of himself.


She went straight away from that idea with her mental exclamation: "Why does he
not paint himself in brighter colours to me!" and the question: "Has he no ideal
of generosity and chivalry?"

But the unfortunate gentleman imagined himself to be loved, on Love's very bosom.
He fancied that everything relating to himself excited maidenly curiosity, woma-
nly reverence, ardours to know more of him, which he was ever willing to satisfy
by repeating the same things.
His notion of women was the primitive black and
white: there are good women, bad women; and he possessed a good one. His high
opinion of himself fortified the belief that Providence, as a matter of justice
and fitness, must necessarily select a good one for him--or what are we to think
of Providence?
And this female, shaped by that informing hand, would naturally
be in harmony with him, from the centre of his profound identity to the raying
circle of his variations. Know the centre, you know the circle, and you discover
that the variations are simply characteristics, but you must travel on the rays
from the circle to get to the centre. Consequently Sir Willoughby put Miss Mid-
dleton on one or other of these converging lines from time to time. Us, too, he
drags into the deeps, but when we have harpooned a whale and are attached to the
rope, down we must go; the miracle is to see us rise again.

Women of mixed essences shading off the divine to the considerably lower were
outside his vision of woman. His mind could as little admit an angel in pottery
as a rogue in porcelain. For him they were what they were when fashioned at the
beginning; many cracked, many stained, here and there a perfect specimen design-
ed for the elect of men. At a whisper of the world he shut the prude's door on
them with a slam; himself would have branded them with the letters in the hue
of fire. Privately he did so; and he was constituted by his extreme sensitive-
ness and taste for ultra-feminine refinement to be a severe critic of them dur-
ing the carnival of egoism,
the love-season. Constantia . . . can it be told?
She had been, be it said, a fair and frank young merchant with him in that sea-
son; she was of a nature to be a mother of heroes; she met the salute, almost
half-way, ingenuously unlike the coming mothers of the regiments of marion-
ettes, who retire in vapours, downcast, as by convention; ladies most flatter-
ing to the egoistical gentleman, for they proclaim him the "first". Constantia's
offence had been no greater, but it was not that dramatic performance of purity
which he desired of an affianced lady, and so the offence was great.


The love-season is the carnival of egoism, and it brings the touchstone to our
natures. I speak of love, not the mask, and not of the flutings upon the theme
of love, but of the passion; a flame having, like our mortality, death in it as
well as life, that may or may not be lasting. Applied to Sir Willoughby, as to
thousands of civilized males, the touchstone found him requiring to be dealt
with by his betrothed as an original savage. She was required to play incess-
antly on the first reclaiming chord which led our ancestral satyr to the mea-
sures of the dance, the threading of the maze, and the setting conformably to
his partner before it was accorded to him to spin her with both hands and a
chirrup of his frisky heels.
To keep him in awe and hold him enchained, there
are things she must never do, dare never say, must not think. She must be cloi-
stral. Now, strange and awful though it be to hear, women perceive this require-
ment of them in the spirit of the man; they perceive, too, and it may be grate-
fully, that
they address their performances less to the taming of the green and
prankish monsieur of the forest than to the pacification of a voracious aesthe-
tic gluttony, craving them insatiably, through all the tenses, with shrieks of
the lamentable letter "I" for their purity. Whether they see that it has its
foundation in the sensual, and distinguish the ultra-refined but lineally great-
grandson of the Hoof in this vast and dainty exacting appetite is uncertain.
2
They probably do not; the more the damage; for in the appeasement of the glut-
ton they have to practise much simulation; they are in their way losers like
their ancient mothers.
It is the palpable and material of them still which they
are tempted to flourish, wherewith to invite and allay pursuit: a condition under
which the spiritual, wherein their hope lies, languishes. The capaciously strong
in soul among women will ultimately detect an infinite grossness in the demand
for purity infinite, spotless bloom. Earlier or later they see they have been
victims of the singular Egoist, have worn a mask of ignorance to be named inno-
cent, have turned themselves into market produce for his delight, and have real-
ly abandoned the commodity in ministering to the lust for it, suffered them-
selves to be dragged ages back in playing upon the fleshly innocence of happy
accident to gratify his jealous greed of possession, when it should have been
their task to set the soul above the fairest fortune and the gift of strength
in women beyond ornamental whiteness. Are they not of nature warriors, like men?
--men's mates to bear them heroes instead of puppets? But the devouring male
Egoist prefers them as inanimate overwrought polished pure metal precious ves-
sels, fresh from the hands of the artificer, for him to walk away with hugging,
call all his own, drink of, and fill and drink of, and forget that he stole them.


This running off on a by-road is no deviation from Sir Willoughby Patterne and
Miss Clara Middleton. He, a fairly intelligent man, and very sensitive, was
blinded to what was going on within her visibly enough, by her production of
the article he demanded of her sex. He had to leave the fair young lady to ride
to his county-town, and his design was to conduct her through the covert of a
group of laurels, there to revel in her soft confusion. She resisted; nay, res-
olutely returned to the lawn-sward. He contrasted her with Constantia in the am-
orous time, and
rejoiced in his disappointment. He saw the goddess Modesty guar-
ding Purity; and one would be bold to say that he did not hear the Precepts,
3
Purity's aged grannams maternal and paternal, cawing approval of her over their
munching gums.
And if you ask whether a man, sensitive and a lover, can be so
blinded, you are condemned to re-peruse the foregoing paragraph.

Miss Middleton was not sufficiently instructed in the position of her sex to
know that she had plunged herself in the thick of the strife of one of their
great battles. Her personal position, however, was instilling knowledge rapid-
ly, as a disease in the frame teaches us what we are and have to contend with.
Could she marry this man? He was evidently manageable.
Could she condescend to
the use of arts in managing him to obtain a placable life?--a horror of swampy
flatness! So vividly did the sight of that dead heaven over an unvarying level
earth swim on her fancy, that she shut her eyes in angry exclusion
of it as if
it were outside, assailing her; and she nearly stumbled upon young Crossjay.


"Oh, have I hurt you?" he cried.

"No," said she, "it was my fault. Lead me somewhere away from everybody."

The boy took her hand, and she resumed her thoughts; and, pressing his fingers
and feeling warm to him both for his presence and silence, so does the blood in
youth lead the mind, even cool and innocent blood, even with a touch, that she
said to herself, "And if I marry, and then . . . Where will honour be then? I marry
him to be true to my word of honour, and if then . . . !" An intolerable languor
caused her to sigh profoundly. It is written as she thought it; she thought in
blanks, as girls do, and some women. A shadow of the male Egoist is in the
chamber of their brains overawing them.


"Were I to marry, and to run!" There is the thought; she is offered up to your
mercy. We are dealing with a girl feeling herself desperately situated, and not
a fool.

"I'm sure you're dead tired, though," said Crossjay.

"No, I am not; what makes you think so?" said Clara.

"I do think so."

"But why do you think so?"

"You're so hot."

"What makes you think that?"

"You're so red."

"So are you, Crossjay."

"I'm only red in the middle of the cheeks, except when I've been running. And
then you talk to yourself, just as boys do when they are blown."


"Do they?"

"They say: 'I know I could have kept up longer', or, 'my buckle broke', all to
themselves, when they break down running."

"And you have noticed that?"

"And, Miss Middleton, I don't wish you were a boy, but I should like to live
near you all my life and be a gentleman.
I'm coming with Miss Dale this evening
to stay at the Hall and be looked after, instead of stopping with her cousin
who takes care of her father. Perhaps you and I'll play chess at night."

"At night you will go to bed, Crossjay."


"Not if I have Sir Willoughby to catch hold of. He says I'm an authority on
birds' eggs. I can manage rabbits and poultry. Isn't a farmer a happy man? But
he doesn't marry ladies. A cavalry officer has the best chance."

"But you are going to be a naval officer."

"I don't know. It's not positive.
I shall bring my two dormice, and make them
perform gymnastics on the dinnertable. They're such dear little things.
Naval
officers are not like Sir Willoughby."

"No, they are not," said Clara, "they give their lives to their country."

"And then they're dead," said Crossjay.

Clara wished Sir Willoughby were confronting her: she could have spoken.

She asked the boy where Mr. Whitford was. Crossjay pointed very secretly in
the direction of the double-blossom wild-cherry. Coming within gaze of the
stem, she beheld Vernon stretched at length, reading, she supposed; asleep,
she discovered: his finger in the leaves of a book; and what book? She had a
curiosity to know the title of the book he would read beneath these boughs,
and grasping Crossjay's hand fast
she craned her neck, as one timorous of a
fall in peeping over chasms, for a glimpse of the page; but immediately, and
still with a bent head, she turned her face to where the load of virginal blo-
ssom, whiter than summer-cloud on the sky, showered and drooped and clustered
so thick as to claim colour and seem, like higher Alpine snows in noon-sun-
light, a flush of white. From deep to deeper heavens of white, her eyes perch-
ed and soared. Wonder lived in her. Happiness in the beauty of the tree press-
ed to supplant it, and was more mortal and narrower. Reflection came, con-
tracting her vision and weighing her to earth.
Her reflection was: "He must
be good who loves to be and sleep beneath the branches of this tree!" She
would rather have clung to her first impression:
wonder so divine, so unboun-
ded, was like soaring into homes of angel-crowded space, sweeping through
folded and on to folded white fountain-bow of wings, in innumerable columns;
but the thought of it was no recovery of it; she might as well have striven
to be a child. The sensation of happiness promised to be less short-lived in
memory, and would have been had not her present disease of the longing for
happiness ravaged every corner of it for the secret of its existence.
The
reflection took root. "He must be good . . . !" That reflection vowed to en-
dure. Poor by comparison with what it displaced, it presented itself to her
as conferring something on him, and she would not have had it absent though
it robbed her.


She looked down. Vernon was dreamily looking up.

She plucked Crossjay hurriedly away, whispering that he had better not wake
Mr. Whitford, and then she proposed to reverse their previous chase, and she
be the hound and he the hare. Crossjay fetched a magnificent start. On his
glancing behind he saw Miss Middleton walking listlessly, with a hand at her
side.

"There's a regular girl!" said he in some disgust; for his theory was, that
girls always have something the matter with them to spoil a game.




CHAPTER 12. Miss Middleton and Mr. Vernon Whitford



Looking upward, not quite awakened out of a transient doze, at a fair head
circled in dazzling blossom, one may temporize awhile with common sense, and
take it for a vision after the eyes have regained direction of the mind. Ver-
non did so until the plastic vision interwound with reality alarmingly. This is
the embrace of a Melusine
1 who will soon have the brain if she is encourag-
ed. Slight dalliance with her makes the very diminutive seem as big as life. He
jumped to his feet, rattled his throat, planted firmness on his brows and
mouth, and attacked the dream-giving earth with tremendous long strides, that
his blood might be lively at the throne of understanding.
Miss Middleton and
young Crossjay were within hail: it was her face he had seen, and still the
idea of a vision, chased from his reasonable wits, knocked hard and again for
readmission. There was little for a man of humble mind toward the sex to think
of in the fact of a young lady's bending rather low to peep at him asleep, ex-
cept that the poise of her slender figure, between an air of spying and of
listening, vividly recalled his likening of her to the Mountain Echo. Man or
maid sleeping in the open air provokes your tiptoe curiosity. Men, it is
known, have in that state cruelly been kissed; and no rights are bestowed on
them, they are teased by a vapourish rapture; what has happened to them the
poor fellows barely divine: they have a crazy step from that day.
But a vis-
ion is not so distracting; it is our own, we can put it aside and return to
it, play at rich and poor with it, and are not to be summoned before your
laws and rules for secreting it in our treasury. Besides, it is the golden
key of all the possible; new worlds expand beneath the dawn it brings us.
Just outside reality, it illumines, enriches and softens real things;--and
to desire it in preference to the simple fact is a damning proof of enerva-
tion.


Such was Vernon's winding up of his brief drama of fantasy. He was aware of
the fantastical element in him and soon had it under. Which of us who is of
any worth is without it? He had not much vanity to trouble him, and passion
was quiet, so his task was not gigantic. Especially be it remarked, that
he
was a man of quick pace, the sovereign remedy for the dispersing of the men-
tal fen-mist.
He had tried it and knew that nonsense is to be walked off.

Near the end of the park young Crossjay overtook him, and after acting the
pumped one a trifle more than needful, cried: "I say, Mr. Whitford, there's
Miss Middleton with her handkerchief out."

"What for, my lad?" said Vernon.

"I'm sure I don't know. All of a sudden she bumped down. And, look what fel-
lows girls are!--here she comes as if nothing had happened, and I saw her
feel at her side."

Clara was shaking her head to express a denial. "I am not at all unwell,"
she said, when she came near. "I guessed Crossjay's business in running up
to you; he's a good-for-nothing, officious boy. I was tired, and rested for
a moment."


Crossjay peered at her eyelids. Vernon looked away and said: "Are you too
tired for a stroll?"

"Not now."

"Shall it be brisk?"

"You have the lead."

He led at a swing of the legs that accelerated young Crossjay's to the dou-
ble, but she with her short, swift, equal steps glided along easily on a
fine by his shoulder, and he groaned to think that of all the girls of
earth this one should have been chosen for the position of fine lady.

"You won't tire me," said she, in answer to his look.

"You remind me of the little Piedmontese Bersaglieri on the march."2

"I have seen them trotting into Como from Milan."

"They cover a quantity of ground in a day, if the ground's flat. You want
another sort of step for the mountains."

"I should not attempt to dance up."

"They soon tame romantic notions of them."

"The mountains tame luxurious dreams, you mean. I see how they are conquer-
ed. I can plod. Anything to be high up!"


"Well, there you have the secret of good work: to plod on and still keep
the passion fresh."


"Yes, when we have an aim in view."

"We always have one."

"Captives have?"

"More than the rest of us."

Ignorant man! What of wives miserably wedded? What aim in view have these
most woeful captives? Horror shrouds it, and shame reddens through the folds
to tell of innermost horror.


"Take me back to the mountains, if you please, Mr. Whitford," Miss Middleton
said, fallen out of sympathy with him.
"Captives have death in view, but that
is not an aim."


"Why may not captives expect a release?"

"Hardly from a tyrant."

"If you are thinking of tyrants, it may be so. Say the tyrant dies?"

"The prison-gates are unlocked and out comes a skeleton. But why will you
talk of skeletons! The very name of mountain seems life in comparison with
any other subject."

"I assure you," said Vernon, with the fervour of a man lighting on an actual
truth in his conversation with a young lady, "it's not the first time I have
thought you would be at home in the Alps. You would walk and climb as well
as you dance."

She liked to hear Clara Middleton talked of, and of her having been thought
of, and
giving him friendly eyes, barely noticing that he was in a glow, she
said: "If you speak so encouragingly I shall fancy we are near an ascent."


"I wish we were," said he.

"We can realize it by dwelling on it, don't you think?"

"We can begin climbing."


"Oh!" she squeezed herself shadowily.

"Which mountain shall it be?" said Vernon, in the right real earnest tone.

Miss Middleton suggested a lady's mountain first, for a trial. "And then,
if you think well enough of me--if I have not stumbled more than twice, or
asked more than ten times how far it is from the top, I should like to be
promoted to scale a giant."

They went up to some of the lesser heights of Switzerland and Styria,
3 and
settled in South Tyrol, the young lady preferring this district for the stre-
nuous exercise of her climbing powers because she loved Italian colour; and
it seemed an exceedingly good reason to the genial imagination she had awake-
ned in Mr. Whitford. "Though," said he, abruptly, "you are not so much Ital-
ian as French."

She hoped she was English, she remarked.

"Of course you are English; . . . yes." He moderated his ascent with the
halting affirmative.

She inquired wonderingly why he spoke in apparent hesitation.


"Well, you have French feet, for example: French wits, French impatience,"
he lowered his voice, "and charm"

"And love of compliments."

"Possibly. I was not conscious of paying them"

"And a disposition to rebel?"

"To challenge authority, at least."

"That is a dreadful character."

"At all events, it is a character."

"Fit for an Alpine comrade?"

"For the best of comrades anywhere."

"It is not a piece of drawing-room sculpture: that is the most one can say
for it!" she dropped a dramatic sigh.

Had he been willing she would have continued the theme, for
the pleasure a
poor creature long gnawing her sensations finds in seeing herself from the
outside
. It fell away. After a silence, she could not renew it; and he was
evidently indifferent, having to his own satisfaction dissected and stamped
her a foreigner. With it passed her holiday. She had forgotten Sir Willough-
by: she remembered him and said. "You knew Miss Durham, Mr. Whitford?"

He answered briefly, "I did."

"Was she? . . ." some hot-faced inquiry peered forth and withdrew.


"Very handsome," said Vernon.

"English?"

"Yes; the dashing style of English."

"Very courageous."

"I dare say she had a kind of courage."

"She did very wrong."

"I won't say no. She discovered a man more of a match with herself; luckily
not too late. We're at the mercy . . ."

"Was she not unpardonable?"

"I should be sorry to think that of any one."

"But you agree that she did wrong."

"I suppose I do. She made a mistake and she corrected it. If she had not,
she would have made a greater mistake."

"The manner. . ."

"That was bad--as far as we know. The world has not much right to judge. A
false start must now and then be made. It's better not to take notice of it,
I think."

"What is it we are at the mercy of?"

"Currents of feeling, our natures. I am the last man to preach on the sub-
ject: young ladies are enigmas to me; I fancy they must have a natural per-
ception of the husband suitable to them, and the reverse; and if they have
a certain degree of courage, it follows that they please themselves."

"They are not to reflect on the harm they do?" said Miss Middleton.

"By all means let them reflect; they hurt nobody by doing that."

"But a breach of faith!"

"If the faith can be kept through life, all's well."


"And then there is the cruelty, the injury!"

"I really think that if a young lady came to me to inform me she must break
our engagement--I have never been put to the proof, but to suppose it:--I
should not think her cruel."

"Then she would not be much of a loss."

"And I should not think so for this reason, that it is impossible for a girl
to come to such a resolution without previously showing signs of it to her
. . . the man she is engaged to. I think it unfair to engage a girl for long-
er than a week or two, just time enough for her preparations and publica-
tions."


"If he is always intent on himself, signs are likely to be unheeded by him,"
said Miss Middleton.

He did not answer, and she said, quickly:

"It must always be a cruelty. The world will think so. It is an act of in-
constancy."

"If they knew one another well before they were engaged."

"Are you not singularly tolerant?" said she.

To which Vernon replied with airy cordiality:--

"In some cases it is right to judge by results;
we'll leave severity to the
historian, who is bound to be a professional moralist and put pleas of human
nature out of the scales.
The lady in question may have been to blame, but no
hearts were broken, and here we have four happy instead of two miserable."
His persecuting geniality of countenance appealed to her to confirm this
judgement by results, and she nodded and said: "Four," as the awe-stricken
speak. From that moment until young Crossjay fell into the green-rutted lane
from a tree, and was got on his legs half stunned, with a hanging lip and a
face like the inside of a flayed eel-skin, she might have been walking in the
desert, and alone, for the pleasure she had in society.

They led the fated lad home between them, singularly drawn together by their
joint ministrations to him, in which her delicacy had to stand fire, and sweet
good-nature made naught of any trial.
They were hand in hand with the little
fellow as physician and professional nurse.



CHAPTER 13. The First Effort After Freedom



Crossjay's accident was only another proof, as Vernon told Miss Dale, that
the boy was but half monkey.

"Something fresh?" she exclaimed on seeing him brought into the Hall, where
she had just arrived.

"Simply a continuation," said Vernon.
"He is not so prehensile as he should
be. He probably in extremity relies on the tail that has been docked. Are you
a man, Crossjay?"

"I should think I was!" Crossjay replied, with an old man's voice, and a ghas-
tly twitch for a smile overwhelmed the compassionate ladies.

Miss Dale took possession of him. "You err in the other direction," she remar-
ked to Vernon.

"But a little bracing roughness is better than spoiling him." said Miss Mid-
dleton.

She did not receive an answer, and she thought: "Whatever Willoughby does is
right, to this lady!"

Clara's impression was renewed when Sir Willoughby sat beside Miss Dale in
the evening; and certainly she had never seen him shine so picturesquely as
in his bearing with Miss Dale. The sprightly sallies of the two, their rally-
ings, their laughter, and her fine eyes, and his handsome gestures, won at-
tention like a fencing match of a couple keen with the foils to display the
mutual skill. And it was his design that she should admire the display; he
was anything but obtuse; enjoying the match as he did and necessarily did to
act so excellent a part in it, he meant the observer to see the man he was
with a lady not of raw understanding. So it went on from day to day for
three days.

She fancied once that she detected the agreeable stirring of the brood of
jealousy, and found it neither in her heart nor in her mind, but in the book
of wishes, well known to the young where they write matter which may some-
times be independent of both those volcanic albums.

Jealousy would have been a relief to her, a dear devil's aid. She studied the
complexion of jealousy to delude herself with the sense of the spirit being
in her, and all the while she laughed, as at a vile theatre whereof the im-
perfection of the stage machinery rather than the performance is the wretched
source of amusement.


Vernon had deeply depressed her. She was hunted by the figure 4. Four happy
instead of two miserable
. He had said it, involving her among the four; and
so it must be, she considered, and she must be as happy as she could; for
not only was he incapable of perceiving her state, he was unable to imagine
other circumstances to surround her. How, to be just to him, were they imag-
inable by him or any one?


Her horrible isolation of secrecy in a world amiable in unsuspectingness
frightened her. To fling away her secret, to conform, to be unrebellious,
uncritical, submissive, became an impatient desire;
and the task did not ap-
pear so difficult since Miss Dale's arrival. Endearments had been rare, more
formal; living bodily untroubled and unashamed, and, as she phrased it, hav-
ing no one to care for her, she turned insensibly in the direction where she
was due; she slightly imitated Miss Dale's colloquial responsiveness. To tell
truth, she felt vivacious in a moderate way with Willoughby after seeing him
with Miss Dale.
Liberty wore the aspect of a towering prison-wall; the despe-
rate undertaking of climbing one side and dropping to the other was more than
she, unaided, could resolve on; consequently, as no one cared for her, a worth-
less creature might as well cease dreaming and stipulating for the fulfilment
of her dreams;
she might as well yield to her fate; nay, make the best of it.

Sir Willoughby was flattered and satisfied. Clara's adopted vivacity proved
his thorough knowledge of feminine nature; nor did her feebleness in sustain-
ing it displease him. A steady look of hers had of late perplexed the man,
and he was comforted by signs of her inefficiency where he excelled. The ef-
fort and the failure were both of good omen.


But she could not continue the effort. He had overweighted her too much for
the mimicry of a sentiment to harden and have an apparently natural place a-
mong her impulses;
and now an idea came to her that he might, it might be
hoped, possibly see in Miss Dale, by present contrast, the mate he sought;
by contrast with an unanswering creature like herself, he might perhaps rea-
lize in Miss Dale's greater accomplishments and her devotion to him the merit
of suitability; he might be induced to do her justice. Dim as the loop-hole
was, Clara fixed her mind on it till it gathered light. And as a prelude to
action, she plunged herself into a state of such profound humility, that to
accuse it of being simulated would be venturesome, though it was not positive.

The tempers of the young are liquid fires in isles of quicksand; the precious
metals not yet cooled in a solid earth.
Her compassion for Laetitia was less
forced, but really she was almost as earnest in her self-abasement, for she
had not latterly been brilliant, not even adequate to the ordinary require-
ments of conversation. She had no courage, no wit, no diligence, nothing
that she could distinguish save discontentment like a corroding acid, and
she went so far in sincerity as with a curious shift of feeling to pity the
man plighted to her.
If it suited her purpose to pity Sir Willoughby, she
was not moved by policy, be assured; her needs were her nature, her moods
her mind; she had the capacity to make anything serve her by passing into
it with the glance which discerned its usefulness; and this is how it is
that the young, when they are in trouble, without approaching the elevation
of scientific hypocrites, can teach that able class lessons in hypocrisy.

"Why should not Willoughby be happy?" she said; and the exclamation was push-
ed forth by the second thought: "Then I shall be free!" Still that thought
came second.


The desire for the happiness of Willoughby was fervent on his behalf and
wafted her far from friends and letters to a narrow Tyrolean valley, where
a shallow river ran, with the indentations of a remotely seen army of wind-
ing ranks in column, topaz over the pebbles to hollows of ravishing emerald.
There sat Liberty, after her fearful leap over the prison-wall, at peace to
watch the water and the falls of sunshine on the mountain above, between de-
scending pine-stem shadows. Clara's wish for his happiness, as soon as she
had housed herself in the imagination of her freedom, was of a purity
that
made it seem exceedingly easy for her to speak to him.


The opportunity was offered by Sir Willoughby. Every morning after breakfast
Miss Dale walked across the park to see her father, and on this occasion Sir
Willoughby and Miss Middleton went with her as far as the lake, all three
discoursing of the beauty of various trees, birches, aspens, poplars, beech-
es, then in their new green. Miss Dale loved the aspen, Miss Middleton the
beech, Sir Willoughby the birch, and pretty things were said by each in
praise of the favoured object, particularly by Miss Dale. So much so that
when she had gone on he recalled one of her remarks, and said: "I believe,
if the whole place were swept away to-morrow, Laetitia Dale could recon-
struct it and put those aspens on the north of the lake in number and sit-
uation correctly where you have them now. I would guarantee her description
of it in absence correct."

"Why should she be absent?" said Clara, palpitating.

"Well, why!" returned Sir Willoughby. "As you say, there is no reason why.
The art of life, and mine will be principally a country life--town is not
life, but a tornado whirling atoms--the art is to associate a group of sym-
pathetic friends in our neighbourhood; and it is a fact worth noting that
if ever I feel tired of the place, a short talk with Laetitia Dale refresh-
es it more than a month or two on the Continent. She has the well of enthu-
siasm. And there is a great advantage in having a cultivated person at com-
mand, with whom one can chat of any topic under the sun. I repeat, you have
no need of town if you have friends like Laetitia Dale within call. My moth-
er esteemed her highly."

"Willoughby, she is not obliged to go."

"I hope not. And, my love, I rejoice that you have taken to her. Her fa-
ther's health is poor. She would be a young spinster to live alone in a
country cottage."

"What of your scheme?"

"Old Vernon is a very foolish fellow."

"He has declined?"

"Not a word on the subject! I have only to propose it to be snubbed, I
know."

"You may not be aware how you throw him into the shade with her."

"Nothing seems to teach him the art of dialogue with ladies."

"Are not gentlemen shy when they see themselves outshone?"

"He hasn't it, my love: Vernon is deficient in the lady's tongue."

"I respect him for that."



"Outshone, you say? I do not know of any shining--save to one, who lights
me, path and person!"

The identity of the one was conveyed to her in a bow and a soft pressure.

"Not only has he not the lady's tongue, which I hold to be a man's proper
accomplishment," continued Sir Willoughby, "he cannot turn his advantages
to account. Here has Miss Dale been with him now four days in the house.
They are exactly on the same footing as when she entered it. You ask? I
will tell you. It is this:
it is want of warmth. Old Vernon is a scholar--
and a fish.
Well, perhaps he has cause to be shy of matrimony; but he is a
fish."

"You are reconciled to his leaving you?"

"False alarm! The resolution to do anything unaccustomed is quite beyond
old Vernon."


"But if Mr. Oxford--Whitford . . . your swans coming sailing up the lake,
how beautiful they look when they are indignant! I was going to ask you,
surely men witnessing a marked admiration for some one else will naturally
be discouraged?"

Sir Willoughby stiffened with sudden enlightenment.

Though the word jealousy had not been spoken, the drift of her observa-
tions was clear. Smiling inwardly, he said, and the sentences were not en-
igmas to her: "Surely, too, young ladies . . . a little?--Too far?
But an
old friendship! About the same as the fitting of an old glove to a hand.
Hand and glove have only to meet. Where there is natural harmony you would
not have discord. Ay, but you have it if you check the harmony. My dear
girl! You child!"

He had actually, in this parabolic, and commendable, obscureness, for
which she thanked him in her soul, struck the very point she had not name-
d and did not wish to hear named, but wished him to strike; he was any-
thing but obtuse. His exultation, of the compressed sort, was extreme,

on hearing her cry out:

"Young ladies may be. Oh! not I, not I. I can convince you. Not that. Bel-
ieve me, Willoughby. I do not know what it is to feel that, or anything
like it. I cannot conceive a claim on any one's life--as a claim: or the
continuation of an engagement not founded on perfect, perfect sympathy.
How should I feel it, then? It is, as you say of Mr. Ox--Whitford, beyond
me."

Sir Willoughby caught up the Ox--Whitford.

Bursting with laughter in his joyful pride, he called it a portrait of
old Vernon in society. For she thought a trifle too highly of Vernon, as
here and there a raw young lady does think of the friends of her plighted
man, which is
waste of substance properly belonging to him, as it were,
in the loftier sense, an expenditure in genuflexions to wayside idols of
the reverence she should bring intact to the temple.
Derision instructs
her.

Of the other subject--her jealousy--he had no desire to hear more. She had
winced: the woman had been touched to smarting in the girl: enough. She at-
tempted the subject once, but faintly, and his careless parrying threw her
out. Clara could have bitten her tongue for that reiterated stupid slip on
the name of Whitford; and because she was innocent at heart she persisted
in asking herself how she could be guilty of it.


"You both know the botanic titles of these wild flowers," she said.

"Who?" he inquired.

"You and Miss Dale."

Sir Willoughby shrugged. He was amused.

"No woman on earth will grace a barouche so exquisitely as my Clara."1

"Where?" said she.

"During our annual two months in London. I drive a barouche there, and ven-
ture to prophesy that my equipage will create the greatest excitement of any
in London. I see old Horace De Craye gazing!"

She sighed. She could not drag him to the word, or a hint of it necessary to
her subject.

But there it was; she saw it. She had nearly let it go, and blushed at being
obliged to name it.

"Jealousy, do you mean. Willoughby? the people in London would be jealous?--
Colonel De Craye? How strange! That is a sentiment I cannot understand."

Sir Willoughby gesticulated the "Of course not" of an established assurance
to the contrary.

"Indeed, Willoughby, I do not."

"Certainly not."

He was now in her trap. And he was imagining himself to be anatomizing her
feminine nature.

"Can I give you a proof, Willoughby? I am so utterly incapable of it that--
listen to me--were you to come to me to tell me, as you might, how much bet-
ter suited to you Miss Dale has appeared than I am--and I fear I am not; it
should be spoken plainly; unsuited altogether, perhaps--I would, I beseech
you to believe--you must believe me--give you . . . give you your freedom
instantly; most truly; and engage to speak of you as I should think of you.
Willoughby, you would have no one to praise you in public and in private as
I should, for you would be to me the most honest, truthful, chivalrous gen-
tleman alive. And in that case I would undertake to declare that she would
not admire you more than I; Miss Dale would not; she would not admire you
more than I; not even Miss Dale."

This, her first direct leap for liberty, set Clara panting, and so much had
she to say that the nervous and the intellectual halves of her dashed like
cymbals, dazing and stunning her with the appositeness of things to be said,
and dividing her in indecision as to the cunningest to move him of the many
pressing.


The condition of feminine jealousy stood revealed.



He had driven her farther than he intended.

"Come, let me allay these . . ." he soothed her with hand and voice, while
seeking for his phrase; "these magnified pinpoints.
Now, my Clara! on my
honour! and when I put it forward in attestation, my honour has the most
serious meaning speech can have; ordinarily my word has to suffice for
bonds, promises, or asseverations; on my honour! not merely is there, my
poor child! no ground of suspicion, I assure you, I declare to you, the
fact of the case is the very reverse. Now, mark me; of her sentiments I
cannot pretend to speak; I did not, to my knowledge, originate, I am not
responsible for them, and I am, before the law, as we will say, ignorant
of them; that is, I have never heard a declaration of them, and I, am,
therefore, under pain of the stigma of excessive fatuity, bound to be non-
cognizant. But as to myself I can speak for myself and, on my honour!
Clara--to be as direct as possible, even to baldness, and you know I
loathe it--I could not, I repeat, I could not marry Laetitia Dale! Let
me impress it on you. No flatteries--we are all susceptible more or less--
no conceivable condition could bring it about; no amount of admiration.
She and I are excellent friends; we cannot be more. When you see us toge-
ther, the natural concord of our minds is of course misleading. She is a
woman of genius. I do not conceal, I profess my admiration of her. There
are times when, I confess, I require a Laetitia Dale to bring me out,
give and take.
I am indebted to her for the enjoyment of the duet few
know, few can accord with, fewer still are allowed the privilege of
playing with a human being. I am indebted, I own, and I feel deep grat-
itude; I own to a lively friendship for Miss Dale, but if she is disple-
asing in the sight of my bride by . . . by the breadth of an eyelash,
then . . ."

Sir Willoughby's arm waved Miss Dale off away into outer darkness in the
wilderness.

Clara shut her eyes and rolled her eyeballs in a frenzy of unuttered re-
volt.


But she was not engaged in the colloquy to be an advocate of Miss Dale
or of common humanity.

"Ah!" she said, simply determining that the subject should not drop.

"And, ah!" he mocked her tenderly. "True, though! And who knows better
than my Clara that I require youth, health, beauty, and the other unde-
finable attributes fitting with mine and beseeming the station of the
lady called to preside over my household and represent me?
What says my
other self? my fairer? But you are! my love, you are! Understand my na-
ture rightly, and you . . . "


"I do! I do!" interposed Clara; "if I did not by this time I should be
idiotic. Let me assure you, I understand it. Oh! listen to me: one mo-
ment. Miss Dale regards me as the happiest woman on earth. Willoughby,
if I possessed her good qualities, her heart and mind, no doubt I should
be. It is my wish--you must hear me, hear me out--my wish, my earnest
wish, my burning prayer, my wish to make way for her. She appreciates
you: I do not--to my shame, I do not. She worships you: I do not, I can-
not. You are the rising sun to her. It has been so for years. No one
can account for love; I daresay not for the impossibility of loving
. . . loving where we should; all love bewilders me. I was not created
to understand it. But she loves you, she has pined. I believe it has
destroyed the health you demand as one item in your list. But you, Will-
oughby, can restore that. Travelling, and . . . and your society, the
pleasure of your society would certainly restore it. You look so hand-
some together! She has unbounded devotion! as for me, I cannot idolize.
I see faults: I see them daily. They astonish and wound me. Your pride
would not bear to hear them spoken of, least of all by your wife.
You
warned me to beware--that is, you said, you said something."

Her busy brain missed the subterfuge to cover her slip of the tongue.

Sir Willoughby struck in: "And when I say that the entire concatenation
is based on an erroneous observation of facts, and an erroneous deduc-
tion from that erroneous observation!--? No, no. Have confidence in me.
I propose it to you in this instance, purely to save you from deception.

You are cold, my love? you shivered."

"I am not cold," said Clara. "Some one, I suppose, was walking over my
grave."

The gulf of a caress hove in view like an enormous billow hollowing un-
der the curled ridge.

She stooped to a buttercup; the monster swept by.

"Your grave!" he exclaimed over her head; "my own girl!"

"Is not the orchid naturally a stranger in ground so far away from the
chalk, Willoughby?"


"I am incompetent to pronounce an opinion on such important matters. My
mother had a passion for every description of flower. I fancy I have
some recollection of her scattering the flower you mention over the park."


"If she were living now!"

"We should be happy in the blessing of the most estimable of women, my
Clara."

"She would have listened to me. She would have realized what I mean."

"Indeed, Clara--poor soul!" he murmured to himself, aloud; "indeed you
are absolutely in error. If I have seemed--but I repeat, you are deceiv-
ed. The idea of 'fitness' is a total hallucination. Supposing you--I do
it even in play painfully--entirely out of the way, unthought of. . ."

"Extinct," Clara said low.

"Non-existent for me," he selected a preferable term. "Suppose it; I
should still, in spite of an admiration I have never thought it incum-
bent on me to conceal, still be--I speak emphatically--utterly incapa-
ble of the offer of my hand to Miss Dale.
It may be that she is embed-
ded in my mind as a friend, and nothing but a friend. I received the
stamp in early youth. People have noticed it--we do, it seems, bring
one another out, reflecting, counter-reflecting."


She glanced up at him with a shrewd satisfaction to see that her wick-
ed shaft had stuck.


"You do; it is a common remark," she said. "The instantaneous differ-
ence when she comes near, any one might notice."

"My love," he opened the iron gate into the garden, "you encourage the
naughty little suspicion."

"But it is a beautiful sight, Willoughby. I like to see you together.
I like it as I like to see colours match."

"Very well. There is no harm then. We shall often be together. I like
my fair friend. But the instant!--you have only to express a sentiment
of disapprobation."

"And you dismiss her."


"I dismiss her. That is, as to the word, I constitute myself your echo,
to clear any vestige of suspicion. She goes."

"That is a case of a person doomed to extinction without offending."

"Not without: for whoever offends my bride, my wife, my sovereign lady,
offends me: very deeply offends me."

"Then the caprices of your wife . . ." Clara stamped her foot impercep-
tibly on the lawn-sward, which was irresponsively soft to her fretful-
ness.
She broke from the inconsequent meaningless mild tone of irony,
and said: "Willoughby, women have their honour to swear by equally with
men:--girls have: they have to swear an oath at the altar; may I to you
now? Take it for uttered when I tell you that nothing would make me hap-
pier than your union with Miss Dale. I have spoken as much as I can. Tell
me you release me."

With the well-known screw-smile of duty upholding weariness worn to ina-
nition, he rejoined: "Allow me once more to reiterate, that it is repul-
sive, inconceivable, that I should ever, under any mortal conditions,
bring myself to the point of taking Miss Dale for my wife.
You reduce me
to this perfectly childish protestation--pitiably childish! But, my love,
have I to remind you that you and I are plighted, and that I am an honou-
rable man?"


"I know it, I feel it--release me!" cried Clara.

Sir Willoughby severely reprehended his short-sightedness for seeing but
the one proximate object in the particular attention he had bestowed on
Miss Dale. He could not disavow that they had been marked, and with an
object, and he was distressed by the unwonted want of wisdom through
which he had been drawn to overshoot his object. His design to excite
a touch of the insane emotion in Clara's bosom was too successful, and,
"I was not thinking of her," he said to himself in his candour, contrite.

She cried again: "Will you not, Willoughby--release me?"

He begged her to take his arm.

To consent to touch him while petitioning for a detachment, appeared dis-
cordant to Clara, but, if she expected him to accede, it was right that
she should do as much as she could, and she surrendered her hand at arm's
length,
disdaining the imprisoned fingers.

He pressed them and said: "Dr Middleton is in the library. I see Vernon
is at work with Crossjay in the West-room--the boy has had sufficient for
the day. Now, is it not like old Vernon to drive his books at a cracked
head before it's half mended?"


He signalled to young Crossjay, who was up and out through the folding
windows in a twinkling.

"And you will go in, and talk to Vernon of the lady in question," Sir
Willoughby whispered to Clara.
"Use your best persuasions in our joint
names. You have my warrant for saying that money is no consideration;
house and income are assured. You can hardly have taken me seriously
when I requested you to undertake Vernon before. I was quite in earnest
then as now. I prepare Miss Dale. I will not have a wedding on our wed-
ding-day; but either before or after it, I gladly speed their alliance.
I think now I give you the best proof possible, and though I know that
with women a delusion may be seen to be groundless and still be cher-
ished, I rely on your good sense."


Vernon was at the window and stood aside for her to enter. Sir Willou-
ghby used a gentle insistence with her.

She bent her head as if she were stepping into a cave. So frigid was
she, that a ridiculous dread of calling Mr. Whitford Mr. Oxford was her
only present anxiety when Sir Willoughby had closed the window on them.




CHAPTER 14. Sir Willoughby And Laetitia



"I prepare Miss Dale."

Sir Willoughby thought of his promise to Clara. He trifled awhile with
young Crossjay, and then sent the boy flying, and wrapped himself in med-
itation. So shall you see standing many a statue of statesmen who have
died in harness for their country.

In the hundred and fourth chapter of the thirteenth volume of the Book
of Egoism it is written:
Possession without obligation to the object pos-
sessed approaches felicity.


It is the rarest condition of ownership. For example: the possession of
land is not without obligation both to the soil and the tax-collector;
the possession of fine clothing is oppressed by obligation; gold, jewel-
ry, works of art, enviable household furniture, are positive fetters;
the possession of a wife we find surcharged with obligation. In all
these cases possession is a gentle term for enslavement, bestowing the
sort of felicity attained to by the helot drunk.
1 You can have the joy,
the pride, the intoxication of possession; you can have no free soul.


But there is one instance of possession, and that the most perfect, which
leaves us free, under not a shadow of obligation, receiving ever, never
giving, or if giving,
giving only of our waste; as it were (sauf votre
respect),
2 by form of perspiration, radiation, if you like; unconscious
poral bountifulness;
and it is a beneficent process for the system. Our
possession of an adoring female's worship is this instance.


The soft cherishable Parsee3 is hardly at any season other than prostrate.
She craves nothing save that you continue in being--her sun: which is your
firm constitutional endeavour: and thus you have a most exact alliance;
she supplying spirit to your matter, while at the same time presenting
matter to your spirit, verily a comfortable apposition. The Gods do bless
it.


That they do so indeed is evident in the men they select for such a feli-
citous crown and aureole. Weak men would be rendered nervous by the flat-
tery of a woman's worship; or
they would be for returning it, at least
partially, as though it could be bandied to and fro without emulgence
4 of
the poetry;
or they would be pitiful, and quite spoil the thing. Some
would be for transforming the beautiful solitary vestal flame by the first
effort of the multiplication-table
5 into your hearth-fire of slippered af-
fection. So these men are not they whom the Gods have ever selected, but
rather men of a pattern with themselves, very high and very solid men,
who maintain the crown by holding divinely independent of the great emo-
tion they have sown.


Even for them a pass of danger is ahead, as we shall see in our sample of
one among the highest of them.

A clear approach to felicity had long been the portion of Sir Willoughby
Patterne in his relations with Laetitia Dale.
She belonged to him; he was
quite unshackled by her. She was everything that is good in a parasite,
nothing that is bad.
His dedicated critic she was, reviewing him with a
favour equal to perfect efficiency in her office; and
whatever the world
might say of him, to her the happy gentleman could constantly turn for his
refreshing balsamic bath.
6 She flew to the soul in him, pleasingly arousing
sensations of that inhabitant; and he allowed her the right to fly, in the
manner of kings, as we have heard, consenting to the privileges acted on
by cats. These may not address their Majesties, but they may stare; nor
will it be contested that the attentive circular eyes of the humble dome-
stic creatures are an embellishment to Royal pomp and grandeur, such truly
as should one day gain for them an inweaving and figurement--in the place
of bees, ermine tufts, and their various present decorations--upon the au-
gust great robes back-flowing and foaming over the gaspy page-boys.


Further to quote from the same volume of The Book: There is pain in the
surrendering of that we are fain to relinquish.


The idea is too exquisitely attenuate, as are those of the whole body-
guard of the heart of Egoism, and will slip through you unless you shall
have made a study of the gross of volumes of the first and second secti-
ons of The Book, and that will take you up to senility; or you must make
a personal entry into the pages, perchance; or an escape out of them.

There was once a venerable gentleman for whom a white hair grew on the
cop of his nose,
7 laughing at removals. He resigned himself to it in the
end, and lastingly contemplated the apparition. It does not concern us
what effect was produced on his countenance and his mind; enough that he
saw a fine thing, but not so fine as the idea cited above; which has been
between the two eyes of humanity ever since women were sought in marriage.
With yonder old gentleman it may have been a ghostly hair or a disease of
the optic nerves; but for us it is a real growth, and humanity might pro-
fitably imitate him in his patient speculation upon it.


Sir Willoughby Patterne, though ready in the pursuit of duty and policy
(an oft-united couple) to cast Miss Dale away, had to consider that
he was
not simply, so to speak, casting her over a hedge, he was casting her for
a man to catch her; and this was a much greater trial than it had been on
the previous occasion, when she went over bump to the ground. In the arms
of a husband, there was no knowing how soon she might forget her soul's
fidelity.
It had not hurt him to sketch the project of the conjunction;
benevolence assisted him; but he winced and smarted on seeing it take
shape. It sullied his idea of Laetitia.

Still, if, in spite of so great a change in her fortune, her spirit could
be guaranteed changeless, he, for the sake of pacifying his bride, and to
keep two serviceable persons near him, at command, might resolve to join
them. The vision of his resolution brought with it a certain pallid con-
tempt of the physically faithless woman; no wonder he betook himself to
The Book, and opened it on the scorching chapters treating of the sex,
and the execrable wiles of that foremost creature of the chase, who runs
for life. She is not spared in the Biggest of Books. But close it.


The writing in it having been done chiefly by men, men naturally receive
their fortification from its wisdom, and half a dozen of the popular sen-
tences for the confusion of women (cut in brass worn to a polish like som-
bre gold), refreshed Sir Willoughby for his undertaking.

An examination of Laetitia's faded complexion braced him very cordially.

His Clara, jealous of this poor leaf!

He could have desired the transfusion of a quality or two from Laetitia to
his bride; but you cannot, as in cookery, obtain a mixture of the essences
of these creatures; and if, as it is possible to do, and as he had been do-
ing recently with the pair of them at the Hall, you stew them in one pot,
you are far likelier to intensify their little birthmarks of individuality.
Had they a tendency to excellence it might be otherwise; they might then
make the exchanges we wish for; or scientifically concocted in a harem for
a sufficient length of time by a sultan anything but obtuse, they might.
It is, however, fruitless to dwell on what was only a glimpse of a wild re-
gret, like the crossing of two express trains along the rails in Sir Willo-
ughby's head.


The ladies Eleanor and Isabel were sitting with Miss Dale, all three at
work on embroideries. He had merely to look at Miss Eleanor. She rose. She
looked at Miss Isabel, and rattled her chatelaine
8 to account for her dep-
arture. After a decent interval Miss Isabel glided out. Such was the per-
fect discipline of the household.


Sir Willoughby played an air on the knee of his crossed leg.

Laetitia grew conscious of a meaning in the silence. She said, "You have
not been vexed by affairs to-day?"

"Affairs," he replied, "must be peculiarly vexatious to trouble me. Con-
cerning the country or my personal affairs?"

"I fancy I was alluding to the country."

"I trust I am as good a patriot as any man living," said he; "but I am
used to the follies of my countrymen, and we are on board a stout ship.
At the worst it's no worse than a rise in rates and taxes; soup at the
Hall gates, perhaps; license to fell timber in one of the outer copses,
or some dozen loads of coal. You hit my feudalism."


"The knight in armour has gone," said Laetitia, "and the castle with the
draw-bridge. Immunity for our island has gone too since we took to com-
merce."

"We bartered independence for commerce. You hit our old controversy. Ay,
but we do not want this overgrown population! However, we will put poli-
tics and sociology and the pack of their modern barbarous words aside.
You read me intuitively. I have been, I will not say annoyed, but ruffl-
ed. I have much to do, and going into Parliament would make me almost
helpless if I lose Vernon. You know of some absurd notion he has?--lit-
erary fame, and bachelor's chambers, and a chop-house, and the rest of
it."

She knew, and thinking differently in the matter of literary fame, she
flushed, and, ashamed of the flush, frowned.

He bent over to her with the perusing earnestness of a gentleman about
to trifle.

"You cannot intend that frown?"

"Did I frown?"

"You do."

"Now?"

"Fiercely."

"Oh!"

"Will you smile to reassure me?"

"Willingly, as well as I can."

A gloom overcame him. With no woman on earth did he shine so as to recall
to himself seigneur and dame of the old French Court as he did with Laeti-
tia Dale. He did not wish the period revived, but reserved it as a garden
to stray into when he was in the mood for displaying elegance and bright-
ness in the society of a lady; and in speech Laetitia helped him to the
nice delusion. She was not devoid of grace of bearing either.


Would she preserve her beautiful responsiveness to his ascendency? Hith-
erto she had, and for years, and quite fresh. But how of her as a married
woman? Our souls are hideously subject to the conditions of our animal na-
ture! A wife, possibly mother, it was within sober calculation that there
would be great changes in her. And the hint of any change appeared a total
change to one of the lofty order who, when they are called on to relin-
quish possession instead of aspiring to it, say, All or nothing!

Well, but if there was danger of the marriage-tie effecting the slightest
alteration of her character or habit of mind, wherefore press it upon a
tolerably hardened spinster!


Besides, though he did once put her hand in Vernon's for the dance, he re-
membered acutely that the injury then done by his generosity to his tender
sensitiveness had sickened and tarnished the effulgence of two or three
successive anniversaries of his coming of age. Nor had he altogether yet
got over the passion of greed for the whole group of the well-favoured of
the fair sex, which in his early youth had made it bitter for him to sub-
mit to the fickleness, not to say the modest fickleness, of any handsome
one of them in yielding her hand to a man and suffering herself to be led
away. Ladies whom he had only heard of as ladies of some beauty incurred
his wrath for having lovers or taking husbands. He was of a vast embrace;
and do not exclaim, in covetousness;--for well he knew that even under
Moslem law he could not have them all--but as the enamoured custodian of
the sex's purity, that blushes at such big spots as lovers and husbands;
and it was unbearable to see it sacrificed for others. Without their pur-
ity what are they!--what are fruiterer's plums?--unsaleable. O for the
bloom on them!


"As I said, I lose my right hand in Vernon," he resumed, "and I am, it
seems, inevitably to lose him, unless we contrive to fasten him down
here. I think, my dear Miss Dale, you have my character. At least, I
should recommend my future biographer to you--with a caution, of course.
You would have to write selfishness with a dash under it. I cannot en-
dure to lose a member of my household--not under any circumstances; and
a change of feeling toward me on the part of any of my friends because
of marriage, I think hard.
I would ask you, how can it be for Vernon's
good to quit an easy pleasant home for the wretched profession of Liter-
ature?--wretchedly paying, I mean," he bowed to the authoress. "Let
him leave the house, if he imagines he will not harmonize with its young
mistress. He is queer, though a good fellow. But he ought, in that event,
to have an establishment. And my scheme for Vernon--men, Miss Dale, do
not change to their old friends when they marry--my scheme, which would
cause the alteration in his system of life to be barely perceptible, is
to build him a poetical little cottage, large enough for a couple, on
the borders of my park. I have the spot in my eye. The point is, can he
live alone there? Men, I say, do not change. How is it that we cannot
say the same of women?"


Laetitia remarked: "The generic woman appears to have an extraordinary
faculty for swallowing the individual."


"As to the individual, as to a particular person, I may be wrong. Preci-
sely because it is her case I think of, my strong friendship inspires the
fear: unworthy of both, no doubt, but trace it to the source. Even pure
friendship, such is the taint in us, knows a kind of jealousy; though I
would gladly see her established, and near me, happy and contributing to
my happiness with her incomparable social charm. Her I do not estimate
generically, be sure."


"If you do me the honour to allude to me, Sir Willoughby," said Laetitia,
"I am my father's housemate."

"What wooer would take that for a refusal? He would beg to be a third in
the house and sharer of your affectionate burden. Honestly, why not? And
I may be arguing against my own happiness; it may be the end of me!"

"The end?"

"Old friends are captious, exacting. No, not the end. Yet if my friend is
not the same to me, it is the end to that form of friendship: not to the
degree possibly. But when one is used to the form! And do you, in its ap-
plication to friendship, scorn the word 'use'? We are creatures of custom.
I am, I confess, a poltroon in my affections; I dread changes. The shadow
of the tenth of an inch in the customary elevation of an eyelid!--to give
you an idea of my susceptibility.
And, my dear Miss Dale, I throw myself
on your charity, with all my weakness bare, let me add, as I could do to
none but you. Consider, then, if I lose you! The fear is due to my pusil-
lanimity entirely. High-souled women may be wives, mothers, and still re-
serve that home for their friend. They can and will conquer the viler con-
ditions of human life. Our states, I have always contended, our various
phases have to be passed through, and there is no disgrace in it so long
as they do not levy toll on the quintessential, the spiritual element.
You understand me?
I am no adept in these abstract elucidations."

"You explain yourself clearly," said Laetitia.

"I have never pretended that psychology was my forte," said he, feeling
overshadowed by her cold commendation: he was not less acutely sensitive
to the fractional divisions of tones than of eyelids, being, as it were,
a melody with which everything was out of tune that did not modestly or
mutely accord; and to bear about a melody in your person is incomparably
more searching than the best of touchstones and talismans ever invented.

"Your father's health has improved latterly?"

"He did not complain of his health when I saw him this morning. My cou-
sin Amelia is with him, and she is an excellent nurse."

"He has a liking for Vernon."

"He has a great respect for Mr. Whitford."

"You have?"

"Oh, yes; I have it equally."

"For a foundation, that is the surest. I would have the friends dearest
to me begin on that. The headlong match is--how can we describe it? By
its finale I am afraid. Vernon's abilities are really to be respected.
His shyness is his malady. I suppose he reflected that he was not a cap-
italist. He might, one would think, have addressed himself to me; my
purse is not locked."

"No, Sir Willoughby!" Laetitia said, warmly, for his donations in char-
ity were famous.

Her eyes gave him the food he enjoyed, and basking in them, he continued:

"Vernon's income would at once have been regulated commensurately with
a new position requiring an increase.
This money, money, money! But the
world will have it so. Happily I have inherited habits of business and
personal economy. Vernon is a man who would do fifty times more with a
companion appreciating his abilities and making light of his little de-
ficiencies. They are palpable, small enough. He has always been aware
of my wishes:--when perhaps the fulfilment might have sent me off on
another tour of the world, homebird though I am.

When was it that our friendship commenced? In my boyhood, I know. Very
many years back."

"I am in my thirtieth year," said Laetitia.


Surprised and pained by a baldness resembling the deeds of ladies (they
have been known, either through absence of mind, or mania, to displace
a wig) in the deadly intimacy which slaughters poetic admiration, Sir
Willoughby punished her by deliberately reckoning that she did not look
less.

"Genius," he observed, "is unacquainted with wrinkles"; hardly one of
his prettiest speeches; but he had been wounded, and he never could re-
cover immediately. Coming on him in a mood of sentiment, the wound was
sharp. He could very well have calculated the lady's age. It was the
jarring clash of her brazen declaration of it upon his low rich flute-
notes that shocked him.


He glanced at the gold cathedral-clock on the mantel-piece, and propos-
ed a stroll on the lawn before dinner. Laetitia gathered up her embroi-
dery work.

"As a rule," he said, "authoresses are not needle-women."

"I shall resign the needle or the pen if it stamps me an exception,"
she replied.

He attempted a compliment on her truly exceptional character. As when
the player's finger rests in distraction on the organ, it was without
measure and disgusted his own hearing.
Nevertheless, she had been so
good as to diminish his apprehension that the marriage of a lady in
her thirtieth year with his cousin Vernon would be so much of a loss
to him; hence, while parading the lawn, now and then casting an eye
at the window of the room where his Clara and Vernon were in council,
the schemes he indulged for his prospective comfort and his feelings
of the moment were in such striving harmony as that to which we hear
orchestral musicians bringing their instruments under the process call-
ed tuning. It is not perfect, but it promises to be so soon. We are
not angels, which have their dulcimers ever on the choral pitch. We
are mortals attaining the celestial accord with effort, through a
stage of pain.
Some degree of pain was necessary to Sir Willoughby,
otherwise he would not have seen his generosity confronting him. He
grew, therefore, tenderly inclined to Laetitia once more, so far as
to say within himself. "For conversation she would be a valuable wife".
And this valuable wife he was presenting to his cousin.

Apparently, considering the duration of the conference of his Clara
and Vernon, his cousin required strong persuasion to accept the pre-
sent.




CHAPTER 15. The Petition for a Release



Neither Clara nor Vernon appeared at the mid-day table. Dr. Middleton
talked with Miss Dale on classical matters, like a good-natured giant
giving a child the jump from stone to stone across a brawling moun-
tain ford, so that an unedified audience might really suppose, upon
seeing her over the difficulty, she had done something for herself.
Sir Willoughby was proud of her, and therefore anxious to settle her
business while he was in the humour to lose her. He hoped to finish
it by shooting a word or two at Vernon before dinner. Clara's petit-
ion to be set free, released from him, had vaguely frightened even
more than it offended his pride.


Miss Isabel quitted the room.

She came back, saying: "They decline to lunch."

"Then we may rise," remarked Sir Willoughby.

"She was weeping," Miss Isabel murmured to him.

"Girlish enough," he said.


The two elderly ladies went away together. Miss Dale, pursuing her
theme with the Rev. Doctor, was invited by him to a course in the li-
brary. Sir Willoughby walked up and down the lawn, taking a glance at
the West-room as he swung round on the turn of his leg. Growing impa-
tient, he looked in at the window and found the room vacant.

Nothing was to be seen of Clara and Vernon during the afternoon. Near
the dinner-hour the ladies were informed by Miss Middleton's maid
that her mistress was lying down on her bed, too unwell with headache
to be present. Young Crossjay brought a message from Vernon (delayed
by birds' eggs in the delivery), to say that he was off over the
hills, and thought of dining with Dr. Corney.

Sir Willoughby despatched condolences to his bride. He was not well
able to employ his mind on its customary topic, being, like the dome
of a bell, a man of so pervading a ring within himself concerning
himself, that the recollection of a doubtful speech or unpleasant
circumstance touching him closely deranged his inward peace;
and as
dubious and unpleasant things will often occur,
he had great need
of a worshipper, and was often compelled to appeal to her for signs
of antidotal idolatry.
In this instance, when the need of a worship-
per was sharply felt, he obtained no signs at all. The Rev. Doctor
had fascinated Miss Dale; so that, both within and without, Sir
Willoughby was uncomforted. His themes in public were those of an
English gentleman; horses, dogs, game, sport, intrigue, scandal,
politics, wines,
the manly themes; with a condescension to ladies'
tattle, and approbation of a racy anecdote.
What interest could he
possibly take in the Athenian Theatre and the girl whose flute-
playing behind the scenes, imitating the nightingale, enraptured a
Greek audience! He would have suspected a motive in Miss Dale's ea-
ger attentiveness, if the motive could have been conceived. Besides,
the ancients were not decorous; they did not, as we make our mo-
derns do, write for ladies. He ventured at the dinner-table to in-
terrupt Dr. Middleton once:--

"Miss Dale will do wisely, I think, sir, by confining herself to
your present edition of the classics."

"That," replied Dr. Middleton, "is the observation of a student of
the dictionary of classical mythology in the English tongue."
1

"The Theatre is a matter of climate, sir. You will grant me that."

"If quick wits come of climate, it is as you say, sir."

"With us it seems a matter of painful fostering, or the need of
it," said Miss Dale, with a question to Dr. Middleton, excluding
Sir Willoughby, as though he had been a temporary disturbance of
the flow of their dialogue.


The ladies Eleanor and Isabel, previously excellent listeners to
the learned talk, saw the necessity of coming to his rescue; but
you cannot converse with your aunts, inmates of your house, on
general subjects at table; the attempt increased his discomposure;
he considered that he had ill-chosen his father-in-law; that scho-
lars are an impolite race; that young or youngish women are devo-
tees of power in any form,
and will be absorbed by a scholar for
a variation of a man; concluding that he must have a round of din-
ner-parties to friends, especially ladies, appreciating him, dur-
ing the Doctor's visit. Clara's headache above, and Dr. Middle-
ton's unmannerliness below, affected his instincts in a way to
make him apprehend that a stroke of misfortune was impending;
thunder was in the air. Still he learned something, by which he
was to profit subsequently. The topic of wine withdrew the doctor
from his classics; it was magical on him. A strong fraternity of
taste was discovered in the sentiments of host and guest upon par-
ticular wines and vintages; they kindled one another by naming
great years of the grape, and if Sir Willoughby had to sacrifice
the ladies to the topic, he much regretted a condition of things
that compelled him to sin against his habit, for the sake of be-
ing in the conversation and probing an elderly gentleman's foible.


Late at night he heard the house-bell, and meeting Vernon in the
hall, invited him to enter the laboratory and tell him Dr. Corn-
ey's last. Vernon was brief, Corney had not let fly a single ane-
cdote, he said, and lighted his candle.

"By the way, Vernon, you had a talk with Miss Middleton?"

"She will speak to you to-morrow at twelve."

"To-morrow at twelve?"

"It gives her four-and-twenty hours."

Sir Willoughby determined that his perplexity should be seen; but
Vernon said good-night to him, and was
shooting up the stairs be-
fore the dramatic exhibition of surprise had yielded to speech.


Thunder was in the air and a blow coming. Sir Willoughby's in-
stincts were awake to the many signs, nor, though silenced, were
they hushed by his harping on the frantic excesses to which women
are driven by the passion of jealousy. He believed in Clara's jea-
lousy because he really had intended to rouse it; under the form
of emulation, feebly. He could not suppose she had spoken of it
to Vernon. And as for the seriousness of her desire to be releas-
ed from her engagement, that was little credible. Still
the fix-
ing of an hour for her to speak to him after an interval of four-
and-twenty hours, left an opening for the incredible to add its
weight to the suspicious mass; and who would have fancied Clara
Middleton so wild a victim of the intemperate passion! He mutter-
ed to himself several assuaging observations to excuse a young
lady half demented, and rejected them in a lump for their nonsen-
sical inapplicability to Clara. In order to obtain some sleep,
he consented to blame himself slightly, in the style of the enam-
oured historian of erring beauties alluding to their peccadilloes.
He had done it to edify her. Sleep, however, failed him. That an
inordinate jealousy argued an overpowering love, solved his prob-
lem until he tried to fit the proposition to Clara's character.
He had discerned nothing southern in her. Latterly, with the
blushing Day in prospect, she had contracted and frozen. There
was no reading either of her or of the mystery.


In the morning, at the breakfast-table, a confession of sleep-
lessness was general. Excepting Miss Dale and Dr. Middleton, none
had slept a wink.
"I, sir," the Doctor replied to Sir Willoughby,
"slept like a lexicon in your library when Mr. Whitford and I
are out of it."


Vernon incidentally mentioned that he had been writing through
the night.

"You fellows kill yourselves," Sir Willoughby reproved him. "For
my part,
I make it a principle to get through my work without
self-slaughter."


Clara watched her father for a symptom of ridicule. He gazed mild-
ly on the systematic worker. She was unable to guess whether she
would have in him an ally or a judge. The latter, she feared. Now
that she had embraced the strife, she saw the division of the line
where she stood from that one where the world places girls who are
affianced wives; her father could hardly be with her; it had gone
too far. He loved her, but he would certainly take her to be moved
by a maddish whim; he would not try to understand her case. The
scholar's detestation of a disarrangement of human affairs that
had been by miracle contrived to run smoothly, would of itself
rank him against her; and with the world to back his view of her,
he might behave like a despotic father. How could she defend her-
self before him? At one thought of Sir Willoughby, her tongue
made ready, and feminine craft was alert to prompt it; but to her
father she could imagine herself opposing only dumbness and obsti-
nacy.

"It is not exactly the same kind of work," she said.

Dr Middleton rewarded her with a bushy eyebrow's beam of his rev-
olting humour at the baronet's notion of work.

So little was needed to quicken her that she sunned herself in
the beam, coaxing her father's eyes to stay with hers as long as
she could, and beginning to hope he might be won to her side, if
she confessed she had been more in the wrong than she felt; own-
ed to him, that is, her error in not earlier disturbing his peace.

"I do not say it is the same," observed Sir Willoughby, bowing to
their alliance of opinion. "My poor work is for the day, and Ver-
non's, no doubt, for the day to come. I contend, nevertheless, for
the preservation of health as the chief implement of work."

"Of continued work; there I agree with you," said Dr. Middleton,
cordially.

Clara's heart sunk; so little was needed to deaden her.

Accuse her of an overweening antagonism to her betrothed; yet re-
member that though the words had not been uttered to give her
good reason for it, nature reads nature; captives may be stript
of everything save that power to read their tyrant; remember al-
so that she was not, as she well knew, blameless; her rage at
him was partly against herself.


The rising from table left her to Sir Willoughby. She swam away
after Miss Dale, exclaiming: "The laboratory! Will you have me
for a companion on your walk to see your father? One breathes
earth and heaven to-day out of doors. Isn't it Summer with a
Spring Breeze? I will wander about your garden and not hurry
your visit, I promise."

"I shall be very happy indeed. But I am going immediately,"
said Laetitia, seeing Sir Willoughby hovering to snap up his
bride.

"Yes; and a garden-hat and I am on the march."

"I will wait for you on the terrace."

"You will not have to wait."

"Five minutes at the most," Sir Willoughby said to Laetitia,
and she passed out, leaving them alone together.

"Well, and my love!" he addressed his bride almost huggingly;
"and what is the story? and how did you succeed with old Ver-
non yesterday? He will and he won't? He's a very woman in
these affairs. I can't forgive him for giving you a headache.
You were found weeping."

"Yes, I cried," said Clara.

"And now tell me about it. You know, my dear girl, whether he
does or doesn't, our keeping him somewhere in the neighbourhood
--perhaps not in the house--that is the material point. It can
hardly be necessary in these days to urge marriages on. I'm
sure the country is over . . .
Most marriages ought to be cel-
ebrated with the funeral knell!"


"I think so," said Clara.

"It will come to this, that marriages of consequence, and none
but those, will be hailed with joyful peals."

"Do not say such things in public, Willoughby."

"Only to you, to you! Don't think me likely to expose myself to
the world. Well, and I sounded Miss Dale, and there will be no
violent obstacle. And now about Vernon?"

"I will speak to you, Willoughby, when I return from my walk
with Miss Dale, soon after twelve."

"Twelve!" said he.


"I name an hour. It seems childish. I can explain it. But it
is named, I cannot deny, because I am a rather childish person
perhaps, and have it prescribed to me to delay my speaking for
a certain length of time. I may tell you at once that Mr. Whit-
ford is not to be persuaded by me, and the breaking of our en-
gagement would not induce him to remain."

"Vernon used those words?"

"It was I."

"'The breaking of our engagement!' Come into the laboratory, my
love."

"I shall not have time."

"Time shall stop rather than interfere with our conversation!
'The breaking . . .'! But it's a sort of sacrilege to speak of
it."


"That I feel; yet it has to be spoken of"


"Sometimes? Why? I can't conceive the occasion. You know, to me,
Clara,
plighted faith, the affiancing of two lovers, is a piece
of religion.
I rank it as holy as marriage; nay, to me it is ho-
lier; I really cannot tell you how; I can only appeal to you in
your bosom to understand me.
We read of divorces with compara-
tive indifference. They occur between couples who have rubbed
off all romance."

She could have asked him in her fit of ironic iciness, on hear-
ing him thus blindly challenge her to speak out, whether the ro-
mance might be his piece of religion.


He propitiated the more unwarlike sentiments in her by ejaculat-
ing, "Poor souls! let them go their several ways. Married people
no longer lovers are in the category of the unnameable. But the
hint of the breaking of an engagement--our engagement!--between
us? Oh!"

"Oh!" Clara came out with a swan's note swelling over mechanical
imitation of him to dolorousness illimitable. "Oh!" she breathed
short, "let it be now.
Do not speak till you have heard me. My
head may not be clear by-and-by. And two scenes--twice will be
beyond my endurance. I am penitent for the wrong I have done you.
I grieve for you. All the blame is mine. Willoughby, you must re-
lease me. Do not let me hear a word of that word; jealousy is un-
known to me . . . Happy if I could call you friend and see you
with a worthier than I, who might by-and-by call me friend! You
have my plighted troth . . . given in ignorance of my feelings.
Reprobate a weak and foolish girl's ignorance. I have thought of
it, and I cannot see wickedness, though the blame is great, shame-
ful. You have none. You are without any blame. You will not suf-
fer as I do. You will be generous to me? I have no respect for
myself when I beg you to be generous and release me."

"But was this the . . ." Willoughby preserved his calmness,
"this, then, the subject of your interview with Vernon?"

"I have spoken to him. I did my commission, and I spoke to him."

"Of me?"


"Of myself. I see how I hurt you; I could not avoid it. Yes, of
you, as far as we are related. I said I believed you would rel-
ease me.
I said I could be true to my plighted word, but that
you would not insist. Could a gentleman insist? But not a step
beyond; not love; I have none. And, Willoughby, treat me as one
perfectly worthless; I am. I should have known it a year back.
I was deceived in myself. There should be love."

"Should be!" Willoughby's tone was a pungent comment on her.


"Love, then, I find I have not. I think I am antagonistic to it.
What people say of it I have not experienced. I find I was mis-
taken. It is lightly said, but very painful. You understand me,
that my prayer is for liberty, that I may not be tied. If you
can release and pardon me, or promise ultimately to pardon me,
or say some kind word, I shall know it is because I am beneath
you utterly that I have been unable to give you the love you
should have with a wife. Only say to me, go! It is you who break
the match, discovering my want of a heart. What people think of
me matters little. My anxiety will be to save you annoyance."
She waited for him; he seemed on the verge of speaking.

He perceived her expectation; he had nothing but clownish tu-
mult within, and his dignity counselled him to disappoint her.


Swaying his head, like the oriental palm whose shade is a bless-
ing to the perfervid wanderer below, smiling gravely, he was
indirectly asking his dignity what he could say to maintain it
and deal this mad young woman a bitterly compassionate rebuke.
What to think, hung remoter. The thing to do struck him first.

He squeezed both her hands, threw the door wide open, and said,
with countless blinkings: "In the laboratory we are uninterrupt-
ed. I was at a loss to guess where that most unpleasant effect
on the senses came from. They are always 'guessing' through the
nose. I mean, the remainder of breakfast here. Perhaps I satir-
ized them too smartly--if you know the letters. When they are
not 'calculating'. More offensive than debris of a midnight ban-
quet! An American tour is instructive, though not so romantic.
Not so romantic as Italy, I mean. Let us escape."

She held back from his arm. She had scattered his brains; it
was pitiable: but she was in the torrent and could not suffer a
pause or a change of place.

"It must be here; one minute more--I cannot go elsewhere to be-
gin again. Speak to me here; answer my request. Once; one word.
If you forgive me, it will be superhuman. But, release me."

"Seriously," he rejoined, "tea-cups and coffee-cups, bread-
crumbs. egg-shells, caviare, butter, beef, bacon! Can we? The
room reeks."


"Then I will go for my walk with Miss Dale. And you will speak
to me when I return?"

"At all seasons. You shall go with Miss Dale. But, my dear! my
love! Seriously, where are we? One hears of lover's quarrels.
Now I never quarrel. It is a characteristic of mine. And you
speak of me to my cousin Vernon!
Seriously, plighted faith sig-
nifies plighted faith, as much as an iron-cable is iron to hold
by. Some little twist of the mind?
To Vernon, of all men! Tush!
she has been dreaming of a hero of perfection, and the compari-
son is unfavourable to her Willoughby.
But, my Clara, when I
say to you, that bride is bride, and you are mine, mine!"


"Willoughby, you mentioned them,--those separations of two mar-
ried. You said, if they do not love . . . Oh! say, is it not
better--instead of later?"

He took advantage of her modesty in speaking to exclaim.
"Where
are we now? Bride is bride, and wife is wife, and affianced is,
in honour, wedded. You cannot be released. We are united. Re-
cognize it; united. There is no possibility of releasing a
wife!"

"Not if she ran . . . ?"

This was too direct to be histrionically misunderstood.
2 He had
driven her to the extremity of more distinctly imagining the
circumstance she had cited, and with that cleared view the des-
perate creature gloried in launching such a bolt at the man's
real or assumed insensibility as must, by shivering it, waken him.

But in a moment she stood in burning rose, with dimmed eyesight.
She saw his horror, and, seeing, shared it; shared just then on-
ly by seeing it; which led her to rejoice with the deepest of
sighs that some shame was left in her.


"Ran? ran? ran?" he said as rapidly as he blinked. "How? where?
what idea . . . ?"

Close was he upon an explosion that would have sullied his con-
ception of the purity of the younger members of the sex haunt-
ingly.

That she, a young lady, maiden, of strictest education, should,
and without his teaching, know that wives ran!--know that by
running they compelled their husbands to abandon pursuit, sur-
render possession!--and that she should suggest it of herself
as a wife!--that she should speak of running!


His ideal, the common male Egoist ideal of a waxwork sex, would
have been shocked to fragments had she spoken further to fill
in the outlines of these awful interjections.

She was tempted: for during the last few minutes the fire of
her situation had enlightened her understanding upon a subject
far from her as the ice-fields of the North a short while be-
fore; and the prospect offered to her courage if she would on-
ly outstare shame and seem at home in the doings of wickedness,
was his loathing and dreading so vile a young woman. She res-
trained herself; chiefly, after the first bridling of maidenly
timidity, because she could not bear to lower the idea of her
sex even in his esteem.


The door was open. She had thoughts of flying out to breathe
in an interval of truce.

She reflected on her situation hurriedly askance:

"If one must go through this, to be disentangled from an en-
gagement, what must it be to poor women seeking to be free of
a marriage?"

Had she spoken it, Sir Willoughby might have learned that she
was not so iniquitously wise of the things of this world as
her mere sex's instinct, roused to the intemperateness of a
creature struggling with fetters, had made her appear in her
dash to seize a weapon, indicated moreover by him.

Clara took up the old broken vow of women to vow it afresh:
"Never to any man will I give my hand."

She replied to Sir Willoughby, "I have said all. I cannot ex-
plain what I have said."


She had heard a step in the passage. Vernon entered.

Perceiving them, he stated his mission in apology: "Doctor
Middleton left a book in this room. I see it; it's a Heinsi-
us."3

"Ha! by the way, a book; books would not be left here if they
were not brought here, with my compliments to Doctor Middle-
ton, who may do as he pleases, though, seriously, order is or-
der," said Sir Willoughby. "Come away to the laboratory, Clara.
It's a comment on human beings that wherever they have been
there's a mess, and you admirers of them," he divided a sickly
nod between Vernon and the stale breakfast-table, "must make
what you can of it.
Come, Clara."

Clara protested that she was engaged to walk with Miss Dale.

"Miss Dale is waiting in the hall," said Vernon.

"Miss Dale is waiting?" said Clara.

"Walk with Miss Dale; walk with Miss Dale," Sir Willoughby re-
marked, pressingly. "I will beg her to wait another two min-
utes. You shall find her in the hall when you come down."

He rang the bell and went out.


"Take Miss Dale into your confidence; she is quite trustwor-
thy," Vernon said to Clara.

"I have not advanced one step," she replied.

"Recollect that you are in a position of your own choosing;
and if, after thinking over it, you mean to escape, you must
make up your mind to pitched battles, and not be dejected if
you are beaten in all of them; there is your only chance."

"Not my choosing; do not say choosing, Mr. Whitford. I did not
choose. I was incapable of really choosing. I consented."

"It's the same in fact
. But be sure of what you wish."

"Yes," she assented, taking it for her just punishment that
she should be supposed not quite to know her wishes. "Your ad-
vice has helped me to-day."
4

"Did I advise?"

"Do you regret advising?"

"I should certainly regret a word that intruded between you
and him."

"But you will not leave the Hall yet? You will not leave me
without a friend? If papa and I were to leave to-morrow, I
foresee endless correspondence. I have to stay at least some
days, and wear through it, and then, if I have to speak to my
poor father, you can imagine the effect on him."


Sir Willoughby came striding in, to correct the error of his
going out.

"Miss Dale awaits you, my dear. You have bonnet, hat?--No?
Have you forgotten your appointment to walk with her?"

"I am ready," said Clara, departing.

The two gentlemen behind her separated in the passage. They
had not spoken.

She had read of the reproach upon women, that they divide the
friendships of men. She reproached herself but she was in act-
ion, driven by necessity, between sea and rock. Dreadful to
think of! she was one of the creatures who are written about.




CHAPTER 16. Clara And Laetitia



In spite of his honourable caution, Vernon had said things to
render Miss Middleton more angrily determined than she had
been in the scene with Sir Willoughby. His counting on pitch-
ed battles and a defeat for her in all of them, made her pre-
vious feelings appear slack in comparison with the energy of
combat now animating her. And she could vehemently declare
that
she had not chosen; she was too young, too ignorant to
choose. He had wrongly used that word; it sounded malicious;
and to call consenting the same in fact as choosing was wil-
fully unjust.
Mr. Whitford meant well; he was conscientious,
very conscientious. But he was not the hero descending from
heaven bright-sworded to smite a woman's fetters of her limbs
and deliver her from the yawning mouth-abyss.
1

His logical coolness of expostulation with her when she cast
aside the silly mission entrusted to her by Sir Willoughby
and wept for herself, was unheroic in proportion to its
praiseworthiness. He had left it to her to do everything she
wished done,
stipulating simply that there should be a pause
of four-and-twenty hours for her to consider of it before she
proceeded in the attempt to extricate herself. Of consolation
there had not been a word. Said he, "I am the last man to
give advice in such a case". Yet she had by no means astoni-
shed him when her confession came out. It came out, she knew
not how. It was led up to by his declining the idea of marr-
iage, and her congratulating him on his exemption from the
prospect of the yoke, but memory was too dull to revive the
one or two fiery minutes of broken language when she had
been guilty of her dire misconduct.

This gentleman was no flatterer, scarcely a friend. He could
look on her grief without soothing her. Supposing he had
soothed her warmly? All her sentiments collected in her bo-
som to dash in reprobation of him at the thought. She never-
theless condemned him for his excessive coolness; his trans-
parent anxiety not to be compromised by a syllable; his air
of saying, "I guessed as much, but why plead your case to
me?" And his recommendation to her to be quite sure she did
know what she meant, was a little insulting.
She exonerated
him from the intention; he treated her as a girl. By what he
said of Miss Dale, he proposed that lady for imitation.


"I must be myself or I shall be playing hypocrite to dig my
own pitfall," she said to herself, while taking counsel with
Laetitia as to the route for their walk, and admiring a be-
coming curve in her companion's hat.

Sir Willoughby, with many protestations of regret that lett-
ers of business debarred him from the pleasure of accompany-
ing them, remarked upon the path proposed by Miss Dale, "In
that case you must have a footman."

"Then we adopt the other," said Clara, and they set forth.

"Sir Willoughby," Miss Dale said to her, "is always in alarm
about our unprotectedness."

Clara glanced up at the clouds and closed her parasol. She
replied, "It inspires timidity."

There was that in the accent and character of the answer
which warned Laetitia to expect the reverse of a quiet cha-
tter with Miss Middleton.

"You are fond of walking?" She chose a peaceful topic.

"Walking or riding; yes, of walking," said Clara. "The dif-
ficulty is to find companions."

"We shall lose Mr. Whitford next week."


"He goes?"

"He will be a great loss to me, for I do not ride," Laetit-
ia replied to the off-hand inquiry.

"Ah!"

Miss Middleton did not fan conversation when she simply
breathed her voice.


Laetitia tried another neutral theme.

"The weather to-day suits our country," she said.

"England, or Patterne Park? I am so devoted to mountains
that I have no enthusiasm for flat land."

"Do you call our country flat, Miss Middleton? We have un-
dulations, hills, and we have sufficient diversity, mead-
ows, rivers, copses, brooks, and good roads, and pretty
by-paths."

"The prettiness is overwhelming. It is very pretty to see;
but to live with, I think I prefer ugliness. I can imagine
learning to love ugliness. It's honest.
However young you
are, you cannot be deceived by it. These parks of rich pe-
ople are a part of the prettiness. I would rather have
fields, commons."

"The parks give us delightful green walks, paths through
beautiful woods."

"If there is a right-of-way for the public."

"There should be," said Miss Dale, wondering; and Clara
cried:
"I chafe at restraint: hedges and palings every-
where! I should have to travel ten years to sit down con-
tented among these fortifications. Of course I can read of
this rich kind of English country with pleasure in poetry.
But it seems to me to require poetry. What would you say
of human beings requiring it?"

"That they are not so companionable but that the haze of
distance improves the view."


"Then you do know that you are the wisest?"

Laetitia raised her dark eyelashes; she sought to under-
stand. She could only fancy she did; and if she did, it
meant that Miss Middleton thought her wise in remaining
single.

Clara was full of a sombre preconception that her "jealo-
usy" had been hinted to Miss Dale.


"You knew Miss Durham?" she said.

"Not intimately."

"As well as you know me?"

"Not so well."

"But you saw more of her?"

"She was more reserved with me."

"Oh! Miss Dale, I would not be reserved with you."

The thrill of the voice caused Laetitia to steal a look.
Clara's eyes were bright, and she had the readiness to
run to volubility of the fever-stricken; otherwise she
did not betray excitement.


"You will never allow any of these noble trees to be
felled, Miss Middleton?"

"The axe is better than decay, do you not think?"

"I think your influence will be great and always used to
good purpose."

"My influence, Miss Dale? I have begged a favour this
morning and can not obtain the grant."

It was lightly said, but Clara's face was more signifi-
cant, and "What?" leaped from Laetitia's lips.

Before she could excuse herself, Clara had answered: "My
liberty."

In another and higher tone Laetitia said, "What?" and
she looked round on her companion;
she looked in the
doubt that is open to conviction by a narrow aperture,
and slowly and painfully yields access. Clara saw the
vacancy of her expression gradually filling with woeful-
ness.


"I have begged him to release me from my engagement,
Miss Dale."

"Sir Willoughby?"

"It is incredible to you. He refuses. You see I have no
influence."

"Miss Middleton, it is terrible!"

"To be dragged to the marriage service against one's
will? Yes."

"Oh! Miss Middleton!"

"Do you not think so?"

"That cannot be your meaning."

"You do not suspect me of trifling? You know I would
not. I am as much in earnest as a mouse in a trap."

"No, you will not misunderstand me! Miss Middleton,
such a blow to Sir Willoughby would be shocking, most
cruel! He is devoted to you."


"He was devoted to Miss Durham."

"Not so deeply: differently."

"Was he not very much courted at that time? He is now;
not so much: he is not so young. But my reason for spe-
aking of Miss Durham was to exclaim at the strangeness
of a girl winning her freedom to plunge into wedlock.
Is it comprehensible to you? She flies from one dungeon
into another. These are the acts which astonish men at
our conduct, and cause them to ridicule and, I dare
say, despise us."


"But, Miss Middleton, for Sir Willoughby to grant such
a request, if it was made . . ."

"It was made, and by me, and will be made again. I
throw it all on my unworthiness, Miss Dale. So the cou-
nty will think of me, and quite justly. I would rather
defend him than myself. He requires a different wife
from anything I can be. That is my discovery; unhappi-
ly a late one. The blame is all mine. The world cannot
be too hard on me. But I must be free if I am to be
kind in my judgements even of the gentleman I have
injured."

"So noble a gentleman!" Laetitia sighed.

"I will subscribe to any eulogy of him," said Clara, with
a penetrating thought as to the possibility of a lady ex-
perienced in him like Laetitia taking him for noble. "He
has a noble air. I say it sincerely, that your appreciati
on of him proves his nobility." Her feeling of opposition
to Sir Willoughby pushed her to this extravagance, grave-
ly perplexing Laetitia. "And it is," added Clara, as if
to support what she had said, "a withering rebuke to me;
I know him less, at least have not had so long an experi-
ence of him."

Laetitia pondered on an obscurity in these words which
would have accused her thick intelligence but for a glim-
mer it threw on another most obscure communication. She
feared it might be, strange though it seemed, jealousy,
a shade of jealousy affecting Miss Middleton, as had been
vaguely intimated by Sir Willoughby when they were wait-
ing in the hall.
"A little feminine ailment, a want of
comprehension of a perfect friendship;"
those were his
words to her: and he suggested vaguely that care must be
taken in the eulogy of her friend.

She resolved to be explicit.

"I have not said that I think him beyond criticism, Miss
Middleton."

"Noble?"

"He has faults. When we have known a person for years
the faults come out, but custom makes light of them; and
I suppose we feel flattered by seeing what it would be
difficult to be blind to! A very little flatters us! Now,
do you not admire that view? It is my favourite."

Clara gazed over rolling richness of foliage, wood and
water, and a church-spire, a town and horizon hills.
There sung a sky-lark.


"Not even the bird that does not fly away!" she said;
meaning, she had no heart for the bird satisfied to rise
and descend in this place.

Laetitia travelled to some notion, dim and immense, of
Miss Middleton's fever of distaste. She shrunk from it
in a kind of dread lest it might be contagious and rob
her of her one ever-fresh possession of the homely pict-
uresque; but Clara melted her by saying, "For your sake
I could love it . . . in time; or some dear old English
scene. Since . . . since this . . . this change in me,
I find I cannot separate landscape from associations.
Now
I learn how youth goes. I have grown years older in a
week.--Miss Dale, if he were to give me my freedom? if
he were to cast me off? if he stood alone?"

"I should pity him."

"Him--not me! Oh! right! I hoped you would; I knew you
would."

Laetitia's attempt to shift with Miss Middleton's shift-
iness was vain; for now she seemed really listening to
the language of jealousy:--jealous of the ancient Letty
Dale--and immediately before the tone was quite void of
it.

"Yes," she said, "but you make me feel myself in the
dark, and when I do I have the habit of throwing myself
for guidance upon such light as I have within. You shall
know me, if you will, as well as I know myself. And do
not think me far from the point when I say
I have a fee-
ble health. I am what the doctors call anaemic; a rather
bloodless creature. The blood is life, so I have not
much life. Ten years back--eleven, if I must be precise,
I thought of conquering the world with a pen! The result
is that I am glad of a fireside, and not sure of always
having one: and that is my achievement.
My days are mon-
otonous, but if I have a dread, it is that there will be
an alteration in them. My father has very little money.
We subsist on what private income he has, and his pensi-
on: he was an army doctor. I may by-and-by have to live
in a town for pupils. I could be grateful to any one who
would save me from that. I should be astonished at his
choosing to have me burden his household as well.--
Have
I now explained the nature of my pity? It would be the
pity of common sympathy, pure lymph of pity, as nearly
disembodied as can be. Last year's sheddings from the
tree do not form an attractive garland. Their merit is,
that they have not the ambition. I am like them. Now,
Miss Middleton, I cannot make myself more bare to you.
I hope you see my sincerity."


"I do see it," Clara said.

With the second heaving of her heart, she cried: "See it,
and envy you that humility! proud if I could ape it! Oh,
how proud if I could speak so truthfully true!
--You
would not have spoken so to me without some good feeling
out of which friends are made. That I am sure of. To be
very truthful to a person, one must have a liking. So I
judge by myself. Do I presume too much?"

Kindness was on Laetitia's face.

"But now," said Clara, swimming on the wave in her bosom,
"I tax you with the silliest suspicion ever entertained
by one of your rank. Lady, you have deemed me capable of
the meanest of our vices!--Hold this hand, Laetitia; my
friend, will you? Something is going on in me."

Laetitia took her hand, and saw and felt that something
was going on.

Clara said, "You are a woman."

It was her effort to account for the something.


She swam for a brilliant instant on tears, and yielded
to the overflow.

When they had fallen, she remarked upon her first long
breath quite coolly: "An encouraging picture of a rebel,
is it not?"

Her companion murmured to soothe her.

"It's little, it's nothing," said Clara, pained to keep
her lips in line.

They walked forward, holding hands, deep-hearted to one
another.

"I like this country better now," the shaken girl resumed.
"I could lie down in it and ask only for sleep. I should
like to think of you here. How nobly self-respecting you
must be, to speak as you did! Our dreams of heroes and he-
roines are cold glitter beside the reality.
I have been
lately thinking of myself as an outcast of my sex, and to
have a good woman liking me a little . . . loving? Oh, La-
etitia, my friend, I should have kissed you, and not made
this exhibition of myself--and if you call it hysterics,
woe to you! for I bit my tongue to keep it off when I had
hardly strength to bring my teeth together--if that idea
of jealousy had not been in your head. You had it from
him."

"I have not alluded to it in any word that I can recol-
lect."

"He can imagine no other cause for my wish to be released.
I have noticed, it is his instinct to reckon on women as
constant by their nature. They are the needles, and he
the magnet. Jealousy of you, Miss Dale! Laetitia, may I
speak?"

"Say everything you please."

"I could wish:--Do you know my baptismal name?"

"Clara."

"At last! I could wish . . . that is, if it were your wish.
Yes, I could wish that. Next to independence, my wish would
be that. I risk offending you. Do not let your delicacy
take arms against me. I wish him happy in the only way that
he can be made happy. There is my jealousy."

"Was it what you were going to say just now?"

"No."

"I thought not."

"I was going to say--and I believe the rack would not make
me truthful like you, Laetitia--well, has it ever struck you:
remember, I do see his merits; I speak to his faithfullest
friend, and I acknowledge he is attractive, he has manly
tastes and habits; but has it never struck you . . . I have
no right to ask; I know that men must have faults, I do not
expect them to be saints; I am not one; I wish I were."

"Has it never struck me . . . ?" Laetitia prompted her.

"That very few women are able to be straightforwardly sincere
in their speech, however much they may desire to be?"


"They are differently educated. Great misfortune brings it to
them."

"I am sure your answer is correct. Have you ever known a wo-
man who was entirely an Egoist?"

"Personally known one? We are not better than men."

"I do not pretend that we are. I have latterly become an Ego-
ist, thinking of no one but myself, scheming to make use of
every soul I meet. But then,
women are in the position of in-
feriors. They are hardly out of the nursery when a lasso is
round their necks; and if they have beauty, no wonder they
turn it to a weapon and make as many captives as they can. I
do not wonder! My sense of shame at my natural weakness and
the arrogance of men would urge me to make hundreds captive,
if that is being a coquette. I should not have compassion for
those lofty birds, the hawks. To see them with their wings
clipped would amuse me. Is there any other way of puni-
shing them?"

"Consider what you lose in punishing them."

"I consider what they gain if we do not."


Laetitia supposed she was listening to discursive observat-
ions upon the inequality in the relations of the sexes. A
suspicion of a drift to a closer meaning had been lulled,
and the colour flooded her swiftly when Clara said: "Here
is the difference I see; I see it; I am certain of it: wo-
men who are called coquettes make their conquests not of
the best of men; but men who are Egoists have good women
for their victims; women on whose devoted constancy they
feed; they drink it like blood. I am sure I am not taking
the merely feminine view. They punish themselves too by
passing over the one suitable to them, who could really
give them what they crave to have, and they go where they
. . ." Clara stopped. "I have not your power to express
ideas," she said.

"Miss Middleton, you have a dreadful power," said Laetitia.


Clara smiled affectionately. "I am not aware of any. Whose
cottage is this?"

"My father's. Will you not come in? into the garden?"

Clara took note of ivied windows and roses in the porch.
She thanked Laetitia and said: "I will call for you in an
hour."

"Are you walking on the road alone?" said Laetitia, incre-
dulously, with an eye to Sir Willoughby's dismay.

"I put my trust in the high-road," Clara replied, and turn-
ed away, but turned back to Laetitia and offered her face
to be kissed.


The "dreadful power" of this young lady had fervently im-
pressed Laetitia, and in kissing her she marvelled at her
gentleness and girlishness. Clara walked on, unconscious of
her possession of power of any kind.




CHAPTER 17. The Porcelain Vase



During the term of Clara's walk with Laetitia, Sir Willoughby's
shrunken self-esteem, like a garment hung to the fire after ex-
posure to tempestuous weather, recovered some of the sleekness
of its velvet pile in the society of Mrs. Mountstuart Jenkinson,
who represented to him the world he feared and tried to keep
sunny for himself by all the arts he could exercise. She expect-
ed him to be the gay Sir Willoughby, and her look being as good
as an incantation summons, he produced the accustomed sprite,
giving her sally for sally. Queens govern the polite. Popularity
with men, serviceable as it is for winning favouritism with wo-
men, is of poor value to a sensitive gentleman, anxious even to
prognostic apprehension on behalf of his pride, his comfort and
his prevalence. And
men are grossly purchasable; good wines have
them, good cigars, a goodfellow air: they are never quite worth
their salt even then; you can make head against their ill looks.
But the looks of women will at one blow work on you the downright
difference which is between the cock of lordly plume and the mou-
lting.
Happily they may be gained: a clever tongue will gain them,
a leg.
They are with you to a certainty if Nature is with you; if
you are elegant and discreet: if the sun is on you, and they see
you shining in it; or if they have seen you well-stationed and
handsome in the sun. And once gained they are your mirrors for
life, and far more constant than the glass. That tale of their
caprice is absurd. Hit their imaginations once, they are your
slaves,
only demanding common courtier service of you. They will
deny that you are ageing, they will cover you from scandal, they
will refuse to see you ridiculous.
Sir Willoughby's instinct, or
skin, or outfloating feelers, told him of these mysteries of the
influence of the sex; he had as little need to study them as a
lady breathed on.
1

He had some need to know them in fact; and with him the need of a
protection for himself called it forth; he was intuitively a con-
jurer in self-defence, long-sighted, wanting no directions to the
herb he was to suck at when fighting a serpent. His dulness of
vision into the heart of his enemy was compensated by the agile
sensitiveness obscuring but rendering him miraculously active,
and, without supposing his need immediate, he deemed it politic
to fascinate Mrs. Mountstuart and anticipate ghastly possibili-
ties in the future by dropping a hint; not of Clara's fickleness,
you may be sure; of his own, rather; or, more justly, of an al-
tered view of Clara's character. He touched on the rogue in por-
celain.

Set gently laughing by his relishing humour. "I get nearer to
it," he said.

"Remember I'm in love with her," said Mrs. Mountstuart.

"That is our penalty."

"A pleasant one for you."

He assented.
"Is the 'rogue' to be eliminated?"

"Ask when she's a mother, my dear Sir Willoughby."

"This is how I read you:--"

"I shall accept any interpretation that is complimentary."

"Not one will satisfy me of being sufficiently so, and so I leave
it to the character to fill out the epigram."

"Do. What hurry is there? And don't be misled by your objection to
rogue; which would be reasonable if you had not secured her."

The door of a hollow chamber of horrible reverberation was opened
within him by this remark.


He tried to say in jest, that it was not always a passionate admi-
ration that held the rogue fast; but
he muddled it in the thick of
his conscious thunder, and Mrs. Mountstuart smiled to see him shot
from the smooth-flowing dialogue into the cataracts
by one simple
reminder to the lover of his luck. Necessarily, after a fall, the
pitch of their conversation relaxed.


"Miss Dale is looking well," he said.

"Fairly: she ought to marry," said Mrs. Mountstuart.

He shook his head. "Persuade her."

She nodded. "Example may have some effect."

He looked extremely abstracted. "Yes, it is time. Where is the
man you could recommend for her complement? She has now what was
missing before, a ripe intelligence in addition to her happy dis-
position--romantic, you would say. I can't think women the worse
for that."

"A dash of it."

"She calls it 'leafage'."

"Very pretty. And have you relented about your horse Achmet?"

"I don't sell him under four hundred."

"Poor Johnny Busshe! You forget that his wife doles him out his
money. You're a hard bargainer, Sir Willoughby."

"I mean the price to be prohibitive."


"Very well; and 'leafage' is good for hide-and-seek; especially
when there is no rogue in ambush. And that's the worst I can say
of Laetitia Dale. An exaggerated devotion is the scandal of our
sex. They say you're the hardest man of business in the county
too, and I can believe it; for at home and abroad your aim is to
get the best of everybody. You see I've no leafage, I am perfect-
ly matter-of-fact, bald."

"Nevertheless, my dear Mrs. Mountstuart, I can assure you that
conversing with you has much the same exhilarating effect on me
as conversing with Miss Dale."

"But, leafage! leafage! You hard bargainers have no compassion for
devoted spinsters."

"I tell you my sentiments absolutely."

"And you have mine moderately expressed."

She recollected the purpose of her morning's visit, which was to
engage Dr. Middleton to dine with her, and Sir Willoughby conduct-
ed her to the library-door. "Insist," he said.

Awaiting her reappearance, the refreshment of the talk he had sus-
tained, not without point, assisted him
to distinguish in its com-
plete abhorrent orb
2 the offence committed against him by his bride.
And this he did through projecting it more and more away from him,
so that in the outer distance it involved his personal emotions
less, while observation was enabled to compass its vastness, and,
as it were, perceive the whole spherical mass of the wretched
girl's guilt impudently turning on its axis.

Thus to detach an injury done to us, and plant it in space, for
mathematical measurement of its weight and bulk, is an art; it may
also be an instinct of self-preservation; otherwise, as when moun-
tains crumble adjacent villages are crushed, men of feeling may at
any moment be killed outright by the iniquitous and the callous.

But, as an art, it should be known to those who are for practising
an art so beneficent, that circumstances must lend their aid. Sir
Willoughby's instinct even had sat dull and crushed before his con-
versation with Mrs. Mountstuart. She lifted him to one of his ideals
of himself. Among gentlemen he was the English gentleman; with la-
dies his aim was the Gallican courtier of any period from Louis
Treize to Louis Quinze.
3 He could doat on those who led him to talk
in that character--
backed by English solidity, you understand.
Roast beef stood eminent behind the souffle and champagne. An En-
glish squire excelling his fellows at hazardous leaps in public,
he was additionally a polished whisperer, a lively dialoguer, one
for witty bouts, with something in him--capacity for a drive and
dig or two--beyond mere wit, as they soon learned who called up
his reserves, and had a bosom for pinking.
4 So much for his ideal
of himself. Now, Clara not only never evoked, never responded to
it, she repelled it; there was no flourishing of it near her. He
considerately overlooked these facts in his ordinary calculations;
he was a man of honour and she was a girl of beauty; but the acci-
dental blooming of his ideal, with Mrs. Mountstuart, on the very
heels of Clara's offence, restored him to full command of his art
of detachment, and he thrust her out, quite apart from himself, to
contemplate her disgraceful revolutions.


Deeply read in the Book of Egoism that he was, he knew the wisdom
of the sentence: An injured pride that strikes not out will strike
home.
What was he to strike with? Ten years younger, Laetitia might
have been the instrument. To think of her now was preposterous. Be-
side Clara she had the hue of Winter under the springing bough. He
tossed her away, vexed to the very soul by an ostentatious decay
that shrank from comparison with the blooming creature he had to
scourge in self-defence, by some agency or other.


Mrs. Mountstuart was on the step of her carriage when the silken
parasols of the young ladies were descried on a slope of the park,
where the yellow green of May-clothed beeches flowed over the brown
ground of last year's leaves.


"Who's the cavalier?" she inquired.

A gentleman escorted them.

"Vernon? No! he's pegging at Crossjay," quoth Willoughby.

Vernon and Crossjay came out for the boy's half-hour's run before
his dinner. Crossjay spied Miss Middleton and was off to meet her
at a bound. Vernon followed him leisurely.

"The rogue has no cousin, has she?" said Mrs. Mountstuart.

"It's a family of one son or one daughter for generations," re-
plied Willoughby.

"And Letty Dale?"

"Cousin!" he exclaimed, as if wealth had been imputed to Miss Dale;
adding: "No male cousin."

A railway station fly drove out of the avenue on the circle to the
hall-entrance. Flitch was driver. He had no right to be there, he
was doing wrong, but he was doing it under cover of an office, to
support his wife and young ones, and
his deprecating touches of
the hat spoke of these apologies to his former master with dog-
like pathos.


Sir Willoughby beckoned to him to approach.

"So you are here," he said. "You have luggage."

Flitch jumped from the box and read one of the labels aloud: "Li-
eutenant-Colonel H. De Craye."

"And the colonel met the ladies? Overtook them?"

Here seemed to come dismal matter for Flitch to relate.

He began upon the abstract origin of it: he had lost his place in
Sir Willoughby's establishment, and was obliged to look about for
work where it was to be got, and though he knew he had no right to
be where he was, he hoped to be forgiven because of the mouths he
had to feed as a flyman attached to the railway station, where
this gentleman, the colonel, hired him, and he believed Sir Will-
oughby would excuse him for driving a friend, which the colonel
was, he recollected well, and the colonel recollected him, and he
said, not noticing how he was rigged: "What! Flitch! back in your
old place? Am I expected?" and he told the colonel his unfortunate
situation. "Not back, colonel; no such luck for me" and Colonel De
Craye was a very kind-hearted gentleman, as he always had been,
and asked kindly after his family.
And it might be that such poor
work as he was doing now he might be deprived of, such is misfor-
tune when it once harpoons a man; you may dive, and you may fly,
but it sticks in you, once do a foolish thing. "
May I humbly beg
of you, if you'll be so good, Sir Willoughby," said Flitch, pass-
ing to evidence of the sad mishap. He opened the door of the fly,
displaying fragments of broken porcelain.

"But, what, what! what's the story of this?" cried Sir Willoughby.

"What is it?" said Mrs. Mountstuart, pricking up her ears.

"It was a vaws," Flitch replied in elegy.

"A porcelain vase!" interpreted Sir Willoughby.

"China!" Mrs. Mountstuart faintly shrieked.

One of the pieces was handed to her inspection.

She held it close, she held it distant. She sighed horribly.

"The man had better have hanged himself," said she.

Flitch bestirred his misfortune-sodden features and members for a
continuation of the doleful narrative.

"How did this occur?" Sir Willoughby peremptorily asked him.

Flitch appealed to his former master for testimony that he was a
good and a careful driver.


Sir Willoughby thundered: "I tell you to tell me how this occur-
red."

"Not a drop, my lady! not since my supper last night, if there's
any truth in me!" Flitch implored succour of Mrs Mountstuart.

"Drive straight," she said, and braced him.

His narrative was then direct.

Near Piper's mill, where the Wicker brook crossed the Rebdon road,
one of Hoppner's wagons, overloaded as usual, was forcing the hor-
ses uphill, when Flitch drove down at an easy pace, and saw himself
between Hoppner's cart come to a stand and a young lady advancing:
and just then the carter smacks his whip, the horses pull half mad.
The young lady starts behind the cart, and up jumps the colonel,
and, to save the young lady, Flitch dashed ahead and did save her,
he thanked Heaven for it, and more when he came to see who the
young lady was.

"She was alone?" said Sir Willoughby in tragic amazement, staring
at Flitch.

"Very well, you saved her, and you upset the fly," Mountstuart jog-
ged him on.

"Bardett, our old head-keeper, was a witness, my lady, had to drive
half up the bank, and it's true--over the fly did go; and the vaws
it shoots out against the twelfth mile-stone, just as though there
was the chance for it! for nobody else was injured, and knocked ag-
ainst anything else, it never would have flown all to pieces, so
that it took Bardett and me ten minutes to collect every one, down
to the smallest piece there was; and he said, and I can't help
thinking myself, there was a Providence in it, for we all come to-
gether so as you might say we was made to do as we did."

"So then Horace adopted the prudent course of walking on with the
ladies instead of trusting his limbs again to this capsizing fly,"
Sir Willoughby said to Mrs. Mountstuart; and she rejoined: "Lucky
that no one was hurt."

Both of them eyed the nose of poor Flitch, and simultaneously they
delivered a verdict in "Humph!"


Mrs. Mountstuart handed the wretch a half-crown from her purse. Sir
Willoughby directed the footman in attendance to unload the fly and
gather up the fragments of porcelain carefully, bidding Flitch be
quick in his departing.

"The colonel's wedding-present! I shall call to-morrow." Mrs. Mount-
stuart waved her adieu.

"Come every day!--Yes, I suppose we may guess the destination of
the vase." He bowed her off, and she cried:

"Well, now, the gift can be shared, if you're either of you for a
division." In the crash of the carriage-wheels he heard, "At any
rate there was a rogue in that porcelain."

These are the slaps we get from a heedless world.

As for the vase, it was Horace De Craye's loss. Wedding-present he
would have to produce, and decidedly not in chips. It had the look
of a costly vase, but that was no question for the moment:--What
was meant by Clara being seen walking on the high-road alone?--What
snare, traceable ad inferas,
5 had ever induced Willoughby Patterne
to make her the repository and fortress of his honour!




CHAPTER 18. Colonel De Craye



Clara came along chatting and laughing with Colonel De Craye, young Cross-
jay's hand under one of her arms, and
her parasol flashing; a dazzling
offender; as if she wished to compel the spectator to recognize the dain-
ty rogue in porcelain; really insufferably fair: perfect in height and
grace of movement; exquisitely tressed; red-lipped, the colour striking
out to a distance from her ivory skin; a sight to set the woodland danc-
ing,
and turn the heads of the town; though beautiful, a jury of art cri-
tics might pronounce her not to be. Irregular features are condemned in
beauty. Beautiful figure, they could say. A description of her figure and
her walking would have won her any praises: and
she wore a dress cunning
to embrace the shape and flutter loose about it, in the spirit of a Sum-
mer's day.
Calypso-clad, Dr. Middleton would have called her.1 See the
silver birch in a breeze: here it swells, there it scatters, and it is
puffed to a round and it streams like a pennon, and now gives the glimpse
and shine of the white stem's line within, now hurries over it, denying
that it was visible, with a chatter along the sweeping folds, while still
the white peeps through. She had the wonderful art of dressing to suit
the season and the sky. To-day the art was ravishingly companionable with
her sweet-lighted face: too sweet, too vividly meaningful for pretty, if
not of the strict severity for beautiful.
Millinery would tell us that
she wore a fichu
2 of thin white muslin crossed in front on a dress of the
same light stuff, trimmed with deep rose. She carried a grey-silk parasol,
traced at the borders with green creepers, and across the arm devoted to
Crossjay a length of trailing ivy, and in that hand a bunch of the first
long grasses.
These hues of red rose and pale green ruffled and pouted in
the billowy white of the dress ballooning and valleying softly,
like a
yacht before the sail bends low; but she walked not like one blown aga-
inst; resembling rather the day of the South-west driving the clouds,
gallantly firm in commotion; interfusing colour and varying in her fea-
tures from laugh to smile and look of settled pleasure, like the heavens
above the breeze.


Sir Willoughby, as he frequently had occasion to protest to Clara, was
no poet:
he was a more than commonly candid English gentleman in his a-
vowed dislike of the poet's nonsense, verbiage, verse;
not one of those
latterly terrorized by the noise made about the fellow into silent con-
tempt; a sentiment that may sleep, and has not to be defended. He loath-
ed the fellow, fought the fellow.
But he was one with the poet upon that
prevailing theme of verse, the charms of women. He was, to his ill-luck,
intensely susceptible, and where he led men after him to admire, his ad-
miration became a fury.
He could see at a glance that Horace De Craye
admired Miss Middleton. Horace was a man of taste, could hardly, could
not, do other than admire; but how curious that in the setting forth of
Clara and Miss Dale, to his own contemplation and comparison of them,
Sir Willoughby had given but a nodding approbation of his bride's appe-
arance! He had not attached weight to it recently.

Her conduct, and foremost, if not chiefly,
her having been discovered,
positively met by his friend Horace, walking on the high-road without
companion or attendant, increased a sense of pain so very unusual with
him that he had cause to be indignant. Coming on this condition, his ad-
miration of the girl who wounded him was as bitter a thing as a man
could feel. Resentment, fed from the main springs of his nature, turned
it to wormwood, and not a whit the less was it admiration when he resol-
ved to chastise her with a formal indication of his disdain. Her present
gaiety sounded to him like laughter heard in the shadow of the pulpit.


"You have escaped!" he said to her, while shaking the hand of his friend
Horace and cordially welcoming him. "My dear fellow! and, by the way,
you had a squeak for it, I hear from Flitch."

"I, Willoughby? not a bit," said the colonel; "we get into a fly to get,
out of it; and Flitch helped me out as well as in, good fellow; just
dusting my coat as he did it. The only bit of bad management was that
Miss Middleton had to step aside a trifle hurriedly."

"You knew Miss Middleton at once?"

"Flitch did me the favour to introduce me.
He first precipitated me at
Miss Middleton's feet, and then he introduced me, in old oriental fash-
ion, to my sovereign."


Sir Willoughby's countenance was enough for his friend Horace. Quarter-
wheeling to Clara, he said: "'Tis the place I'm to occupy for life,
Miss Middleton, though one is not always fortunate to have a bright
excuse for taking it at the commencement."

Clara said: "Happily you were not hurt, Colonel De Craye."

"I was in the hands of the Loves. Not the Graces, I'm afraid; I've an
image of myself. Dear, no! My dear Willoughby, you never made such a
headlong declaration as that. It would have looked like a magnificent
impulse, if the posture had only been choicer.
And Miss Middleton did-
n't laugh. At least I saw nothing but pity."

"You did not write," said Willoughby.

"Because it was a toss-up of a run to Ireland or here, and I came here
not to go there; and, by the way, fetched a jug with me to offer up to
the gods of ill-luck; and they accepted the propitiation."


"Wasn't it packed in a box?"

"No, it was wrapped in paper, to show its elegant form. I caught sight
of it in the shop yesterday and carried it off this morning, and pres-
ented it to Miss Middleton at noon, without any form at all."

Willoughby knew his friend Horace's mood when the Irish tongue in him
threatened to wag.

"You see what may happen," he said to Clara.

"As far as I am in fault I regret it," she answered.

"Flitch says the accident occurred through his driving up the bank to
save you from the wheels."


"Flitch may go and whisper that down the neck of his empty whisky-
flask," said Horace De Craye. "And then let him cork it."


"The consequence is that we have a porcelain vase broken. You should
not walk on the road alone, Clara. You ought to have a companion, al-
ways. It is the rule here."

"I had left Miss Dale at the cottage."

"You ought to have had the dogs."

"Would they have been any protection to the vase?"

Horace De Craye crowed cordially.

"I'm afraid not, Miss Middleton.
One must go to the witches for pro-
tection to vases; and they're all in the air now, having their own
way with us, which accounts for the confusion in politics and society,
and the rise in the price of broomsticks, to prove it true, as they
tell us, that every nook and corner wants a mighty sweeping.
Miss
Dale looks beaming," said De Craye, wishing to divert Willoughby
from his anger with sense as well as nonsense.


"You have not been visiting Ireland recently?" said Sir Willoughby.

"No, nor making acquaintance with an actor in an Irish part in a
drama cast in the Green Island. 'Tis Flitch, my dear Willoughby,
has been and stirred the native in me, and we'll present him to
you for the like good office when we hear after a number of years
that you've not wrinkled your forehead once at your liege lady.
Take the poor old dog back home, will you? He's crazed to be at
the Hall. I say, Willoughby, it would be a good bit of work to
take him back. Think of it; you'll do the popular thing, I'm sure.

I've a superstition that Flitch ought to drive you from the church-
door. If I were in luck, I'd have him drive me."

"The man's a drunkard, Horace."

"He fuddles his poor nose. 'Tis merely unction to the exile. Sober
struggles below. He drinks to rock his heart, because he has one.

Now let me intercede for poor Flitch."

"Not a word of him. He threw up his place."

"To try his fortune in the world, as the best of us do, though liv-
ery runs after us to tell us there's no being an independent gentle-
man, and comes a cold day we haul on the metal-button coat again,
with a good ha! of satisfaction.
You'll do the popular thing. Miss
Middleton joins in the pleading."


"No pleading!"

"When I've vowed upon my eloquence, Willoughby, I'd bring you to
pardon the poor dog?"

"Not a word of him!"

"Just one!"

Sir Willoughby battled with himself to repress a state of temper
that put him to marked disadvantage beside his friend Horace in
high spirits. Ordinarily he enjoyed these fits of Irish of him,
which were Horace's fun and play, at times involuntary, and then
they indicated a recklessness that might embrace mischief. De Craye,
as Willoughby had often reminded him, was properly Norman.
The blood
of two or three Irish mothers in his line, however, was enough to
dance him, and if his fine profile spoke of the stiffer race, his
eyes and the quick run of the lip in the cheek,
and a number of his
qualities, were evidence of the maternal legacy.

"My word has been said about the man," Willoughby replied.

"But I've wagered on your heart against your word, and cant afford
to lose; and there's a double reason for revoking for you!"

"I don't see either of them. Here are the ladies."

"You'll think of the poor beast, Willoughby."

"I hope for better occupation."

"If he drives a wheelbarrow at the Hall he'll be happier than on
board a chariot at large. He's broken-hearted."

"He's too much in the way of breakages, my dear Horace."


"Oh, the vase! the bit of porcelain!" sung De Craye. "Well, we'll
talk him over by and by."

"If it pleases you; but my rules are never amended."


"Inalterable, are they?--like those of an ancient people, who might
as well have worn a jacket of lead for the comfort they had of their
boast. The beauty of laws for human creatures is their adaptability to
new stitchings."


Colonel De Craye walked at the heels of his leader to make his bow
to the ladies Eleanor and Isabel.

Sir Willoughby had guessed the person who inspired his friend Horace
to plead so pertinaciously and inopportunely for the man Flitch: and
it had not improved his temper or the pose of his rejoinders;
he had
winced under the contrast of his friend Horace's easy, laughing, spar-
kling, musical air and manner with his own stiffness; and he had seen
Clara's face, too, scanning the contrast
--he was fatally driven to ex-
aggerate his discontentment, which did not restore him to serenity. He
would have learned more from what his abrupt swing round of the should-
er precluded his beholding. There was an interchange between Colonel
De Craye and Miss Middleton; spontaneous on both sides. His was a look
that said: "You were right"; hers: "I knew it".
Her look was calmer,
and after the first instant clouded as by wearifulness of sameness;
his was brilliant, astonished, speculative, and admiring, pitiful:
a
look that poised over a revelation, called up the hosts of wonder to
question strange fact.


It had passed unseen by Sir Willoughby. The observer was the one who
could also supply the key of the secret. Miss Dale had found Colonel
De Craye in company with Miss Middleton at her gateway. They were la-
ughing and talking together like friends of old standing, De Craye as
Irish as he could be: and the Irish tongue and gentlemanly manner are
an irresistible challenge to the opening steps of familiarity when ac-
cident has broken the ice. Flitch was their theme; and:
"Oh, but if we
go tip to Willoughby hand in hand; and bob a curtsey to 'm and beg
his pardon for Mister Flitch, won't he melt to such a pair of suppli-
ants?
of course he will!" Miss Middleton said he would not. Colonel De
Craye wagered he would; he knew Willoughby best. Miss Middleton looked
simply grave; a way of asserting the contrary opinion that tells of
rueful experience. "We'll see," said the colonel. They chatted like a
couple unexpectedly discovering in one another a common dialect among
strangers. Can there be an end to it when those two meet?
They prattle,
they fill the minutes, as though they were violently to be torn asunder
at a coming signal, and must have it out while they can; it is a meet-
ing of mountain brooks; not a colloquy, but a chasing, impossible to
say which flies, which follows, or what the topic, so interlinguistic
are they and rapidly counterchanging.
After their conversation of an
hour before, Laetitia watched Miss Middleton in surprise at
her light-
ness of mind. Clara bathed in mirth.
A boy in a summer stream shows not
heartier refreshment of his whole being. Laetitia could now understand
Vernon's idea of her wit. And it seemed that she also had Irish blood.

Speaking of Ireland, Miss Middleton said she had cousins there, her
only relatives.

"The laugh told me that," said Colonel De Craye.

Laetitia and Vernon paced up and down the lawn. Colonel De Craye was
talking with English sedateness to the ladies Eleanor and Isabel. Clara
and young Crossjay strayed.

"If I might advise, I would say, do not leave the Hall immediately, not
yet," Laetitia said to Vernon.

"You know, then?"

"I cannot understand why it was that I was taken into her confidence."

"I counselled it."

"But it was done without an object that I can see."

"The speaking did her good."

"But how capricious! how changeful!"

"Better now than later."

"Surely she has only to ask to be released?--to ask earnestly: if it is
her wish."

"You are mistaken."


"Why does she not make a confidant of her father?"

"That she will have to do. She wished to spare him."

"He cannot be spared if she is to break the engagement."

She thought of sparing him the annoyance. "Now there's to be a tussle,
he must share in it."

"Or she thought he might not side with her?"

"She has not a single instinct of cunning. You judge her harshly."

"She moved me on the walk out. Coming home I felt differently."

Vernon glanced at Colonel De Craye.

"She wants good guidance," continued Laetitia.

"She has not an idea of treachery."

"You think so? It may be true. But she seems one born devoid of patience,
easily made reckless. There is a wildness . . . I judge by her way of
speaking; that at least appeared sincere. She does not practise conceal-
ment. He will naturally find it almost incredible. The change in her, so
sudden, so wayward, is unintelligible to me.
To me it is the conduct of a
creature untamed. He may hold her to her word and be justified."

"Let him look out if he does!"

"Is not that harsher than anything I have said of her?"

"I'm not appointed to praise her. I fancy I read the case; and it's a case
of opposition of temperaments. We never can tell the person quite suited
to us; it strikes us in a flash."

"That they are not suited to us? Oh, no; that comes by degrees."

"Yes, but the accumulation of evidence, or sentience, if you like, is com-
bustible; we don't command the spark; it may be late in falling. And you
argue in her favour. Consider her as a generous and impulsive girl, outwea-
ried at last."

"By what?"

"By anything; by his loftiness, if you like. He flies too high for her, we
will say."

"Sir Willoughby an eagle?"

"She may be tired of his eyrie."

The sound of the word in Vernon's mouth smote on a consciousness she had of
his full grasp of Sir Willoughby
and her own timid knowledge, though he was
not a man who played on words.

If he had eased his heart in stressing the first syllable,
3 it was only temp-
orary relief. He was heavy-browed enough.

"But I cannot conceive what she expects me to do by confiding her sense of
her position to me," said Laetitia.

"We none of us know what will be done. We hang on Willoughby, who hangs on
whatever it is that supports him: and there we are in a swarm."

"You see the wisdom of staying, Mr. Whitford."

"It must be over in a day or two. Yes, I stay."

"She inclines to obey you."

"I should be sorry to stake my authority on her obedience. We must decide
something about Crossjay, and get the money for his crammer, if it is to be
got. If not, I may get a man to trust me. I mean to drag the boy away. Willo-
ughby has been at him with the tune of gentleman, and has laid hold of him by
one ear. When I say 'her obedience,' she is not in a situation, nor in a con-
dition to be led blindly by anybody. She must rely on herself, do everything
herself.
It's a knot that won't bear touching by any hand save hers."

"I fear . . ." said Laetitia.

"Have no such fear."

"If it should come to his positively refusing."

"He faces the consequences."

"You do not think of her."

Vernon looked at his companion.




CHAPTER 19. Colonel de Craye and Clara Middleton



MISS MIDDLETON finished her stroll with Crossjay by winding her trailer
of ivy in a wreath round his hat and sticking her bunch of grasses in the
wreath. She then commanded him to sit on the ground beside a big rhodo-
dendron, there to await her return. Crossjay had informed her of a design
he entertained to be off with a horde of boys nesting in high trees, and
marking spots where wasps and hornets were to be attacked in Autumn: she
thought it a dangerous business, and as the boy's dinner-bell had very
little restraint over him when he was in the flush of a scheme of this
description, she wished to make tolerably sure of him through the charm
she not unreadily believed she could fling on lads of his age. "Promise
me you will not move from here until I come back, and when I come I will
give you a kiss." Crossjay promised. She left him and forgot him.


Seeing by her watch fifteen minutes to the ringing of the bell, a sudden
resolve that she would speak to her father without another minute's de-
lay had prompted her like a superstitious impulse to abandon her aimless
course and be direct. She knew what was good for her; she knew it now
more clearly than in the morning. To be taken away instantly! was her
cry. There could be no further doubt. Had there been any before? But
she would not in the morning have suspected herself of a capacity for
evil, and of a pressing need to be saved from herself.
She was not pure
of nature: it may be that we breed saintly souls which are: she was
pure of will: fire rather than ice. And in beginning to see the ele-
ments she was made of she did not shuffle them to a heap with her
sweet looks to front her.
She put to her account some strength, much
weakness; she almost dared to gaze unblinking at a perilous evil tend-
ency.
The glimpse of it drove her to her father.

"He must take me away at once; to-morrow!"

She wished to spare her father. So unsparing of herself was she, that,
in her hesitation to speak to him of her change of feeling for Sir Will-
oughby, she would not suffer it to be attributed in her own mind to a
daughter's anxious consideration about her father's loneliness; an idea
she had indulged formerly. Acknowledging that it was imperative she
should speak, she understood that she had refrained, even to the
inflicting upon herself of such humiliation as to run dilating on her
woes to others, because of the silliest of human desires to preserve
her reputation for consistency. She had heard women abused for shallow-
ness and flightiness: she had heard her father denounce them as veering
weather-vanes, and his oft-repeated quid femina possit:
1 for her sex's
sake, and also to appear an exception to her sex, this reasoning crea-
ture desired to be thought consistent.

Just on the instant of her addressing him, saying: "Father," a note of
seriousness in his ear, it struck her that the occasion for saying all
had not yet arrived, and she quickly interposed: "Papa"; and helped
him to look lighter. The petition to be taken away was uttered.

"To London?" said Dr. Middleton. "I don't know who'll take us in."

"To France, papa?"

"That means hotel-life."

"Only for two or three weeks."

"Weeks! I am under an engagement to dine with Mrs Mountstuart Jenkin-
son five days hence: that is, on Thursday."

"Could we not find an excuse?"

"Break an engagement? No, my dear, not even to escape drinking a wi-
dow's wine."

"Does a word bind us?"

"Why, what else should?"

"I think I am not very well."

"We'll call in that man we met at dinner here: Corney: a capital doc-
tor; an old-fashioned anecdotal doctor. How is it you are not well,
my love? You look well. I cannot conceive your not being well."

"It is only that I want change of air, papa."

"There we are--a change! semper eadem!
2 Women will be wanting a change
of air in Paradise; a change of angels too, I might surmise. A change
from quarters like these to a French hotel would be a descent!--'this
the seat, this mournful gloom for that celestial light.'
3 I am perfectly
at home in the library here. That excellent fellow Whitford and I have
real days: and I like him for showing fight to his elder and better."


"He is going to leave."

"I know nothing of it, and I shall append no credit to the tale until
I do know. He is headstrong, but he answers to a rap."

Clara's bosom heaved. The speechless insurrection threatened her eyes.

A South-west shower lashed the window-panes and suggested to Dr. Mid-
dleton shuddering visions of the Channel passage on board a steamer.

"Corney shall see you: he is a sparkling draught in person; probably
illiterate, if I may judge from one interruption of my discourse when
he sat opposite me, but lettered enough to respect Learning and write
out his prescription: I do not ask more of men or of physicians." Dr.
Middleton said this rising, glancing at the clock and at the back of
his hands. "'Quod autem secundum litteras difficillimum esse artifi-
cium?'
4 But what after letters is the more difficult practice? 'Ego
puto medicum.' The medicus next to the scholar: though I have not to
my recollection required him next me, nor ever expected child of mine
to be crying for that milk. Daughter she is--of the unexplained sex:
we will send a messenger for Corney. Change, my dear, you will speed-
ily have, to satisfy the most craving of women, if Willoughby, as I
suppose, is in the neoteric
5 fashion of spending a honeymoon on a
railway: apt image, exposition and perpetuation of the state of mania
conducting to the institution! In my time we lay by to brood on hap-
piness; we had no thought of chasing it over a continent, mistaking
hurly-burly clothed in dust for the divinity we sought. A smaller
generation sacrifices to excitement. Dust and hurly-burly must per-
force be the issue. And that is your modern world.
Now, my dear, let
us go and wash our hands. Midday-bells expect immediate attention.
They know of no anteroom of assembly."

Clara stood gathered up, despairing at opportunity lost. He had not-
iced her contracted shape and her eyes, and had talked magisterially
to smother and overbear the something disagreeable prefigured in her
appearance.

"You do not despise your girl, father?"

"I do not; I could not; I love her; I love my girl. But you need not
sing to me like a gnat to propound that question, my dear."

"Then, father, tell Willoughby to-day we have to leave tomorrow. You
shall return in time for Mrs. Mountstuart's dinner. Friends will take
us in, the Darletons, the Erpinghams. We can go to Oxford, where you
are sure of welcome. A little will recover me. Do not mention doctors.
But you see I am nervous. I am quite ashamed of it; I am well enough
to laugh at it, only I cannot overcome it; and I feel that a day or
two will restore me. Say you will. Say it in First-Lesson-Book langu-
age; anything above a primer splits my foolish head to-day."

Dr Middleton shrugged, spreading out his arms.

"The office of ambassador from you to Willoughby, Clara? You decree
me to the part of ball between two bats. The Play being assured, the
prologue is a bladder of wind.
I seem to be instructed in one of the
mysteries of erotic esotery, yet on my word I am no wiser. If Willou-
ghby is to hear anything from you, he will hear it from your lips."

"Yes, father, yes. We have differences. I am not fit for contests at
present; my head is giddy. I wish to avoid an illness. He and I . . .
I accuse myself."

"There is the bell!" ejaculated Dr. Middleton. "I'll debate on it
with Willoughby."

"This afternoon?"

"Somewhen, before the dinner-bell.
I cannot tie myself to the minute-
hand of the clock, my dear child. And let me direct you, for the next
occasion when you shall bring the vowels I and A, in verbally detached
letters, into collision, that you do not fill the hiatus with so pronounced
a Y.
6 It is the vulgarization of our tongue of which I accuse you. I do
not like my girl to be guilty of it."

He smiled to moderate the severity of the correction, and kissed her
forehead.


She declared her inability to sit and eat; she went to her room, after
begging him very earnestly to send her the assurance that he had spoken.
She had not shed a tear, and she rejoiced in her self-control; it whis-
pered to her of true courage when she had given herself such evidence
of the reverse.

Shower and sunshine alternated through the half-hours of the afternoon,
like a procession of dark and fair holding hands and passing.
The shadow
came, and she was chill; the light yellow in moisture, and she buried
her face not to be caught up by cheerfulness.
Believing that her head
ached, she afflicted herself with all the heavy symptoms, and oppressed
her mind so thoroughly that its occupation was to speculate on Laetitia
Dale's modest enthusiasm for rural pleasures, for this place especially,
with its rich foliage and peeps of scenic peace. The prospect of an es-
cape from it inspired thoughts of
a loveable round of life where the sun
was not a naked ball of fire, but a friend clothed in woodland; where
park and meadow swept to well-known features East and West; and distantly
circling hills, and the hearts of poor cottagers too--sympathy with whom
assured her of goodness--were familiar, homely to the dweller in the
place, morning and night. And she had the love of wild flowers, the
watchful happiness in the seasons; poets thrilled her, books absorbed.
She dwelt strongly on that sincerity of feeling; it gave her root in our
earth;
she needed it as she pressed a hand on her eyeballs, conscious of
acting the invalid, though the reasons she had for languishing under
headache were so convincing that her brain refused to disbelieve in it
and went some way to produce positive throbs. Otherwise she had no ex-
cuse for shutting herself in her room. Vernon Whitford would be scepti-
cal. Headache or none, Colonel De Craye must be thinking strangely of
her; she had not shown him any sign of illness.
His laughter and his
talk sung about her and dispersed the fiction; he was the very sea-wind
for bracing unstrung nerves. Her ideas reverted to Sir Willoughby, and
at once they had no more cohesion than the foam on a torrent-water.


But soon she was undergoing a variation of sentiment. Her maid Barclay
brought her this pencilled line from her father:

"Factum est; laetus est; amantium irae, etc."7

That it was done, that Willoughby had put on an air of glad acquiescence,
and that her father assumed the existence of a lovers' quarrel, was wond-
erful to her at first sight, simple the succeeding minute. Willoughby in-
deed must be tired of her, glad of her going. He would know that it was
not to return. She was grateful to him for perhaps hinting at the amanti-
um irae, though she rejected the folly of the verse. And she gazed over
dear homely country through her windows now. Happy the lady of the place,
if happy she can be in her choice! Clara Middleton envied her the double-
blossom wild cherry-tree, nothing else. One sprig of it, if it had not
faded and gone to dust-colour like crusty Alpine snow in the lower hol-
lows, and then she could depart, bearing away a memory of the best here!
Her fiction of the headache pained her no longer. She changed her muslin
dress for silk; she was contented with the first bonnet Barclay presented.
Amicable toward every one in the house, Willoughby included, she threw up
her window, breathed, blessed mankind; and she thought: "If Willoughby
would open his heart to nature, he would be relieved of his wretched op-
inion of the world." Nature was then sparkling refreshed in the last
drops of a sweeping rain-curtain, favourably disposed for a background
to her joyful optimism. A little nibble of hunger within, real hunger,
unknown to her of late, added to this healthy view, without precipitat-
ing her to appease it; she was more inclined to foster it, for the sake
of the sinewy activity of mind and limb it gave her; and in the style of
young ladies very light of heart, she went downstairs like a cascade,
and like the meteor observed in its vanishing trace she alighted close
to Colonel De Craye
and entered one of the rooms off the hall.

He cocked an eye at the half-shut door.

Now you have only to be reminded that
it is the habit of the sportive
gentleman of easy life, bewildered as he would otherwise be by the
tricks, twists, and windings of the hunted sex, to parcel out fair wo-
men into classes; and some are flyers and some are runners; these birds
are wild on the wing, those exposed their bosoms to the shot. For him
there is no individual woman. He grants her a characteristic only to
enroll her in a class.
He is our immortal dunce at learning to distin-
guish her as a personal variety, of a separate growth.

Colonel De Craye's cock of the eye at the door said that he had seen a
rageing coquette go behind it. He had his excuse for forming the judge-
ment. She had spoken strangely of the fall of his wedding-present,
strangely of Willoughby; or there was a sound of strangeness in an al-
lusion to her appointed husband: and she had treated Willoughby stran-
gely when they met. Above all, her word about Flitch was curious. And
then that look of hers! And subsequently she transferred her polite
attentions to Willoughby's friend. After a charming colloquy, the
sweetest give and take rattle he had ever enjoyed with a girl, she de-
veloped headache to avoid him; and next she developed blindness, for
the same purpose.

He was feeling hurt, but considered it preferable to feel challenged.


Miss Middleton came out of another door. She had seen him when she had
passed him and when it was too late to convey her recognition; and now
she addressed him with an air of having bowed as she went by.

"No one?" she said. "Am I alone in the house?"

"There is a figure naught,"8 said he, "but it's as good as annihilated,
and no figure at all, if you put yourself on the wrong side of it, and
wish to be alone in the house."

"Where is Willoughby?"

"Away on business."

"Riding?"

"Achmet is the horse, and pray don't let him be sold, Miss Middleton.
I am deputed to attend on you."

"I should like a stroll."

"Are you perfectly restored?"

"Perfectly."

"Strong?"

"I was never better."

"It was the answer of the ghost of the wicked old man's wife when she
came to persuade him he had one chance remaining. Then, says he, I'll be-
lieve in heaven if ye'll stop that bottle, and hurls it; and the bottle
broke and he committed suicide, not without suspicion of her laying a
trap for him. These showers curling away and leaving sweet scents are
divine,
Miss Middleton. I have the privilege of the Christian name on
the nuptial-day. This park of Willoughby's is one of the best things in
England.
There's a glimpse over the lake that smokes of a corner of Kil-
larney; tempts the eye to dream, I mean." De Craye wound his finger spi-
rally upward, like a smoke-wreath.
"Are you for Irish scenery?"

"Irish, English, Scottish."

"All's one so long as it's beautiful: yes, you speak for me.
Cosmopoli-
tanism of races is a different affair. I beg leave to doubt the true union
of some; Irish and Saxon, for example, let Cupid be master of the ceremo-
nies and the dwelling-place of the happy couple at the mouth of a Cornuco-
pia. Yet I have seen a flower of Erin worn by a Saxon gentleman proudly;
and the Hibernian courting a Rowena!
9 So we'll undo what I said, and con-
sider it cancelled."

"Are you of the rebel party, Colonel De Craye?"
10

"I am Protestant and Conservative, Miss Middleton."

"I have not a head for politics."

"The political heads I have seen would tempt me to that opinion."

"Did Willoughby say when he would be back?"

"He named no particular time. Doctor Middleton and Mr. Whitford are in the
library upon a battle of the books."

"Happy battle!"

"You are accustomed to scholars. They are rather intolerant of us poor
fellows."

"Of ignorance perhaps; not of persons."

"Your father educated you himself, I presume?"

"He gave me as much Latin as I could take. The fault is mine that it is
little."

"Greek?"

"A little Greek."

"Ah! And you carry it like a feather."

"Because it is so light."

"Miss Middleton, I could sit down to be instructed, old as I am. When wo-
men beat us, I verily believe we are the most beaten dogs in existence.
You like the theatre?"

"Ours?"

"Acting, then."

"Good acting, of course."

"May I venture to say you would act admirably?"

"The venture is bold, for I have never tried."

"Let me see; there is Miss Dale and Mr. Whitford; you and I; sufficient for
a two-act piece.
11 THE IRISHMAN IN SPAIN would do." He bent to touch
the grass as she stepped on it. "The lawn is wet."

She signified that she had no dread of wet, and said: "English women a-
fraid of the weather might as well be shut up."

De Craye proceeded: "Patrick O'Neill passes over from Hibernia to Iberia,
a disinherited son of a father in the claws of the lawyers, with a letter
of introduction to Don Beltran d'Arragon, a Grandee of the First Class,
who has a daughter Dona Seraphina (Miss Middleton), the proudest beauty
of her day, in the custody of a duenna (Miss Dale), and plighted to Don
Fernan, of the Guzman family (Mr. Whitford). There you have our dramatis
personae."

"You are Patrick?"

"Patrick himself. And I lose my letter, and I stand on the Prado of Madrid
with the last portrait of Britannia12 in the palm of my hand, and crying in
the purest brogue of my native land: 'It's all through dropping a letter
I'm here in Iberia instead of Hibernia, worse luck to the spelling!'"

"But Patrick will be sure to aspirate the initial letter of Hibernia."13

"That is clever criticism, upon my word, Miss Middleton!
So he would. And
there we have two letters dropped. But he'd do it in a groan, so that it
wouldn't count for more than a ghost of one; and everything goes on the
stage, since it's only the laugh we want on the brink of the action. Be-
sides you are to suppose the performance before a London audience, who
have a native opposite to the aspirate and wouldn't bear to hear him
spoil a joke, as if he were a lord or a constable. It's an instinct of
the English democracy.
So with my bit of coin turning over and over in an
undecided way, whether it shall commit suicide to supply me a supper, I
behold a pair of Spanish eyes like violet lightning in the black heavens

of that favoured clime. Won't you have violet?"

"Violet forbids my impersonation."

"But the lustre on black is dark violet blue."

"You remind me that I have no pretension to black."

Colonel De Craye permitted himself to take a flitting gaze at Miss Mid-
dleton's eyes. "Chestnut," he said. "Well, and Spain is the land of
chestnuts."


"Then it follows that I am a daughter of Spain."

"Clearly."

"Logically?"

"By positive deduction."

"And do I behold Patrick?"

"As one looks upon a beast of burden."


"Oh!"

Miss Middleton's exclamation was louder than the matter of the dialogue
seemed to require. She caught her hands up.

In the line of the outer extremity of the rhododendron, screened from the
house windows, young Crossjay lay at his length, with his head resting on
a doubled arm, and his ivy-wreathed hat on his cheek, just where she had
left him, commanding him to stay. Half-way toward him up the lawn, she
saw the poor boy, and the spur of that pitiful sight set her gliding
swiftly. Colonel De Craye followed, pulling an end of his moustache.

Crossjay jumped to his feet.


"My dear, dear Crossjay!" she addressed him and reproached him. "And how
hungry you must be! And you must be drenched! This is really too had."

"You told me to wait here," said Crossjay, in shy self-defence.

"I did, and you should not have done it, foolish boy! I told him to wait
for me here before luncheon, Colonel De Craye, and the foolish, foolish
boy!--he has had nothing to eat, and he must have been wet through two or
three times:--because I did not come to him!"

"Quite right.
And the lava might overflow him and take the mould of him,
like the sentinel at Pompeii, if he's of the true stuff."
14

"He may have caught cold, he may have a fever."

"He was under your orders to stay."

"I know, and I cannot forgive myself. Run in, Crossjay, and change your
clothes. Oh, run, run to Mrs. Montague, and get her to give you a warm
bath, and tell her from me to prepare some dinner for you. And change ev-
ery garment you have. This is unpardonable of me. I said--'not for poli-
tics!'--I begin to think I have not a head for anything. But could it be
imagined that Crossjay would not move for the dinner-bell! through all
that rain!
I forgot you, Crossjay. I am so sorry; so sorry! You shall
make me pay any forfeit you like. Remember, I am deep, deep in your debt.
And now let me see you run fast. You shall come in to dessert this eve-
ning."15

Crossjay did not run. He touched her hand.

"You said something?"

"What did I say, Crossjay?"

"You promised."

"What did I promise?"

"Something."

"Name it, my dear boy."

He mumbled, ". . . kiss me."

Clara plumped down on him, enveloped him and kissed him.

The affectionately remorseful impulse was too quick for a conventional
note of admonition to arrest her from paying that portion of her debt.
When she had sped him off to Mrs Montague, she was in a blush.

"Dear, dear Crossjay!" she said, sighing.

"Yes, he's a good lad," remarked the colonel. "The fellow may well be a
faithful soldier and stick to his post, if he receives promise of such a
solde.
16 He is a great favourite with you."

"He is. You will do him a service by persuading Willoughby to send him
to one of those men who get boys through their naval examination. And,
Colonel De Craye, will you be kind enough to ask at the dinner-table
that Crossjay may come in to dessert?"

"Certainly," said he, wondering.

"And will you look after him while you are here? See that no one spoils
him. If you could get him away before you leave, it would be much to
his advantage. He is born for the navy and should be preparing to enter
it now."

"Certainly, certainly," said De Craye, wondering more.


"I thank you in advance."

"Shall I not be usurping . . ."

"No, we leave to-morrow."

"For a day?"

"For longer."

"Two?"

"It will be longer."

"A week? I shall not see you again?"

"I fear not."


Colonel De Craye controlled his astonishment; he smothered a sensation
of veritable pain, and amiably said: "I feel a blow, but I am sure you
would not willingly strike. We are all involved in the regrets."


Miss Middleton spoke of having to see Mrs. Montague, the housekeeper,
with reference to the bath for Crossjay, and stepped off the grass.
He
bowed, watched her a moment, and for parallel reasons, running close e-
nough to hit one mark, he commiserated his friend Willoughby. The win-
ning or the losing of that young lady struck him as equally lamentable
for Willoughby.




CHAPTER 20. An Aged and a Great Wine



THE leisurely promenade up and down the lawn with ladies and deferent-
ial gentlemen, in anticipation of the dinner-bell, was Dr. Middleton's
evening pleasure.
He walked as one who had formerly danced (in Apol-
lo's time and the young god Cupid's), elastic on the muscles of the
calf and foot, bearing his broad iron-grey head in grand elevation.
The hard labour of the day approved the cooling exercise and the
crowning refreshments of French cookery and wines of known vintages.
He was happy at that hour in dispensing wisdom or nugae
1 to his hearers,
like the Western sun whose habit it is, when he is fairly treated, to
break out in quiet splendours, which by no means exhaust his treasury.
Blessed indeed above his fellows, by the height of the bow-winged bird
2
in a fair weather sunset sky above the pecking sparrow,
is he that ever
in the recurrent evening of his day sees the best of it ahead and soon
to come. He has the rich reward of a youth and manhood of virtuous liv-
ing.
Dr. Middleton misdoubted the future as well as the past of the man
who did not, in becoming gravity, exult to dine. That man he deemed un-
fit for this world and the next.

An example of the good fruit of temperance, he had a comfortable pride
in his digestion, and his political sentiments were attuned by his ven-
eration of the Powers rewarding virtue. We must have a stable world
where this is to be done.

The Rev. Doctor was a fine old picture; a specimen of art peculiarly
English; combining in himself piety and epicurism, learning and gentle-
manliness, with good room for each and a seat at one another's table:
for the rest, a strong man, an athlete in his youth, a keen reader of
facts and no reader of persons, genial, a giant at a task, a steady
worker besides, but easily discomposed. He loved his daughter and he
feared her. However much he liked her character, the dread of her sex
and age was constantly present to warn him that he was not tied to per-
fect sanity while the damsel Clara remained unmarried. Her mother had
been an amiable woman, of the poetical temperament nevertheless, too
enthusiastic, imaginative, impulsive, for the repose of a sober scholar;
an admirable woman, still, as you see, a woman, a fire-work. The girl
resembled her. Why should she wish to run away from Patterne Hall for a
single hour? Simply because she was of the sex born mutable and explosive.
A husband was her proper custodian, justly relieving a father. With dem-
agogues abroad and daughters at home, philosophy is needed for us to keep
erect.
Let the girl be Cicero's Tullia: well, she dies!3 The choicest of
them will furnish us examples of a strange perversity.

Miss Dale was beside Dr. Middleton. Clara came to them and took the oth-
er side.

"I was telling Miss Dale that the signal for your subjection is my en-
franchisement," he said to her, sighing and smiling. "We know the date.
The date of an event to come certifies to it as a fact to be counted on."

"Are you anxious to lose me?" Clara faltered
.

"My dear, you have planted me on a field where I am to expect the trum-
pet, and when it blows I shall be quit of my nerves, no more."


Clara found nothing to seize on for a reply in these words. She thought
upon the silence of Laetitia.


Sir Willoughby advanced, appearing in a cordial mood.

"I need not ask you whether you are better," he said to Clara, sparkled
to Laetitia, and raised a key to the level of Dr. Middleton's breast,
remarking, "I am going down to my inner cellar."

"An inner cellar!" exclaimed the doctor.

"Sacred from the butler. It is interdicted to Stoneman. Shall I offer
myself as guide to you? My cellars are worth a visit."

"Cellars are not catacombs. They are, if rightly constructed, rightly
considered, cloisters, where the bottle meditates on joys to bestow, not
on dust misused!
Have you anything great?"

"A wine aged ninety."

"Is it associated with your pedigree that you pronounce the age with
such assurance?"

"My grandfather inherited it."

"Your grandfather, Sir Willoughby, had meritorious offspring, not to
speak of generous progenitors. What would have happened had it fallen
into the female line! I shall be glad to accompany you.
Port? Hermitage?"4

"Port."

"Ah! We are in England!"


"There will just be time," said Sir Willoughby, inducing Dr. Middleton
to step out.


A chirrup was in the reverend doctor's tone: "Hocks, too, have compassed
age.
5 I have tasted senior Hocks. Their flavours are as a brook of many
voices; they have depth also. Senatorial Port! we say. We cannot say
that of any other wine. Port is deep-sea deep. It is in its flavour
deep; mark the difference. It is like a classic tragedy, organic in con-
ception. An ancient Hermitage has the light of the antique; the merit
that it can grow to an extreme old age; a merit. Neither of Hermitage
nor of Hock can you say that it is the blood of those long years, retai-
ning the strength of youth with the wisdom of age. To Port for that!
Port is our noblest legacy!
Observe, I do not compare the wines; I dis-
tinguish the qualities. Let them live together for our enrichment; they
are not rivals like the Idaean Three.
6 Were they rivals, a fourth would
challenge them.
Burgundy has great genius. It does wonders within its
period; it does all except to keep up in the race; it is short-lived.
An aged Burgundy runs with a beardless Port. I cherish the fancy that
Port speaks the sentences of wisdom, Burgundy sings the inspired Ode.
Or put it, that Port is the Homeric hexameter, Burgundy the pindaric
dithyramb.
7 What do you say?"

"The comparison is excellent, sir."

"The distinction, you would remark.
Pindar astounds. But his elder
brings us the more sustaining cup. One is a fountain of prodigious as-
cent. One is the unsounded purple sea of marching billows."

"A very fine distinction."

"I conceive you to be now commending the similes.
They pertain to the
time of the first critics of those poets. Touch the Greeks, and you can
nothing new; all has been said: 'Graiis . . . praeter, laudem nullius
avaris.'
8 Genius dedicated to Fame is immortal. We, sir, dedicate genius
to the cloacaline floods. We do not address the unforgetting gods, but
the popular stomach."


Sir Willoughby was patient. He was about as accordantly coupled with Dr.
Middleton in discourse as a drum duetting with a bass-viol; and when he
struck in he received correction from the paedagogue-instrument. If he
thumped affirmative or negative, he was wrong. However, he knew scholars
to be an unmannered species; and the doctor's learnedness would be a sub-
ject to dilate on.

In the cellar, it was the turn for the drum. Dr. Middleton was tongue-
tied there. Sir Willoughby gave the history of his wine in heads of chap-
ters; whence it came to the family originally, and how it had come down
to him in the quantity to be seen. "Curiously, my grandfather, who inher-
ited it, was a water-drinker. My father died early."

"Indeed! Dear me!" the doctor ejaculated in astonishment and condolence.
The former glanced at the contrariety of man, the latter embraced his
melancholy destiny.

He was impressed with respect for the family.
This cool vaulted cellar,
and the central square block, or enceinte,
9 where the thick darkness was
not penetrated by the intruding lamp, but rather took it as an eye, bore
witness to forethoughtful practical solidity in the man who had built the
house on such foundations. A house having a great wine stored below lives
in our imaginations as a joyful house, fast and splendidly rooted in the
soil.
And imagination has a place for the heir of the house. His grandfa-
ther a water-drinker, his father dying early, present circumstances to us
arguing predestination to an illustrious heirship and career.
Dr Middle-
ton's musings were coloured by the friendly vision of glasses of the great
wine; his mind was festive; it pleased him, and he chose to indulge in his
whimsical, robustious, grandiose-airy style of thinking: from which the
festive mind will sometimes take a certain print that we cannot obliterate
immediately.
Expectation is grateful, you know; in the mood of gratitude
we are waxen. And he was a self-humouring gentleman.


He liked Sir Willoughby's tone in ordering the servant at his heels to
take up "those two bottles": it prescribed, without overdoing it, a proper
amount of caution, and it named an agreeable number.

Watching the man's hand keenly, he said:

"But here is the misfortune of a thing super-excellent:--not more than one
in twenty will do it justice."

Sir Willoughby replied: "Very true, sir; and I think we may pass over the
nineteen."

"Women, for example; and most men."

"This wine would be a scaled book to them."

"I believe it would. It would be a grievous waste."

"Vernon is a claret man; and so is Horace De Craye. They are both below
the mark of this wine. They will join the ladies. Perhaps you and I, sir,
might remain together."

"With the utmost good-will on my part."

"I am anxious for your verdict, sir."

"You shall have it, sir, and not out of harmony with the chorus preceding
me, I can predict. Cool, not frigid." Dr. Middleton summed the attributes
of the cellar on quitting it. "North side and South.
No musty damp. A pure
air. Everything requisite. One might lie down one's self and keep sweet
here."

Of all our venerable British of the two Isles professing a suckling attac-
hment to an ancient port-wine, lawyer, doctor, squire, rosy admiral, city
merchant, the classic scholar is he whose blood is most nuptial to the web-
bed bottle. The reason must be, that he is full of the old poets. He has
their spirit to sing with, and the best that Time has done on earth to
feed it. He may also perceive a resemblance in the wine to the studious
mind, which is the obverse of our mortality, and throws off acids and
crusty particles in the piling of the years, until it is fulgent by clar-
ity. Port hymns to his conservatism. It is magical: at one sip he is off
swimming in the purple flood of the ever-youthful antique.


By comparison, then, the enjoyment of others is brutish; they have not
the soul for it; but he is worthy of the wine, as are poets of Beauty. In
truth, these should be severally apportioned to them, scholar and poet,
as his own good thing. Let it be so.

Meanwhile Dr. Middleton sipped.

After the departure of the ladies, Sir Willoughby had practised a studied
curtness upon Vernon and Horace.

"You drink claret," he remarked to them, passing it round. "Port, I think,
Doctor Middleton? The wine before you may serve for a preface. We shall
have your wine in five minutes."


The claret jug empty, Sir Willoughby offered to send for more. De Craye
was languid over the question. Vernon rose from the table.

"We have a bottle of Doctor Middleton's port coming in," Willoughby said
to him.

"Mine, you call it?" cried the doctor.

"It's a royal wine, that won't suffer sharing," said Vernon.

"We'll be with you, if you go into the billiard-room, Vernon."

"I shall hurry my drinking of good wine for no man," said the Rev. Doctor.


"Horace?"

"I'm beneath it, ephemeral, Willoughby. I am going to the ladies."

Vernon and De Craye retired upon the arrival of the wine; and Dr. Middle-
ton sipped. He sipped and looked at the owner of it.

"Some thirty dozen?" he said.

"Fifty."

The doctor nodded humbly.

"I shall remember, sir," his host addressed him, "whenever I have the hon-
our of entertaining you, I am cellarer of that wine."

The Rev. Doctor set down his glass. "You have, sir, in some sense, an en-
viable post. It is a responsible one, if that be a blessing. On you it de-
volves to retard the day of the last dozen."

"Your opinion of the wine is favourable, sir?"


"I will say this:--shallow souls run to rhapsody:--I will say, that I am
consoled for not having lived ninety years back, or at any period but the
present, by this one glass of your ancestral wine."


"I am careful of it," Sir Willoughby said, modestly; "still its natural
destination is to those who can appreciate it. You do, sir."

"Still my good friend, still! It is a charge; it is a possession, but
part in trusteeship. Though we cannot declare it an entailed estate, our
consciences are in some sort pledged that it shall be a succession not
too considerably diminished."

"You will not object to drink it, sir, to the health of your grandchild-
ren. And may you live to toast them in it on their marriage-day!"

"You colour the idea of a prolonged existence in seductive hues. Ha! It
is a wine for Tithonus.
10 This wine would speed him to the rosy Morning--
aha!"

"I will undertake to sit you through it up to morning," said Sir Willou-
ghby, innocent of the Bacchic nuptiality of the allusion.


Dr Middleton eyed the decanter. There is a grief in gladness, for a pre-
monition of our mortal state. The amount of wine in the decanter did not
promise to sustain the starry roof of night and greet the dawn. "Old wine,
my friend, denies us the full bottle!"

"Another bottle is to follow."

"No!"

"It is ordered."

"I protest."

"It is uncorked."

"I entreat."

"It is decanted."

"I submit.
But, mark, it must be honest partnership. You are my worthy
host, sir, on that stipulation. Note the superiority of wine over Venus!
--I may say, the magnanimity of wine; our jealousy turns on him that will
not share! But the corks, Willoughby.
The corks excite my amazement."

"The corking is examined at regular intervals. I remember the occurrence
in my father's time. I have seen to it once."

"It must be perilous as an operation for tracheotomy; which I should as-
sume it to resemble in surgical skill and firmness of hand, not to men-
tion the imminent gasp of the patient."


A fresh decanter was placed before the doctor.

He said: "I have but a girl to give!" He was melted.

Sir Willoughby replied: "I take her for the highest prize this world af-
fords."

"I have beaten some small stock of Latin into her head, and a note of
Greek. She contains a savour of the classics. I hoped once . . . But she
is a girl. The nymph of the woods is in her. Still she will bring you her
flower-cup of Hippocrene.
11 She has that aristocracy--the noblest. She
is fair; a Beauty, some have said, who judge not by lines. Fair to me, Will-
oughby! She is my sky. There were applicants. In Italy she was besought
of me.
She has no history. You are the first heading of the chapter. With
you she will have her one tale, as it should be. 'Mulier tum bene olet',
12
you know. Most fragrant she that smells of naught. She goes to you from
me, from me alone, from her father to her husband.
'Ut flos in septis se-
cretus nascitur hortis.'"
13 He murmured on the lines to, "'Sic virgo, dum
. . .' I shall feel the parting. She goes to one who will have my pride
in her, and more. I will add, who will be envied. Mr. Whitford must write
you a Carmen Nuptiale."

The heart of the unfortunate gentleman listening to Dr. Middleton set in
for irregular leaps.
His offended temper broke away from the image of Cla-
ra, revealing her as he had seen her in the morning beside Horace De Craye,
distressingly sweet; sweet with the breezy radiance of an English soft-bre-
athing day; sweet with sharpness of young sap. Her eyes, her lips, her flut-
tering dress that played happy mother across her bosom, giving peeps of the
veiled twins; and her laughter, her slim figure, peerless carriage, all her
terrible sweetness touched his wound to the smarting quick.


Her wish to be free of him was his anguish. In his pain he thought sincere-
ly. When the pain was easier he muffled himself in the idea of her jealousy
of Laetitia Dale, and deemed the wish a fiction.
But she had expressed it.
That was the wound he sought to comfort; for the double reason, that he
could love her better after punishing her, and that to meditate on doing so
masked the fear of losing her--
the dread abyss she had succeeded in forcing
his nature to shudder at as a giddy edge possibly near,
in spite of his arts
of self-defence.

"What I shall do to-morrow evening!" he exclaimed. "I do not care to fling a
bottle to Colonel De Craye and Vernon. I cannot open one for myself. To sit
with the ladies will be sitting in the cold for me. When do you bring me back
my bride, sir?"

"My dear Willoughby!" The Rev. Doctor puffed, composed himself, and sipped.
"The expedition is an absurdity. I am unable to see the aim of it. She had a
headache, vapours. They are over, and she will show a return of good sense.
I have ever maintained that nonsense is not to be encouraged in girls. I can
put my foot on it. My arrangements are for staying here a further ten days,
in the terms of your hospitable invitation. And I stay."

"I applaud your resolution, sir. Will you prove firm?"

"I am never false to my engagement, Willoughby."

"Not under pressure?"

"Under no pressure."

"Persuasion, I should have said."

"Certainly not. The weakness is in the yielding, either to persuasion or to
pressure. The latter brings weight to bear on us; the former blows at our
want of it."

"You gratify me, Doctor Middleton, and relieve me."

"I cordially dislike a breach in good habits, Willoughby. But I do remember
--was I wrong?--informing Clara that you appeared light-hearted in regard to
a departure, or gap in a visit, that was not, I must confess, to my liking."

"Simply, my dear doctor, your pleasure was my pleasure; but make my pleasure
yours, and you remain to crack many a bottle with your son-in-law."

"Excellently said. You have a courtly speech, Willoughby. I can imagine you
to conduct a lovers' quarrel with a politeness to read a lesson to well-bred
damsels. Aha?"


"Spare me the futility of the quarrel."

"All's well?"

"Clara," replied Sir Willoughby, in dramatic epigram, "is perfection."

"I rejoice," the Rev. Doctor responded; taught thus to understand that the
lovers' quarrel between his daughter and his host was at an end.

He left the table a little after eleven o'clock. A short dialogue ensued u-
pon the subject of the ladies. They must have gone to bed? Why, yes; of
course they must. It is good that they should go to bed early to preserve
their complexions for us.
Ladies are creation's glory, but they are anti-
climax, following a wine of a century old. They are anti-climax, recoil,
cross-current; morally, they are repentance, penance; imagerially, the fro-
zen North on the young brown buds bursting to green. What know they of a
critic in the palate, and a frame all revelry! And mark you, revelry in so-
briety, containment in exultation; classic revelry. Can they, dear though
they be to us, light up candelabras in the brain, to illuminate all histo-
ry and solve the secret of the destiny of man?
They cannot; they cannot
sympathize with them that can. So therefore this division is between us;
yet are we not turbaned Orientals, nor are they inmates of the harem. We
are not Moslem. Be assured of it in the contemplation of the table's de-
canter.


Dr Middleton said: "Then I go straight to bed."

"I will conduct you to your door, sir," said his host.

The piano was heard. Dr. Middleton laid his hand on the banisters, and
remarked: "The ladies must have gone to bed?"

Vernon came out of the library and was hailed, "Fellow-student!"

He waved a good-night to the Doctor, and said to Willoughby: "The ladies
are in the drawing-room."

"I am on my way upstairs," was the reply.

"Solitude and sleep, after such a wine as that; and forefend us human so-
ciety!" the Doctor shouted. "But, Willoughby!"

"Sir."

"One to-morrow."

"You dispose of the cellar, sir."

"I am fitter to drive the horses of the sun.
14 I would rigidly counsel, one,
and no more. We have made a breach in the fiftieth dozen. Daily one will
preserve us from having to name the fortieth quite so unseasonably. The
couple of bottles per diem prognosticates disintegration, with its accom-
panying recklessness. Constitutionally, let me add, I bear three. I speak
for posterity."

During Dr. Middleton's allocution the ladies issued from the drawing-room,
Clara foremost, for she had heard her father's voice, and desired to ask
him this in reference to their departure: "Papa, will you tell me the hour
to-morrow?"

She ran up the stairs to kiss him, saying again: "When will you be ready
to-morrow morning?"

Dr Middleton announced a stoutly deliberative mind in the bugle-notes of
a repeated ahem. He bethought him of replying in his doctorial tongue.
Clara's eager face admonished him to brevity: it began to look starved.
Intruding on his vision of the houris
15 couched in the inner cellar to be
the reward of valiant men, it annoyed him
. His brows joined. He said: "I
shall not be ready to-morrow morning."

"In the afternoon?"

"Nor in the afternoon."

"When?"

"My dear, I am ready for bed at this moment, and know of no other readi-
ness.
Ladies," he bowed to the group in the hall below him, "may fair
dreams pay court to you this night!"

Sir Willoughby had hastily descended and shaken the hands of the ladies,
directed Horace De Craye to the laboratory for a smoking-room, and retu-
rned to Dr. Middleton. Vexed by the scene, uncertain of his temper if he
stayed with Clara, for whom he had arranged that her disappointment
should take place on the morrow, in his absence, he said: "Good-night,
good-night," to her, with due fervour, bending over her flaccid finger-
tips; then offered his arm to the Rev. Doctor.

"Ay, son Willoughby, in friendliness, if you will, though I am a man to
bear my load," the father of the stupefied girl addressed him. "Candles,
I believe, are on the first landing. Good-night, my love. Clara!"

"Papa!"

"Good-night."

"Oh!" she lifted her breast with the interjection, standing in shame of
the curtained conspiracy and herself, "good night".

Her father wound up the stairs. She stepped down.

"There was an understanding that papa and I should go to London to-mor-
row early," she said, unconcernedly, to the ladies, and
her voice was
clear, but her face too legible. De Craye was heartily unhappy at the
sight.



CHAPTER 21. Clara's Meditations



Two were sleepless that night: Miss Middleton and Colonel De Craye.

She was in a fever, lying like stone, with her brain burning. Quick
natures run out to calamity in any little shadow of it flung before.
Terrors of apprehension drive them. They stop not short of the utter-
most when they are on the wings of dread. A frown means tempest, a
wind wreck; to see fire is to be seized by it. When it is the ap-
proach of their loathing that they fear, they are in the tragedy of
the embrace at a breath; and then is the wrestle between themselves
and horror,
between themselves and evil, which promises aid; them-
selves and weakness, which calls on evil; themselves and the better
part of them, which whispers no beguilement.

The false course she had taken through sophistical cowardice appall-
ed the girl; she was lost. The advantage taken of it by Willoughby
put on the form of strength, and made her feel abject, reptilious;

she was lost, carried away on the flood of the cataract. He had won
her father for an ally. Strangely, she knew not how, he had succeeded
in swaying her father, who had previously not more than tolerated him.
"Son Willoughby" on her father's lips meant something that scenes and
scenes would have to struggle with, to the out-wearying of her father
and herself. She revolved the "Son Willoughby" through moods of stup-
efaction, contempt, revolt, subjection. It meant that she was van-
quished. It meant that her father's esteem for her was forfeited. She
saw him a gigantic image of discomposure.

Her recognition of her cowardly feebleness brought the brood of fat-
alism. What was the right of so miserable a creature as she to excite
disturbance, let her fortunes be good or ill? It would be quieter to
float, kinder to everybody. Thank heaven for the chances of a short
life! Once in a net, desperation is graceless. We may be brutes in
our earthly destinies: in our endurance of them we need not be brut-
ish.


She was now in the luxury of passivity, when we throw our burden on
the Powers above, and do not love them. The need to love them drew
her out of it, that she might strive with the unbearable, and by sheer
striving, even though she were graceless, come to love them humbly.
It is here that the seed of good teaching supports a soul, for the
condition might be mapped, and where kismet
1 whispers us to shut eyes,
and instruction bids us look up, is at a well-marked cross-road of
the contest.

Quick of sensation, but not courageously resolved, she perceived how
blunderingly she had acted. For a punishment, it seemed to her that
she who had not known her mind must learn to conquer her nature, and
submit. She had accepted Willoughby; therefore she accepted him. The
fact became a matter of the past, past debating.

In the abstract this contemplation of circumstances went well. A plain
duty lay in her way. And then a disembodied thought flew round her,
comparing her with Vernon to her discredit. He had for years borne
much that was distasteful to him, for the purpose of studying, and
with his poor income helping the poorer than himself. She dwelt on
him in pity and envy; he had lived in this place, and so must she;
and he had not been dishonoured by his modesty: he had not failed of
self-control, because he had a life within. She was almost imagining
she might imitate him when the clash of a sharp physical thought,
"The difference! the difference!" told her she was woman and never
could submit. Can a woman have an inner life apart from him she is
yoked to? She tried to nestle deep away in herself: in some corner
where the abstract view had comforted her, to flee from thinking as
her feminine blood directed. It was a vain effort. The difference,
the cruel fate, the defencelessness of women, pursued her, strung her
to wild horses' backs, tossed her on savage wastes. In her case duty
was shame:
hence, it could not be broadly duty. That intolerable dif-
ference proscribed the word.

But the fire of a brain burning high and kindling everything lighted
up herself against herself.--Was one so volatile as she a person with
a will?--Were they not a multitude of flitting wishes that she took
for a will?
Was she, feather-headed that she was, a person to make a
stand on physical pride?--If she could yield her hand without reflect-
ion (as she conceived she had done, from incapacity to conceive herself
doing it reflectively) was she much better than purchaseable stuff that
has nothing to say to the bargain?


Furthermore, said her incandescent reason, she had not suspected such
art of cunning in Willoughby. Then might she not be deceived altogether
--might she not have misread him? Stronger than she had fancied, might
he not be likewise more estimable? The world was favourable to him; he
was prized by his friends.

She reviewed him. It was all in one flash. It was not much less intent-
ionally favourable than the world's review and that of his friends, but,
beginning with the idea of them, she recollected--heard Willoughby's
voice pronouncing his opinion of his friends and the world; of Vernon
Whitford and Colonel De Craye for example, and of men and women.
An un-
defined agreement to have the same regard for him as his friends and the
world had, provided that he kept at the same distance from her, was the
termination of this phase, occupying about a minute in time, and reached
through a series of intensely vivid pictures:
--his face, at her petition
to be released, lowering behind them for a background and a comment.


"I cannot! I cannot!" she cried, aloud; and it struck her that her repul-
sion was a holy warning. Better be graceless than a loathing wife: better
appear inconsistent. Why should she not appear such as she was?

Why? We answer that question usually in angry reliance on certain superb
qualities, injured fine qualities of ours undiscovered by the world, not
much more than suspected by ourselves, which are still our fortress,
where pride sits at home, solitary and impervious as an octogenarian con-
servative. But it is not possible to answer it so when the brain is rag-
ing like a pine-torch and the devouring illumination leaves not a spot of
our nature covert.
The aspect of her weakness was unrelieved, and fright-
ened her back to her loathing. From her loathing, as soon as her sensati-
ons had quickened to realize it, she was hurled on her weakness. She was
graceless, she was inconsistent, she was volatile, she was unprincipled,
she was worse than a prey to wickedness--capable of it; she was only wait-
ing to be misled. Nay,
the idea of being misled suffused her with languor;
for then the battle would be over and she a happy weed of the sea no long-
er suffering those tugs at the roots, but leaving it to the sea to heave
and contend.
She would be like Constantia then: like her in her fortunes:
never so brave, she feared.


Perhaps very like Constantia in her fortunes!

Poor troubled bodies waking up in the night to behold visually the spectre
cast forth from the perplexed machinery inside them, stare at it for a
space, till touching consciousness they dive down under the sheets with
fish-like alacrity. Clara looked at her thought, and suddenly headed down-
ward in a crimson gulf.


She must have obtained absolution, or else it was oblivion, below. Soon
after the plunge her first object of meditation was Colonel De Craye.
She thought of him calmly: he seemed a refuge. He was very nice, he
was a holiday character.
His lithe figure, neat firm footing of the stag,
swift intelligent expression, and his ready frolicsomeness, pleasant hu-
mour, cordial temper, and his Irishry, whereon he was at liberty to play,
as on the emblem harp of the Isle, were soothing to think of. The su-
spicion that she tricked herself with this calm observation of him was
dismissed. Issuing out of torture, her young nature eluded the irradiating
brain in search of refreshment, and she luxuriated at a feast in consider-
ing him--shower on a parched land that he was! He spread new air abroad.

She had no reason to suppose he was not a good man: she could securely
think of him. Besides he was bound by his prospective office in support
of his friend Willoughby to be quite harmless. And besides (you are not
to expect logical sequences) the showery refreshment in thinking of him
lay in the sort of assurance it conveyed, that the more she thought, the
less would he be likely to figure as an obnoxious official--that is, as
the man to do by Willoughby at the altar what her father would, under the
supposition, be doing by her. Her mind reposed on Colonel De Craye.


His name was Horace. Her father had worked with her at Horace. She knew
most of the Odes and some of the Satires and Epistles of the poet. They
reflected benevolent beams on the gentleman of the poet's name.
He too
was vivacious, had fun, common sense, elegance; loved rusticity, he said,
sighed for a country life,
fancied retiring to Canada to cultivate his own
domain; "modus agri non ita magnus:"
2 a delight. And he, too, when in
the country, sighed for town. There were strong features of resemblance.
He had hinted in fun at not being rich. "Quae virtus et quanta sit vivere
parvo."
3 But that quotation applied to and belonged to Vernon Whitford.
Even so little disarranged her meditations.

She would have thought of Vernon, as her instinct of safety prompted, had
not his exactions been excessive. He proposed to help her with advice only.
She was to do everything for herself, do and dare everything, decide upon
everything. He told her flatly that so would she learn to know her own
mind; and flatly, that it was her penance. She had gained nothing by
breaking down and pouring herself out to him. He would have her bring
Willoughby and her father face to face, and be witness of their interview
--herself the theme. What alternative was there?--obedience to the word
she had pledged. He talked of patience, of self-examination and patience.
But all of her--she was all marked urgent. This house was a cage, and the
world--her brain was a cage, until she could obtain her prospect of freedom.


As for the house, she might leave it; yonder was the dawn.

She went to her window to gaze at the first colour along the grey. Small
satisfaction came of gazing at that or at herself. She shunned glass and
sky. One and the other stamped her as a slave in a frame.
It seemed to
her she had been so long in this place that she was fixed here: it was
her world, and to imagine an Alp was like seeking to get back to child-
hood. Unless a miracle intervened here she would have to pass her days.
Men are so little chivalrous now that no miracle ever intervenes. Con-
sequently she was doomed.

She took a pen and began a letter to a dear friend, Lucy Darleton, a
promised bridesmaid, bidding her countermand orders for her bridal
dress, and purposing a tour in Switzerland. She wrote of the mountain
country with real abandonment to imagination. It became a visioned
loophole of escape.
She rose and clasped a shawl over her night-dress
to ward off chillness, and sitting to the table again, could not pro-
duce a word. The lines she had written were condemned: they were ludi-
crously inefficient. The letter was torn to pieces. She stood very
clearly doomed.

After a fall of tears, upon looking at the scraps, she dressed herself,
and sat by the window and watched
the blackbird on the lawn as he hop-
ped from shafts of dewy sunlight to the long-stretched dewy tree-shad-
ows, considering in her mind that dark dews are more meaningful than
bright, the beauty of the dews of woods more sweet than meadow-dews.

It signified only that she was quieter. She had gone through her cri-
sis in the anticipation of it. That is
how quick natures will often be
cold and hard, or not much moved, when the positive crisis arrives,
and why it is that they are prepared for astonishing leaps over the
gradations which should render their conduct comprehensible to us, if
not excuseable.
She watched the blackbird throw up his head stiffly,
and peck to right and left, dangling the worm on each side his orange
beak. Specklebreasted thrushes were at work, and a wagtail that ran
as with Clara's own rapid little steps. Thrush and blackbird flew to
the nest. They had wings.
The lovely morning breathed of sweet earth
into her open window, and made it painful, in the dense twitter,
chirp, cheep, and song of the air, to resist the innocent intoxica-
tion. O to love! was not said by her, but if she had sung, as her
nature prompted, it would have been. Her war with Willoughby sprang
of a desire to love repelled by distaste. Her cry for freedom was a
cry to be free to love: she discovered it, half shuddering: to love,
oh! no--no shape of man, nor impalpable nature either: but to love
unselfishness, and helpfulness, and planted strength in something.
Then, loving and being loved a little, what strength would be hers!
She could utter all the words needed to Willoughby and to her father,
locked in her love: walking in this world, living in that.


Previously she had cried, despairing: If I were loved! Jealousy of
Constantia's happiness, envy of her escape, ruled her then: and she
remembered the cry, though not perfectly her plain-speaking to herself:
she chose to think she had meant: If Willoughby were capable of truly
loving! For now the fire of her brain had sunk, and refuges and sub-
terfuges were round about it. The thought of personal love was encour-
aged, she chose to think, for the sake of the strength it lent her to
carve her way to freedom. She had just before felt rather the reverse,
but she could not exist with that feeling; and it was true that free-
dom was not so indistinct in her fancy as the idea of love.


Were men, when they were known, like him she knew too well?

The arch-tempter's question to her was there.

She put it away. Wherever she turned it stood observing her. She knew
so much of one man, nothing of the rest: naturally she was curious.
Vernon might be sworn to be unlike. But he was exceptional. What of
the other in the house?

Maidens are commonly reduced to read the masters of their destinies
by their instincts; and when these have been edged by over-activity
they must hoodwink their maidenliness to suffer themselves to read;
and then they must dupe their minds, else men would soon see they
were gifted to discern. Total ignorance being their pledge of purity
to men, they have to expunge the writing of their perceptives on the
tablets of the brain: they have to know not when they do know. The
instinct of seeking to know, crossed by the task of blotting know-
ledge out, creates that conflict of the natural with the artificial
creature to which their ultimately revealed double-face, complained
of by ever-dissatisfied men, is owing.
Wonder in no degree that they
indulge a craving to be fools, or that many of them act the character.
Jeer at them as little for not showing growth.
You have reared them
to this pitch, and at this pitch they have partly civilized you. Sup-
posing you to want it done wholly, you must yield just as many points
in your requisitions as are needed to let the wits of young women reap
their due harvest and be of good use to their souls. You will then
have a fair battle, a braver, with better results.


Clara's inner eye traversed Colonel De Craye at a shot.

She had immediately to blot out the vision of Captain Oxford in him,
the revelation of his laughing contempt for Willoughby, the view of
mercurial principles, the scribbled histories of light love-passages.

She blotted it out, kept it from her mind: so she knew him, knew him
to be a sweeter and a variable Willoughby, a generous kind of Willough-
by, a Willoughby-butterfly, without having the free mind to summarize
him and picture him for a warning. Scattered features of him, such as
the instincts call up, were not sufficiently impressive. Besides, the
clouded mind was opposed to her receiving impressions.


Young Crossjay's voice in the still morning air came to her cars. The
dear guileless chatter of the boy's voice. Why, assuredly it was young
Crossjay who was the man she loved. And he loved her. And he was going
to be an unselfish, sustaining, true, strong man, the man she longed
for, for anchorage. Oh, the dear voice! woodpecker and thrush in one.
He never ceased to chatter to Vernon Whitford walking beside him with
a swinging stride off to the lake for their morning swim. Happy couple!
The morning gave them both a freshness and innocence above human. They
seemed to Clara made of morning air and clear lake water. Crossjay's
voice ran up and down a diatonic scale with here and there a query in
semitone and a laugh on a ringing note.
She wondered what he could have
to talk of so incessantly, and imagined all the dialogue. He prattled
of his yesterday, to-day, and to-morrow, which did not imply past and
future, but his vivid present. She felt like one vainly trying to fly
in hearing him; she felt old. The consolation she arrived at was to
feel maternal. She wished to hug the boy.


Trot and stride, Crossjay and Vernon entered the park, careless about
wet grass, not once looking at the house. Crossjay ranged ahead and
picked flowers, bounding back to show them. Clara's heart beat at a
fancy that her name was mentioned. If those flowers were for her she
would prize them.

The two bathers dipped over an undulation.

Her loss of them rattled her chains.

Deeply dwelling on their troubles has the effect upon the young of
helping to forgetfulness; for
they cannot think without imagining,
their imaginations are saturated with their Pleasures, and the colli-
sion, though they are unable to exchange sad for sweet, distills an
opiate.


"Am I solemnly engaged?" she asked herself. She seemed to be awake-
ning.

She glanced at her bed, where she had passed the night of ineffect-
ual moaning, and out on the high wave of grass, where Crossjay and
his good friend had vanished.

Was the struggle all to be gone over again?

Little by little her intelligence of her actual position crept up to
submerge her heart.

"I am in his house!" she said. It resembled a discovery, so strangely
had her opiate and power of dreaming wrought through her tortures.
She said it gasping. She was in his house, his guest, his betrothed,
sworn to him. The fact stood out cut in steel on the pitiless day-
light.


That consideration drove her to be an early wanderer in the wake of
Crossjay.

Her station was among the beeches on the flank of the boy's return;
and while waiting there the novelty of her waiting to waylay anyone--
she who had played the contrary part!--told her more than it pleased
her to think. Yet she could admit that she did desire to speak with
Vernon, as with a counsellor, harsh and curt, but wholesome.


The bathers reappeared on the grass-ridge, racing and flapping wet to-
wels.

Some one hailed them. A sound of the galloping hoof drew her attention
to the avenue. She saw Willoughby dash across the park level, and drop-
ping a word to Vernon, ride away. Then she allowed herself to be seen.

Crossjay shouted. Willoughby turned his head, but not his horse's head.
The boy sprang up to Clara. He had swum across the lake and back; he
had raced Mr. Whitford--and beaten him! How he wished Miss Middleton
had been able to be one of them!

Clara listened to him enviously. Her thought was: We women are nailed
to our sex!

She said: "And you have just been talking to Sir Willoughby."

Crossjay drew himself up to give an imitation of the baronet's hand-mov-
ing in adieu.

He would not have done that had he not smelled sympathy with the per-
formance.

She declined to smile. Crossjay repeated it, and laughed. He made a
broader exhibition of it to Vernon approaching: "I say. Mr. Whitford,
who's this?"

Vernon doubled to catch him. Crossjay fled and resumed his magnificent
air in the distance.

"Good-morning, Miss Middleton; you are out early," said Vernon, rather
pale and stringy from his cold swim, and rather hard-eyed with the sharp
exercise following it.

She had expected some of the kindness she wanted to reject, for he could
speak very kindly, and she regarded him as her doctor of medicine, who
would at least present the futile drug.


"Good morning," she replied.

"Willoughby will not be home till the evening."

"You could not have had a finer morning for your bath."

"No."

"I will walk as fast as you like."

"I'm perfectly warm."

"But you prefer fast walking."

"Out."

"Ah! yes, that I understand. The walk back! Why is Willoughby away to-
day?"

"He has business."

After several steps she said: "He makes very sure of papa."

"Not without reason, you will find," said Vernon.

"Can it be? I am bewildered. I had papa's promise."

"To leave the Hall for a day or two."

"It would have been . . ."

"Possibly. But other heads are at work as well as yours. If you had been
in earnest about it you would have taken your father into your confidence
at once. That was the course I ventured to propose, on the supposition."

"In earnest! I cannot imagine that you doubt it. I wished to spare him."

"This is a case in which he can't be spared."

"If I had been bound to any other! I did not know then who held me a pris-
oner. I thought I had only to speak to him sincerely."

"Not many men would give up their prize for a word, Willoughby the last of
any."

"Prize" rang through her thrillingly from Vernon's mouth, and soothed her
degradation.


She would have liked to protest that she was very little of a prize; a poor
prize; not one at all in general estimation; only one to a man reckoning
his property; no prize in the true sense.

The importunity of pain saved her.

"Does he think I can change again? Am I treated as something won in a lot-
tery? To stay here is indeed more than I can bear. And if he is calculating
--Mr. Whitford, if he calculates on another change, his plotting to keep me
here is inconsiderate, not very wise. Changes may occur in absence."


"Wise or not, he has the right to scheme his best to keep you."

She looked on Vernon with a shade of wondering reproach.

"Why? What right?"

"The right you admit when you ask him to release you. He has the right to
think you deluded; and to think you may come to a better mood if you remain
--a mood more agreeable to him, I mean. He has that right absolutely. You
are bound to remember also that you stand in the wrong. You confess it when
you appeal to his generosity. And every man has the right to retain a trea-
sure in his hand if he can. Look straight at these facts."

"You expect me to be all reason!"

"Try to be. It's the way to learn whether you are really in earnest."

"I will try. It will drive me to worse!"

"Try honestly. What is wisest now is, in my opinion, for you to resolve to
stay. I speak in the character of the person you sketched for yourself as
requiring. Well, then, a friend repeats the same advice. You might have gone
with your father: now you will only disturb him and annoy him. The chances
are he will refuse to go."

"Are women ever so changeable as men, then? Papa consented; he agreed; he
had some of my feeling; I saw it. That was yesterday. And at night! He spoke
to each of us at night in a different tone from usual.

With me he was hardly affectionate. But when you advise me to stay, Mr. Whit-
ford, you do not perhaps reflect that it would be at the sacrifice of all
candour."

"Regard it as a probational term."

"It has gone too far with me."

"Take the matter into the head: try the case there."

"Are you not counselling me as if I were a woman of intellect?"

The crystal ring in her voice told him that tears were near to flowing.

He shuddered slightly. "You have intellect," he said,
nodded, and crossed the
lawn, leaving her. He had to dress.


She was not permitted to feel lonely, for she was immediately joined by Colonel
De Craye.



CHAPTER 22. The Ride



Crossjay darted up to her a nose ahead of the colonel.

"I say, Miss Middleton, we're to have the whole day to ourselves, after
morning lessons. Will you come and fish with me and see me bird'snest?"

"Not for the satisfaction of beholding another cracked crown, my son,"
the colonel interposed: and bowing to Clara: "Miss Middleton is
handed over to my exclusive charge for the day, with her consent?"
"I scarcely know," said she, consulting a sensation of languor that
seemed to contain some reminiscence.
"If I am here. My father's plans
are uncertain. I will speak to him. If I am here, perhaps Crossjay would
like a ride in the afternoon."

"Oh, yes," cried the boy; "out over Bournden, through Mewsey up to
Closharn Beacon, and down on Aspenwell, where there's a common
for racing. And ford the stream!"

"An inducement for you," De Craye said to her.

She smiled and squeezed the boy's hand.

"We won't go without you, Crossjay."

"You don't carry a comb, my man, when you bathe?"

At this remark of the colonel's
young Crossjay conceived the
appearance of his matted locks in the eyes of his adorable lady. He
gave her one dear look through his redness, and fled.


"I like that boy," said De Craye.

"I love him," said Clara.

Crossjay's troubled eyelids in his honest young face became a picture
for her.


"After all, Miss Middleton, Willoughby's notions about him are not so
bad, if we consider that you will be in the place of a mother to him."

"I think them bad."

"You are disinclined to calculate the good fortune of the boy in having
more of you on land than he would have in crown and anchor buttons!"


"You have talked of him with Willoughby."

"We had a talk last night."

Of how much? thought she.

"Willoughby returns?" she said.

"He dines here, I know; for he holds the key of the inner cellar, and
Doctor Middleton does him the honour to applaud his wine.
Willoughby was good enough to tell me that he thought I might
contribute to amuse you."

She was brooding in stupefaction on her father and the wine as she
requested Colonel De Craye to persuade Willoughby to take the
general view of Crossjay's future and act on it.

"He seems fond of the boy, too," said De Craye, musingly.

"You speak in doubt?"

"Not at all. But is he not--men are queer fish!--make allowance for
us--a trifle tyrannical, pleasantly, with those he is fond of?"

"If they look right and left?"

It was meant for an interrogation; it was not with the sound of one
that the words dropped. "My dear Crossjay!" she sighed. "I would
willingly pay for him out of my own purse, and I will do so rather than
have him miss his chance. I have not mustered resolution to propose
it."

"I may be mistaken, Miss Middleton. He talked of the boy's fondness of
him."

"He would."

"I suppose he is hardly peculiar in liking to play Pole-star."
1

"He may not be."

"For the rest, your influence should be all-powerful."

"It is not."

De Craye looked with a wandering eye at the heavens.


"We are having a spell of weather perfectly superb. And the odd thing
is, that whenever we have splendid weather at home we're all for
rushing abroad. I'm booked for a Mediterranean cruise--postponed to
give place to your ceremony."

"That?" she could not control her accent.

"What worthier?"

She was guilty of a pause.

De Craye saved it from an awkward length. "I have written half an
essay on Honeymoons, Miss Middleton."

"Is that the same as a half-written essay, Colonel De Craye?"

"Just the same, with the difference that it's a whole essay written all on
one side."


"On which side?"

"The bachelor's."

"Why does he trouble himself with such topics?"

"To warm himself for being left out in the cold."

"Does he feel envy?"

"He has to confess it."

"He has liberty."

"A commodity he can't tell the value of if there's no one to buy."


"Why should he wish to sell?"

"He's bent on completing his essay."

"To make the reading dull."

"There we touch the key of the subject. For what is to rescue the pair
from a monotony multiplied by two? And so a bachelor's recommendation,
when each has discovered the right sort of person to be dull with, push-
es them from the churchdoor on a round of adventures containing a
spice of peril, if 'tis to be had. Let them be in danger of their lives the
first or second day. A bachelor's loneliness is a private affair of his own;
he hasn't to look into a face to be ashamed of feeling it and inflicting it
at the same time; 'tis his pillow; he can punch it an he pleases, and turn
it over t'other side, if he's for a mighty variation; there's a dream in it.
But our poor couple are staring wide awake. All their dreaming's done.
They've emptied their bottle of elixir, or broken it; and she has a thirst
for the use of the tongue, and he to yawn with a crony; and they may
converse, they're not aware of it, more than the desert that has drunk
a shower.
So as soon as possible she's away to the ladies, and he puts
on his Club. That's what your bachelor sees and would like to spare
them; and if he didn't see something of the sort he'd be off with a noose
round his neck, on his knees in the dew to the morning milkmaid."

"The bachelor is happily warned and on his guard," said Clara,
diverted, as he wished her to be. "Sketch me a few of the adventures
you propose."


"I have a friend who rowed his bride from the Houses of Parliament up
the Thames to the Severn on into North Wales. They shot some pretty
weirs and rapids."

"That was nice."

"They had an infinity of adventures, and the best proof of the benefit
they derived is, that they forgot everything about them except that the
adventures occurred."

"Those two must have returned bright enough to please you."

"They returned, and shone like a wrecker's beacon to the mariner. You
see, Miss Middleton, there was the landscape, and the exercise, and the
occasional bit of danger. I think it's to be recommended. The scene is
always changing, and not too fast; and
'tis not too sublime, like big
mountains, to tire them of their everlasting big Ohs. There's the
difference between going into a howling wind and launching among
zephyrs.
They have fresh air and movement, and not in a railway
carriage; they can take in what they look on.
And she has the steering
ropes, and that's a wise commencement. And my lord is all day making
an exhibition of his manly strength, bowing before her some sixty to
the minute; and she, to help him, just inclines when she's in the mood.
And they're face to face in the nature of things, and are not under the
obligation of looking the unutterable, because, you see, there's
business in hand; and the boat's just the right sort of third party, who
never interferes, but must be attended to. And they feel they're
labouring together to get along, all in the proper proportion;
and
whether he has to labour in life or not, he proves his ability. What do
you think of it, Miss Middleton?"

"I think you have only to propose it, Colonel De Craye."


"And if they capsize, why, 'tis a natural ducking!"

"You forgot the lady's dressing-bag."

"The stain on the metal for a constant reminder of his prowess in
saving it! Well, and there's an alternative to that scheme, and a finer:--
This, then:
they read dramatic pieces during courtship, to stop the
saying of things over again till the drum of the car becomes nothing
but a drum to the poor head,
and a little before they affix their
signatures to the fatal Registry-book of the vestry, they enter into an
engagement with a body of provincial actors to join the troop on the
day of their nuptials, and away they go in their coach and four, and she
is Lady Kitty Caper for a month, and he Sir Harry Highflyer. See the
honeymoon spinning! The marvel to me is that none of the young
couples do it. They could enjoy the world, see life, amuse the company,
and come back fresh to their own characters, instead of giving
themselves a dose of Africa without a savage to diversify it: an
impression they never get over, I'm told. Many a character of the
happiest auspices has irreparable mischief done it by the ordinary
honeymoon. For my part, I rather lean to the second plan of
campaign."

Clara was expected to reply, and she said: "Probably because you are
fond of acting. It would require capacity on both sides."

"Miss Middleton, I would undertake to breathe the enthusiasm for the
stage and the adventure."

"You are recommending it generally."


"Let my gentleman only have a fund of enthusiasm. The lady will
kindle.

She always does at a spark."

"If he has not any?"

"Then I'm afraid they must be mortally dull."

She allowed her silence to speak; she knew that it did so too
eloquently, and could not control the personal adumbration she gave
to the one point of light revealed in, "if he has not any". Her figure
seemed immediately to wear a cap and cloak of dulness.

She was full of revolt and anger, she was burning with her situation; if
sensible of shame now at anything that she did, it turned to wrath and
threw the burden on the author of her desperate distress.
The hour for
blaming herself had gone by, to be renewed ultimately perhaps in a
season of freedom. She was bereft of her insight within at present, so
blind to herself that, while conscious of an accurate reading of
Willoughby's friend, she thanked him in her heart for seeking simply
to amuse her and slightly succeeding. The afternoon's ride with him
and Crossjay was an agreeable beguilement to her in prospect.
Laetitia came to divide her from Colonel De Craye. Dr. Middleton was
not seen before his appearance at the breakfast-table, where
a certain
air of anxiety in his daughter's presence produced the semblance of a
raised map at intervals on his forehead.
Few sights on earth are more
deserving of our sympathy than a good man who has a troubled
conscience thrust on him.


The Rev. Doctor's perturbation was observed. The ladies Eleanor and
Isabel, seeing his daughter to be the cause of it, blamed her, and would
have assisted him to escape, but Miss Dale, whom he courted with that
object, was of the opposite faction. She made way for Clara to lead her
father out. He called to Vernon, who merely nodded while leaving the
room by the window with Crossjay.


Half an eye on Dr. Middleton's pathetic exit in captivity sufficed to tell
Colonel De Craye that parties divided the house. At first he thought
how deplorable it would be to lose Miss Middleton for two days or
three: and it struck him that Vernon Whitford and Laetitia Dale were
acting oddly in seconding her, their aim not being discernible. For he
was of the order of gentlemen of the obscurely-clear in mind who have
a predetermined acuteness in their watch upon the human play, and
mark men and women as pieces of a bad game of chess, each pursuing
an interested course. His experience of a section of the world had
educated him--as gallant, frank, and manly a comrade as one could
wish for--up to this point. But he soon abandoned speculations, which
may be compared to a shaking anemometer that will not let the
troubled indicator take station. Reposing on his perceptions and his
instincts, he fixed his attention on the chief persons, only glancing at
the others to establish a postulate, that where there are parties in a
house the most bewitching person present is the origin of them. It is
ever Helen's achievement.
Miss Middleton appeared to him bewitching
beyond mortal; sunny in her laughter, shadowy in her smiling; a young
lady shaped for perfect music with a lover.

She was that, and no less, to every man's eye on earth. High breeding
did not freeze her lovely girlishness.--But Willoughby did. This
reflection intervened to blot luxurious picturings of her, and made
itself acceptable by leading him back to several instances of an evident
want of harmony of the pair.

And now (for purely undirected impulse all within us is not, though we
may be eye-bandaged agents under direction) it became necessary for
an honourable gentleman to cast vehement rebukes at the fellow who
did not comprehend the jewel he had won. How could Willoughby
behave like so complete a donkey! De Craye knew him to be in his
interior stiff, strange, exacting:
women had talked of him; he had been
too much for one woman--the dashing Constantia: he had worn one
woman, sacrificing far more for him than Constantia, to death. Still,
with such a prize as Clara Middleton, Willoughby's behaviour was past
calculating in its contemptible absurdity. And during courtship! And
courtship of that girl! It was the way of a man ten years after marriage.

The idea drew him to picture her doatingly in her young matronly
bloom ten years after marriage: without a touch of age, matronly wise,
womanly sweet: perhaps with a couple of little ones to love, never
having known the love of a man.

To think of a girl like Clara Middleton never having at nine and twenty,
and with two fair children! known the love of a man or the loving of a
man, possibly, became torture to the Colonel.


For a pacification he had to reconsider that she was as yet only
nineteen and unmarried.


But she was engaged, and she was unloved. One might swear to it, that
she was unloved. And she was not a girl to be satisfied with a big house
and a high-nosed husband.

There was a rapid alteration of the sad history of Clara the unloved
matron solaced by two little ones. A childless Clara tragically loving
and beloved flashed across the dark glass of the future.
Either way her fate was cruel.

Some astonishment moved De Craye in the contemplation of the
distance he had stepped in this morass of fancy.
He distinguished the
choice open to him of forward or back, and he selected forward. But
fancy was dead: the poetry hovering about her grew invisible to him:
he stood in the morass; that was all he knew; and momently he
plunged deeper; and he was aware of an intense desire to see her face,
that he might study her features again: he understood no more.


It was the clouding of the brain by the man's heart, which had come to
the knowledge that it was caught.

A certain measure of astonishment moved him still. It had hitherto
been his portion to do mischief to women and avoid the vengeance of
the sex. What was there in Miss Middleton's face and air to ensnare a
veteran handsome man of society numbering six-and-thirty years,
nearly as many conquests? "Each bullet has got its commission." He
was hit at last. That accident effected by Mr. Flitch had fired the shot.
Clean through the heart, does not tell us of our misfortune, till the
heart is asked to renew its natural beating.
It fell into the condition of
the porcelain vase over a thought of Miss Middleton standing above
his prostrate form on the road, and walking beside him to the Hall. Her
words? What have they been?
She had not uttered words, she had
shed meanings. He did not for an instant conceive that he had charmed
her: the charm she had cast on him was too thrilling for coxcombry to
lift a head; still she had enjoyed his prattle. In return for her touch
upon the Irish fountain in him, he had manifestly given her relief And
could not one see that so sprightly a girl would soon be deadened by a
man like Willoughby? Deadened she was: she had not responded to a
compliment on her approaching marriage. An allusion to it killed her
smiling.
The case of Mr. Flitch, with the half wager about his reinsta-
tion in the service of the Hall, was conclusive evidence of her
opinion of Willoughby.


It became again necessary that he should abuse Willoughby for his
folly. Why was the man worrying her? In some way he was worrying
her.

What if Willoughby as well as Miss Middleton wished to be quit of the
engagement? . . .


For just a second, the handsome, woman-flattered officer proved his
man's heart more whole than he supposed it. That great organ, instead
of leaping at the thought, suffered a check.

Bear in mind that his heart was not merely man's, it was a conqueror's.
He was of the race of amorous heroes who glory in pursuing, over-
taking, subduing: wresting the prize from a rival, having her ripe
from exquisitely feminine inward conflicts, plucking her out of
resistance in good old primitive fashion. You win the creature in her
delicious flutterings. He liked her thus, in cooler blood, because of
society's admiration of the capturer, and somewhat because of the
strife, which always enhances the value of a prize, and refreshes our
vanity in recollection.


Moreover, he had been matched against Willoughby: the circumstance
had occurred two or three times. He could name a lady he had won, a
lady he had lost. Willoughby's large fortune and grandeur of style had
given him advantages at the start. But the start often means the race--
with women, and a bit of luck.

The gentle check upon the galloping heart of Colonel De Craye endured
no longer than a second--a simple side-glance in a headlong pace.
Clara's enchantingness for a temperament like his, which is to say, for
him specially, in part through the testimony her conquest of himself
presented as to her power of sway over the universal heart known as
man's, assured him she was worth winning even from a hand that
dropped her.

He had now a double reason for exclaiming at the folly of Willoughby.
Willoughby's treatment of her showed either temper or weariness.
Vanity and judgement led De Craye to guess the former. Regarding her
sentiments for Willoughby, he had come to his own conclusion. The
certainty of it caused him to assume that he possessed an absolute
knowledge of her character:
she was an angel, born supple; she was a
heavenly soul, with half a dozen of the tricks of earth. Skittish filly was
among his phrases; but she had a bearing and a gaze that forbade the
dip in the common gutter for wherewithal to paint the creature she
was.


Now, then, to see whether he was wrong for the first time in his life!
If not wrong, he had a chance.

There could be nothing dishonourable in rescuing a girl from an
engagement she detested. An attempt to think it a service to
Willoughby faded midway. De Craye dismissed that chicanery. It
would be a service to Willoughby in the end, without question. There
was that to soothe his manly honour. Meanwhile he had to face the
thought of Willoughby as an antagonist, and the world looking heavy
on his honour as a friend.


Such considerations drew him tenderly close to Miss Middleton. It
must, however, be confessed that the mental ardour of Colonel De
Craye had been a little sobered by his glance at the possibility of both
of the couple being of one mind on the subject of their betrothal.
Desirable as it was that they should be united in disagreeing, it
reduced the romance to platitude, and the third person in the drama to
the appearance of a stick. No man likes to play that part.
Memoirs of
the favourites of Goddesses, if we had them, would confirm it of men's
tastes in this respect, though the divinest be the prize. We behold what
part they played.

De Craye chanced to be crossing the hall from the laboratory to the
stables when Clara shut the library-door behind her. He said
something whimsical, and did not stop, nor did he look twice at the
face he had been longing for.

What he had seen made him fear there would be no ride out with her
that day. Their next meeting reassured him; she was dressed in her
riding-habit, and wore a countenance resolutely cheerful. He gave
himself the word of command to take his tone from her.


He was of a nature as quick as Clara's. Experience pushed him farther
than she could go in fancy; but experience laid a sobering finger on his
practical steps, and bade them hang upon her initiative. She talked
little. Young Crossjay cantering ahead was her favourite subject. She
was very much changed since the early morning: his liveliness,
essayed by him at a hazard, was unsuccessful; grave English pleased
her best. The descent from that was naturally to melancholy. She
mentioned a regret she had that the Veil
2 was interdicted to women in
Protestant countries. De Craye was fortunately silent; he could think of
no other veil than the Moslem, and when her meaning struck his
witless head, he admitted to himself that devout attendance on a
young lady's mind stupefies man's intelligence. Half an hour later, he
was as foolish in supposing it a confidence. He was again saved by
silence.


In Aspenwell village she drew a letter from her bosom and called to
Crossjay to post it. The boy sang out, "Miss Lucy Darleton! What a nice
name!"

Clara did not show that the name betrayed anything.

She said to De Craye. "It proves he should not be here thinking of nice
names."

Her companion replied, "You may be right." He added, to avoid feeling
too subservient: "Boys will."

"Not if they have stern masters to teach them their daily lessons, and
some of the lessons of existence."

"Vernon Whitford is not stern enough?"

"Mr. Whitford has to contend with other influences here."

"With Willoughby?"

"Not with Willoughby."

He understood her. She touched the delicate indication firmly. The
man's, heart respected her for it; not many girls could be so thoughtful
or dare to be so direct; he saw that she had become deeply serious,
and he felt her love of the boy to be maternal, past maiden sentiment.
By this light of her seriousness, the posting of her letter in a distant
village, not entrusting it to the Hall post-box, might have import; not
that she would apprehend the violation of her private correspondence,
but we like to see our letter of weighty meaning pass into the mouth of
the public box.

Consequently this letter was important. It was to suppose a sequency
in the conduct of a variable damsel. Coupled with her remark about
the Veil, and with other things, not words, breathing from her (which
were the breath of her condition), it was not unreasonably to be
supposed. She might even be a very consistent person. If one only had
the key of her!


She spoke once of an immediate visit to London, supposing that she
could induce her father to go. De Craye remembered the occurrence in
the Hall at night, and her aspect of distress.

They raced along Aspenwell Common to the ford; shallow, to the
chagrin of young Crossjay, between whom and themselves they left a
fitting space for his rapture in leading his pony to splash up and down,
lord of the stream.

Swiftness of motion so strikes the blood on the brain that our thoughts
are lightnings, the heart is master of them.


De Craye was heated by his gallop to venture on the angling question:
"Am I to hear the names of the bridesmaids?"

The pace had nerved Clara to speak to it sharply: "There is no need."

"Have I no claim?"

She was mute.

"Miss Lucy Darleton, for instance; whose name I am almost as much in
love with as Crossjay."

"She will not be bridesmaid to me."

"She declines? Add my petition, I beg."

"To all? or to her?"

"Do all the bridesmaids decline?"

"The scene is too ghastly."

"A marriage?"

"Girls have grown sick of it."

"Of weddings? We'll overcome the sickness."

"With some."

"Not with Miss Darleton? You tempt my eloquence."

"You wish it?"

"To win her consent? Certainly."

"The scene?"

"Do I wish that?"

"Marriage!" exclaimed Clara, dashing into the ford, fearful of her
ungovernable wildness and of what it might have kindled.
--You,
father! you have driven me to unmaidenliness!--She forgot
Willoughby, in her father, who would not quit a comfortable house for
her all but prostrate beseeching; would not bend his mind to her
explanations, answered her with the horrid iteration of such deaf
misunderstanding as may be associated with a tolling bell.


De Craye allowed her to catch Crossjay by herself. They entered a
narrow lane, mysterious with possible birds' eggs in the May-green
hedges. As there was not room for three abreast, the colonel made up
the rear-guard, and was consoled by having Miss Middleton's figure to
contemplate; but
the readiness of her joining in Crossjay's pastime of
the nest-hunt was not so pleasing to a man that she had wound to a
pitch of excitement. Her scornful accent on "Marriage" rang through
him.
Apparently she was beginning to do with him just as she liked,
herself entirely unconcerned.


She kept Crossjay beside her till she dismounted, and the colonel was
left to the procession of elephantine ideas in his head, whose
ponderousness he took for natural weight.
We do not with impunity
abandon the initiative. Men who have yielded it are like cavalry put on
the defensive; a very small force with an ictus3 will scatter them.

Anxiety to recover lost ground reduced the dimensions of his ideas to
a practical standard.

Two ideas were opposed like duellists bent on the slaughter of one
another. Either she amazed him by confirming the suspicions he had
gathered of her sentiments for Willoughby in the moments of his
introduction to her; or she amazed him as a model for coquettes--the
married and the widow might apply to her for lessons.

These combatants exchanged shots, but remained standing; the
encounter was undecided. Whatever the result,
no person so seductive
as Clara Middleton had he ever met. Her cry of loathing, "Marriage!"
coming from a girl, rang faintly clear of an ancient virginal aspiration
of the sex to escape from their coil, and bespoke a pure, cold, savage
pride that transplanted his thirst for her to higher fields.




CHAPTER 23. Treats of the Union of Temper and Policy



Sir Willoughby meanwhile was on a line of conduct suiting his
appreciation of his duty to himself. He had deluded himself with the
simple notion that good fruit would come of the union of temper and
policy.
1

No delusion is older, none apparently so promising, both parties being
eager for the alliance. Yet, the theorist upon human nature will say,
they are obviously of adverse disposition. And this is true, inasmuch as
neither of them win submit to the yoke of an established union; as
soon as they have done their mischief, they set to work tugging for a
divorce.
But they have attractions, the one for the other, which
precipitate them to embrace whenever they meet in a breast; each is
earnest with the owner of it to get him to officiate forthwith as
wedding-priest. And here is the reason: temper, to warrant its
appearance, desires to be thought as deliberative as policy, and policy,
the sooner to prove its shrewdness, is impatient for the quick blood of
temper.

It will be well for men to resolve at the first approaches of the am-
orous but fickle pair upon interdicting even an accidental temporary
junction: for the astonishing sweetness of the couple when no more
than the ghosts of them have come together in a projecting mind is
an intoxication beyond fermented grapejuice or a witch's brewage;

and under the guise of active wits they will lead us to the parental
meditation of antics compared with which a Pagan Saturnalia
2 were
less impious in the sight of sanity. This is full-mouthed language; but
on our studious way through any human career we are subject to fits
of moral elevation; the theme inspires it, and the sage residing in every
civilized bosom approves it.

Decide at the outset, that temper is fatal to policy: hold them with both
hands in division. One might add, be doubtful of your policy and
repress your temper: it would be to suppose you wise. You can,
however, by incorporating two or three captains of the great army of
truisms bequeathed to us by ancient wisdom, fix in your service those
veteran old standfasts to check you. They will not be serviceless in
their admonitions to your understanding, and
they will so contrive to
reconcile with it the natural caperings of the wayward young sprig
Conduct, that the latter, who commonly learns to walk upright and
straight from nothing softer than raps of a bludgeon on his crown,
shall foot soberly, appearing at least wary of dangerous corners.


Now Willoughby had not to be taught that temper is fatal to policy; he
was beginning to see in addition that the temper he encouraged was
particularly obnoxious to the policy he adopted; and although his
purpose in mounting horse after yesterday frowning on his bride was
definite, and might be deemed sagacious, he bemoaned already the
fatality pushing him ever farther from her in chase of a satisfaction
impossible to grasp.

But the bare fact that her behaviour demanded a line of policy crossed
the grain of his temper: it was very offensive.

Considering that she wounded him severely, her reversal of their
proper parts, by taking the part belonging to him, and requiring his
watchfulness, and the careful dealings he was accustomed to expect
from others, and had a right to exact of her, was injuriously unjust. The
feelings of a man hereditarily sensitive to property accused her of a
trespassing imprudence, and knowing himself, by testimony of his
household, his tenants, and the neighbourhood, and the world as well,
amiable when he received his dues,
he contemplated her with an air of
stiff-backed ill-treatment, not devoid of a certain sanctification of
martyrdom.


His bitterest enemy would hardly declare that it was he who was in
the wrong.

Clara herself had never been audacious enough to say that.
Distaste of
his person was inconceivable to the favourite of society. The
capricious creature probably wanted a whipping to bring her to the
understanding of the principle called mastery, which is in man.

But was he administering it? If he retained a hold on her, he could
undoubtedly apply the scourge at leisure; any kind of scourge; he
could shun her, look on her frigidly, unbend to her to find a warmer
place for sarcasm, pityingly smile, ridicule, pay court elsewhere. He
could do these things if he retained a hold on her; and he could do
them well because of the faith he had in his renowned amiability; for
in doing them, he could feel that he was other than he seemed, and his
own cordial nature was there to comfort him while he bestowed
punishment. Cordial indeed, the chills he endured were flung from the
world. His heart was in that fiction: half the hearts now beating have a
mild form of it to keep them merry: and the chastisement he desired to
inflict was really no more than righteous vengeance for an offended
goodness of heart. Clara figuratively, absolutely perhaps, on her knees,
he would raise her and forgive her. He yearned for the situation. To let
her understand how little she had known him! It would be worth the
pain she had dealt, to pour forth the stream of re-established
confidences, to paint himself to her as he was;
as he was in the spirit,
not as he was to the world: though the world had reason to do him
honour.

First, however, she would have to be humbled.

Something whispered that his hold on her was lost.


In such a case, every blow he struck would set her flying farther, till
the breach between them would be past bridging.

Determination not to let her go was the best finish to this perpetually
revolving round which went like the same old wheel-planks of a water
mill in his head at a review of the injury he sustained. He had come to
it before, and he came to it again. There was his vengeance.
It melted
him, she was so sweet! She shone for him like the sunny breeze on
water. Thinking of her caused a catch of his breath.

The dreadful young woman had a keener edge for the senses of men
than sovereign beauty.

It would be madness to let her go.


She affected him like an outlook on the great Patterne estate after an
absence, when his welcoming flag wept for pride above Patterne Hall!

It would be treason to let her go.

It would be cruelty to her.

He was bound to reflect that she was of tender age, and the foolishness
of the wretch was excusable to extreme youth.

We toss away a flower that we are tired of smelling and do not wish to
carry.
But the rose--young woman--is not cast off with impunity. A
fiend in shape of man is always behind us to appropriate her. He that
touches that rejected thing is larcenous. Willoughby had been sensible
of it in the person of Laetitia: and by all the more that Clara's charms
exceeded the faded creature's, he felt it now. Ten thousand Furies
thickened about him at a thought of her lying by the road-side without
his having crushed all bloom and odour out of her which might tempt
even the curiosity of the fiend, man.

On the other hand, supposing her to be there untouched, universally
declined by the sniffling, sagacious dog-fiend, a miserable spinster for
years, he could conceive notions of his remorse. A soft remorse may be
adopted as an agreeable sensation within view of the wasted penitent
whom we have struck a trifle too hard. Seeing her penitent, he
certainly would be willing to surround her with little offices of
compromising kindness.
It would depend on her age. Supposing her
still youngish, there might be captivating passages between them, as
thus, in a style not unfamiliar:


"And was it my fault, my poor girl? Am I to blame, that you have
passed a lonely, unloved youth?"

"No, Willoughby! The irreparable error was mine, the blame is mine,
mine only. I live to repent it. I do not seek, for I have not deserved,
your pardon. Had I it, I should need my own self-esteem to presume to
clasp it to a bosom ever unworthy of you."

"I may have been impatient, Clara: we are human!"

"Never be it mine to accuse one on whom I laid so heavy a weight of
forbearance!"

"Still, my old love!--for I am merely quoting history in naming you
so--I cannot have been perfectly blameless."

"To me you were, and are."

"Clara!"

"Willoughby!"

"Must I recognize the bitter truth that we two, once nearly one! so
nearly one! are eternally separated?"

"I have envisaged it. My friend--I may call you friend; you have ever
been my friend, my best friend! oh, that eyes had been mine to know
the friend I had!--Willoughby, in the darkness of night, and during
days that were as night to my soul, I have seen the inexorable finger
pointing my solitary way through the wilderness from a Paradise
forfeited by my most wilful, my wanton, sin. We have met. It is more
than I have merited. We part. In mercy let it be for ever. Oh, terrible
word! Coined by the passions of our youth, it comes to us for our sole
riches when we are bankrupt of earthly treasures, and is the passport
given by Abnegation unto Woe that prays to quit this probationary
sphere. Willoughby, we part. It is better so."

"Clara! one--one only--one last--one holy kiss!"

"If these poor lips, that once were sweet to you . . ."


The kiss, to continue the language of the imaginative composition of
his time, favourite readings in which had inspired Sir Willoughby with
a colloquy so pathetic, was imprinted.

Ay, she had the kiss, and no mean one. It was intended to swallow
every vestige of dwindling attractiveness out of her,
and there was a
bit of scandal springing of it in the background that satisfactorily
settled her business, and left her 'enshrined in memory, a divine
recollection to him,' as his popular romances would say, and have said
for years.


Unhappily, the fancied salute of her lips encircled him with the
breathing Clara. She rushed up from vacancy like a wind summoned to
wreck a stately vessel.

His reverie had thrown him into severe commotion. The slave of a
passion thinks in a ring, as hares run: he will cease where he began.
Her sweetness had set him off, and he whirled back to her sweetness:
and that being incalculable and he insatiable, you have the picture of
his torments when you consider that her behaviour made her as a
cloud to him.


Riding slack, horse and man, in the likeness of those two ajog
homeward from the miry hunt, the horse pricked his cars, and
Willoughby looked down from his road along the bills on the race
headed by young Crossjay with a short start over Aspenwell Common
to the ford. There was no mistaking who they were, though they were
well-nigh a mile distant below. He noticed that they did not overtake
the boy. They drew rein at the ford, talking not simply face to face, but
face in face. Willoughby's novel feeling of he knew not what drew them
up to him, enabling him to fancy them bathing in one another's eyes.
Then she sprang through the ford, De Craye following, but not close
after--and why not close? She had flicked him with one of her
peremptorily saucy speeches when she was bold with the gallop. They
were not unknown to Willoughby. They signified intimacy.

Last night he had proposed to De Craye to take Miss Middleton for a
ride the next afternoon. It never came to his mind then that he and his
friend had formerly been rivals. He wished Clara to be amused. Policy
dictated that every thread should be used to attach her to her
residence at the Hall until he could command his temper to talk to her
calmly and overwhelm her, as any man in earnest, with command of
temper and a point of vantage, may be sure to whelm a young woman.
Policy, adulterated by temper, yet policy it was that had sent him on
his errand in the early morning to beat about for a house and garden
suitable to Dr. Middleton within a circuit of five, six, or seven miles of
Patterne Hall. If the Rev. Doctor liked the house and took it (and
Willoughby had seen the place to suit him), the neighbourhood would
be a chain upon Clara:
and if the house did not please a gentleman
rather hard to please (except in a venerable wine), an excuse would
have been started for his visiting other houses, and he had that
response to his importunate daughter, that he believed an excellent
house was on view. Dr. Middleton had been prepared by numerous
hints to meet Clara's black misreading of a lovers' quarrel, so that
everything looked full of promise as far as Willoughby's exercise of
policy went.

But the strange pang traversing him now convicted him of a large
adulteration of profitless temper with it.
The loyalty of De Craye to a
friend, where a woman walked in the drama, was notorious. It was
there, and a most flexible thing it was: and it soon resembled reason
manipulated by the sophists.
3 Not to have reckoned on his peculiar
loyalty was proof of the blindness cast on us by temper.

And De Craye had an Irish tongue; and he had it under control, so that
he could talk good sense and airy nonsense at discretion.
The strong-
est overboiling of English Puritan contempt of a gabbler, would not
stop women from liking it. Evidently Clara did like it, and Willoughby
thundered on her sex. Unto such brainless things as these do we,
under the irony of circumstances, confide our honour!

For he was no gabbler.
He remembered having rattled in earlier days;
he had rattled with an object to gain, desiring
to be taken for an easy,
careless, vivacious, charming fellow, as any young gentleman may be
who gaily wears the golden dish
4 of Fifty thousand pounds per annum,
nailed to the back of his very saintly young pate
. The growth of the
critical spirit in him, however, had informed him that slang had been a
principal component of his rattling; and as he justly supposed it a
betraying art for his race and for him,
he passed through the prim and
the yawning phases of affected indifference, to the pine Puritanism of a
leaden contempt of gabblers.


They snare women, you see--girls! How despicable the host of girls!--
at least, that girl below there!

Married women understood him: widows did.
He placed an exceedingly
handsome and flattering young widow of his acquaintance, Lady Mary
Lewison, beside Clara for a comparison, involuntarily; and at once, in
a flash, in despite of him (he would rather it had been otherwise), and
in despite of Lady Mary's high birth and connections as well, the silver
lustre of the maid sicklied the poor widow.

The effect of the luckless comparison was to produce an image of
surpassingness in the features of Clara that gave him the final, or
mace-blow.
5 Jealousy invaded him.

He had hitherto been free of it, regarding jealousy as a foreign devil,
the accursed familiar of the vulgar. Luckless fellows might be victims
of the disease; he was not; and neither Captain Oxford, nor Vernon, nor
De Craye, nor any of his compeers, had given him one shrewd pinch:
the woman had, not the man; and she
in quite a different fashion from
his present wallowing anguish: she had never pulled him to earth's
level, where jealousy gnaws the grasses. He had boasted himself above
the humiliating visitation.


If that had been the case, we should not have needed to trouble
ourselves much about him. A run or two with the pack of imps would
have satisfied us. But he desired Clara Middleton manfully enough at
an intimation of rivalry to be jealous; in a minute the foreign devil had
him, he was flame: flaming verdigris,
6 one might almost dare to say, for
an exact illustration; such was actually the colour; but accept it as
unsaid.

Remember the poets upon jealousy. It is to be haunted in the heaven
of two by a Third; preceded or succeeded, therefore surrounded,
embraced, bugged by this infernal Third: it is Love's bed of burning
marl; to see and taste the withering Third in the bosom of sweetness;
to be dragged through the past and find the fair Eden of it sulphurous;
to be dragged to the gates of the future and glory to behold them
blood: to adore the bitter creature trebly and with treble power to
clutch her by the windpipe:
it is to be cheated, derided, shamed, and
abject and supplicating, and consciously demoniacal in treacherous-
ness, and victoriously self-justified in revenge.


And still there is no change in what men feel, though in what they do
the modern may be judicious.

You know the many paintings of man transformed to rageing beast by
the curse: and
this, the fieriest trial of our egoism, worked in the Egoist
to produce division of himself from himself, a concentration of his
thoughts upon another object, still himself, but in another breast,
which had to be looked at and into for the discovery of him. By the
gaping jaw-chasm of his greed we may gather comprehension of his
insatiate force of jealousy. Let her go? Not though he were to become a
mark of public scorn in strangling her with the yoke! His concentration
was marvellous. Unused to the exercise of imaginative powers, he
nevertheless conjured her before him visually till his eyeballs ached.

He saw none but Clara, hated none, loved none, save the intolerable
woman. What logic was in him deduced her to be individual and most
distinctive from the circumstance that only she had ever wrought
these pangs. She had made him ready for them, as we know. An idea of
De Craye being no stranger to her when he arrived at the Hall, dashed
him at De Craye for a second: it might be or might not be that they had
a secret;--Clara was the spell. So prodigiously did he love and hate,
that he had no permanent sense except for her. The soul of him
writhed under her eyes at one moment, and the next it closed on her
without mercy. She was his possession escaping; his own gliding away
to the Third.

There would be pangs for him too, that Third! Standing at the altar to
see her fast-bound, soul and body, to another, would be good roasting
fire.

It would be good roasting fire for her too, should she be averse. To
conceive her aversion was to burn her and devour her. She would then
be his!--what say you? Burned and devoured! Rivals would vanish
then. Her reluctance to espouse the man she was plighted to would
cease to be uttered, cease to be felt.


At last he believed in her reluctance. All that had been wanted to bring
him to the belief was the scene on the common; such a mere spark, or
an imagined spark! But the presence of the Third was necessary;
otherwise he would have had to suppose himself personally
distasteful.

Women have us back to the conditions of primitive man, or they shoot
us higher than the topmost star. But it is as we please. Let them tell us
what we are to them: for us, they are our back and front of life: the
poet's Lesbia, the poet's Beatrice; ours is the choice.
7 And were it
proved that some of the bright things are in the pay of Darkness, with
the stamp of his coin on their palms, and that some are the very angels
we hear sung of, not the less might we say that they find us out; they
have us by our leanings. They are to us what we hold of best or worst
within. By their state is our civilization judged: and
if it is hugely
animal still, that is because primitive men abound and will have their
pasture.
Since the lead is ours, the leaders must bow their heads to the
sentence. Jealousy of a woman is the primitive egoism seeking to
refine in a blood gone to savagery under apprehension of an invasion
of rights; it is in action the tiger threatened by a rifle when his paw is
rigid on quick flesh; he tears the flesh for rage at the intruder. The
Egoist, who is our original male in giant form, had no bleeding victim
beneath his paw, but there was the sex to mangle. Much as he prefers
the well-behaved among women, who can worship and fawn, and in
whom terror can be inspired, in his wrath he would make of Beatrice a
Lesbia Quadrantaria.
8

Let women tell us of their side of the battle. We are not so much the
test of the Egoist in them as they to us. Movements of similarity shown
in crowned and undiademed ladies of intrepid independence, suggest
their occasional capacity to be like men when it is given to them to
hunt. At present they fly, and there is the difference. Our manner of the
chase informs them of the creature we are.

Dimly as young women are informed, they have a youthful ardour of
detestation that renders them less tolerant of the Egoist than their
perceptive elder sisters. What they do perceive, however, they have a
redoubtable grasp of, and Clara's behaviour would be indefensible if
her detective feminine vision might not sanction her acting on its
direction. Seeing him as she did, she turned from him and shunned his
house as the antre of an ogre.
9 She had posted her letter to Lucy
Darleton. Otherwise, if it had been open to her to dismiss Colonel De
Craye, she might, with a warm kiss to Vernon's pupil, have seriously
thought of the next shrill steam-whistle across yonder hills for a
travelling companion on the way to her friend Lucy; so abhorrent was
to her the putting of her horse's head toward the Hall. Oh, the breaking
of bread there! It had to be gone through for another day and more;
that is to say, forty hours, it might be six-and-forty hours; and no
prospect of sleep to speed any of them on wings!

Such were Clara's inward interjections while
poor Willoughby burned
himself out with verdigris flame having the savour of bad metal, till the
hollow of his breast was not unlike to a corroded old cuirass, found,
we will assume, by criminal lantern-beams in a digging beside green-
mantled pools of the sullen soil, lumped with a strange adhesive con-
crete. How else picture the sad man?--the cavity felt empty to him,
and heavy; sick of an ancient and mortal combat, and burning; deeply
dinted too:

               With the starry hole
               Whence fled the soul:

very sore; important for aught save sluggish agony; a specimen and
the issue of strife.


Measurelessly to loathe was not sufficient to save him from pain: he
tried it: nor to despise; he went to a depth there also.
The fact that she
was a healthy young woman returned to the surface of his thoughts
like the murdered body pitched into the river, which will not drown,
and calls upon the elements of dissolution to float it.
His grand
hereditary desire to transmit his estates, wealth and name to a solid
k posterity, while it prompted him in his loathing and contempt of a
nature mean and ephemeral compared with his, attached him
desperately to her splendid healthiness. The council of elders, whose
descendant he was, pointed to this young woman for his mate. He had
wooed her with the idea that they consented.
O she was healthy! And
he likewise: but, as if it had been a duel between two clearly desig-
nated by quality of blood to bid a House endure, she was the first
who taught him what it was to have sensations of his mortality.

He could not forgive her. It seemed to him consequently politic to
continue frigid and let her have a further taste of his shadow, when it
was his burning wish to strain her in his arms to a flatness provoking
his compassion.


"You have had your ride?" he addressed her politely in the general
assembly on the lawn.

"I have had my ride, yes," Clara replied.

"Agreeable, I trust?"

"Very agreeable."

So it appeared. Oh, blushless!


The next instant he was in conversation with Laetitia, questioning her
upon a dejected droop of her eyelashes.

"I am, I think," said she, "constitutionally melancholy."

He murmured to her: "I believe in the existence of specifics, and not far
to seek, for all our ailments except those we bear at the hands of
others."

She did not dissent.

De Craye, whose humour for being convinced that Willoughby cared
about as little for Miss Middleton as she for him was nourished by his
immediate observation of them, dilated on the beauty of the ride and
his fair companion's equestrian skill.

"You should start a travelling circus," Willoughby rejoined.

"But the idea's a worthy one!--There's another alternative to the
expedition I proposed, Miss Middleton," said De Craye. "And I be clown?
I haven't a scruple of objection. I must read up books of jokes."


"Don't," said Willoughby.

"I'd spoil my part! But a natural clown won't keep up an artificial
performance for an entire month, you see; which is the length of time
we propose. He'll exhaust his nature in a day and be bowled over by
the dullest regular donkey-engine with paint on his cheeks and a
nodding topknot."


"What is this expedition 'we' propose?"

De Craye was advised in his heart to spare Miss Middleton any allusion
to honeymoons.

"Merely a game to cure dulness."

"Ah!" Willoughby acquiesced. "A month, you said?"

"One'd like it to last for years."

"Ah! You are driving one of Mr. Merriman's10 witticisms at me, Horace; I
am dense."

Willoughby bowed to Dr. Middleton, and drew him from Vernon,
filially taking his turn to talk with him closely.

De Craye saw Clara's look as her father and Willoughby went aside
thus linked.

It lifted him over anxieties and casuistries concerning loyalty.
Powder
was in the look to make a warhorse breathe high and shiver for the
signal.




CHAPTER 24. Contains an Instance of the Generosity Of Willoughby



Observers of a gathering complication and a character in action
commonly resemble gleaners who are intent only on picking up the
cars of grain and huddling their store. Disinterestedly or interestedly
they wax over-eager for the little trifles, and make too much of them.
Observers should begin upon the precept, that not all we see is worth
hoarding, and that the things we see are to be weighed in the scale
with what we know of the situation, before we commit ourselves to a
measurement. And they may be accurate observers without being
good judges. They do not think so, and their bent is to glean hurriedly
and form conclusions as hasty, when their business should be sift at
each step, and question.


Miss Dale seconded Vernon Whitford in the occupation of counting
looks and tones, and noting scraps of dialogue. She was quite
disinterested; he quite believed that he was; to this degree they were
competent for their post; and neither of them imagined they could be
personally involved in the dubious result of the scenes they witnessed.
They were but anxious observers, diligently collecting.
She fancied
Clara susceptible to his advice: he had fancied it, and was considering
it one of his vanities. Each mentally compared Clara's abruptness in
taking them into her confidence with her abstention from any secret
word since the arrival of Colonel De Craye. Sir Willoughby requested
Laetitia to give Miss Middleton as much of her company as she could;
showing that he was on the alert. Another Constantia Durham seemed
beating her wings for flight. The suddenness of the evident intimacy
between Clara and Colonel De Craye shocked Laetitia; their acquaint-
ance could be computed by hours. Yet at their first interview she
had suspected the possibility of worse than she now supposed to
be; and she had begged Vernon not immediately to quit the Hall, in
consequence of that faint suspicion.
She had been led to it by meeting
Clara and De Craye at her cottage-gate, and finding them as fluent and
laughter-breathing in conversation as friends. Unable to realize the
rapid advance to a familiarity, more ostensible than actual, of two
lively natures, after such an introduction as they had undergone: and
one of the two pining in a drought of liveliness:
Laetitia listened to
their wager of nothing at all--a no against a yes--in the case of poor
Flitch; and Clara's, "Willoughby will not forgive"; and De Craye's "Oh,
he's human": and the silence of Clara and De Craye's hearty cry, "Flitch
shall be a gentleman's coachman in his old seat or I haven't a tongue!"
to which there was a negative of Clara's head: and it then struck
Laetitia that this young betrothed lady, whose alienated heart
acknowledged no lord an hour earlier, had met her match, and, as the
observer would have said, her destiny.
She judged of the alarming
possibility by the recent revelation to herself of Miss Middleton's
character, and by Clara's having spoken to a man as well (to Vernon),
and previously. That a young lady should speak on the subject of the
inner holies to a man, though he were Vernon Whitford, was incredible
to Laetitia; but it had to be accepted as one of the dread facts of our
inexplicable life, which drag our bodies at their wheels and leave our
minds exclaiming.
Then, if Clara could speak to Vernon, which Laetitia
would not have done for a mighty bribe, she could speak to De Craye,
Laetitia thought deductively: this being the logic of untrained heads
opposed to the proceeding whereby their condemnatory deduction
hangs.--Clara must have spoken to De Craye!


Laetitia remembered how winning and prevailing Miss Middleton
could be in her confidences. A gentleman hearing her might forget his
duty to his friend, she thought, for
she had been strangely swayed by
Clara: ideas of Sir Willoughby that she had never before imagined
herself to entertain had been sown in her, she thought; not asking
herself whether the searchingness of the young lady had struck them
and bidden them rise from where they lay embedded. Very gentle
women take in that manner impressions of persons, especially of the
worshipped person, wounding them; like the new fortifications with
embankments of soft earth, where explosive missiles bury themselves
harmlessly until they are plucked out; and it may be a reason why
those injured ladies outlive a Clara Middleton similarly battered.

Vernon less than Laetitia took into account that Clara was in a state of
fever, scarcely reasonable. Her confidences to him he had excused, as a
piece of conduct, in sympathy with her position. He had not been
greatly astonished by the circumstances confided; and, on the whole,
as she was excited and unhappy, he excused her thoroughly; he could
have extolled her: it was natural that she should come to him, brave in
her to speak so frankly, a compliment that she should condescend to
treat him as a friend. Her position excused her widely. But she was not
excused for making a confidential friend of De Craye. There was a
difference.

Well, the difference was, that De Craye had not the smarting sense of
honour with women which our meditator had: an impartial judiciary,
it will be seen: and he discriminated between himself and the other
justly: but sensation surging to his brain at the same instant, he
reproached Miss Middleton for not perceiving that difference as
clearly, before she betrayed her position to De Craye, which Vernon
assumed that she had done. Of course he did. She had been guilty of it
once: why, then, in the mind of an offended friend, she would be guilty
of it twice. There was evidence.
Ladies, fatally predestined to appeal to
that from which they have to be guarded, must expect severity when
they run off their railed highroad: justice is out of the question: man's
brains might, his blood cannot administer it to them. By chilling him to
the bone they may get what they cry for. But that is a method
deadening to their point of appeal.

In the evening, Miss Middleton and the colonel sang a duet. She had of
late declined to sing. Her voice was noticeably firm. Sir Willoughby
said to her, "You have recovered your richness of tone, Clara." She
smiled and appeared happy in pleasing him.
He named a French
ballad. She went to the music-rack and gave the song unasked. He
should have been satisfied, for she said to him at the finish, "Is that as
you like it?" He broke from a murmur to Miss Dale, "Admirable." Some
one mentioned a Tuscan popular canzone. She waited for Willoughby's
approval, and took his nod for a mandate.


Traitress! he could have bellowed.

He had read of this characteristic of caressing obedience of the women
about to deceive. He had in his time profited by it.

"Is it intuitively or by their experience that our neighbours across
Channel surpass us in the knowledge of your sex?" he said to Miss
Dale, and talked through Clara's apostrophe to the 'Santissinia Virgine
Maria,' still treating temper as a part of policy, without any effect on
Clara; and that was matter for sickly green reflections. The lover who
cannot wound has indeed lost anchorage; he is woefully adrift: he
stabs air, which is to stab himself. Her complacent proof-armour
1 bids
him know himself supplanted.


During the short conversational period before the ladies retired for the
night, Miss Eleanor alluded to the wedding by chance. Miss Isabel
replied to her, and addressed an interrogation to Clara. De Craye foiled
it adroitly. Clara did not utter a syllable. Her bosom lifted to a
wavering height and sank. Subsequently she looked at De Craye
vacantly, like a person awakened, but she looked. She was astonished
by his readiness, and thankful for the succour. Her look was cold, wide,
unfixed, with nothing of gratitude or of personal in it. The look,
however, stood too long for Willoughby's endurance.

Ejaculating "Porcelain!" he uncrossed his legs; a signal for the ladies
Eleanor and Isabel to retire. Vernon bowed to Clara as she was rising.
He had not been once in her eyes, and he expected a partial
recognition at the good-night. She said it, turning her head to Miss
Isabel, who was condoling once more with Colonel De Craye over the
ruins of his wedding-present, the porcelain vase, which she supposed
to have been in Willoughby's mind when he displayed the signal.
Vernon walked off to his room, dark as one smitten blind: bile tumet
jecur:
2 her stroke of neglect hit him there where a blow sends thick
obscuration upon eyeballs and brain alike.


Clara saw that she was paining him and regretted it when they were
separated. That was her real friend! But he prescribed too hard a task.
Besides, she had done everything he demanded of her, except the
consenting to stay where she was and wear out Willoughby, whose
dexterity wearied her small stock of patience. She had vainly tried
remonstrance and supplication with her father hoodwinked by his
host, she refused to consider how; through wine?--the thought was
repulsive.


Nevertheless, she was drawn to the edge of it by the contemplation of
her scheme of release. If Lucy Darleton was at home; if Lucy invited
her to come: if she flew to Lucy: oh! then her father would have cause
for anger. He would not remember that but for hateful wine! . . .

What was there in this wine of great age which expelled reasonable-
ness, fatherliness? He was her dear father: she was his beloved
child: yet something divided them; something closed her father's ears
to her: and could it be that incomprehensible seduction of the wine?
Her dutifulness cried violently no. She bowed, stupefied, to his ar-
guments for remaining awhile, and rose clear-headed and rebellious
with the reminiscence of the many strong reasons she had urged
against them.

The strangeness of men, young and old, the little things (she regarded
a grand wine as a little thing) twisting and changing them, amazed her.
And these are they by whom women are abused for variability! Only
the most imperious reasons, never mean trifles, move women, thought
she. Would women do an injury to one they loved for oceans of that--
ah, pah!

And women must respect men. They necessarily respect a father. "My
dear, dear father!" Clara said in the solitude of her chamber, musing on
all his goodness, and she endeavoured to reconcile the desperate
sentiments of the position he forced her to sustain, with those of a
venerating daughter. The blow which was to fall on him beat on her
heavily in advance. "I have not one excuse!" she said, glancing at
numbers and a mighty one. But the idea of her father suffering at her
hands cast her down lower than self-justification. She sought to
imagine herself sparing him. It was too fictitious.

The sanctuary of her chamber, the pure white room so homely to her
maidenly feelings, whispered peace, only to follow the whisper with
another that went through her swelling to a roar, and leaving her as a
string of music unkindly smitten. If she stayed in this house her
chamber would no longer be a sanctuary. Dolorous bondage! Insolent
death is not worse. Death's worm we cannot keep away, but when he
has us we are numb to dishonour, happily senseless.


Youth weighed her eyelids to sleep, though she was quivering, and
quivering she awoke to the sound of her name beneath her window. "I
can love still, for I love him," she said, as she luxuriated in young
Crossjay's boy's voice, again envying him his bath in the lake waters,
which seemed to her to have the power to wash away grief and chains.

Then it was that she resolved to let Crossjay see the last of her in this
place. He should be made gleeful by doing her a piece of service; he
should escort her on her walk to the railway station next morning,
thence be sent flying for a long day's truancy,
with a little note of
apology on his behalf that she would write for him to deliver to Vernon
at night.

Crossjay came running to her after his breakfast with Mrs Montague,
the housekeeper, to tell her he had called her up.

"You won't to-morrow: I shall be up far ahead of you," said she; and
musing on her father, while Crossjay vowed to be up the first, she
thought it her duty to plunge into another expostulation.

Willoughby had need of Vernon on private affairs. Dr. Middleton
betook himself as usual to the library, after answering "I will ruin you
yet," to Willoughby's liberal offer to despatch an order to London for
any books he might want.

His fine unruffled air, as of a mountain in still morning beams,
made
Clara not indisposed to a preliminary scene with Willoughby that
might save her from distressing him, but she could not stop
Willoughby; as little could she look an invitation. He stood in the Hall,
holding Vernon by the arm. She passed him; he did not speak, and she
entered the library.

"What now, my dear? what is it?" said Dr. Middleton, seeing that the
door was shut on them.

"Nothing, papa," she replied, calmly.

"You've not locked the door, my child? You turned something there:
try the handle."

"I assure you, papa, the door is not locked."

"Mr. Whitford will be here instantly. We are engaged on tough matter.
Women have not, and opinion is universal that they never will have, a
conception of the value of time."

"We are vain and shallow, my dear papa."

"No, no, not you, Clara. But I suspect you to require to learn by having
work in progress how important is . . . is a quiet commencement of the
day's task. There is not a scholar who will not tell you so. We must
have a retreat. These invasions!--So you intend to have another ride
to-day? They do you good. To-morrow we dine with Mrs. Mountstuart
Jenkinson, an estimable person indeed, though I do not perfectly
understand our accepting.--You have not to accuse me of sitting over
wine last night, my Clara! I never do it, unless I am appealed to for my
judgement upon a wine."

"I have come to entreat you to take me away, papa."

In the midst of the storm aroused by this renewal of perplexity, Dr
Middleton replaced a book his elbow had knocked over in his haste to
dash the hair off his forehead, crying: "Whither? To what spot? That
reading of guide-books, and idle people's notes of Travel, and
picturesque correspondence in the newspapers, unsettles man and
maid. My objection to the living in hotels is known. I do not hesitate to
say that I do cordially abhor it. I have had penitentially to submit to it
in your dear mother's time, kai triskakodaimon,
3 up to the full ten thou-
sand times. But will you not comprehend that to the older man his
miseries are multiplied by his years? But is it utterly useless to solicit
your sympathy with an old man, Clara?"

"General Darleton will take us in, papa."

"His table is detestable. I say nothing of that; but his wine is poison. Let
that pass--I should rather say, let it not pass!--but our political views
are not in accord. True, we are not under the obligation to propound
them in presence, but we are destitute of an opinion in common
. We
have no discourse. Military men have produced, or diverged in,
noteworthy epicures; they are often devout; they have blossomed in
lettered men: they are gentlemen; the country rightly holds them in
honour; but, in fine, I reject the proposal to go to General Darleton.?
Tears?"

"No, papa."

"I do hope not. Here we have everything man can desire; without
contest, an excellent host.
You have your transitory tea-cup tempests,
which you magnify to hurricanes, in the approved historic manner of
the book of Cupid.
And all the better; I repeat, it is the better that you
should have them over in the infancy of the alliance. Come in!"
Dr.
Middleton shouted cheerily in response to a knock at the door.

He feared the door was locked: he had a fear that his daughter
intended to keep it locked.

"Clara!" he cried.

She reluctantly turned the handle, and the ladies Eleanor and Isabel
came in, apologizing with as much coherence as Dr. Middleton ever
expected from their sex. They wished to speak to Clara, but they
declined to take her away. In vain the Rev. Doctor assured them she
was at their service; they protested that they had very few words to
say, and would not intrude one moment further than to speak them.

Like a shy deputation of young scholars before the master, these very
words to come were preceded by none at all; a dismal and trying
cause; refreshing however to Dr. Middleton, who joyfully anticipated
that the ladies could be induced to take away Clara when they had
finished.

"We may appear to you a little formal," Miss Isabel began, and turned
to her sister.

"We have no intention to lay undue weight on our mission, if mission it
can be called," said Miss Eleanor.

"Is it entrusted to you by Willoughby?" said Clara.

"Dear child, that you may know it all the more earnest with us, and our
personal desire to contribute to your happiness: therefore does
Willoughby entrust the speaking of it to us."

Hereupon the sisters alternated in addressing Clara, and she gazed
from one to the other, piecing fragments of empty signification to get
the full meaning when she might.

"--And in saying your happiness, dear Clara, we have our
Willoughby's in view, which is dependent on yours."


"--And we never could sanction that our own inclinations should
stand in the way."

"--No. We love the old place; and if it were only our punishment for
loving it too idolatrously, we should deem it ground enough for our
departure."

"--Without, really, an idea of unkindness; none, not any."

"--Young wives naturally prefer to be undisputed queens of their own
establishment."

"--Youth and age!"

"But I," said Clara, "have never mentioned, never had a thought . . ."

"--You have, dear child, a lover who in his solicitude for your
happiness both sees what you desire and what is due to you."

"--And for us, Clara, to recognize what is due to you is to act on it."

"--Besides, dear, a sea-side cottage has always been one of our
dreams."

"--We have not to learn that we are a couple of old maids,
incongruous associates for a young wife in the government of a great
house."

"--With our antiquated notions, questions of domestic management
might arise, and with the best will in the world to be harmonious!"

"--So, dear Clara, consider it settled."

"--From time to time gladly shall we be your guests."

"--Your guests, dear, not censorious critics."


"And you think me such an Egoist!--dear ladies! The suggestion of so
cruel a piece of selfishness wounds me.
I would not have had you leave
the Hall. I like your society; I respect you. My complaint, if I had one,
would be, that you do not sufficiently assert yourselves. I could have
wished you to be here for an example to me. I would not have allowed
you to go.
What can he think of me! Did Willoughby speak of it this
morning?"


It was hard to distinguish which was the completer dupe of these two
echoes of one another in worship of a family idol.

"Willoughby," Miss Eleanor presented herself to be stamped with the
title hanging ready for the first that should open her lips, "our
Willoughby is observant--he is ever generous--and he is not less
forethoughtful. His arrangement is for our good on all sides."

"An index is enough,"
4 said Miss Isabel, appearing in her turn the
monster dupe.


"You will not have to leave, dear ladies. Were I mistress here I should
oppose it."

"Willoughby blames himself for not reassuring you before."

"Indeed we blame ourselves for not undertaking to go."

"Did he speak of it first this morning?" said Clara; but she could draw
no reply to that from them.
They resumed the duet, and she resigned
herself to have her ears boxed with nonsense.


"So, it is understood?" said Miss Eleanor.

"I see your kindness, ladies."

"And I am to be Aunt Eleanor again?"

"And I Aunt Isabel?"

Clara could have wrung her hands at the impediment which prohibited
her delicacy from telling them why she could not name them so as she
had done in the earlier days of Willoughby's courtship. She kissed
them warmly, ashamed of kissing, though the warmth was real.


They retired with a flow of excuses to Dr. Middleton for disturbing
him. He stood at the door to bow them out, and holding the door for
Clara, to wind up the procession, discovered her at a far corner of the
room.

He was debating upon the advisability of leaving her there, when
Vernon Whitford crossed the hall from the laboratory door, a mirror of
himself in his companion air of discomposure.

That was not important, so long as Vernon was a check on Clara; but
the moment Clara, thus baffled, moved to quit the library, Dr.
Middleton felt the horror of having an uncomfortable face opposite.

"No botheration, I hope? It's the worst thing possible to work on.
Where have you been? I suspect your weak point is not to arm yourself
in triple brass against bother and worry,
and no good work can you do
unless you do. You have come out of that laboratory."

"I have, sir.--Can I get you any book?" Vernon said to Clara.

She thanked him, promising to depart immediately.

"Now you are at the section of Italian literature, my love," said Dr
Middleton. "Well, Mr. Whitford,
the laboratory--ah!--where the
amount of labour done within the space of a year would not stretch an
electric current between this Hall and the railway station: say, four
miles, which I presume the distance to be. Well, sir, and a dilettantism
costly in time and machinery is as ornamental as foxes' tails and deers'
horns
to an independent gentleman whose fellows are contented with
the latter decorations for their civic wreath. Willoughby, let me
remark, has recently shown himself most considerate for my girl. As
far as I could gather--I have been listening to a dialogue of ladies--he
is as generous as he is discreet. There are certain combats in which to
be the one to succumb is to claim the honours;--and that is what
women will not learn. I doubt their seeing the glory of it."

"I have heard of it; I have been with Willoughby," Vernon said, hastily,
to shield Clara from her father's allusive attacks. He wished to convey
to her that his interview with Willoughby had not been profitable in
her interests, and that she had better at once, having him present to
support her, pour out her whole heart to her father. But how was it to
be conveyed? She would not meet his eyes, and
he was too poor an
intriguer to be ready on the instant to deal out the verbal obscurities
which are transparencies to one.


"I shall regret it, if Willoughby has annoyed you, for he stands high in
my favour," said Dr. Middleton.

Clara dropped a book. Her father started higher than the nervous
impulse warranted in his chair. Vernon tried to win a glance, and she
was conscious of his effort, but her angry and guilty feelings,
prompting her resolution to follow her own counsel, kept her eyelids
on the defensive.


"I don't say he annoys me, sir. I am here to give him my advice, and if
he does not accept it I have no right to be annoyed. Willoughby seems
annoyed that Colonel De Craye should talk of going to-morrow or next
day."

"He likes his friends about him. Upon my word, a man of a more genial
heart you might march a day without finding.
But you have it on the
forehead, Mr. Whitford."

"Oh! no, sir."

"There," Dr. Middleton drew his finger along his brows.


Vernon felt along his own, and coined an excuse for their blackness;
not aware that the direction of his mind toward Clara pushed him to a
kind of clumsy double meaning, while he satisfied an inward and
craving wrath, as he said: "By the way, I have been racking my head; I
must apply to you, sir. I have a line, and I am uncertain of the run of
the line. Will this pass, do you think?

           
'In Asination's tongue he asinates';

signifying that he excels any man of us at donkey-dialect."

After a decent interval for the genius of criticism to seem to have been
sitting under his frown, Dr. Middleton rejoined with sober jocularity:
"No, sir, it will not pass; and
your uncertainty in regard to the run of
the line would only be extended were the line centipedal.
5 Our
recommendation is, that you erase it before the arrival of the ferule.
6
This might do:--


          
 'In Assignation's name he assignats';

signifying that he pre-eminently flourishes hypothetical promises, to
pay by appointment. That might pass. But you will forbear to cite me
for your authority."

"The line would be acceptable if I could get it to apply," said Vernon.

"Or this . . ." Dr. Middleton was offering a second suggestion, but Clara
fled, astonished at men as she never yet had been. Why, in a burning
world they would be exercising their minds in absurdities! And those
two were scholars, learned men! And both knew they were in the
presence of a soul in a tragic fever!


A minute after she had closed the door they were deep in their work.
Dr. Middleton forgot his alternative line.

"Nothing serious?" he said in reproof of the want of honourable
clearness on Vernon's brows.

"I trust not, sir; it's a case for common sense."

"And you call that not serious?"

"I take Hermann's
7 praise of the versus dochmiachus to be not only
serious but unexaggerated," said Vernon.


Dr. Middleton assented and entered on the voiceful ground of Greek
metres, shoving your dry dusty world from his elbows.




CHAPTER 25. The Flight in Wild Weather



The morning of Lucy Darleton's letter of reply to her friend Clara was
fair before sunrise, with luminous colours that are an omen to the
husbandman. Clara had no weather-eye for the rich Eastern crimson,
nor a quiet space within her for the beauty. She looked on it as her gate
of promise, and it set her throbbing with a revived belief in radiant
things which she had once dreamed of to surround her life, but her
accelerated pulses narrowed her thoughts upon the machinery of her
project. She herself was metal, pointing all to her one aim when in
motion. Nothing came amiss to it, everything was fuel; fibs, evasions,
the serene battalions of white lies parallel on the march with dainty
rogue falsehoods.
She had delivered herself of many yesterday in her
engagements for to-day. Pressure was put on her to engage herself,
and she did so liberally, throwing the burden of deceitfulness on the
extraordinary pressure. "I want the early part of the morning; the rest
of the day I shall be at liberty." She said it to Willoughby, Miss Dale,
Colonel De Craye, and only the third time was she aware of the
delicious double meaning. Hence she associated it with the colonel.

Your loudest outcry against the wretch who breaks your rules is in
asking how a tolerably conscientious person could have done this and
the other besides the main offence, which you vow you could overlook
but for the minor objections pertaining to conscience, the incom-
prehensible and abominable lies, for example, or the brazen coolness
of the lying. Yet you know that we live in an undisciplined world,
where in our seasons of activity we are servants of our design,
and that this comes of our passions, and those of our position.
Our
design shapes us for the work in hand, the passions man the ship, the
position is their apology: and now should conscience be a passenger
on board, a merely seeming swiftness of our vessel will keep him
dumb as the unwilling guest of a pirate captain scudding from the
cruiser half in cloven brine through rocks and shoals to save his black
flag. Beware the false position.


That is easy to say: sometimes the tangle descends on us like a net of
blight on a rose-bush. There is then an instant choice for us between
courage to cut loose, and desperation if we do not.
But not many men
are trained to courage; young women are trained to cowardice. For
them to front an evil with plain speech is to be guilty of effrontery and
forfeit the waxen polish of purity, and therewith their commanding
place in the market.
They are trained to please man's taste, for which
purpose they soon learn to live out of themselves, and look on
themselves as he looks, almost as little disturbed as he by the
undiscovered.
Without courage, conscience is a sorry guest; and if all
goes well with the pirate captain, conscience will be made to walk the
plank for being of no service to either party.


Clara's fibs and evasions disturbed her not in the least that morning.
She had chosen desperation, and she thought herself very brave
because she was just brave enough to fly from her abhorrence. She
was light-hearted, or, more truly, drunken-hearted. Her quick nature
realized the out of prison as vividly and suddenly as it had sunk
suddenly and leadenly under the sense of imprisonment. Vernon
crossed her mind: that was a friend! Yes, and there was a guide; but he
would disapprove, and even he, thwarting her way to sacred liberty,
must be thrust aside.

What would he think? They might never meet, for her to know. Or one
day in the Alps they might meet, a middle-aged couple, he famous, she
regretful only to have fallen below his lofty standard. "For, Mr.
Whitford," says she, very earnestly, "I did wish at that time, believe me
or not, to merit your approbation." The brows of the phantom Vernon
whom she conjured up were stern, as she had seen them yesterday in
the library.


She gave herself a chiding for thinking of him when her mind should
be intent on that which he was opposed to.

It was a livelier relaxation to think of young Crossjay's shame-faced
confession presently, that he had been a laggard in bed while she
swept the dews. She laughed at him, and immediately Crossjay popped
out on her from behind a tree, causing her to clap hand to heart and
stand fast. A conspirator is not of the stuff to bear surprises. He feared
he had hurt her, and was manly in his efforts to soothe: he had been up
"hours", he said, and had watched her coming along the avenue, and
did not mean to startle her: it was the kind of fun he played with
fellows, and if he had hurt her, she might do anything to him she liked,
and she would see if he could not stand to be punished. He was urgent
with her to inflict corporal punishment on him.


"I shall leave it to the boatswain to do that when you're in the navy,"
said Clara.

"The boatswain daren't strike an officer! so now you see what you
know of the navy," said Crossjay.

"But you could not have been out before me, you naughty boy, for I
found all the locks and bolts when I went to the door."

"But you didn't go to the back door, and Sir Willoughby's private door:
you came out by the hall door; and I know what you want, Miss
Middleton, you want not to pay what you've lost."

"What have I lost, Crossjay?"

"Your wager."

"What was that?"

"You know."

"Speak."

"A kiss."

"Nothing of the sort. But, dear boy, I don't love you less for not kissing
you. All that is nonsense: you have to think only of learning, and to be
truthful. Never tell a story: suffer anything rather than be dishonest."
She was particularly impressive upon the silliness and wickedness of
falsehood, and added: "Do you hear?"


"Yes: but you kissed me when I had been out in the rain that day."

"Because I promised."

"And, Miss Middleton, you betted a kiss yesterday."

"I am sure, Crossjay?no, I will not say I am sure: but can you say you
are sure you were out first this morning? Well, will you say you are
sure that when you left the house you did not see me in the avenue?
You can't: ah!"

"Miss Middleton, I do really believe I was dressed first."

"Always be truthful, my dear boy, and then you may feel that Clara
Middleton will always love you."

"But, Miss Middleton, when you're married you won't be Clara
Middleton."

"I certainly shall, Crossjay."

"No, you won't, because I'm so fond of your name!"

She considered, and said: "You have warned me, Crossjay, and I shall
not marry. I shall wait," she was going to say, "for you," but turned the
hesitation to a period.
"Is the village where I posted my letter the day
before yesterday too far for you?"

Crossjay howled in contempt. "Next to Clara, my favourite's Lucy," he
said.

"I thought Clara came next to Nelson," said she; "and a long way off
too, if you're not going to be a landlubber."

"I'm not going to be a landlubber. Miss Middleton, you may be
absolutely positive on your solemn word."

"You're getting to talk like one a little now and then, Crossjay."

"Then I won't talk at all."

He stuck to his resolution for one whole minute.


Clara hoped that on this morning of a doubtful though imperative
venture she had done some good.

They walked fast to cover the distance to the village post-office, and
back before the breakfast hour: and they had plenty of time, arriving
too early for the opening of the door, so that Crossjay began to dance
with an appetite, and was despatched to besiege a bakery. Clara felt
lonely without him: apprehensively timid in the shuttered, unmoving
village street.
She was glad of his return. When at last her letter was
handed to her, on the testimony of the postman that she was the
lawful applicant, Crossjay and she put out on a sharp trot to be back at
the Hall in good time. She took a swallowing glance of the first page of
Lucy's writing:

"Telegraph, and I will meet you. I will supply you with everything you
can want for the two nights, if you cannot stop longer."

That was the gist of the letter. A second, less voracious, glance at it
along the road brought sweetness:--Lucy wrote:

"Do I love you as I did? my best friend, you must fall into unhappiness
to have the answer to that."

Clara broke a silence.

"Yes, dear Crossjay, and if you like you shall have another walk with
me after breakfast. But, remember, you must not say where you have
gone with me. I shall give you twenty shillings to go and buy those
bird's eggs and the butterflies you want for your collection; and mind,
promise me, to-day is your last day of truancy. Tell Mr. Whitford how
ungrateful you know you have been, that he may have some hope of
you.
You know the way across the fields to the railway station?"

"You save a mile; you drop on the road by Combline's mill, and then
there's another five-minutes' cut, and the rest's road."

"Then, Crossjay, immediately after breakfast run round behind the
pheasantry, and there I'll find you. And if any one comes to you before
I come, say you are admiring the plumage of the Himalaya--the
beautiful Indian bird; and if we're found together, we run a race, and of
course you can catch me, but you mustn't until we're out of sight. Tell
Mr. Vernon at night--tell Mr. Whitford at night you had the money
from me as part of my allowance to you for pocket-money. I used to
like to have pocket-money, Crossjay. And you may tell him I gave you
the holiday, and I may write to him for his excuse, if he is not too harsh
to grant it. He can be very harsh."

"You look right into his eyes next time, Miss Middleton. I used to think
him awful till he made me look at him. He says men ought to look
straight at one another, just as we do when he gives me my boxingles-
son, and then we won't have quarrelling half so much.
I can't recollect
everything he says."

"You are not bound to, Crossjay."

"No, but you like to hear."

"Really, dear boy. I can't accuse myself of having told you that."

"No, but, Miss Middleton, you do. And he's fond of your singing and
playing on the piano, and watches you."

"We shall be late if we don't mind," said Clara, starting to a pace close
on a run.

They were in time for a circuit in the park to the wild double cherryblossom,
no longer all white. Clara gazed up from under it, where she
had imagined a fairer visible heavenliness than any other sight of earth
had ever given her. That was when Vernon lay beneath. But she had
certainly looked above, not at him. The tree seemed sorrowful in its
withering flowers of the colour of trodden snow.


Crossjay resumed the conversation.

"He says ladies don't like him much."

"Who says that?"

"Mr. Whitford."

"Were those his words?"

"I forget the words: but he said they wouldn't be taught by him, like
me, ever since you came; and since you came I've liked him ten times
more."

"The more you like him the more I shall like you, Crossjay."


The boy raised a shout and scampered away to Sir Willoughby, at the
appearance of whom Clara felt herself nipped and curling inward.
Crossjay ran up to him with every sign of pleasure. Yet he had not
mentioned him during the walk; and
Clara took it for a sign that the
boy understood the entire satisfaction Willoughby had in mere shows
of affection, and acted up to it. Hardly blaming Crossjay, she was a
critic of the scene, for the reason that youthful creatures who have
ceased to love a person, hunger for evidence against him to confirm
their hard animus, which will seem to them sometimes, when he is not
immediately irritating them, brutish, because they can not analyze it
and reduce it to the multitude of just antagonisms whereof it came. It
has passed by large accumulation into a sombre and speechless load
upon the senses, and fresh evidence, the smallest item, is a champion
to speak for it.
Being about to do wrong, she grasped at this eagerly,
and brooded on the little of vital and truthful that there was in the man
and how he corrupted the boy. Nevertheless, she instinctively imitated
Crossjay in an almost sparkling salute to him.


"Good-morning, Willoughby; it was not a morning to lose: have you
been out long?"

He retained her hand. "My dear Clara! and you, have you not
overfatigued yourself? Where have you been?"

"Round--everywhere! And I am certainly not tired."

"Only you and Crossjay? You should have loosened the dogs."

"Their barking would have annoyed the house."

"Less than I am annoyed to think of you without protection."

He kissed her fingers: it was a loving speech.

"The household . . ." said Clara, but would not insist to convict him of
what he could not have perceived.

"If you outstrip me another morning, Clara, promise me to take the
dogs; will you?"

"Yes."

"To-day I am altogether yours."

"Are you?"

"From the first to the last hour of it!--So you fall in with Horace's
humour pleasantly?"

"He is very amusing."

"As good as though one had hired him."

"Here comes Colonel De Craye."

"He must think we have hired him!"

She noticed the bitterness of Willoughby's tone.
He sang out a good
morning to De Craye, and remarked that he must go to the stables.

"Darleton? Darleton, Miss Middleton?" said the colonel, rising from his
bow to her: "a daughter of General Darleton? If so,
I have had the
honour to dance with her. And have not you?--practised with her, I
mean; or gone off in a triumph to dance it out as young ladies do? So
you know what a delightful partner she is."

"She is!" cried Clara, enthusiastic for her succouring friend, whose
letter was the treasure in her bosom.

"Oddly, the name did not strike me yesterday, Miss Middleton. In the
middle of the night it rang a little silver bell in my ear, and I remem-
bered the lady I was half in love with, if only for her dancing. She
is dark, of your height, as light on her feet; a sister in another
colour. Now that I know her to be your friend . . . !"

"Why, you may meet her, Colonel De Craye."

"It'll be to offer her a castaway. And one only meets a charming girl to
hear that she's engaged! 'Tis not a line of a ballad, Miss Middleton, but
out of the heart."


"Lucy Darleton . . . You were leading me to talk seriously to you,
Colonel De Craye."

"Will you one day?--and not think me a perpetual tumbler! You have
heard of melancholy clowns. You will find the face not so laughable
behind my paint. When I was thirteen years younger I was loved, and
k my dearest sank to the grave. Since then I have not been quite at home
in life; probably because of finding no one so charitable as she. 'Tis
easy to win smiles and hands, but not so easy to win a woman whose
faith you would trust as your own heart before the enemy.
I was poor
then. She said. 'The day after my twenty-first birthday'; and that day I
went for her, and I wondered they did not refuse me at the door. I was
shown upstairs, and I saw her, and saw death. She wished to marry
me, to leave me her fortune!"


"Then, never marry," said Clara, in an underbreath.

She glanced behind.

Sir Willoughby was close, walking on turf.

"I must be cunning to escape him after breakfast," she thought.

He had discarded his foolishness of the previous days, and the thought
in him could have replied: "I am a dolt if I let you out of my sight."

Vernon appeared, formal as usual of late. Clara begged his excuse for
withdrawing Crossjay from his morning swim. He nodded.

De Craye called to Willoughby for a book of the trains.

"There's a card in the smoking-room; eleven, one, and four are the
hours, if you must go," said Willoughby.

"You leave the Hall, Colonel De Craye?"

"In two or three days, Miss Middleton."

She did not request him to stay: his announcement produced no effect
on her. Consequently, thought he--well, what? nothing: well, then, that
she might not be minded to stay herself. Otherwise she would have
regretted the loss of an amusing companion: that is the modest way of
putting it. There is a modest and a vain for the same sentiment; and
both may be simultaneously in the same breast; and each one as
honest as the other; so shy is man's vanity in the presence of here and
there a lady. She liked him: she did not care a pin for him--how could
she? yet she liked him:
O, to be able to do her some kindling bit of
service! These were his consecutive fancies, resolving naturally to the
exclamation, and built on the conviction that she did not love
Willoughby, and waited for a spirited lift from circumstances.
His call
for a book of the trains had been a sheer piece of impromptu, in the
mind as well as on the mouth. It sprang, unknown to him, of
conjectures he had indulged yesterday and the day before. This
morning she would have an answer to her letter to her friend, Miss
Lucy Darleton, the pretty dark girl, whom De Craye was astonished not
to have noticed more when he danced with her.
She, pretty as she was,
had come to his recollection through the name and rank of her father,
a famous general of cavalry, and tactician in that arm. The colonel
despised himself for not having been devoted to Clara Middleton's
friend.

The morning's letters were on the bronze plate in the hall. Clara
passed on her way to her room without inspecting them. De Craye
opened an envelope and went upstairs to scribble a line. Sir
Willoughby observed their absence at the solemn reading to the
domestic servants in advance of breakfast.
1 Three chairs were
unoccupied. Vernon had his own notions of a mechanical service?and
a precious profit he derived from them! but
the other two seats
returned the stare Willoughby cast at their backs with an impudence

that reminded him of his friend Horace's calling for a book of the
trains, when a minute afterward he admitted he was going to stay at
the Hall another two days, or three.
The man possessed by jealousy is
never in need of matter for it: he magnifies; grass is jungle, hillocks are
mountains.
Willoughby's legs crossing and uncrossing audibly, and his
tight-folded arms and clearing of the throat, were faint indications of
his condition.

"Are you in fair health this morning, Willoughby?" Dr. Middleton said
to him after he had closed his volumes.

"The thing is not much questioned by those who know me intimately,"
he replied.

"Willoughby unwell!" and, "He is health incarnate!" exclaimed the
ladies Eleanor and Isabel.

Laetitia grieved for him. Sun-rays on a pest-stricken city, she thought,
were like the smile of his face. She believed that he deeply loved Clara,
and had learned more of her alienation.

He went into the ball to look into the well for the pair of malefactors;
on fire with what he could not reveal to a soul.


De Craye was in the housekeeper's room, talking to young Crossjay,
and Mrs. Montague just come up to breakfast. He had heard the boy
chattering, and as the door was ajar he peeped in, and was invited to
enter. Mrs. Montague was very fond of hearing him talk:
he paid her
the familiar respect which a lady of fallen fortunes, at a certain period
after the fall, enjoys as a befittingly sad souvenir, and the respectful-
ness of the lord of the house was more chilling.


She bewailed the boy's trying his constitution with long walks before
he had anything in him to walk on.


"And where did you go this morning, my lad?" said De Craye.

"Ah, you know the ground, colonel," said Crossjay. "I am hungry! I shall
eat three eggs and some bacon, and buttered cakes, and jam, then
begin again, on my second cup of coffee."

"It's not braggadocio," remarked Mrs. Montague. "He waits empty from
five in the morning till nine, and then he comes famished to my table,
and cats too much."

"Oh! Mrs. Montague, that is what the country people call roemancing.
For, Colonel De Craye, I had a bun at seven o'clock. Miss Middleton
forced me to go and buy it"

"A stale bun, my boy?"

"Yesterday's: there wasn't much of a stopper to you in it, like a new
bun."

"And where did you leave Miss Middleton when you went to buy the bun?
You should never leave a lady; and the street of a country town is
lonely at that early hour. Crossjay, you surprise me."

"She forced me to go, colonel. Indeed she did. What do I care for a bun!
And she was quite safe. We could hear the people stirring in the postoffice,
and I met our postman going for his letter-bag. I didn't want to go: both-
er the bun!--but you can't disobey Miss Middleton. I never want to, and
wouldn't."


"There we're of the same mind," said the colonel, and Crossjay
shouted, for the lady whom they exalted was at the door.

"You will be too tired for a ride this morning," De Craye said to her,
descending the stairs.

She swung a bonnet by the ribands. "I don't think of riding to-day."
"Why did you not depute your mission to me?"

"I like to bear my own burdens, as far as I can."


"Miss Darleton is well?"

"I presume so."

"Will you try her recollection for me?"

"It will probably be quite as lively as yours was."

"Shall you see her soon?"

"I hope so."

Sir Willoughby met her at the foot of the stairs, but refrained from
giving her a hand that shook.

"We shall have the day together," he said.

Clara bowed.


At the breakfast-table she faced a clock.

De Craye took out his watch. "You are five and a half minutes too slow
by that clock, Willoughby."

"The man omitted to come from Rendon to set it last week, Horace. He
will find the hour too late here for him when he does come."

One of the ladies compared the time of her watch with De Craye's, and
Clara looked at hers and gratefully noted that she was four minutes in
arrear.

She left the breakfast-room at a quarter to ten, after kissing her father.
Willoughby was behind her. He had been soothed by thinking of his
personal advantages over De Craye, and
he felt assured that if he could
be solitary with his eccentric bride and fold her in himself, he would,
cutting temper adrift,
be the man he had been to her not so many days
back. Considering how few days back, his temper was roused, but he
controlled it.

They were slightly dissenting as De Craye stepped into the hall.

"A present worth examining," Willoughby said to her: "and I do not
dwell on the costliness. Come presently, then. I am at your disposal all
day. I will drive you in the afternoon to call on Lady Busshe to offer
your thanks: but you must see it first. It is laid out in the laboratory."
"There is time before the afternoon," said Clara.

"Wedding presents?" interposed De Craye.

"A porcelain service from Lady Busshe, Horace."

"Not in fragments? Let me have a look at it. I'm haunted by an idea that
porcelain always goes to pieces. I'll have a look and take a hint.
We're
in the laboratory, Miss Middleton."

He put his arm under Willoughby's. The resistance to him was
momentary:

Willoughby had the satisfaction of the thought that De Craye being
with him was not with Clara; and seeing her giving orders to her maid
Barclay, he deferred his claim on her company for some short period.

De Craye detained him in the laboratory, first over the China cups and
saucers, and then with the latest of London--
tales of youngest Cupid
upon subterranean adventures, having high titles to light him. Willou-
ghby liked the tale thus illuminated, for without the title there was
no special savour in such affairs, and it pulled down his betters in
rank. He was of a morality to reprobate the erring dame while he
enjoyed the incidents.
He could not help interrupting De Craye to point
at Vernon through the window, striding this way and that, evidently on
the hunt for young Crossjay. "No one here knows how to manage the
boy except myself But go on, Horace," he said,
checking his contem-
ptuous laugh; and Vernon did look ridiculous, out there halfdrenched
already in a white rain,
again shuffled off by the little rascal. It seemed
that he was determined to have his runaway: he struck up the avenue
at full pedestrian racing pace.


"A man looks a fool cutting after a cricket-ball; but, putting on steam in
a storm of rain to catch a young villain out of sight, beats anything I've
witnessed,"
Willoughby resumed, in his amusement.

"Aiha!" said De Craye, waving a hand to accompany the melodious
accent, "there are things to beat that for fun."

He had smoked in the laboratory, so Willoughby directed a servant to
transfer the porcelain service to one of the sitting-rooms for Clara's
inspection of it.

"You're a bold man," De Craye remarked. "The luck may be with you,
though. I wouldn't handle the fragile treasure for a trifle."

"I believe in my luck," said Willoughby.

Clara was now sought for. The lord of the house desired her presence
impatiently, and had to wait. She was in none of the lower rooms.
Barclay, her maid, upon interrogation, declared she was in none of the
upper. Willoughby turned sharp on De Craye: he was there.

The ladies Eleanor and Isabel and Miss Dale were consulted. They had
nothing to say about Clara's movements, more than that they could not
understand her exceeding restlessness.
The idea of her being out of
doors grew serious; heaven was black, hard thunder rolled, and
lightning flushed the battering rain.
Men bearing umbrellas, shawls,
and cloaks were dispatched on a circuit of the park. De Craye said: "I'll
be one."

"No," cried Willoughby, starting to interrupt him, "I can't allow it."

"I've the scent of a hound, Willoughby; I'll soon be on the track."

"My dear Horace, I won't let you go."

"Adieu, dear boy! and if the lady's discoverable, I'm the one to find
her."


He stepped to the umbrella-stand. There was then a general question
whether Clara had taken her umbrella. Barclay said she had. The fact
indicated a wider stroll than round inside the park: Crossjay was
likewise absent. De Craye nodded to himself.

Willoughby struck a rattling blow on the barometer.

"Where's Pollington?" he called, and sent word for his man Pollington
to bring big fishing-boots and waterproof wrappers.

An urgent debate within him was in progress.

Should he go forth alone on his chance of discovering Clara and
forgiving her under his umbrella and cloak? or should he prevent De
Craye from going forth alone on the chance he vaunted so impudently?
"You will offend me, Horace, if you insist," he said.

"Regard me as an instrument of destiny, Willoughby," replied De
Craye.

"Then we go in company."

"But that's an addition of one that cancels the other by conjunction,
and's worse than simple division: for I can't trust my wits unless I rely
on them alone, you see."

"Upon my word, you talk at times most unintelligible stuff, to be frank
with you, Horace. Give it in English."

"'Tis not suited, perhaps, to the genius of the language, for I thought
I talked English."

"Oh, there's English gibberish as well as Irish, we know!"

"And a deal foolisher when they do go at it; for it won't bear squeezing,
we think, like Irish."


"Where!" exclaimed the ladies, "where can she be! The storm is
terrible."


Laetitia suggested the boathouse.

"For Crossjay hadn't a swim this morning!" said De Craye.

No one reflected on the absurdity that Clara should think of taking
Crossjay for a swim in the lake, and immediately after his breakfast: it
was accepted as a suggestion at least that she and Crossjay had gone to
the lake for a row.

In the hopefulness of the idea, Willoughby suffered De Craye to go on
his chance unaccompanied. He was near chuckling. He projected a plan
for dismissing Crossjay and remaining in the boathouse with Clara,
luxuriating in the prestige which would attach to him for seeking and
finding her. Deadly sentiments intervened. Still he might expect to be
alone with her where she could not slip from him.


The throwing open of the hall-doors for the gentlemen presented a
framed picture of a deluge. All the young-leaved trees were steely
black, without a gradation of green, drooping and pouring, and the
song of rain had become an inveterate hiss.

The ladies beholding it exclaimed against Clara, even apostrophized
her, so dark are trivial errors when circumstances frown. She must be
mad to tempt such weather: she was very giddy; she was never at rest.
Clara! Clara! how could you be so wild!
Ought we not to tell Dr.
Middleton?

Laetitia induced them to spare him.


"Which way do you take?" said Willoughby, rather fearful that his
companion was not to be got rid of now.

"Any way," said De Craye. "I chuck up my head like a halfpenny, and go
by the toss."

This enraging nonsense drove off Willoughby. De Craye saw him cast a
furtive eye at his heels to make sure he was not followed, and thought,
"Jove! he may be fond of her. But he's not on the track. She's a de-
termined girl, if I'm correct. She's a girl of a hundred thousand. Girls
like that make the right sort of wives for the right men. They're the
girls to make men think of marrying. To-morrow! only give me a chance.
They stick to you fast when they do stick."

Then a thought of her flower-like drapery and face caused him fer-
vently to hope she had escaped the storm.


Calling at the West park-lodge he heard that Miss Middleton had been
seen passing through the gate with Master Crossjay; but she had not
been seen coming back. Mr. Vernon Whitford had passed through half
an hour later.

"After his young man!" said the colonel.

The lodge-keeper's wife and daughter knew of Master Crossjay's
pranks; Mr. Whitford, they said, had made inquiries about him and
must have caught him and sent him home to change his dripping
things; for Master Crossjay had come back, and had declined shelter in
the lodge; he seemed to be crying; he went away soaking over the wet
grass, hanging his head. The opinion at the lodge was that Master
Crossjay was unhappy.

"He very properly received a wigging2 from Mr. Whitford, I have no
doubt," said Colonel Do Craye.

Mother and daughter supposed it to be the case, and considered
Crossjay very wilful for not going straight home to the Hall to change
his wet clothes; he was drenched.

Do Craye drew out his watch. The time was ten minutes past eleven. If
the surmise he had distantly spied was correct, Miss Middleton would
have been caught in the storm midway to her destination. By his guess
at her character (knowledge of it, he would have said), he judged that
no storm would daunt her on a predetermined expedition. He deduced
in consequence that she was at the present moment flying to her
friend, the charming brunette Lucy Darleton.

Still, as there was a possibility of the rain having been too much for
her, and as he had no other speculation concerning the route she had
taken, he decided upon keeping along the road to Rendon, with a keen
eye at cottage and farmhouse windows.




CHAPTER 26. Vernon in Pursuit



The lodge-keeper had a son, who was a chum of Master Crossjay's, and
errant-fellow with him upon many adventures; for this boy's passion
was to become a gamekeeper, and accompanied by one of the headgame-
keeper's youngsters, he and Crossjay were in the habit of rangeing
over the country, preparing for a profession delightful to the
tastes of all three.
Crossjay's prospective connection with the
mysterious ocean bestowed the title of captain on him by common
consent; he led them, and when missing for lessons he was generally
in the society of Jacob Croom or Jonathan Fernaway. Vernon made
sure of Crossjay when he perceived Jacob Croom sitting on a stool in
the little lodge-parlour. Jacob's appearance of a diligent perusal of a
book he had presented to the lad, he took for a decent piece of trickery.
It was with amazement that he heard from the mother and daughter,
as well as Jacob, of Miss Middleton's going through the gate before ten
o'clock with Crossjay beside her, the latter too hurried to spare a nod
to Jacob. That she, of all on earth, should be encouraging Crossjay to
truancy was incredible. Vernon had to fall back upon Greek and Latin
aphoristic shots at the sex to believe it.

Rain was universal; a thick robe of it swept from hill to hill; thunder
rumbled remote, and between the ruffled roars the downpour pressed
on the land with a great noise of eager gobbling, much like that of the
swine's trough fresh filled, as though a vast assembly of the hungered
had seated themselves clamorously and fallen to on meats and drinks
in a silence, save of the chaps.
A rapid walker poetically and
humourously minded gathers multitudes of images on his way. And
rain, the heaviest you can meet, is a lively companion when the
resolute pacer scorns discomfort of wet clothes and squealing boots.
South-western rain-clouds, too, are never long sullen: they enfold and
will have the earth in a good strong glut of the kissing overflow;
then,
as a hawk with feathers on his beak of the bird in his claw lifts head,
they
rise and take veiled feature in long climbing watery lines: at any
moment they may break the veil and show soft upper cloud, show sun
on it, show sky, green near the verge they spring from, of the green of
grass in early dew; or, along a travelling sweep that rolls asunder
overhead, heaven's laughter of purest blue among titanic white
shoulders:
it may mean fair smiling for awhile, or be the lightest
interlude; but the watery lines, and the drifting, the chasing, the
upsoaring, all in a shadowy fingering of form, and the animation of the
leaves of the trees pointing them on, the bending of the tree-tops, the
snapping of branches, and the hurrahings of the stubborn hedge at
wrestle with the flaws, yielding but a leaf at most, and that on a fling,
make a glory of contest and wildness without aid of colour to inflame
the man who is at home in them from old association on road, heath,
and mountain. Let him be drenched, his heart will sing. And thou, trim

cockney, that jeerest, consider thyself, to whom it may occur to be out
in such a scene, and
with what steps of a nervous dancing-master it
would be thine to play the hunted rat of the elements, for the
preservation of the one imagined dryspot about thee, somewhere on
thy luckless person! The taking of rain and sun alike befits men of our
climate, and he who would have the secret of a strengthening
intoxication must court the clouds of the South-west with a lover's
blood.


Vernon's happy recklessness was dashed by fears for Miss Middleton.
Apart from those fears, he had the pleasure of a gull wheeling among
foam-streaks of the wave. He supposed the Swiss and Tyrol Alps to
have hidden their heads from him for many a day to come, and the
springing and chiming South-west was the next best thing. A milder
rain descended; the country expanded darkly defined underneath the
moving curtain; the clouds were as he liked to see them, scaling; but
their skirts dragged. Torrents were in store, for they coursed
streamingly still and had not the higher lift, or eagle ascent, which he
knew for one of the signs of fairness, nor had the hills any belt of mistlike
vapour.


On a step of the stile leading to the short-cut to Rendon young
Crossjay was espied. A man-tramp sat on the top-bar.
"There you are; what are you doing there? Where's Miss Middleton?"
said Vernon. "Now, take care before you open your mouth."

Crossjay shut the mouth he had opened.

"The lady has gone away over to a station, sir," said the tramp.

"You fool!" roared Crossjay, ready to fly at him.

"But ain't it now, young gentleman? Can you say it ain't?"

"I gave you a shilling, you ass!"

"You give me that sum, young gentleman, to stop here and take care of
you, and here I stopped."

"Mr. Whitford!" Crossjay appealed to his master, and broke of in
disgust. "Take care of me! As if anybody who knows me would think I
wanted taking care of! Why, what a beast you must be, you fellow!"

"Just as you like, young gentleman. I chaunted you all I know, to keep
up your downcast spirits. You did want comforting. You wanted it
rarely. You cried like an infant."

"I let you 'chaunt', as you call it, to keep you from swearing."

"And why did I swear, young gentleman? because I've got an itchy coat
in the wet, and no shirt for a lining. And no breakfast to give me a
stomach for this kind of weather. That's what I've come to in this
world! I'm a walking moral.
No wonder I swears, when I don't strike
up a chaunt."


"But why are you sitting here wet through, Crossjay! Be off home at
once, and change, and get ready for me."

"Mr. Whitford, I promised, and I tossed this fellow a shilling not to go
bothering Miss Middleton."

"The lady wouldn't have none o" the young gentleman, sir, and I off-
ered to go pioneer for her to the station, behind her, at a respectful
distance."

"As if!--you treacherous cur!" Crossjay ground his teeth at the
betrayer. "Well, Mr. Whitford, and I didn't trust him, and I stuck to him,
or he'd have been after her whining about his coat and stomach, and
talking of his being a moral. He repeats that to everybody."

"She has gone to the station?" said Vernon.

Not a word on that subject was to be won from Crossjay.

"How long since?" Vernon partly addressed Mr. Tramp.

The latter became seized with shivers as he supplied the information
that it might be a quarter of an hour or twenty minutes. "But what's
time to me, sir? If I had reglar meals, I should carry a clock in my
inside. I got the rheumatics instead."


"Way there!" Vernon cried, and took the stile at a vault.

"That's what gentlemen can do, who sleeps in their beds warm,"
moaned the tramp. "They've no joints."

Vernon handed him a half-crown piece, for he had been of use for
once.

"Mr. Whitford, let me come. If you tell me to come I may. Do let me
come," Crossjay begged with great entreaty. "I sha'n't see her for . . ."

"Be off, quick!" Vernon cut him short and pushed on.

The tramp and Crossjay were audible to him; Crossjay spurning the
consolations of the professional sad man.

Vernon spun across the fields, timing himself by his watch to reach
Rendon station ten minutes before eleven, though without clearly
questioning the nature of the resolution which precipitated him.
Dropping to the road, he had better foothold than on the slippery fieldpath,
and he ran. His principal hope was that Clara would have missed
her way. Another pelting of rain agitated him on her behalf. Might she
not as well be suffered to go?--and sit three hours and more in a
railway-carriage with wet feet!

He clasped the visionary little feet to warm them on his breast.?But
Willoughby's obstinate fatuity deserved the blow!--But neither she
nor her father deserved the scandal. But she was desperate. Could
reasoning touch her? if not, what would? He knew of nothing.
Yesterday he had spoken strongly to Willoughby, to plead with him to
favour her departure and give her leisure to sound her mind, and he
had left his cousin, convinced that Clara's best measure was flight: a
man so cunning in a pretended obtuseness backed by senseless pride,
and in petty tricks that sprang of a grovelling tyranny, could only be
taught by facts.

Her recent treatment of him, however, was very strange; so strange
that he might have known himself better if he had reflected on the
bound with which it shot him to a hard suspicion. De Craye had
prepared the world to hear that he was leaving the Hall. Were they in
concert? The idea struck at his heart colder than if her damp little feet
had been there.

Vernon's full exoneration of her for making a confidant of himself, did
not extend its leniency to the young lady's character when there was
question of her doing the same with a second gentleman.
He could
suspect much: he could even expect to find De Craye at the station.

That idea drew him up in his run, to meditate on the part he should
play; and by drove little Dr. Corney on the way to Rendon and hailed
him, and gave his cheerless figure the nearest approach to an Irish bug
in the form of a dry seat under an umbrella and water-proof covering.

"Though it is the worst I can do for you, if you decline to supplement it
with a dose of hot brandy and water at the Dolphin," said he: "and I'll
see you take it, if you please. I'm bound to ease a Rendon patient out of
the world. Medicine's one of their superstitions, which they cling to the
harder the more useless it gets. Pill and priest launch him happy
between them.?'And what's on your conscience, Pat?--It's whether
your blessing, your Riverence, would disagree with another drop.
Then put the horse before the cart, my son, and you shall have the two
in harmony, and God speed ye!'--Rendon station, did you say, Vernon?
You shall have my prescription at the Railway Arms, if you're hurried.
You have the look. What is it? Can I help?"

"No. And don't ask."

"You're like the Irish Grenadier who had a bullet in a humiliating
situation. Here's Rendon, and through it we go with a spanking clatter.
Here's Doctor Corney's dog-cart post-haste again. For there's no dying
without him now, and Repentance is on the death-bed for not calling
him in before. Half a charge of humbug hurts no son of a gun, friend
Vernon, if he'd have his firing take effect. Be tender to't in man or
woman, particularly woman. So, by goes the meteoric doctor, and
I'll
bring noses to window-panes, you'll see, which reminds me of the
sweetest young lady I ever saw, and the luckiest man. When is she off
for her bridal trousseau? And when are they spliced? I'll not call her
perfection, for that's a post, afraid to move. But she's a dancing sprig
of the tree next it. Poetry's wanted to speak of her. I'm Irish and
inflammable, I suppose, but I never looked on a girl to make a man
comprehend the entire holy meaning of the word rapturous, like that
one. And away she goes! We'll not say another word. But you're a
Grecian, friend Vernon. Now, couldn't you think her just a whiff of an
idea of a daughter of a peccadillo-Goddess?"
1

"Deuce take you, Corney, drop me here; I shall be late for the train,"
said Vernon, laying hand on the doctor's arm to check him on the way
to the station in view.

Dr Corney had a Celtic intelligence for a meaning behind an illogical
tongue. He drew up, observing. "Two minutes run won't hurt you."

He slightly fancied he might have given offence, though he was well
acquainted with Vernon and had a cordial grasp at the parting.

The truth must be told that Vernon could not at the moment bear any
more talk from an Irishman. Dr. Corney had succeeded in persuading
him not to wonder at Clara Middleton's liking for Colonel de Craye.




CHAPTER 27. At The Railway Station



Clara stood in the waiting-room contemplating the white rails of the
rain-swept line. Her lips parted at the sight of Vernon.

"You have your ticket?" said he.

She nodded, and breathed more freely; the matter-of-fact question was
reassuring.

"You are wet," he resumed; and it could not be denied.

"A little. I do not feel it."

"I must beg you to come to the inn hard by--half a dozen steps. We
shall see your train signalled. Come."

She thought him startlingly authoritative, but he had good sense to
back him; and depressed as she was by the dampness, she was
disposed to yield to reason if he continued to respect her
independence. So she submitted outwardly, resisted inwardly, on the
watch to stop him from taking any decisive lead.

"Shall we be sure to see the signal, Mr. Whitford?"

"I'll provide for that."

He spoke to the station-clerk, and conducted her across the road.

"You are quite alone, Miss Middleton?"

"I am: I have not brought my maid."

"You must take off boots and stockings at once, and have them dried.
I'll put you in the hands of the landlady."

"But my train!"

"You have full fifteen minutes, besides fair chances of delay."

He seemed reasonable, the reverse of hostile, in spite of his
commanding air, and that was not unpleasant in one friendly to her
adventure. She controlled her alert distrustfulness, and passed from
him to the landlady, for her feet were wet and cold, the skirts of her
dress were soiled; generally inspecting herself, she was an object to be
shuddered at, and she was grateful to Vernon for his inattention to her
appearance.

Vernon ordered Dr. Corney's dose, and was ushered upstairs to a room
of portraits, where
the publican's ancestors and family sat against the
walls, flat on their canvas as weeds of the botanist's portfolio, although
corpulency was pretty generally insisted on, and there were
formidable battalions of bust among the females.
All of them had the
aspect of the national energy which has vanquished obstacles to
subside on its ideal. They all gazed straight at the guest. "Drink, and
come to this!" they might have been labelled to say to him. He was in
the private Walhalla of a large class of his countrymen.
1 The existing
host had taken forethought to be of the party in his prime, and in the
central place, looking fresh-fattened there and sanguine from the
performance. By and by a son would shove him aside; meanwhile he
shelved his parent, according to the manners of energy.

One should not be a critic of our works of Art in uncomfortable
garments. Vernon turned from the portraits to a stuffed pike in a glass
case, and plunged into sympathy with the fish for a refuge.

Clara soon rejoined him, saying: "But you, you must be very wet. You
were without an umbrella. You must be wet through, Mr. Whitford."

"We're all wet through, to-day," said Vernon. "Crossjay's wet through,
and a tramp he met."

"The horrid man! But Crossjay should have turned back when I told him.
Cannot the landlord assist you? You are not tied to time. I begged
Crossjay to turn back when it began to rain: when it became heavy I
compelled him. So you met my poor Crossjay?"

"You have not to blame him for betraying you. The tramp did that. I
was thrown on your track quite by accident. Now pardon me for using
authority, and don't be alarmed, Miss Middleton; you are perfectly free
for me; but you must not run a risk to your health. I met Doctor Corney
coming along, and he prescribed hot brandy and water for a wet skin,
especially for sitting in it. There's the stuff on the table; I see you
have been aware of a singular odour; you must consent to sip some, as
medicine; merely to give you warmth."

"Impossible, Mr. Whitford: I could not taste it. But pray, obey Dr.
Corney, if he ordered it for you."

"I can't, unless you do."

"I will, then: I will try."


She held the glass, attempted, and was baffled by the reek of it.

"Try: you can do anything," said Vernon.

"Now that you find me here, Mr. Whitford! Anything for myself it
would seem, and nothing to save a friend. But I will really try."

"It must be a good mouthful."

"I will try. And you will finish the glass?"

"With your permission, if you do not leave too much."

They were to drink out of the same glass; and she was to drink some of
this infamous mixture: and she was in a kind of hotel alone with him:
and he was drenched in running after her:--all this came of breaking
loose for an hour!

"Oh! what a misfortune that it should be such a day, Mr. Whitford!"

"Did you not choose the day?"

"Not the weather."

"And the worst of it is, that Willoughby will come upon Crossjay wet
to the bone, and pump him and get nothing but shufflings, blank lies,
and then find him out and chase him from the house."

Clara drank immediately, and more than she intended. She held the
glass as an enemy to be delivered from, gasping, uncertain of her
breath.

"Never let me be asked to endure such a thing again!"


"You are unlikely to be running away from father and friends again."

She panted still with the fiery liquid she had gulped: and she
wondered that it should belie its reputation in not fortifying her,
but rendering her painfully susceptible to his remarks.

"Mr. Whitford, I need not seek to know what you think of me."

"What I think? I don't think at all; I wish to serve you if I can."

"Am I right in supposing you a little afraid of me? You should not
be. I have deceived no one. I have opened my heart to you, and am
not ashamed of having done so."

"It is an excellent habit, they say."

"It is not a habit with me."

He was touched, and for that reason, in his dissatisfaction with himself,
not unwilling to hurt. "We take our turn, Miss Middleton. I'm no hero,
and a bad conspirator, so I am not of much avail."

"You have been reserved--but I am going, and I leave my character
behind. You condemned me to the poison-bowl; you have not touched
it yourself"


"In vino veritas:2 if I do I shall be speaking my mind."

"Then do, for the sake of mind and body."

"It won't be complimentary."

"You can be harsh. Only say everything."


"Have we time?"

They looked at their watches.

"Six minutes," Clara said.

Vernon's had stopped, penetrated by his total drenching.

She reproached herself. He laughed to quiet her. "My dies solemnes3
are sure to give me duckings; I'm used to them. As for the watch, it
will remind me that it stopped when you went."

She raised the glass to him. She was happier and hoped for some little
harshness and kindness mixed that she might carry away to travel with
and think over.


He turned the glass as she had given it, turned it round in putting it
to his lips: a scarce perceptible manoeuvre, but that she had given it
expressly on one side.

It may be hoped that it was not done by design.
Done even accidentally,
without a taint of contrivance, it was an affliction to see, and coiled
through her, causing her to shrink and redden.

Fugitives are subject to strange incidents; they are not vessels lying
safe in harbour. She shut her lips tight, as if they had stung. The
realizing sensitiveness of her quick nature accused them of a loss of
bloom.
And the man who made her smart like this was formal as a
railway official on a platform.

"Now we are both pledged in the poison-bowl," said he. "And it has the
taste of rank poison, I confess. But the doctor prescribed it, and at sea
we must be sailors.
Now, Miss Middleton, time presses: will you return
with me?"

"No! no!"

"Where do you propose to go?"

"To London; to a friend--Miss Darleton."

"What message is there for your father?"

"Say I have left a letter for him in a letter to be delivered to you."

"To me! And what message for Willoughby?"

"My maid Barclay will hand him a letter at noon."

"You have sealed Crossjay's fate."

"How?"

"He is probably at this instant undergoing an interrogation. You may
guess at his replies. The letter will expose him, and Willoughby does
not pardon."

"I regret it. I cannot avoid it. Poor boy! My dear Crossjay! I did not
think of how Willoughby might punish him. I was very thoughtless. Mr.
Whitford, my pin-money shall go for his education. Later, when I am a
little older, I shall be able to support him."

"That's an encumbrance; you should not tie yourself to drag it about.
You are unalterable, of course, but circumstances are not, and as it
happens, women are more subject to them than we are."

"But I will not be!"

"Your command of them is shown at the present moment."

"Because I determine to be free?"

"No: because you do the contrary; you don't determine: you run away
from the difficulty, and leave it to your father and friends to bear. As
for Crossjay, you see you destroy one of his chances. I should have
carried him off before this, if I had not thought it prudent to keep him
on terms with Willoughby. We'll let Crossjay stand aside. He'll behave
like a man of honour, imitating others who have had to do the same for
ladies."

"Have spoken falsely to shelter cowards, you mean, Mr. Whitford.
Oh, I
know.--I have but two minutes. The die is cast. I cannot go back. I
must get ready. Will you see me to the station? I would rather you
should hurry home."

"I will see the last of you. I will wait for you here. An express runs
ahead of your train, and I have arranged with the clerk for a signal; I
have an eye on the window."

"You are still my best friend, Mr. Whitford."

"Though?"

"Well, though you do not perfectly understand what torments have
driven me to this."


"Carried on tides and blown by winds?"

"Ah! you do not understand."

"Mysteries?"

"Sufferings are not mysteries, they are very simple facts."

"Well, then, I don't understand. But decide at once. I wish you to have
your free will."

She left the room.

Dry stockings and boots are better for travelling in than wet ones, but
in spite of her direct resolve, she felt when drawing them on like one
that has been tripped. The goal was desirable, the ardour was damped.
Vernon's wish that she should have her free will compelled her to
sound it: and it was of course to go, to be liberated, to cast off incubus
and hurt her father? injure Crossjay? distress her friends? No, and ten
times no!


She returned to Vernon in haste, to shun the reflex of her mind.

He was looking at a closed carriage drawn up at the station door.

"Shall we run over now, Mr. Whitford?"

"There's no signal. Here it's not so chilly."

"I ventured to enclose my letter to papa in yours, trusting you would
attend to my request to you to break the news to him gently and plead
for me."

"We will all do the utmost we can."

"I am doomed to vex those who care for me. I tried to follow your
counsel."

"First you spoke to me, and then you spoke to Miss Dale; and at least
you have a clear conscience."

"No."

"What burdens it?"

"I have done nothing to burden it."

"Then it's a clear conscience."

"No."

Vernon's shoulders jerked. Our patience with an innocent duplicity in
women is measured by the place it assigns to us and another. If he had
liked he could have thought: "You have not done but meditated some-
thing to trouble conscience." That was evident, and her speaking of
it was proof too of the willingness to be dear. He would not help her.

Man's blood, which is the link with women and responsive to them on
the instant for or against, obscured him. He shrugged anew when she
said: "My character would have been degraded utterly by my staying
there. Could you advise it?"

"Certainly not the degradation of your character," he said, black on
the subject of De Craye, and not lightened by feelings which made him
sharply sensible of the beggarly dependant that he was, or poor
adventuring scribbler that he was to become.


"Why did you pursue me and wish to stop me, Mr. Whitford?" said
Clara, on the spur of a wound from his tone.

He replied: "I suppose I'm a busybody; I was never aware of it till
now."


"You are my friend. Only you speak in irony so much. That was irony,
about my clear conscience. I spoke to you and to Miss Dale: and then I
rested and drifted. Can you not feel for me, that to mention it is
like a scorching furnace? Willoughby has entangled papa. He schemes
incessantly to keep me entangled. I fly from his cunning as much as
from anything. I dread it.
I have told you that I am more to blame than
he, but I must accuse him. And wedding-presents! and congratulations!
And to be his guest!"

"All that makes up a plea in mitigation," said Vernon.

"Is it not sufficient for you?" she asked him timidly.

"You have a masculine good sense that tells you you won't be respected
if you run. Three more days there might cover a retreat with your
father."

"He will not listen to me. He confuses me; Willoughby has bewitched
him."

"Commission me: I will see that he listens."

"And go back? Oh, no! To London! Besides, there is the dining with
Mrs. Mountstuart this evening; and I like her very well, but I must
avoid her. She has a kind of idolatry . . . And what answers can I give?
I
supplicate her with looks. She observes them, my efforts to divert
them from being painful produce a comic expression to her, and I am a
charming 'rogue', and I am entertained on the topic she assumes to be
principally interesting me. I must avoid her. The thought of her leaves
me no choice. She is clever. She could tattoo me with epigrams."


"Stay . . . there you can hold your own."

"She has told me you give me credit for a spice of wit. I have not
discovered my possession. We have spoken of it; we call it your
delusion. She grants me some beauty; that must be hers."

"There's no delusion in one case or the other, Miss Middleton. You
have beauty and wit; public opinion will say, wildness: indifference to
your reputation will be charged on you, and your friends will have to
admit it. But you will be out of this difficulty."

"Ah--to weave a second?"

"Impossible to judge until we see how you escape the first. And I have
no more to say. I love your father. His humour of sententiousness and
doctorial stilts is a mask he delights in, but you ought to know him and
not be frightened by it. If you sat with him an hour at a Latin task, and
if you took his hand and told him you could not leave him, and no
tears!--he would answer you at once. It would involve a day or two
further; disagreeable to you, no doubt: preferable to the present mode
of escape, as I think. But I have no power whatever to persuade. I have
not the 'lady's tongue'. My appeal is always to reason."

"It is a compliment. I loathe the 'lady's tongue'."

"It's a distinctly good gift, and I wish I had it. I might have succeeded
instead of failing, and appearing to pay a compliment."


"Surely the express train is very late, Mr. Whitford?"

"The express has gone by."

"Then we will cross over."

"You would rather not be seen by Mrs. Mountstuart. That is her
carriage drawn up at the station, and she is in it."

Clara looked, and with the sinking of her heart said: "I must brave
her!"

"In that case I will take my leave of you here, Miss Middleton."

She gave him her hand. "Why is Mrs. Mountstuart at the station today?"

"I suppose she has driven to meet one of the guests for her dinnerparty.
Professor Crooklyn was promised to your father, and he may be coming by
the down-train."

"Go back to the Hall!" exclaimed Clara. "How can I? I have no more
endurance left in me. If I had some support!--if it were the sense of
secretly doing wrong, it might help me through. I am in a web. I cannot
do right, whatever I do. There is only the thought of saving Crossjay.
Yes, and sparing papa.--Good-bye, Mr. Whitford. I shall remember
your kindness gratefully. I cannot go back."

"You will not?" said he, tempting her to hesitate.

"No."

"But if you are seen by Mrs. Mountstuart, you must go back. I'll do my
best to take her away. Should she see you, you must patch up a story
and apply to her for a lift. That, I think, is imperative."

"Not to my mind," said Clara.

He bowed hurriedly, and withdrew. After her confession, peculiar to
her, of possibly finding sustainment in secretly doing wrong, her flying
or remaining seemed to him a choice of evils: and whilst she stood in
bewildered speculation on his reason for pursuing her--which was
not evident--he remembered the special fear inciting him, and so far
did her justice as to have at himself on that subject.
He had done
something perhaps to save her from a cold: such was his only
consolatory thought. He had also behaved like a man of honour, taking
no personal advantage of her situation; but to reflect on it recalled his
astonishing dryness. The strict man of honour plays a part that he
should not reflect on till about the fall of the curtain, otherwise he will
be likely sometimes to feel the shiver of foolishness at his good
conduct.




CHAPTER 28. The Return



Posted in observation at a corner of the window Clara saw Vernon
cross the road to Mrs. Mountstuart Jenkinson's carriage,
transformed
to the leanest pattern of himself by narrowed shoulders and raised
coat-collar. He had such an air of saying, "Tom's a-cold", that her skin
crept in sympathy.


Presently he left the carriage and went into the station: a bell had rung.
Was it her train? He approved her going, for he was employed in
assisting her to go: a proceeding at variance with many things he had
said, but he was as full of contradiction to-day as women are accused
of being. The train came up. She trembled: no signal had appeared, and
Vernon must have deceived her.

He returned; he entered the carriage, and the wheels were soon in
motion. Immediately thereupon, Flitch's fly drove past, containing
Colonel De Craye.

Vernon could not but have perceived him!

But what was it that had brought the colonel to this place? The
pressure of Vernon's mind was on her and foiled her efforts to assert
her perfect innocence, though she knew she had done nothing to allure
the colonel hither. Excepting Willoughby, Colonel De Craye was the
last person she would have wished to encounter.

She had now a dread of hearing the bell which would tell her that
Vernon had not deceived her, and that she was out of his hands, in the
hands of some one else.

She bit at her glove; she glanced at the concentrated eyes of the
publican's family portraits, all looking as one; she noticed the empty
tumbler, and went round to it and touched it, and the silly spoon in it.

A little yielding to desperation shoots us to strange distances!

Vernon had asked her whether she was alone. Connecting that inquiry,
singular in itself, and singular in his manner of putting it, with the
glass of burning liquid, she repeated: "He must have seen Colonel De
Craye!" and she stared at the empty glass, as at something that
witnessed to something:
for Vernon was not your supple cavalier
assiduously on the smirk to pin a gallantry to commonplaces. But all
the doors are not open in a young lady's consciousness, quick of nature
though she may be: some are locked and keyless, some will not open to
the key, some are defended by ghosts inside. She could not have said
what the something witnessed to. If we by chance know more, we have
still no right to make it more prominent than it was with her. And the
smell of the glass was odious; it disgraced her. She had an impulse to
pocket the spoon for a memento, to show it to grandchildren for a
warning. Even the prelude to the morality to be uttered on the
occasion sprang to her lips: "Here, my dears, is a spoon you would be
ashamed to use in your teacups, yet it was of more value to me at one
period of my life than silver and gold in pointing out, etc.": the
conclusion was hazy, like the conception; she had her idea.


And in this mood she ran down-stairs and met Colonel De Craye on the
station steps.

The bright illumination of his face was that of the confident man
confirmed in a risky guess in the crisis of doubt and dispute.

"Miss Middleton!" his joyful surprise predominated; the pride of an
accurate forecast, adding: "I am not too late to be of service?"

She thanked him for the offer.

"Have you dismissed the fly, Colonel De Craye?"

"I have just been getting change to pay Mr. Flitch. He passed me on the
road. He is interwound with our fates to a certainty. I had only to jump
in; I knew it, and rolled along like a magician commanding a genie."

"Have I been . . ."

"Not seriously, nobody doubts you being under shelter. You will allow
me to protect you? My time is yours."

"I was thinking of a running visit to my friend Miss Darleton."

"May I venture? I had the fancy that you wished to see Miss Darleton
to-day. You cannot make the journey unescorted."

"Please retain the fly. Where is Willoughby?"

"He is in jack-boots. But may I not, Miss Middleton? I shall never be
forgiven if you refuse me."


"There has been searching for me?"

"Some hallooing. But why am I rejected? Besides, I don't require the
fly; I shall walk if I am banished. Flitch is a wonderful conjurer, but the
virtue is out of him for the next four-and-twenty hours. And it will be
an opportunity to me to make my bow to Miss Darleton!"

"She is rigorous on the conventionalities, Colonel De Craye."

"I'll appear before her as an ignoramus or a rebel, whichever she likes
best to take in leading-strings.
I remember her. I was greatly struck by
her."

"Upon recollection!"

"Memory didn't happen to be handy at the first mention of the lady's
name. As the general said of his ammunition and transport, there's the
army!--but it was leagues in the rear.
Like the footman who went to
sleep after smelling fire in the house, I was thinking of other things. It
will serve me right to be forgotten--if I am. I've a curiosity to know: a
remainder of my coxcombry. Not that exactly: a wish to see the
impression I made on your friend.--None at all? But any pebble casts a
ripple."

"That is hardly an impression," said Clara, pacifying her irresoluteness
with this light talk.

"The utmost to be hoped for by men like me! I have your
permission??one minute?I will get my ticket."

"Do not," said Clara.

"Your man-servant entreats you!"


She signified a decided negative with the head, but her eyes were
dreamy. She breathed deep: this thing
1 done would cut the cord. Her
sensation of languor swept over her.


De Craye took a stride. He was accosted by one of the railway-porters.
Flitch's fly was in request for a gentleman. A portly old gentleman
bothered about luggage appeared on the landing.

"The gentleman can have it," said De Craye, handing Flitch his money.
"Open the door." Clara said to Flitch.

He tugged at the handle with enthusiasm. The door was open: she
stepped in.

"Then mount the box and I'll jump up beside you,"
De Craye called out,
after the passion of regretful astonishment had melted from his
features.

Clara directed him to the seat fronting her; he protested indifference
to the wet; she kept the door unshut. His temper would have preferred
to buffet the angry weather. The invitation was too sweet.


She heard now the bell of her own train. Driving beside the railway
embankment she met the train: it was eighteen minutes late, by her
watch. And why, when it flung up its whale-spouts of steam, she was
not journeying in it, she could not tell. She had acted of her free will:
that she could say. Vernon had not induced her to remain; assuredly
her present companion had not; and her whole heart was for flight: yet
she was driving back to the Hall, not devoid of calmness. She speculat-
ed on the circumstance enough to think herself incomprehensible, and
there left it, intent on the scene to come with Willoughby.

"I must choose a better day for London," she remarked.

De Craye bowed, but did not remove his eyes from her.

"Miss Middleton, you do not trust me."

She answered: "Say in what way. It seems to me that I do."

"I may speak?"

"If it depends on my authority."

"Fully?"

"Whatever you have to say. Let me stipulate, be not very grave. I want
cheering in wet weather."

"Miss Middleton, Flitch is charioteer once more. Think of it. There's a
tide that carries him perpetually to the place where he was cast forth,
and a thread that ties us to him in continuity.
I have not the honour to
be a friend of long standing: one ventures on one's devotion: it dates
from the first moment of my seeing you. Flitch is to blame, if any one.
Perhaps the spell would be broken, were he reinstated in his ancient
office."

"Perhaps it would," said Clara, not with her best of smiles.

Willoughby's pride of relentlessness appeared to her to be receiving a
blow by rebound, and that seemed high justice.


"I am afraid you were right; the poor fellow has no chance," De Craye
pursued. He paused, as for decorum in the presence of misfortune, and
laughed sparklingly: "Unless I engage him, or pretend to! I verily
believe that Flitch's melancholy person on the skirts of the Hall
completes the picture of the Eden within.--Why will you not put some
trust in me, Miss Middleton?"


"But why should you not pretend to engage him then, Colonel De
Craye?"

"We'll plot it, if you like. Can you trust me for that?"

"For any act of disinterested kindness, I am sure."

"You mean it?"

"Without reserve. You could talk publicly of taking him to London."

"Miss Middleton, just now you were going. My arrival changed your
mind. You distrust me: and ought I to wonder? The wonder would be
all the other way. You have not had the sort of report of me which
would persuade you to confide, even in a case of extremity. I guessed
you were going. Do you ask me how? I cannot say. Through what they
call sympathy, and that's inexplicable. There's natural sympathy,
natural antipathy. People have to live together to discover how deep
it is!"

Clara breathed her dumb admission of his truth.

The fly jolted and threatened to lurch.

"Flitch, my dear man!" the colonel gave a murmuring remonstrance;
"for," said he to Clara, whom his apostrophe to Flitch had set smiling,
"we're not safe with him, however we make believe, and he'll be
jerking the heart out of me before he has done.--But if two of us have
not the misfortune to be united when they come to the discovery,
there's hope. That is, if one has courage and the other has wisdom.
Otherwise they may go to the yoke in spite of themselves. The great
enemy is Pride, who has them both in a coach and drives them to the
fatal door, and the only thing to do is to knock him off his box while
there's a minute to spare. And as there's no pride like the pride of
possession, the deadliest wound to him is to make that doubtful. Pride
won't be taught wisdom in any other fashion.
But one must have the
courage to do it!"

De Craye trifled with the window-sash, to give his words time to sink
in solution.

Who but Willoughby stood for Pride? And who, swayed by languor,
had dreamed of a method that would be surest and swiftest to teach
him the wisdom of surrendering her?

"You know, Miss Middleton, I study character," said the colonel.

"I see that you do," she answered.


"You intend to return?"

"Oh, decidedly."

"The day is unfavourable for travelling, I must say."

"It is."

"You may count on my discretion in the fullest degree. I throw myself
on your generosity when I assure you that it was not my design to
surprise a secret. I guessed the station, and went there, to put myself
at your disposal."

"Did you," said Clara, reddening slightly, "chance to see Mrs.
Mountstuart Jenkinson's carriage pass you when you drove up to the
station?"

De Craye had passed a carriage. "I did not see the lady. She was in it?"

"Yes.
And therefore it is better to put discretion on one side: we may
be certain she saw you."

"But not you, Miss Middleton."

"I prefer to think that I am seen. I have a description of courage,
Colonel De Craye, when it is forced on me."

"I have not suspected the reverse. Courage wants training, as well as
other fine capacities. Mine is often rusty and rheumatic."


"I cannot hear of concealment or plotting."

"Except, pray, to advance the cause of poor Flitch!"

"He shall be excepted."

The colonel screwed his head round for a glance at his coachman's
back.

"Perfectly guaranteed to-day!" he said of Flitch's look of solidity.
"The convulsion of the elements appears to sober our friend; he is
only dangerous in calms.
Five minutes will bring us to the park-
gates."

Clara leaned forward to gaze at the hedgeways in the neighbourhood
of the Hall strangely renewing their familiarity with her. Both in
thought and sensation she was like a flower beaten to earth, and
she thanked her feminine mask for not showing how nerveless and
languid she was.
She could have accused Vernon of a treacherous
cunning for imposing it on her free will to decide her fate.
Involuntarily she sighed.

"There is a train at three," said De Craye, with splendid promptitude.

"Yes, and one at five.
We dine with Mrs. Mountstuart tonight. And I
have a passion for solitude! I think I was never intended for obliga-
tions. The moment I am bound I begin to brood on freedom."

"Ladies who say that, Miss Middleton!. . ."

"What of them?"

"They're feeling too much alone."

She could not combat the remark: by her self-assurance that she had
the principle of faithfulness, she acknowledged to herself the truth
of it--there is no freedom for the weak. Vernon had said that once.
She tried to resist the weight of it, and her sheer inability precip-
itated her into a sense of pitiful dependence.


Half an hour earlier it would have been a perilous condition to be
traversing in the society of a closely scanning reader of fair faces.
Circumstances had changed. They were at the gates of the park.


"Shall I leave you?" said De Craye.

"Why should you?" she replied.

He bent to her gracefully.

The mild subservience flattered Clara's languor. He had not compelled
her to be watchful on her guard, and she was unaware that he passed
it when she acquiesced to his observation, "An anticipatory story is
a trap to the teller."

"It is," she said. She had been thinking as much.

He threw up his head to consult the brain comically with a dozen little
blinks.

"No, you are right, Miss Middleton, inventing beforehand never prospers;
't is a way to trip our own cleverness. Truth and mother-wit are the
best counsellors: and as you are the former, I'll try to act up to
the character you assign me."

Some tangle, more prospective than present, seemed to be about her
as she reflected. But her intention being to speak to Willoughby
without subterfuge, she was grateful to her companion for not
tempting her to swerve. No one could doubt his talent for elegant
fibbing, and she was in the humour both to admire and adopt the art,
so she was glad to be rescued from herself. How mother-wit was to
second truth she did not inquire, and as she did not happen to be
thinking of Crossjay, she was not troubled by having to consider how
truth and his tale of the morning would be likely to harmonize.
Driving down the park, she had full occupation in questioning whether
her return would be pleasing to Vernon, who was the virtual cause of
it, though he had done so little to promote it: so little that she really
doubted his pleasure in seeing her return.




CHAPTER 29. In Which the Sensitiveness of Sir Willoughby Is Explained:
         And He Receives Much Instruction




THE Hall-dock over the stables was then striking twelve. It was the
hour for her flight to be made known, and Clara sat in a turmoil of dim
apprehension that prepared her nervous frame for a painful blush on
her being asked by Colonel De Craye whether she had set her watch
correctly. He must, she understood, have seen through her at the
breakfast table: and was she not cruelly indebted to him for her
evasion of Willoughby? Such perspicacity of vision distressed and
frightened her; at the same time she was obliged to acknowledge that
he had not presumed on it. Her dignity was in no way the worse for
him. But it had been at a man's mercy, and there was the affliction.


She jumped from the fly as if she were leaving danger behind. She
could at the moment have greeted Willoughby with a conventionally
friendly smile. The doors were thrown open and young Crossjay flew
out to her.
He hung and danced on her hand, pressed the hand to his
mouth, hardly believing that he saw and touched her, and in a lingo of
dashes and asterisks
related how Sir Willoughby had found him under
the boathouse eaves and pumped him, and had been sent off to
Hoppner's farm, where there was a sick child, and on along the road to
a labourer's cottage: "For I said you're so kind to poor people, Miss
Middleton; that's true, now that is true. And I said you wouldn't have
me with you for fear of contagion!" This was what she had feared.

"Every crack and bang in a boys vocabulary," remarked the colonel,
listening to him after he had paid Flitch.

The latter touched his hat till he had drawn attention to himself, when
he exclaimed, with rosy melancholy: "Ah! my lady, ah! colonel, if ever I
lives to drink some of the old port wine in the old Hall at Christmastide!"
Their healths would on that occasion be drunk, it was implied. He threw
up his eyes at the windows, humped his body and drove away.


"Then Mr. Whitford has not come back?" said Clara to Crossjay.

"No, Miss Middleton. Sir Willoughby has, and he's upstairs in his room
dressing."

"Have you seen Barclay?"

"She has just gone into the laboratory. I told her Sir Willoughby wasn't
there."

"Tell me, Crossjay, had she a letter?"

"She had something."

"Run: say I am here; I want the letter, it is mine."

Crossjay sprang away and plunged into the arms of Sir Willoughby.

"One has to catch the fellow like a football," exclaimed the injured
gentleman, doubled across the boy and holding him fast, that he might
have an object to trifle with, to give himself countenance: he needed it.

"Clara, you have not been exposed to the weather?"

"Hardly at all."

"I rejoice. You found shelter?"

"Yes."

"In one of the cottages?"

"Not in a cottage; but I was perfectly sheltered. Colonel De Craye
passed a fly before he met me . . ."

"Flitch again!" ejaculated the colonel.

"Yes, you have luck, you have luck," Willoughby addressed him, still
clutching Crossjay and treating his tugs to get loose as an invitation to
caresses. But the foil barely concealed his livid perturbation.


"Stay by me, sir," he said at last sharply to Crossjay, and Clara touched
the boy's shoulder in admonishment of him.

She turned to the colonel as they stepped into the hall: "I have not
thanked you, Colonel De Craye." She dropped her voice to its lowest:
"A letter in my handwriting in the laboratory."

Crossjay cried aloud with pain.

"I have you!" Willoughby rallied him with a laugh not unlike the
squeak of his victim.

"You squeeze awfully hard, sir."

"Why, you milksop!"


"Am I! But I want to get a book."

"Where is the book?"

"In the laboratory."

Colonel De Craye, sauntering by the laboratory door, sung out: "I'll
fetch you your book. What is it? EARLY NAVIGATORS? INFANT HYMNS? I
think my cigar-case is in here."

"Barclay speaks of a letter for me," Willoughby said to Clara, "marked
to be delivered to me at noon!"

"In case of my not being back earlier; it was written to avert anxiety,"
she replied.

"You are very good."

"Oh, good! Call me anything but good. Here are the ladies. Dear ladies!"
Clara swam to meet them as they issued from a morning-room into the
hall, and interjections reigned for a couple of minutes.


Willoughby relinquished his grasp of Crossjay, who darted instanta-
neously at an angle to the laboratory, whither he followed, and
he encountered De Craye coming out, but passed him in silence.

Crossjay was rangeing and peering all over the room. Willoughby went
to his desk and the battery-table and the mantelpiece. He found no
letter. Barclay had undoubtedly informed him that she had left a letter
for him in the laboratory, by order of her mistress after breakfast.

He hurried out and ran upstairs in time to see De Craye and Barclay
breaking a conference.

He beckoned to her. The maid lengthened her upper lip and beat her
dress down smooth: signs of the apprehension of a crisis and of the
getting ready for action.

"My mistress's bell has just rung, Sir Willoughby."

"You had a letter for me."

"I said . . ."

"You said when I met you at the foot of the stairs that you had left a
letter for me in the laboratory."

"It is lying on my mistress's toilet-table."

"Get it."

Barclay swept round with another of her demure grimaces. It was
apparently necessary with her that she should talk to herself in this
public manner.

Willoughby waited for her; but there was no reappearance of the maid.


Struck by the ridicule of his posture of expectation, and of his whole
behaviour, he went to his bedroom suite, shut himself in, and paced
the chambers, amazed at the creature he had become. Agitated like the
commonest of wretches, destitute of self-control, not able to preserve
a decent mask, be, accustomed to inflict these emotions and tremours
upon others, was at once the puppet and dupe of an intriguing girl. His
very stature seemed lessened. The glass did not say so, but the
shrunken heart within him did, and wailfully too. Her compunction--
'Call me anything but good'--coming after her return to the Hall
beside De Craye, and after the visible passage of a secret between
them in his presence, was a confession: it blew at him with the fury of
a furnace-blast in his face. Egoist agony wrung the outcry from him
that dupery is a more blessed condition. He desired to be deceived.


He could desire such a thing only in a temporary transport; for above
all he desired that no one should know of his being deceived;
and were
he a dupe the deceiver would know it, and her accomplice would know
it, and the world would soon know of it: that world against whose
tongue he stood defenceless. Within the shadow of his presence he
compressed opinion, as a strong frost binds the springs of earth, but
beyond it his shivering sensitiveness ran about in dread of a stripping
in a wintry atmosphere. This was the ground of his hatred of the
world: it was an appalling fear on behalf of his naked eidolon,
1 the
tender infant Self swaddled in his name before the world, for which he
felt as the most highly civilized of men alone can feel, and which it was
impossible for him to stretch out hands to protect. There the poor little
loveable creature ran for any mouth to blow on; and frostnipped and
bruised, it cried to him, and he was of no avail! Must we not detest a
world that so treats us? We loathe it the more, by the measure of our
contempt for them, when we have made the people within the
shadow-circle of our person slavish.


And he had been once a young prince in popularity: the world had
been his possession. Clara's treatment of him was a robbery of land
and subjects. His grander dream had been a marriage with
a lady of so
glowing a fame for beauty and attachment to her lord that the world
perforce must take her for witness to merits which would silence
detraction and almost, not quite (it was undesireable), extinguish
envy.
But for the nature of women his dream would have been
realized. He could not bring himself to denounce Fortune.
It had cost
him a grievous pang to tell Horace De Craye he was lucky;
he had been
educated in the belief that Fortune specially prized and cherished little
Willoughby: hence of necessity his maledictions fell upon women, or
he would have forfeited the last blanket of a dream warm as poets
revel in
.

But if Clara deceived him, he inspired her with timidity. There was
matter in that to make him wish to be deceived.
She had not looked
him much in the face: she had not crossed his eyes: she had looked
deliberately downward, keeping her head up, to preserve an exterior
pride. The attitude had its bewitchingness: the girl's physical pride of
stature scorning to bend under a load of conscious guilt, had a certain
black-angel beauty for which he felt a hugging hatred:
and according to
his policy when these fits of amorous meditation seized him, he burst
from the present one in the mood of his more favourable conception of
Clara, and sought her out.


The quality of the mood of hugging hatred is, that if you are disallowed
the hug, you do not hate the fiercer.

Contrariwise the prescription of a decorous distance of two feet ten
inches, which is by measurement the delimitation exacted of a rightly
respectful deportment, has this miraculous effect on the great creature
man, or often it has: that his peculiar hatred returns to the reluctant
admiration begetting it, and his passion for the hug falls prostrate as
one of the Faithful before the shrine; he is reduced to worship by
fasting.


(For these mysteries, consult the sublime chapter in the GREAT BOOK,
the Seventy-first on LOVE, wherein nothing is written, but the Reader
receives a Lanthorn,
2 a Powder-cask and a Pick-axe, and therewith
pursues his yellow-dusking path across the rubble of preceding
excavators in the solitary quarry: a yet more instructive passage than
the overscrawled Seventieth, or French Section, whence the chapter
opens, and where hitherto the polite world has halted.)

The hurry of the hero is on us, we have no time to spare for mining
works: he hurried to catch her alone,
to wreak his tortures on her in a
bitter semblance of bodily worship, and satiated, then comfortably to
spurn.
He found her protected by Barclay on the stairs.

"That letter for me?" he said.

"I think I told you, Willoughby, there was a letter I left with Barclay to
reassure you in case of my not returning early," said Clara. "It was
unnecessary for her to deliver it."

"Indeed? But any letter, any writing of yours, and from you to me! You
have it still?"

"No, I have destroyed it."

"That was wrong."

"It could not have given you pleasure."

"My dear Clara, one line from you!"

"There were but three."


Barclay stood sucking her lips. A maid in the secrets of her mistress is
a purchaseable maid, for if she will take a bribe with her right hand
she will with her left; all that has to be calculated is the nature and
amount of the bribe: such was the speculation indulged by Sir
Willoughby, and
he shrank from the thought and declined to know
more than that he was on a volcanic hillside where a thin crust quaked
over lava. This was a new condition with him, representing Clara's
gain in their combat. Clara did not fear his questioning so much as he
feared her candour.


Mutually timid, they were of course formally polite, and no plain
speaking could have told one another more distinctly that each was
defensive. Clara stood pledged to the fib; packed, scaled and posted;
and he had only to ask to have it, supposing that he asked with a voice
not exactly peremptory.

She said in her heart, "It is your fault: you are relentless and you would
ruin Crossjay to punish him for devoting himself to me, like the poor
thoughtless boy he is! and so I am bound in honour to do my utmost
for him."

The reciprocal devotedness, moreover, served two purposes: it
preserved her from brooding on the humiliation of her lame flight, and
flutter back, and it quieted her mind in regard to the precipitate
intimacy of her relations with Colonel De Craye. Willoughby's boast of
his implacable character was to blame. She was at war with him,
and
she was compelled to put the case in that light. Crossjay must be
shielded from one who could not spare an offender, so Colonel De
Craye quite naturally was called on for his help, and the colonel's
dexterous aid appeared to her more admirable than alarming.

Nevertheless, she would not have answered a direct question falsely.
She was for the fib, but not the lie; at a word she could be disdainful
of subterfuges. Her look said that. Willoughby perceived it. She had
written him a letter of three lines: "There were but three": and she had
destroyed the letter. Something perchance was repented by her? Then
she had done him an injury!
Between his wrath at the suspicion of an
injury, and the prudence enjoined by his abject coveting of her, he
consented to be fooled for the sake of vengeance, and something
besides.

"Well! here you are, safe; I have you!" said he, with courtly exultation:
"and that is better than your handwriting.
I have been all over the
country after you."

"Why did you? We are not in a barbarous land," said Clara.


"Crossjay talks of your visiting a sick child, my love:--you have
changed your dress?"

"You see."

"The boy declared you were going to that farm of Hoppner's, and some
cottage. I met at my gates a tramping vagabond who swore to seeing
you and the boy in a totally contrary direction."

"Did you give him money?"

"I fancy so."

"Then he was paid for having seen me."

Willoughby tossed his head: it might be as she suggested; beggars are
liars.

"But who sheltered you, my dear Clara? You had not been heard of at
Hoppner's."

"The people have been indemnified for their pains. To pay them more
would be to spoil them. You disperse money too liberally. There was
no fever in the place. Who could have anticipated such a downpour! I
want to consult Miss Dale on the important theme of a dress I think of
wearing at Mrs Mountstuart's to-night."

"Do. She is unerring."

"She has excellent taste."

"She dresses very simply herself."

"But it becomes her. She is one of the few women whom I feel I could
not improve with a touch."

"She has judgement."

He reflected and repeated his encomium.

The shadow of a dimple in Clara's cheek awakened him to the idea that
she had struck him somewhere: and certainly he would never again be
able to put up the fiction of her jealousy of Laetitia. What, then, could
be this girl's motive for praying to be released? The interrogation
humbled him: he fled from the answer.


Willoughby went in search of De Craye. That sprightly intriguer had no
intention to let himself be caught solus.3 He was undiscoverable until
the assembly sounded, when Clara dropped a public word or two, and
he spoke in perfect harmony with her. After that, he gave his company
to Willoughby for an hour at billiards, and was well beaten.

The announcement of a visit of Mrs. Mountstuart Jenkinson took the
gentlemen to the drawing-room, rather suspecting that something
stood in the way of her dinner-party. As it happened, she was
lamenting only the loss of one of the jewels of the party: to wit, the
great Professor Crooklyn, invited to meet Dr. Middleton at her table;
and she related how she had driven to the station by appointment, the
professor being notoriously a bother-headed traveller: as was shown
by the fact that he had missed his train in town, for he had not arrived;
nothing had been seen of him. She cited Vernon Whitford for her
authority that the train had been inspected, and the platform scoured
to find the professor.

"And so," said she,
"I drove home your Green Man4 to dry him; he was
wet through and chattering; the man was exactly like a skeleton wrap-
ped in a sponge,
and if he escapes a cold he must be as invulnerable as
he boasts himself. These athletes are terrible boasters."


"They climb their Alps to crow," said Clara, excited by her appre-
hension that Mrs. Mountstuart would speak of having seen the
colonel near the station.

There was a laugh, and Colonel De Craye laughed loudly as it flashed
through him that a quick-witted impressionable girl like Miss Middleton
must, before his arrival at the Hall, have
speculated on such obdurate
clay as Vernon Whitford was, with humourous despair at his uselessness

to her. Glancing round, he saw Vernon standing fixed in a stare at the
young lady.


"You heard that, Whitford?" he said, and Clara's face betokening an
extremer contrition than he thought was demanded, the colonel rallied
the Alpine climber for striving to be the tallest of them--Signor
Excelsior!--and
described these conquerors of mountains pancaked
on the rocks in desperate embraces, bleached here, burned there,
barked all over,
all to be able to say they had been up "so high"--
had conquered another mountain! He was extravagantly funny and self-
satisfied: a conqueror of the sex having such different rewards of
enterprise.

Vernon recovered in time to accept the absurdities heaped on him.
"Climbing peaks won't compare with hunting a wriggler,"
said he.
His allusion to the incessant pursuit of young Crossjay to pin him to
lessons was appreciated.

Clara felt the thread of the look he cast from herself to Colonel De
Craye. She was helpless, if he chose to misjudge her. Colonel De Craye
did not!

Crossjay had the misfortune to enter the drawing-room while Mrs.
Mountstuart was compassionating Vernon for his ducking in pursuit of
the wriggler; which De Craye
likened to "going through the river after
his eel:"
and immediately there was a cross-questioning of the boy
between De Craye and Willoughby on the subject of his latest truancy,
each gentleman trying to run him down in a palpable fib. They were
succeeding brilliantly when Vernon put a stop to it by marching him
off to hard labour.
Mrs. Mountstuart was led away to inspect the
beautiful porcelain service, the present of Lady Busshe. "Porcelain
again!" she said to Willoughby, and would have signalled to the "dainty
rogue" to come with them, had not Clara been leaning over to Laetitia,
talking to her in an attitude too graceful to be disturbed. She called his
attention to it, slightly wondering at his impatience. She departed to
meet an afternoon train on the chance that it would land the professor.
"But tell Dr. Middleton," said she, "I fear I shall have no one worthy of
him! And," she added to Willoughby, as she walked out to her carriage,
"I shall expect you to do the great-gunnery talk at table."

"Miss Dale keeps it up with him best," said Willoughby.

"She does everything best! But my dinner-table is involved, and I
cannot count on a young woman to talk across it.
I would hire a lion
of a menagerie, if one were handy, rather than have a famous scholar
at my table, unsupported by another famous scholar. Doctor Middleton
would ride down a duke when the wine is in him. He will terrify my
poor flock. The truth is, we can't leaven him: I foresee undigested
lumps of conversation, unless you devote yourself."


"I will devote myself," said Willoughby.


"I can calculate on Colonel De Craye and our porcelain beauty for any
quantity of sparkles, if you promise that. They play well together. You
are not to be one of the gods to-night, but a kind of Jupiter's cup-
bearer;
5--Juno's, if you like; and Lady Busshe and Lady Culmer, and all
your admirers shall know subsequently what you have done. You see my
alarm. I certainly did not rank Professor Crooklyn among the possibly
faithless, or I never would have ventured on Doctor Middleton at my
table.
My dinner-parties have hitherto been all successes. Naturally
I feel the greater anxiety about this one. For a single failure is
all the more conspicuous. The exception is everlastingly cited! It
is not so much what people say, but my own sentiments. I hate to
fail.
However, if you are true, we may do."

"Whenever the great gun goes off I will fall on my face, madam!"

"Something of that sort," said the dame, smiling, and leaving him to
reflect on the egoism of women.
For the sake of her dinner-party he
was to be a cipher in attendance on Dr. Middleton, and Clara and De
Craye were to be encouraged in sparkling together! And it happened
that he particularly wished to shine.
The admiration of his county
made him believe he had a flavour in general society that was not yet
distinguished by his bride, and he was to relinquish his opportunity
in order to please Mrs. Mountstuart! Had she been in the pay of his
rival, she could not have stipulated for more.

He remembered young Crossjay's instant quietude, after struggling
in his grasp, when Clara laid her hand on the boy: and from that
infinitesimal circumstance he deduced the boy's perception of a
differing between himself and his bride, and a transfer of Crossjay's
allegiance from him to her.
She shone; she had the gift of female
beauty; the boy was attracted to it. That boy must be made to feel his
treason. But the point of the cogitation was, that similarly were Clara
to see her affianced shining, as shine he could when lighted up by
admirers, there was the probability that the sensation of her littleness
would animate her to take aim at him once more. And then was the
time for her chastisement.


A visit to Dr. Middleton in the library satisfied him that she had not
been renewing her entreaties to leave Patterne.
No, the miserable
coquette had now her pastime, and was content to stay.
Deceit was in
the air: he heard the sound of the shuttle of deceit
6 without seeing it;
but, on the whole, mindful of what he had dreaded during the hours of
her absence, he was rather flattered, witheringly flattered. What was it
that he had dreaded? Nothing less than news of her running away.

Indeed a silly fancy, a lover's fancy! yet it had led him so far as to
suspect, after parting with De Craye in the rain, that his friend and his
bride were in collusion, and that he should not see them again. He had
actually shouted on the rainy road the theatric call "Fooled!" one of the
stage-cries which are cries of nature! particularly the cry of nature
with men who have driven other men to the cry.

Constantia Durham had taught him to believe women capable of explo-
sions of treason at half a minute's notice. And strangely, to prove
that women are all of a pack, she had worn exactly the same placidity
of countenance just before she fled, as Clara yesterday and to-day; no
nervousness, no flushes, no twitches of the brows, but smoothness,
ease of manner--an elegant sisterliness, one might almost say: as if
the creature had found a midway and borderline to walk on between
cruelty and kindness, and between repulsion and attraction; so that up
to the verge of her breath she did forcefully attract, repelling at one
foot's length with her armour of chill serenity.
Not with any disdain,
with no passion: such a line as she herself pursued she indicated to
him on a neighbouring parallel.
The passion in her was like a place of
waves evaporated to a crust of salt. Clara's resemblance to Constantia
in this instance was ominous. For him whose tragic privilege it had
been to fold each of them in his arms, and weigh on their eyelids, and
see the dissolving mist-deeps in their eyes, it was horrible.
Once more
the comparison overcame him. Constantia he could condemn for
revealing too much to his manly sight: she had met him almost halfway:
well, that was complimentary and sanguine: but her frankness
was a baldness often rendering it doubtful which of the two, lady or
gentleman, was the object of the chase--an extreme perplexity to his
manly soul. Now
Clara's inner spirit was shyer, shy as a doe down
those rose-tinged abysses; she allured both the lover and the hunter;
forests of heavenliness were in her flitting eyes. Here the difference
of these fair women made his present fate an intolerable anguish. For
if Constantia was like certain of the ladies whom he had rendered
unhappy, triumphed over, as it is queerly called, Clara was not. Her
individuality as a woman was a thing he had to bow to. It was impos-
sible to roll her up in the sex and bestow a kick on the travelling
bundle. Hence he loved her, though she hurt him. Hence his wretch-
edness, and but for the hearty sincerity of his faith in the Self he
loved likewise and more, he would have been hangdog abject.


As for De Craye, Willoughby recollected his own exploits too proudly
to put his trust in a man. That fatal conjunction of temper and policy
had utterly thrown him off his guard, or he would not have trusted the
fellow even in the first hour of his acquaintance with Clara. But he had
wished her to be amused while he wove his plans to retain her at the
Hall:--partly imagining that she would weary of his neglect: vile
delusion! In truth he should have given festivities, he should have been
the sun of a circle, and have revealed himself to her in his more
dazzling form. He went near to calling himself foolish after the
tremendous reverberation of "Fooled!" had ceased to shake him.

How behave? It slapped the poor gentleman's pride in the face to ask.
A private talk with her would rouse her to renew her supplications. He
saw them flickering behind the girl's transparent calmness. That
calmness really drew its dead ivory hue from the suppression of them:
something as much he guessed; and he was not sure either of his
temper or his policy if he should hear her repeat her profane request.

An impulse to address himself to Vernon and discourse with him
jocularly on the childish whim of a young lady, moved perhaps by
some whiff of jealousy, to shun the yoke, was checked. He had always
taken so superior a pose with Vernon that he could not abandon it for
a moment: on such a subject too! Besides, Vernon was one of your men
who entertain the ideas about women of fellows that have never
conquered one: or only one, we will say in his case, knowing his secret
history; and that one no flag to boast of.
Densely ignorant of the sex,
his nincompoopish idealizations, at other times preposterous, would
now be annoying. He would probably presume on Clara's inconceivable
lapse of dignity to read his master a lecture: he was quite equal to a
philippic
7 upon woman's rights. This man had not been afraid to say that
he talked common sense to women. He was an example of the conse-
quence!

Another result was that Vernon did not talk sense to men. Will-
oughby's wrath at Clara's exposure of him to his cousin dismissed
the proposal of a colloquy so likely to sting his temper, and so certain
to diminish his loftiness. Unwilling to speak to anybody, he was
isolated, yet consciously begirt by the mysterious action going on all
over the house, from Clara and De Craye to Laetitia and young
Crossjay, down to Barclay the maid.
His blind sensitiveness felt as we
may suppose a spider to feel when plucked from his own web and set
in the centre of another's.
Laetitia looked her share in the mystery. A
burden was on her eyelashes. How she could have come to any
suspicion of the circumstances, he was unable to imagine. Her intense
personal sympathy, it might be; he thought so with some gentle pity
for her--of the paternal pat-back order of pity.
She adored him, by
decree of Venus; and the Goddess had not decreed that he should find
consolation in adoring her.
Nor could the temptings of prudent counsel
in his head induce him to run the risk of such a total turnover as the
incurring of Laetitia's pity of himself by confiding in her. He checked
that impulse also, and more sovereignly. For him to be pitied by
Laetitia seemed an upsetting of the scheme of Providence.
Providence,
otherwise the discriminating dispensation of the good things of life,
had made him the beacon, her the bird:
she was really the last person
to whom he could unbosom. The idea of his being in a position that
suggested his doing so, thrilled him with fits of rage; and it appalled
him. There appeared to be another Power. The same which had
humiliated him once was menacing him anew. For it could not be
Providence, whose favourite he had ever been.
We must have a couple
of Powers to account for discomfort when Egoism is the kernel of our
religion.
Benevolence had singled him for uncommon benefits:
malignancy was at work to rob him of them. And you think well of the
world, do you!


Of necessity he associated Clara with the darker Power pointing the
knife at the quick of his pride. Still, he would have raised her weeping:
he would have stanched her wounds bleeding: he had an infinite thirst
for her misery, that he might ease his heart of its charitable love. Or let
her commit herself, and be cast off. Only she must commit herself
glaringly, and be cast off by the world as well. Contemplating her in the
form of a discarded weed, he had a catch of the breath: she was fair. He
implored his Power that Horace De Craye might not be the man! Why
any man? An illness, fever, fire, runaway horses, personal
disfigurement, a laming, were sufficient. And then a formal and noble
offer on his part to keep to the engagement with the unhappy wreck:
yes, and to lead the limping thing to the altar, if she insisted. His
imagination conceived it, and the world's applause besides.


Nausea, together with a sense of duty to his line, extinguished that
loathsome prospect of a mate, though without obscuring his
chivalrous devotion to his gentleman's word of honour, which
remained in his mind to compliment him permanently
.

On the whole, he could reasonably hope to subdue her to admiration.
He drank a glass of champagne at his dressing; an unaccustomed act,
but, as he remarked casually to his man Pollington, for whom the rest
of the bottle was left, he had taken no horse-exercise that day.

Having to speak to Vernon on business, he went to the schoolroom,
where he discovered Clara, beautiful in full evening attire, with her
arm on young Crossjay's shoulder, and heard that the hard taskmaster
had abjured Mrs. Mountstuart's party, and had already excused
himself, intending to keep Crossjay to the grindstone. Willoughby was
for the boy, as usual, and more sparklingly than usual. Clara looked at
him in some surprise. He rallied Vernon with great zest, quite silencing
him when he said: "I bear witness that the fellow was here at his
regular hour for lessons, and were you?" He laid his hand on Crossjay,
touching Clara's.

"You will remember what I told you, Crossjay," said she, rising from
the seat gracefully to escape the touch. "It is my command."

Crossjay frowned and puffed.

"But only if I'm questioned," he said.

"Certainly," she replied.

"Then I question the rascal," said Willoughby, causing a start. "What,
sir, is your opinion of Miss Middleton in her robe of state this
evening?"

"Now, the truth, Crossjay!" Clara held up a finger; and the boy could
see she was playing at archness, but for Willoughby it was earnest.
"The truth is not likely to offend you or me either," he murmured to
her.

"I wish him never, never, on any excuse, to speak anything else."

"I always did think her a Beauty," Crossjay growled. He hated the
having to say it.

"There!" exclaimed Sir Willoughby, and bent, extending an arm to her.
"You have not suffered from the truth, my Clara!"

Her answer was: "I was thinking how he might suffer if he were taught
to tell the reverse."

"Oh! for a fair lady!"

"That is the worst of teaching, Willoughby."

"We'll leave it to the fellow's instinct; he has our blood in him. I could
convince you, though, if I might cite circumstances. Yes! But yes! And
yes again! The entire truth cannot invariably be told. I venture to say it
should not."

"You would pardon it for the 'fair lady'?"

"Applaud, my love."

He squeezed the hand within his arm, contemplating her.


She was arrayed in a voluminous robe of pale blue silk vapourous with
trimmings of light gauze of the same hue, gaze de Chambery,
8 matching
her fair hair and dear skin for the complete overthrow of less inflam-
mable men than Willoughby.


"Clara!" sighed be.

"If so, it would really be generous," she said, "though the teaching be
bad."

"I fancy I can be generous."


"Do we ever know?"

He turned his head to Vernon, issuing brief succinct instructions for
letters to be written, and drew her into the hall, saying: "Know? There
are people who do not know themselves and as they are the majority
they manufacture the axioms. And it is assumed that we have to
swallow them. I may observe that I think I know. I decline to be
engulphed in those majorities. 'Among them, but not of them.' I know
this, that my aim in life is to be generous."

"Is it not an impulse or disposition rather than an aim?"

"So much I know," pursued Willoughby, refusing to be tripped. But she
rang discordantly in his ear. His "fancy that he could be generous" and
his "aim at being generous" had met with no response. "I have given
proofs," he said, briefly, to drop a subject upon which he was not
permitted to dilate; and he murmured, "People acquainted with me . . .
!" She was asked if she expected him to boast of generous deeds.
"From childhood!" she heard him mutter; and she said to herself,
"Release me, and you shall be everything!"

The unhappy gentleman ached as he talked: for with men and with
hosts of women to whom he was indifferent, never did he converse in
this shambling, third-rate, sheepish manner, devoid of all highness
of tone and the proper precision of an authority. He was unable to
fathom the cause of it, but Clara imposed it on him, and only in anger
could he throw it off. The temptation to an outburst that would flatter
him with the sound of his authoritative voice had to be resisted on a
night when he must be composed if he intended to shine, so he merely
mentioned Lady Busshe's present, to gratify spleen by preparing the
ground for dissension, and prudently acquiesced in her anticipated
slipperiness. She would rather not look at it now, she said.


"Not now; very well," said he.

His immediate deference made her regretful. "There is hardly time,
Willoughby."


"My dear, we shall have to express our thanks to her."

"I cannot."

His arm contracted sharply. He was obliged to be silent.

Dr Middleton, Laetitia, and the ladies Eleanor and Isabel joining them
in the hall, found two figures linked together in a shadowy indication
of halves that have fallen apart and hang on the last thread of junction.
Willoughby retained her hand on his arm; he held to it as the symbol of
their alliance, and oppressed the girl's nerves by contact, with a frame
labouring for breath.
De Craye looked on them from overhead. The
carriages were at the door, and Willoughby said, "Where's Horace? I
suppose he's taking a final shot at his Book of Anecdotes and neat
collection of Irishisms."

"No," replied the colonel, descending.
"That's a spring works of itself
and has discovered the secret of continuous motion,
more's the pity!--
unless you'll be pleased to make it of use to Science."

He gave a laugh of good-humour.

"Your laughter, Horace, is a capital comment on your wit."

Willoughby said it with the air of one who has flicked a whip.

"'Tis a genial advertisement of a vacancy," said De Craye.

"Precisely: three parts auctioneer to one for the property."


"Oh, if you have a musical quack, score it a point in his favour,
Willoughby, though you don't swallow his drug."

"If he means to be musical, let him keep time."

"Am I late?" said De Craye to the ladies, proving himself an adept in
the art of being gracefully vanquished, and so winning tender hearts.

Willoughby had refreshed himself. At the back of his mind there was a
suspicion that his adversary would not have yielded so flatly without
an assurance of practically triumphing, secretly getting the better of
him; and
it filled him with venom for a further bout at the next op-
portunity: but as he had been sarcastic and mordant, he had shown
Clara what he could do in a way of speaking different from the lam-
entable cooing stuff, gasps and feeble protestations to which, he
knew not how, she reduced him. Sharing the opinion of his race, that
blunt personalities, or the pugilistic form, administered directly on
the salient features, are exhibitions of mastery in such encounters,
he felt strong and solid, eager for the successes of the evening.
De
Craye was in the first carriage as escort to the ladies Eleanor and
Isabel. Willoughby, with Clara, Laetitia, and Dr. Middleton, followed,
all silent, for the Rev. Doctor was ostensibly pondering; and Willo-
ughby was damped a little when he unlocked his mouth to say:

"And yet I have not observed that Colonel de Craye is anything of a
Celtiberian Egnatius meriting fustigation for an untimely display of
well-whitened teeth, sir: 'quicquid est, ubicunque est, quodcunque
agit, renidet:':--ha? a morbus neither charming nor urbane to the
general eye, however consolatory to the actor.
9 But this gentleman
does not offend so, or I am so strangely prepossessed in his favour
as to be an incompetent witness."


Dr Middleton's persistent ha? eh? upon an honest frown of inquiry
plucked an answer out of Willoughby that was meant to be
humourously scornful, and soon became apologetic under the Doctor's
interrogatively grasping gaze.

"These Irishmen," Willoughby said, "will play the professional jester
as if it were an office they were born to. We must play critic now
and then, otherwise we should have them deluging us with their Joe
Millerisms."10

"With their O'Millerisms you would say, perhaps?"

Willoughby did his duty to the joke, but the Rev. Doctor, though he
wore the paternal smile of a man that has begotten hilarity, was not
perfectly propitiated, and pursued: "Nor to my apprehension is 'the
man's laugh the comment on his wit' unchallengeably new: instances of
cousinship germane to the phrase will recur to you. But it has to be
noted that it was a phrase of assault; it was ostentatiously battery;
and I would venture to remind you, friend, that among the elect, con-
sidering that it is as fatally facile to spring the laugh upon a man as
to deprive him of his life, considering that we have only to condescend
to the weapon, and that the more popular necessarily the more murderous
that weapon is,--among the elect, to which it is your distinction to
aspire to belong, the rule holds to abstain from any employment of the
obvious, the percoct, and likewise, for your own sake, from the epi-
tonic,
11 the overstrained; for if the former, by readily assimilating
with the understandings of your audience, are empowered to commit
assassination on your victim, the latter come under the charge of
unseemliness, inasmuch as they are a description of public suicide.
Assuming, then, manslaughter to be your pastime, and hari-kari not
to be your bent, the phrase, to escape criminality, must rise in
you as you would have it fall on him, ex improviso.
12 Am I right?"

"I am in the habit of thinking it impossible, sir, that you can be
in error," said Willoughby.

Dr Middleton left it the more emphatic by saying nothing further.
Both his daughter and Miss Dale, who had disapproved the waspish
snap at Colonel De Craye, were in wonderment of the art of speech
which could so soothingly inform a gentleman that his behaviour had
not been gentlemanly.

Willoughby was damped by what he comprehended of it for a few
minutes. In proportion as he realized an evening with his ancient
admirers he was restored, and he began to marvel greatly at his folly
in not giving banquets and Balls, instead of making a solitude about
himself and his bride.
For solitude, thought he, is good for the man,
the man being a creature consumed by passion; woman's love, on the
contrary, will only be nourished by the reflex light she catches of
you in the eyes of others, she having no passion of her own, but simp-
ly aninstinct driving her to attach herself to whatsoever is most
largely admired, most shining.
So thinking, he determined to change his
course of conduct, and he was happier. In the first gush of our wisdom
drawn directly from experience there is a mental intoxication that
cancels the old world and establishes a new one, not allowing us to ask
whether it is too late.



CHAPTER 30. Treating of the Dinner-Party at Mrs. Mountstuart Jenkinson's



Vernon and young Crossjay had tolerably steady work together for a
couple of hours, varied by the arrival of a plate of meat on a tray for
the master, and some interrogations put to him from time to time by
the boy in reference to Miss Middleton.
Crossjay made the discovery
that if he abstained from alluding to Miss Middleton's beauty he might
water his dusty path with her name nearly as much as he liked.

Mention of her beauty incurred a reprimand. On the first occasion his
master was wistful.
"Isn't she glorious!" Crossjay fancied he had
started a sovereign receipt for blessed deviations.
He tried it again, but
paedagogue-thunder broke over his head.

"Yes, only I can't understand what she means, Mr. Whitford," he
excused himself "First I was not to tell; I know I wasn't, because she
said so; she quite as good as said so. Her last words were: 'Mind,
Crossjay, you know nothing about me', when I stuck to
that beast of a
tramp, who's a 'walking moral,' and gets money out of people by
snuffling it."


"Attend to your lesson, or you'll be one," said Vernon.


"Yes, but, Mr. Whitford, now I am to tell. I'm to answer straight out to
every question."

"Miss Middleton is anxious that you should be truthful."

"Yes; but in the morning she told me not to tell."

"She was in a hurry. She has it on her conscience that you may have
misunderstood her, and she wishes you never to be guilty of an
untruth, least of all on her account."

Crossjay committed an unspoken resolution to the air in a violent sigh:

"Ah!" and said: "If I were sure!"

"Do as she bids you, my boy."

"But I don't know what it is she wants."

"Hold to her last words to you."

"So I do. If she told me to run till I dropped, on I'd go."

"She told you to study your lessons; do that."

Crossjay buckled to his book, invigorated by an imagination of his liege
lady on the page.

After a studious interval, until the impression of his lady had subsided,
he resumed: "She's so funny. She's just like a girl, and then she's a lady,
too. She's my idea of a princess. And Colonel De Craye! Wasn't he taught
dancing! When he says something funny he ducks and seems to be set-
ting to his partner. I should like to be as clever as her father. That
is a clever man. I dare say Colonel De Craye will dance with her
tonight. I wish I was there."

"It's a dinner-party, not a dance," Vernon forced himself to say, to
dispel that ugly vision.


"Isn't it, sir? I thought they danced after dinner-parties, Mr.
Whitford, have you ever seen her run?"

Vernon pointed him to his task.

They were silent for a lengthened period.

"But does Miss Middleton mean me to speak out if Sir Willoughby asks
me?" said Crossjay.

"Certainly. You needn't make much of it. All's plain and simple."

"But I'm positive, Mr. Whitford, he wasn't to hear of her going to the
post-office with me before breakfast. And how did Colonel De Craye find
her and bring her back, with that old Flitch? He's a man and can go
where he pleases, and I'd have found her, too, give me the chance. You
know. I'm fond of Miss Dale, but she--I'm very fond of her--but you
can't think she's a girl as well. And about Miss Dale, when she says a
thing, there it is, clear. But Miss Middleton has a lot of meanings.
Never mind; I go by what's inside, and I'm pretty sure to please her."

"Take your chin off your hand and your elbow off the book, and fix
yourself," said Vernon,
wrestling with the seduction of Crossjay's
idolatry, for Miss Middleton's appearance had been preternaturally
sweet on her departure, and the next pleasure to seeing her was
hearing of her from the lips of this passionate young poet.

"Remember that you please her by speaking truth," Vernon added, and
laid himself open to questions upon the truth, by which he learnt, with
a perplexed sense of envy and sympathy, that the boy's idea of truth
strongly approximated to his conception of what should be agreeable
to Miss Middleton.

He was lonely, bereft of the bard, when he had tucked Crossjay up in
his bed and left him. Books he could not read; thoughts were disturb-
ing. A seat in the library and a stupid stare helped to pass the hours,
and
but for the spot of sadness moving meditation in spite of his ef-
fort to stun himself, he would have borne a happy resemblance to an
idiot in the sun.
He had verily no command of his reason. She was too
beautiful!
Whatever she did was best. That was the refrain1 of the
fountain-song in him; the burden being her whims, variations, incon-
sistencies, wiles; her tremblings between good and naughty, that
might be stamped to noble or to terrible; her sincereness, her du-
plicity, her courage, cowardice, possibilities for heroism and for
treachery. By dint of dwelling on the theme, he magnified the young
lady to extraordinary stature. And he had sense enough to own that
her character was yet liquid in the mould,
and that she was a creature
of only naturally youthful wildness provoked to freakishness by the
ordeal of a situation shrewd as any that can happen to her sex in
civilized life. But he was compelled to think of her extravagantly, and
he leaned a little to the discrediting of her, because
her actual image
ummanned him and was unbearable;
and to say at the end of it: "She is
too beautiful! whatever she does is best," smoothed away the wrong
he did her. Had it been in his power he would have thought of her in
the abstract--the stage contiguous to that which he adopted: but the
attempt was luckless; the Stagyrite
2 would have faded in it. What
philosopher could have set down that face of sun and breeze and
nymph in shadow as a point in a problem?


The library door was opened at midnight by Miss Dale. She dosed it
quietly. "You are not working, Mr. Whitford? I fancied you would wish
to hear of the evening. Professor Crooklyn arrived after all! Mrs.
Mountstuart is bewildered: she says she expected you, and that you
did not excuse yourself to her, and she cannot comprehend, et caetera.
That is to say, she chooses bewilderment to indulge in the exclama-
tory. She must be very much annoyed. The professor did come by the
train she drove to meet!"

"I thought it probable," said Vernon.

"He had to remain a couple of hours at the Railway Inn; no conveyance
was to be found for him. He thinks he has caught a cold, and cannot
stifle his fretfulness about it. He may be as learned as Doctor Midd-
leton; he has not the same happy constitution. Nothing more unfor-
tunate could have occurred;
he spoilt the party. Mrs. Mountstuart
tried petting him, which drew attention to him, and put us all in his
key for several awkward minutes, more than once. She lost her head;
she was unlike herself I may be presumptuous in criticizing her, but
should not the president of a dinner-table treat it like a battlefield,
and let the guest that sinks descend, and not allow the voice of a dis-
cordant, however illustrious, to rule it?
Of course, it is when I see
failures that I fancy I could manage so well: comparison is prudently
reserved in the other cases. I am a daring critic, no doubt, because I
know I shall never be tried by experiment. I have no ambition to be
tried."

She did not notice a smile of Vernon's, and continued: "Mrs Mount-
stuart gave him the lead upon any subject he chose. I thought the
professor never would have ceased talking of a young lady who had
been at the inn before him drinking hot brandy and water with a
gentleman!"

"How did he hear of that?" cried Vernon,
roused by the malignity of
the Fates.


"From the landlady, trying to comfort him. And a story of her lending
shoes and stockings while those of the young lady were drying.
He has
the dreadful snappish humourous way of recounting which impresses
it;
the table took up the subject of this remarkable young lady, and
whether she was a lady of the neighbourhood, and who she could be
that went abroad on foot in heavy rain. It was painful to me; I knew
enough to be sure of who she was."

"Did she betray it?"

"No."

"Did Willoughby look at her?"

"Without suspicion then."

"Then?"

"Colonel De Craye was diverting us, and he was very amusing. Mrs.
Mountstuart told him afterward that he ought to be paid salvage for
saving the wreck of her party.
Sir Willoughby was a little too cynical;
he talked well; what he said was good, but it was not good-humoured;
he has not the reckless indifference of Colonel De Craye to uttering
nonsense that amusement may come of it
. And in the drawing-room he
lost such gaiety as he had. I was close to Mrs. Mountstuart when
Professor Crooklyn approached her and spoke in my hearing of that
gentleman and that young lady. They were, you could see by his nods,
Colonel De Craye and Miss Middleton."

"And she at once mentioned it to Willoughby?"

"Colonel De Craye gave her no chance, if she sought it. He courted her
profusely.
Behind his rattle he must have brains. It ran in all direc-
tions to entertain her and her circle."


"Willoughby knows nothing?"

"I cannot judge. He stood with Mrs. Mountstuart a minute as we were
taking leave. She looked strange. I heard her say: 'The rogue!' He
laughed. She lifted her shoulders. He scarcely opened his mouth on
the way home."

"The thing must run its course," Vernon said, with the philosophical
air which is desperation rendered decorous. "Willoughby deserves it.

A man of full growth ought to know that nothing on earth tempts Prov-
idence so much as the binding of a young woman against her will. Those
two are mutually attracted: they're both . . . They meet, and the mis-
chief's done: both are bright. He can persuade with a word. Another
might discourse like an angel and it would be useless. I said ever-
ything I could think of, to no purpose. And so it is: there are those
attractions!--just as, with her, Willoughby is the reverse, he repels.
I'm in about the same predicament--or should be if she were plighted to
me. That is, for the length of five minutes; about the space of time I
should require for the formality of handing her back her freedom. How
a sane man can imagine a girl like that . . . ! But if she has changed,
she has changed!
You can't conciliate a withered affection. This detain-
ing her, and tricking, and not listening, only increases her aversion;
she learns the art in turn.
Here she is, detained by fresh plots to keep
Dr. Middleton at the Hall. That's true, is it not?" He saw that it was.
"No, she's not to blame! She has told him her mind; he won't listen. The
question then is, whether she keeps to her word, or breaks it. It's a
dispute between a conventional idea of obligation and an injury to her
nature. Which is the more dishonourable thing to do?
Why, you and I
see in a moment that her feelings guide her best. It's one of the few
cases in which nature may be consulted like an oracle."

"Is she so sure of her nature?" said Miss Dale.

"You may doubt it; I do not. I am surprised at her coming back. De
Craye is a man of the world, and advised it, I suppose. He--well, I
never had the persuasive tongue, and my failing doesn't count for
much."

"But the suddenness of the intimacy!"

"The disaster is rather famous 'at first sight'.
3 He came in a fortunate
hour . . . for him. A pigmy's a giant if he can manage to arrive in sea-
son. Did you not notice that there was danger, at their second or third
glance? You counselled me to hang on here, where
the amount of good I
do in proportion to what I have to endure is microscopic."


"It was against your wishes, I know," said Laetitia, and when the words
were out she feared that they were tentative. Her delicacy shrank from
even seeming to sound him in relation to a situation so delicate as Miss
Middleton's.

The same sentiment guarded him from betraying himself, and he said:
"Partly against. We both foresaw the possible--because, like most
prophets, we knew a little more of circumstances enabling us to see
the fatal. A pigmy would have served, but De Craye is a handsome,
intelligent, pleasant fellow."


"Sir Willoughby's friend!"

"Well, in these affairs! A great deal must be charged on the goddess."

"That is really Pagan fatalism!"

"Our modern word for it is Nature. Science condescends to speak of
natural selection. Look at these! They are both graceful and winning
and witty, bright to mind and eye, made for one another, as country
people say.
I can't blame him. Besides, we don't know that he's guilty.
We're quite in the dark, except that we're certain how it must end.
If the chance should occur to you of giving Willoughby a word of cou-
nsel--it may--you might, without irritating him as my knowledge of his
plight does, hint at your eyes being open.
His insane dread of a de-
tective world makes him artificially blind. As soon as he fancies him-
self seen, he sets to work spinning a web, and he discerns nothing else.
It's generally a clever kind of web; but if it's a tangle to others it's
the same to him, and a veil as well.
He is preparing the catastrophe, he
forces the issue. Tell him of her extreme desire to depart. Treat her as
mad, to soothe him. Otherwise one morning he will wake a second time
. . . ! It is perfectly certain. And the second time it will be entirely
his own fault. Inspire him with some philosophy."


"I have none."

"I if I thought so, I would say you have better.
There are two kinds
of philosophy, mine and yours. Mine comes of coldness, yours of
devotion."


"He is unlikely to choose me for his confidante."


Vernon meditated. "One can never quite guess what he will do, from
never knowing the heat of the centre in him which precipitates his
actions: he has a great art of concealment. As to me, as you perceive,
my views are too philosophical to let me be of use to any of them. I
blame only the one who holds to the bond. The sooner I am gone!--in
fact, I cannot stay on. So Dr. Middleton and the Professor did not
strike fire together?"

"Doctor Middleton was ready, and pursued him, but
Professor Crook-
lyn insisted on shivering. His line of blank verse, 'A Railway
platform and a Railway inn!' became pathetic in repetition.
He must
have suffered."


"Somebody has to!"

"Why the innocent?"

"He arrives a propos.4 But remember that Fridolin sometimes contrives
to escape and have the guilty scorched.
The Professor would not have
suffered if he had missed his train, as he appears to be in the habit
of doing. Thus his unaccustomed good-fortune was the cause of his bad."


"You saw him on the platform?"

"I am unacquainted with the professor. I had to get Mrs Mountstuart
out of the way."

"She says she described him to you. 'Complexion of a sweetbread, con-
sistency of a quenelle,
5 grey, and like a Saint without his dish behind
the head.'"


"Her descriptions are strikingly accurate, but she forgot to sketch
his back, and all that I saw was a narrow sloping back and a broad hat
resting the brim on it. My report to her spoke of an old gentleman of
dark complexion, as the only traveller on the platform.
She has faith in
the efficiency of her descriptive powers, and so she was willing to
drive off immediately. The intention was a start to London. Colonel De
Craye came up and effected in five minutes what I could not compass
in thirty."6

"But you saw Colonel De Craye pass you?"

"My work was done; I should have been an intruder. Besides I was acting
wet jacket
7 with Mrs. Mountstuart to get her to drive off fast, or she
might have jumped out in search of her Professor herself."

"She says you were lean as a fork, with the wind whistling through the
prongs."


"You see how easy it is to deceive one who is an artist in phrases.
Avoid them, Miss Dale; they dazzle the penetration of the composer.
That is why people of ability like Mrs Mountstuart see so little; they
are so bent on describing brilliantly. However, she is kind and char-
itable at heart. I have been considering to-night that, to cut this
knot as it is now, Miss Middleton might do worse than speak straight
out to Mrs. Mountstuart. No one else would have such influence with
Willoughby. The simple fact of Mrs. Mountstuart's knowing of it would
be almost enough.
But courage would be required for that. Good-night,
Miss Dale."

"Good-night, Mr. Whitford. You pardon me for disturbing you?"

Vernon pressed her hand reassuringly. He had but to look at her and
review her history to think his cousin Willoughby punished by just
retribution. Indeed, for any maltreatment of the dear boy Love by
man or by woman, coming under your cognizance, you, if you be of
common soundness, shall behold the retributive blow struck in your
time.

Miss Dale retired thinking how like she and Vernon were to one an-
other in the toneless condition they had achieved through sorrow.
He succeeded in masking himself from her, owing to her awe of the
circumstances. She reproached herself for not having the same de-
votion to the cold idea of duty as he had;
and though it provoked
inquiry, she would not stop to ask why he had left Miss Middleton
a prey to the sparkling colonel. It seemed a proof of the philoso-
phy he preached.

As she was passing by young Crossjay's bedroom door a face appeared.
Sir Willoughby slowly emerged and presented himself in his full
length, beseeching her to banish alarm.

He said it in a hushed voice, with a face qualified to create sentiment.

"Are you tired? sleepy?" said he.

She protested that she was not: she intended to read for an hour.

He begged to have the hour dedicated to him. "I shall be relieved by
conversing with a friend."

No subterfuge crossed her mind; she thought his midnight visit to the
boy's bedside a pretty feature in him; she was full of pity, too; she
yielded to the strange request, feeling that it did not become "an old
woman" to attach importance even to the public discovery of midnight
interviews involving herself as one, and feeling also that she was being
treated as an old friend in the form of a very old woman. Her mind was
bent on arresting any recurrence to the project she had so frequently
outlined in the tongue of innuendo, of which, because of her repeated
tremblings under it, she thought him a master.
8

He conducted her along the corridor to the private sitting-room of the
ladies Eleanor and Isabel.

"Deceit!" he said, while lighting the candles on the mantelpiece.
She was earnestly compassionate, and a word that could not relate to
her personal destinies refreshed her by displacing her apprehensive
antagonism and giving pity free play.




CHAPTER 31. Sir Willoughby Attempts and Achieves Pathos



Both were seated. Apparently he would have preferred to watch her
dark downcast eyelashes in silence under sanction of his air of
abstract meditation and the melancholy superinducing it. Blood-colour
was in her cheeks; the party had inspirited her features. Might it be
that lively company, an absence of economical solicitudes, and a
flourishing home were all she required to make her bloom again? The
supposition was not hazardous in presence of her heightened
complexion.


She raised her eyes. He could not meet her look without speaking.
"Can you forgive deceit?"

"It would be to boast of more charity than I know myself to possess,
were I to say that I can, Sir Willoughby. I hope I am able to forgive.
I cannot tell. I should like to say yes."

"Could you live with the deceiver?"

"No."

"No. I could have given that answer for you. No semblance of union
should be maintained between the deceiver and ourselves. Laetitia!"

"Sir Willoughby?"

"Have I no right to your name?"

"If it pleases you to . . ."

"I speak as my thoughts run, and they did not know a Miss Dale so well
as a dear Laetitia: my truest friend! You have talked with Clara
Middleton?"

"We had a conversation."

Her brevity affrighted him. He flew off in a cloud.


"Reverting to that question of deceivers: is it not your opinion that
to pardon, to condone, is to corrupt society by passing off as pure what
is false? Do we not," he wore the smile of haggard playfulness of a
convalescent child the first day back to its toys, "Laetitia, do we not
impose a counterfeit on the currency?"


"Supposing it to be really deception."

"Apart from my loathing of deception, of falseness in any shape, upon
any grounds, I hold it an imperious duty to expose, punish, off with it.
I take it to be one of the forms of noxiousness which a good citizen is
bound to extirpate.
I am not myself good citizen enough, I confess, for
much more than passive abhorrence. I do not forgive: I am at heart
serious and I cannot forgive:--
there is no possible reconciliation,
there can be only an ostensible truce, between the two hostile powers
dividing this world."


She glanced at him quickly.

"Good and evil!" he said.

Her face expressed a surprise relapsing on the heart.

He spelt the puckers of her forehead to mean that she feared he might
be speaking unchristianly.

"You will find it so in all religions, my dear Laetitia: the Hindoo,
the Persian, ours. It is universal; an experience of our humanity. Deceit
and sincerity cannot live together. Truth must kill the lie, or the lie
will kill truth. I do not forgive.
All I say to the person is, go!"

"But that is right! that is generous!" exclaimed Laetitia, glad to approve
him for the sake of escaping her critical soul, and relieved by the idea
of Clara's difficulty solved.

"Capable of generosity, perhaps," he mused, aloud.


She wounded him by not supplying the expected enthusiastic
asseveration of her belief in his general tendency to magnanimity.

He said, after a pause: "But the world is not likely to be impressed by
anything not immediately gratifying it. People change, I find: as we
increase in years we cease to be the heroes we were. I myself am
insensible to change: I do not admit the charge. Except in this we will
say: personal ambition. I have it no more. And what is it when we have
it? Decidedly a confession of inferiority! That is, the desire to be
distinguished is an acknowledgement of insufficiency. But I have still
the craving for my dearest friends to think well of me. A weakness?
Call it so. Not a dishonourable weakness!"

Laetitia racked her brain for the connection of his present speech with
the preceding dialogue. She was baffled, from not knowing "the heat of
the centre in him", as Vernon opaquely phrased it in charity to the
object of her worship.


"Well," said he, unappeased, "and besides the passion to excel, I have
changed somewhat in the heartiness of my thirst for the amusements
incident to my station. I do not care to keep a stud--I was once
tempted: nor hounds. And I can remember the day when I determined
to have the best kennels and the best breed of horses in the kingdom.
Puerile! What is distinction of that sort, or of any acquisition and
accomplishment?
We ask! one's self is not the greater. To seek it, owns
to our smallness, in real fact; and when it is attained, what then? My
horses are good, they are admired, I challenge the county to surpass
them: well? These are but my horses; the praise is of the animals, not
of me. I decline to share in it. Yet I know men content to swallow the
praise of their beasts and be semi-equine.
The littleness of one's
fellows in the mob of life is a very strange experience! One may regret
to have lost the simplicity of one's forefathers, which could accept
those and other distinctions with a cordial pleasure, not to say pride.
As, for instance,
I am, as it is called, a dead shot. 'Give your
acclamations, gentlemen, to my ancestors, from whom I inherited a
steady hand and quick sight.' They do not touch me. Where I do not
find myself--that I am essentially I--no applause can move me. To
speak to you as I would speak to none, admiration--you know that in
my early youth I swam in flattery--I had to swim to avoid drowning!

--admiration of my personal gifts has grown tasteless. Changed,
therefore, inasmuch as there has been a growth of spirituality.
We are all in submission to mortal laws, and so far I have indeed
changed. I may add that it is unusual for country gentlemen to apply
themselves to scientific researches. These are, however, in the spi-
rit of the time.
I apprehended that instinctively when at College. I
forsook the classics for science. And thereby escaped the vice of
domineering self-sufficiency peculiar to classical men, of which you
had an amusing example in the carriage, on the way to Mrs. Mount-
stuart's this evening. Science is modest; slow, if you like; it deals
with facts, and having mastered them, it masters men; of necessity, not
with a stupid, loud-mouthed arrogance: words big and oddly garbed as
the Pope's body-guard.
1 Of course, one bows to the Infallible; we must,
when his giant-mercenaries level bayonets."

Sir Willoughby offered Miss Dale half a minute that she might in gentle
feminine fashion acquiesce in the implied reproof of Dr. Middleton's
behaviour to him during the drive to Mrs. Mountstuart's. She did not.

Her heart was accusing Clara of having done it a wrong and a hurt. For
while he talked he seemed to her to justify Clara's feelings and her
conduct: and her own reawakened sensations of injury came to the
surface a moment to look at him, affirming that they pardoned him,
and pitied, but hardly wondered.


The heat of the centre in him had administered the comfort he wanted,
though the conclusive accordant notes he loved on woman's lips, that
subservient harmony of another instrument desired of musicians
when they have done their solo-playing, came not to wind up the
performance: not a single bar. She did not speak.
Probably his Laetitia
was overcome, as he had long known her to be when they conversed;
nerve-subdued, unable to deploy her mental resources or her musical.
Yet ordinarily she had command of the latter.--Was she too
condoling? Did a reason exist for it? Had the impulsive and desperate
girl spoken out to Laetitia to the fullest?--shameless daughter of a
domineering sire that she was!
Ghastlier inquiry (it struck the centre
of him with a sounding ring), was Laetitia pitying him overmuch for
worse than the pain of a little difference between lovers--for treason
on the part of his bride? Did she know of a rival? know more than he?

When the centre of him was violently struck he was a genius in
penetration. He guessed that she did know: and by this was he
presently helped to achieve pathos.


"So my election was for Science," he continued; "and if it makes me,
as I fear, a rara avis
2 among country gentlemen, it unites me, puts
me in the main, I may say, in the only current of progress--a word
sufficiently despicable in their political jargon.
--You enjoyed your
evening at Mrs. Mountstuart's?"

"Very greatly."

"She brings her Professor to dine here the day after tomorrow. Does it
astonish you? You started."

"I did not hear the invitation."

"It was arranged at the table: you and I were separated--cruelly, I
told her: she declared that we see enough of one another, and that it
was good for me that we should be separated; neither of which is true.
I may not have known what is the best for me: I do know what is good.
If in my younger days I egregiously erred, that, taken of itself alone,
is, assuming me to have sense and feeling, the surer proof of present
wisdom. I can testify in person that wisdom is pain. If pain is to add
to wisdom, let me suffer! Do you approve of that, Laetitia?"

"It is well said."

"It is felt. Those who themselves have suffered should know the
benefit of the resolution."

"One may have suffered so much as to wish only for peace."

"True: but you! have you?"

"It would be for peace, if I prayed for any earthly gift."

Sir Willoughby dropped a smile on her. "I mentioned the Pope's parti-
coloured body-guard just now. In my youth their singular attire
impressed me. People tell me they have been re-uniformed: I am sorry.
They remain one of my liveliest recollections of the Eternal City. They
affected my sense of humour, always alert in me, as you are aware. We
English have humour. It is the first thing struck in us when we land on
the Continent: our risible faculties are generally active all through the
tour. Humour, or the clash of sense with novel examples of the absurd,
is our characteristic. I do not condescend to boisterous displays of it.
I observe, and note the people's comicalities for my correspondence.
But you have read my letters--most of them, if not all?"

"Many of them."

"I was with you then!--I was about to say--that Swiss-guard reminded
me--you have not been in Italy. I have constantly regretted it. You
are the very woman, you have the soul for Italy. I know no other of
whom I could say it, with whom I should not feel that she was out of
place, discordant with me.
Italy and Laetitia! often have I joined you
together. We shall see. I begin to have hopes. Here you have literally
stagnated. Why, a dinner-party refreshes you! What would not travel
do, and that heavenly climate! You are a reader of history and poetry.
Well, poetry! I never yet saw the poetry that expressed the tenth part
of what I feel in the presence of beauty and magnificence, and when I
really meditate--profoundly. Call me a positive mind. I feel: only I
feel too intensely for poetry. By the nature of it, poetry cannot be
sincere. I will have sincerity. Whatever touches our emotions should be
spontaneous, not a craft. I know you are in favour of poetry. You would
win me, if any one could. But history! there I am with you. Walking
over ruins: at night: the arches of the solemn black amphitheatre
pouring moonlight on us--the moonlight of Italy!"

"You would not laugh there, Sir Willoughby?" said Laetitia, rousing
herself from a stupor of apprehensive amazement, to utter something
and realize actual circumstances.


"Besides, you, I think, or I am mistaken in you"--he deviated from his
projected speech--"you are not a victim of the sense of association
and the ludicrous."

"I can understand the influence of it: I have at least a conception of
the humourous, but ridicule would not strike me in the Coliseum of Rome.
I could not bear it, no, Sir Willoughby!"

She appeared to be taking him in very strong earnest, by thus petition-
ing him not to laugh in the Coliseum, and now he said: "Besides, you
are one who could accommodate yourself to the society of the ladies,
my aunts. Good women, Laetitia! I cannot imagine them de trop
3 in Italy,
or in a household. I have of course reason to be partial in my judgement."

"They are excellent and most amiable ladies; I love them," said Laetitia,
fervently; the more strongly excited to fervour by her enlightenment
as to his drift.

She read it that he designed to take her to Italy with the ladies:--after
giving Miss Middleton her liberty; that was necessarily implied. And
that was truly generous. In his boyhood he had been famous for his
bountifulness in scattering silver and gold. Might he not have caused
himself to be misperused in later life?

Clara had spoken to her of the visit and mission of the ladies to the
library: and Laetitia daringly conceived herself to be on the certain
track of his meaning, she being able to enjoy their society as she
supposed him to consider that Miss Middleton did not, and would not
either abroad or at home.


Sir Willoughby asked her: "You could travel with them?"

"Indeed I could!"

"Honestly?"

"As affirmatively as one may protest. Delightedly."

"Agreed. It is an undertaking." He put his hand out.

"Whether I be of the party or not! To Italy, Laetitia! It would give me
pleasure to be with you, and it will, if I must be excluded, to think of
you in Italy."

His hand was out. She had to feign inattention or yield her own. She
had not the effrontery to pretend not to see, and she yielded it.
He
pressed it, and whenever it shrunk a quarter inch to withdraw, he
shook it up and down, as an instrument that had been lent him for due
emphasis to his remarks. And very emphatic an amorous orator can
make it upon a captive lady.


"I am unable to speak decisively on that or any subject. I am, I think
you once quoted, 'tossed like a weed on the ocean.'
4 Of myself I can
speak: I cannot speak for a second person. I am infinitely harassed. If
I could cry, 'To Italy tomorrow!' Ah! . . . Do not set me down for
complaining. I know the lot of man.
But, Laetitia, deceit! deceit! It
is a bad taste in the mouth. It sickens us of humanity. I compare it to
an earthquake: we lose all our reliance on the solidity of the world. It
is a betrayal not simply of the person; it is a betrayal of humankind. My
friend! Constant friend! No, I will not despair. Yes, I have faults; I
will remember them. Only, forgiveness is another question. Yes, the in-
jury I can forgive; the falseness never. In the interests of humanity,
no. So young, and such deceit!"

Laetitia's bosom rose: her hand was detained: a lady who has yielded
it cannot wrestle to have it back; those outworks which protect her
treacherously shelter the enemy aiming at the citadel when he has
taken them. In return for the silken armour bestowed on her by our
civilization, it is exacted that she be soft and civil nigh up to
perishingpoint.
She breathed tremulously high, saying on her top-
breath: "If it--it may not be so; it can scarcely. . ." A deep sigh
intervened. It saddened her that she knew so much.


"For when I love I love," said Sir Willoughby; "my friends and my
servants know that. There can be no medium: not with me. I give all,
I claim all. As I am absorbed, so must I absorb. We both cancel and
create, we extinguish and we illumine one another. The error may be
in the choice of an object: it is not in the passion. Perfect confi-
dence, perfect abandonment.
I repeat, I claim it because I give it.
The selfishness of love may be denounced: it is a part of us. My answer
would be, it is an element only of the noblest of us! Love, Laetitia! I
speak of love. But one who breaks faith to drag us through the mire,
who betrays, betrays and hands us over to the world, whose prey we
become identically because of virtues we were educated to think it a
blessing to possess: tell me the name for that!--
Again, it has ever
been a principle with me to respect the sex. But if we see women false,
treacherous . . . Why indulge in these abstract views, you would ask!
The world presses them on us, full as it is of the vilest specimens.
They seek to pluck up every rooted principle: they sneer at our worship:
they rob us of our religion.
This bitter experience of the world drives
us back to the antidote of what we knew before we plunged into it: of
one . . . of something we esteemed and still esteem. Is that antidote
strong enough to expel the poison? I hope so! I believe so! To lose
faith in womankind is terrible."


He studied her. She looked distressed: she was not moved.

She was thinking that, with the exception of a strain of haughtiness,
he talked excellently to men, at least in the tone of the things he
meant to say; but that his manner of talking to women went to an excess
in the artificial tongue--the tutored tongue of sentimental deference
of the towering male: he fluted exceedingly; and she wondered whether
it was this which had wrecked him with Miss Middleton.


His intuitive sagacity counselled him to strive for pathos to move her.
It was a task; for while he perceived her to be not ignorant of his
plight, he doubted her knowing the extent of it, and
as his desire was
merely to move her without an exposure of himself, he had to compass
being pathetic as it were under the impediments of a mailed and
gauntletted knight, who cannot easily heave the bosom, or show it
heaving.

Moreover, pathos is a tide: often it carries the awakener of it off
his feet, and whirls him over and over armour and all in ignominious
attitudes of helpless prostration, whereof he may well be ashamed in
the retrospect. We cannot quite preserve our dignity when we stoop to
the work of calling forth tears. Moses had probably to take a nimble
jump away from the rock after that venerable Law-giver had knocked
the water out of it.
5

However, it was imperative in his mind that he should be sure he had
the power to move her.

He began; clumsily at first, as yonder gauntletted knight attempting
the briny handkerchief.

"What are we! We last but a very short time. Why not live to gratify
our appetites? I might really ask myself why. All the means of sat-
iating them are at my disposal. But no: I must aim at the highest:--
at that which in my blindness I took for the highest. You know the
sportsman's instinct, Laetitia; he is not tempted by the stationary
object. Such are we in youth, toying with happiness, leaving it, to
aim at the dazzling and attractive."

"We gain knowledge," said Laetitia.

"At what a cost!"

The exclamation summoned self-pity to his aid, and pathos was handy.

"By paying half our lives for it and all our hopes! Yes, we gain
knowledge, we are the wiser; very probably my value surpasses now
what it was when I was happier.
But the loss! That youthful bloom of
the soul is like health to the body; once gone, it leaves cripples behind.
Nay, my friend and precious friend, these four fingers I must retain.
They seem to me the residue of a wreck:
you shall be released shortly:
absolutely, Laetitia, I have nothing else remaining--We have spoken of
deception; what of being undeceived?--when one whom we adored is
laid bare, and the wretched consolation of a worthy object is denied to
us. No misfortune can be like that. Were it death, we could worship
still. Death would be preferable.
But may you be spared to know a
situation in which the comparison with your inferior is forced on you
to your disadvantage and your loss because of your generously giving
up your whole heart to the custody of some shallow, light-minded,
self--! .
. . We will not deal in epithets. If I were to find as many
bad names for the serpent as there are spots on his body, it would be
serpent still, neither better nor worse.
The loneliness! And the dark-
ness! Our luminary is extinguished. Self-respect refuses to continue
worshipping, but the affection will not be turned aside. We are lit-
erally in the dust, we grovel, we would fling away self-respect if
we could;
we would adopt for a model the creature preferred to us; we
would humiliate, degrade ourselves; we cry for justice as if it were
for pardon . . ."


"For pardon! when we are straining to grant it!" Laetitia murmured,
and it was as much as she could do. She remembered how in her old
misery her efforts after charity had twisted her round to feel herself
the sinner, and beg forgiveness in prayer: a noble sentiment, that filled
her with pity of the bosom in which it had sprung. There was no
similarity between his idea and hers, but her idea had certainly been
roused by his word "pardon", and he had the benefit of it in the
moisture of her eyes. Her lips trembled, tears fell.

He had heard something; he had not caught the words, but they were
manifestly favourable; her sign of emotion assured him of it and of
the success he had sought.
There was one woman who bowed to him to all
eternity! He had inspired one woman with the mysterious, mandesired
passion of self-abandonment, self-immolation!
The evidence was before
him. At any instant he could, if he pleased, fly to her and command
her enthusiasm.


He had, in fact, perhaps by sympathetic action, succeeded in striking
the same springs of pathos in her which animated his lively endeavour
to produce it in himself.

He kissed her hand; then released it, quitting his chair to bend above
her soothingly.

"Do not weep, Laetitia, you see that I do not; I can smile. Help me to
bear it; you must not unman me."

She tried to stop her crying, but self-pity threatened to rain all her long
years of grief on her head, and she said: "I must go . . . I am unfit . . .
good-night, Sir Willoughby."

Fearing seriously that he had sunk his pride too low in her consider-
ation, and had been carried farther than he intended on the tide of
pathos, he remarked: "We will speak about Crossjay to-morrow. His
deceitfulness has been gross.
6 As I said, I am grievously offended by
deception. But you are tired. Good-night, my dear friend."


"Good-night, Sir Willoughby."

She was allowed to go forth.

Colonel De Craye coming up from the smoking-room, met her and
noticed the state of her eyelids, as he wished her goodnight. He saw
Willoughby in the room she had quitted, but considerately passed
without speaking, and without reflecting why he was considerate.

Our hero's review of the scene made him, on the whole, satisfied with
his part in it. Of his power upon one woman he was now perfectly
sure:--Clara had agonized him with a doubt of his personal mastery of
any. One was a poor feast, but the pangs of his flesh during the last few
days and the latest hours caused him to snatch at it, hungrily if
contemptuously. A poor feast, she was yet a fortress, a point of
succour, both shield and lance; a cover and an impetus. He could now
encounter Clara boldly. Should she resist and defy him, he would not
be naked and alone; he foresaw that he might win honour in the
world's eye from his position--a matter to be thought of only in most
urgent need. The effect on him of his recent exercise in pathos was to
compose him to slumber. He was for the period well satisfied.

His attendant imps were well satisfied likewise, and danced around
about his bed
after the vigilant gentleman had ceased to debate on the
question of his unveiling of himself past forgiveness of her to Laetitia,
and had surrendered to sleep the present direction of his affairs.




CHAPTER 32. Laetitia Dale Discovers a Spiritual Change and Dr Middleton a Physical



Clara tripped over the lawn in the early morning to Laetitia to greet
her. She broke away from a colloquy with Colonel De Craye under Sir
Willoughby's windows. The colonel had been one of the bathers, and
he stood like a circus-driver flicking a wet towel at Crossjay capering.

"My dear, I am very unhappy!" said Clara.

"My dear, I bring you news," Laetitia replied.

"Tell me. But the poor boy is to be expelled! He burst into Crossjay's
bedroom last night and dragged the sleeping boy out of bed to
question him, and he had the truth.
1 That is one comfort: only Crossjay
is to be driven from the Hall, because he was untruthful previously--
for me; to serve me; really, I feel it was at my command. Crossjay will
be out of the way to-day, and has promised to come back at night to try
to be forgiven. You must help me, Laetitia."

"You are free, Clara! If you desire it, you have but to ask for your
freedom."

"You mean . . ."

"He will release you."

"You are sure?"

"We had a long conversation last night."

"I owe it to you?"

"Nothing is owing to me. He volunteered it."

Clara made as if to lift her eyes in apostrophe. "Professor Crooklyn!
2
Professor Crooklyn! I see. I did not guess that."


"Give credit for some generosity, Clara; you are unjust!"

"By and by: I will be more than just by and by. I will practise on the
trumpet: I will lecture on the greatness of the souls of men when we
know them thoroughly. At present we do but half know them, and we are
unjust.
You are not deceived, Laetitia? There is to be no speaking to
papa? no delusions? You have agitated me. I feel myself a very small
person indeed. I feel I can understand those who admire him. He gives
me back my word simply? clearly? without--Oh, that long wrangle in
scenes and letters? And it will be arranged for papa and me to go not
later than to-morrow? Never shall I be able to explain to any one how I
fell into this! I am frightened at myself when I think of it. I take the
whole blame: I have been scandalous. And, dear Laetitia! you came out
so early in order to tell me?"

"I wished you to hear it."

"Take my heart."

"Present me with a part--but for good."

"Fie! But you have a right to say it."

"I mean no unkindness; but is not the heart you allude to an alarmingly
searching one?"


"Selfish it is, for I have been forgetting Crossjay. If we are going to be
generous, is not Crossjay to be forgiven? If it were only that the boy's
father is away fighting for his country, endangering his life day by day,
and for a stipend not enough to support his family, we are bound to
think of the boy! Poor dear silly lad! with his 'I say, Miss Middleton,
why wouldn't (some one) see my father when he came here to call on
him, and had to walk back ten miles in the rain?'--I could almost fancy
that did me mischief. . .
But we have a splendid morning after yester-
day's rain. And we will be generous. Own, Laetitia, that it is possible
to gild the most glorious day of creation."

"Doubtless the spirit may do it and make its hues permanent," said
Laetitia.

"You to me, I to you, he to us. Well, then, if he does, it shall be one
of my heavenly days. Which is for the probation of experience. We are
not yet at sunset."


"Have you seen Mr. Whitford this morning?"

"He passed me."

"Do not imagine him ever ill-tempered."

"I had a governess, a learned lady, who taught me in person the
picturesqueness of grumpiness. Her temper was ever perfect, because
she was never in the wrong, but I being so, she was grumpy. She
carried my iniquity under her brows, and looked out on me through
it. I was a trying child."

Laetitia said, laughing: "I can believe it!"

"Yet I liked her and she liked me: we were a kind of foreground and
background: she threw me into relief and I was an apology for her
existence."

"You picture her to me."


"She says of me now that I am the only creature she has loved. Who
knows that I may not come to say the same of her?"

"You would plague her and puzzle her still."

"Have I plagued and puzzled Mr. Whitford?"

"He reminds you of her?"

"You said you had her picture."

"Ah! do not laugh at him. He is a true friend."

"The man who can be a friend is the man who will presume to be a
censor."

"A mild one."

"As to the sentence he pronounces, I am unable to speak, but his
forehead is Rhadamanthine
3 condemnation."

"Dr Middleton!"

Clara looked round. "Who? I? Did you hear an echo of papa? He would
never have put Rhadamanthus over European souls, because it appears
that Rhadamanthus judged only the Asiatic; so you are wrong, Miss
Dale. My father is infatuated with Mr. Whitford.
What can it be?
We women cannot sound the depths of scholars, probably because their
pearls have no value in our market;
except when they deign to chasten
an impertinent; and Mr. Whitford stands aloof from any notice of small
fry. He is deep, studious, excellent; and does it not strike you that
if he descended among us he would be like a Triton ashore?"
4

Laetitia's habit of wholly subservient sweetness, which was her ideal
of the feminine, not yet conciliated with her acuter character, owing
to the absence of full pleasure from her life--the unhealed wound she
had sustained and the cramp of a bondage of such old date as to seem
iron--induced her to say, as if consenting: "You think he is not quite
at home in society?" But she wished to defend him strenuously, and as a
consequence she had to quit the self-imposed ideal of her daily acting,
whereby--the case being unwonted, very novel to her--the lady's intel-
ligence became confused through the process that quickened it; so
sovereign a method of hoodwinking our bright selves is the acting of a
part, however naturally it may come to us!
and to this will each honest
autobiographical member of the animated world bear witness.

She added: "You have not found him sympathetic? He is. You fancy him
brooding, gloomy? He is the reverse, he is cheerful, he is indifferent
to personal misfortune. Dr. Corney says there is no laugh like Vernon
Whitford's, and no humour like his. Latterly he certainly . . . But it
has not been your cruel word grumpiness. The truth is, he is anxious
about Crossjay: and about other things; and he wants to leave. He is
at a disadvantage beside very lively and careless gentlemen at present,
but
your 'Triton ashore' is unfair, it is ugly. He is, I can say, the truest
man I know."

"I did not question his goodness, Laetitia."

"You threw an accent on it."


"Did I? I must be like Crossjay, who declares he likes fun best."

"Crossjay ought to know him, if anybody should. Mr. Whitford has
defended you against me, Clara, even since I took to calling you Clara.
Perhaps when you supposed him so like your ancient governess, he
was meditating how he could aid you. Last night he gave me reasons
for thinking you would do wisely to confide in Mrs. Mountstuart. It is
no longer necessary. I merely mention it. He is a devoted friend."
"He is an untiring pedestrian."

"Oh!"


Colonel De Craye, after hovering near the ladies in the hope of seeing
them divide, now adopted the system of making three that two may
come of it.

As he joined them with his glittering chatter, Laetitia looked at Clara
to consult her, and saw the face rosy as a bride's.

The suspicion she had nursed sprung out of her arms a muscular fact
on the spot.


"Where is my dear boy?" Clara said.

"Out for a holiday," the colonel answered in her tone.


"Advise Mr. Whitford not to waste his time in searching for Crossjay,
Laetitia. Crossjay is better out of the way to-day. At least, I thought
so just now. Has he pocket-money, Colonel De Craye?"

"My lord can command his inn."

"How thoughtful you are!"

Laetitia's bosom swelled upon a mute exclamation, equivalent
to: "Woman! woman! snared ever by the sparkling and frivolous!
undiscerning of the faithful, the modest and beneficent!"

In the secret musings of moralists this dramatic rhetoric survives.


The comparison was all of her own making, and she was indignant at
the contrast, though to what end she was indignant she could not have
said, for she had no idea of Vernon as a rival of De Craye in the favour
of a plighted lady.
But she was jealous on behalf of her sex: her sex's
reputation seemed at stake, and the purity of it was menaced by
Clara's idle preference of the shallower man.
When the young lady
spoke so carelessly of being like Crossjay, she did not perhaps know
that a likeness, based on a similarity of their enthusiasms, loves, and
appetites, had been established between women and boys. Laetitia had
formerly chafed at it, rejecting it utterly, save when now and then in a
season of bitterness she handed here and there a volatile young lady
(none but the young) to be stamped with the degrading brand. Vernon
might be as philosophical as he pleased.
To her the gaiety of these two,
Colonel De Craye and Clara Middleton, was distressingly musical: they
harmonized painfully. The representative of her sex was hurt by it.


She had to stay beside them: Clara held her arm. The colonel's voice
dropped at times to something very like a whisper. He was answered
audibly and smoothly. The quickwitted gentleman accepted the
correction:
but in immediately paying assiduous attentions to Miss
Dale, in the approved intriguer's fashion, he showed himself in need of
another amounting to a reproof. Clara said: "We have been consulting,
Laetitia, what is to be done to cure Professor Crooklyn of his cold." De
Craye perceived that he had taken a wrong step, and he was mightily
surprised that a lesson in intrigue should be read to him of all men.
Miss Middleton's audacity was not so astonishing: he recognized grand
capabilities in the young lady. Fearing lest she should proceed further
and cut away from him his vantage-ground of secrecy with her, he
turned the subject and was adroitly submissive.

Clara's manner of meeting Sir Willoughby expressed a timid dispo-
sition to friendliness upon a veiled inquiry, understood by none
save Laetitia, whose brain was racked to convey assurances to herself
of her not having misinterpreted him. Could there be any doubt? She
resolved that there could not be; and it was upon this basis of reason
that she fancied she had led him to it. Legitimate or not, the fancy
sprang from a solid foundation. Yesterday morning she could not have
conceived it. Now she was endowed to feel that she had power to
influence him, because now, since the midnight, she felt some
emancipation from the spell of his physical mastery.
He did not appear
to her as a different man, but she had grown sensible of being a
stronger woman. He was no more the cloud over her, nor the magnet;
the cloud once heaven-suffused, the magnet fatally compelling her to
sway round to him. She admired him still: his handsome air, his fine
proportions, the courtesy of his bending to Clara and touching of her
hand, excused a fanatical excess of admiration on the part of a woman
in her youth, who is never the anatomist of the hero's lordly graces.
But now she admired him piecemeal. When it came to the putting of
him together, she did it coldly. To compassionate him was her utmost
warmth. Without conceiving in him anything of the strange old
monster of earth which had struck the awakened girl's mind of Miss
Middleton, Laetitia classed him with other men; he was "one of them".
And she did not bring her disenchantment as a charge against him. She
accused herself, acknowledged the secret of the change to be, and her
youthfulness was dead:
--otherwise could she have given him
compassion, and not herself have been carried on the flood of it? The
compassion was fervent, and pure too. She supposed he would
supplicate; she saw that Clara Middleton was pleasant with him only
for what she expected of his generosity. She grieved. Sir Willoughby
was fortified by her sorrowful gaze as he and Clara passed out
together to the laboratory arm in arm.


Laetitia had to tell Vernon of the uselessness of his beating the house
and grounds for Crossjay. Dr. Middleton held him fast in discussion
upon an overnight's classical wrangle with Professor Crooklyn, which
was to be renewed that day. The Professor had appointed to call
expressly to renew it. "A fine scholar," said the Rev. Doctor, "but
crotchety, like all men who cannot stand their Port."

"I hear that he had a cold," Vernon remarked. "I hope the wine was
good, sir."


As when the foreman of a sentimental jury is commissioned to inform
an awful Bench exact in perspicuous English, of a verdict that must
of necessity be pronounced in favour of the hanging of the culprit,
yet would fain attenuate the crime of a palpable villain by a reco-
mmendation to mercy, such foreman, standing in the attentive eye of
a master of grammatical construction, and feeling the weight of at
least three sentences on his brain, together with a prospect of Ju-
dicial interrogation for the discovery of his precise meaning, is
oppressed, himself is put on trial, in turn, and he hesitates, he
recapitulates, the fear of involution leads him to be involved; as
far as a man so posted may, he on his own behalf appeals for mercy;
entreats that his indistinct statement of preposterous reasons may
be taken for understood, and would gladly, were permission to do
it credible, throw in an imploring word that he may sink back among
the crowd without for the one imperishable moment publicly swinging
in his lordship's estimation
:--much so, moved by chivalry toward a la-
dy, courtesy to the recollection of a hostess, and particularly by the
knowledge that his hearer would expect with a certain frigid rigour
charity of him, Dr. Middleton paused, spoke and paused: he stammer-
ed.
Ladies, he said, were famous poisoners in the Middle Ages. His
opinion was, that we had a class of manufacturing wine merchants
on the watch for widows in this country. But he was bound to state
the fact of his waking at his usual hour to the minute unassailed
by headache. On the other hand, this was a condition of blessedness
unanticipated when he went to bed. Mr. Whitford, however, was not to
think that he entertained rancour toward the wine. It was no doubt
dispensed with the honourable intention of cheering. In point of
flavour execrable, judging by results it was innocuous.

"The test of it shall be the effect of it upon Professor Crooklyn, and
his appearance in the forenoon according to promise," Dr. Middleton
came to an end with his perturbed balancings. "If I hear more of the
eight or twelve winds discharged at once upon a railway platform, and
the young lady who dries herself of a drenching by drinking brandy and
water with a gentleman at a railway inn, I shall solicit your sanction
to my condemnation of the wine as anti-Bacchic and a counterfeit pre-
sentment.
Do not misjudge me. Our hostess is not responsible. But wi-
dows should marry."


"You must contrive to stop the Professor, sir, if he should attack his
hostess in that manner," said Vernon.

"Widows should marry!" Dr. Middleton repeated.

He murmured of objecting to be at the discretion of a butler; unless,
he was careful to add, the aforesaid functionary could boast of an
University education; and even then, said he, it requires a line of
ancestry to train a man's taste.


The Rev. Doctor smothered a yawn. The repression of it caused a sec-
ond one, a real monster, to come, big as our old friend of the sea
advancing on the chained-up Beauty.
5

Disconcerted by this damning evidence of indigestion, his countenance
showed that he considered himself to have been too lenient to the
wine of an unhusbanded hostess. He frowned terribly.


In the interval Laetitia told Vernon of Crossjay's flight for the day,
hastily bidding the master to excuse him: she had no time to hint the
grounds of excuse. Vernon mentally made a guess.

Dr Middleton took his arm and discharged a volley at the crotchetty
scholarship of Professor Crooklyn, whom to confute by book, he
directed his march to the library. Having persuaded himself that he
was dyspeptic, he had grown irascible.
He denounced all dining out,
eulogized Patterne Hall as if it were his home, and remembered he had
dreamed in the night--a most humiliating sign of physical disturbance.

"But let me find a house in proximity to Patterne, as I am induced to
suppose I shall," he said, "and here only am I to be met when I stir
abroad."

Laetitia went to her room. She was complacently anxious enough to
prefer solitude and be willing to read. She was more seriously an-
xious about Crossjay than about any of the others. For Clara would
be certain to speak very definitely, and how then could a gentleman
oppose her? He would supplicate, and could she be brought to yield?
It was not to be expected of a young lady who had turned from Sir
Willoughby. His inferiors would have had a better chance. Whatever
his faults, he had that element of greatness which excludes the
intercession of pity. Supplication would be with him a form of
condescension. It would be seen to be such.
His was a monumental
pride that could not stoop. She had preserved this image of the
gentleman for a relic in the shipwreck of her idolatry.
So she mused
between the lines of her book, and finishing her reading and marking
the page, she glanced down on the lawn. Dr. Middleton was there, and
alone; his hands behind his back, his head bent. His meditative pace
and unwonted perusal of the turf proclaimed that a non-sentimental
jury within had delivered an unmitigated verdict upon the widow's
wine. Laetitia hurried to find Vernon.


He was in the hall. As she drew near him, the laboratory door opened
and shut.

"It is being decided," said Laetitia.

Vernon was paler than the hue of perfect calmness.

"I want to know whether I ought to take to my heels like Crossjay, and
shun the Professor," he said.

They spoke in under-tones, furtively watching the door.

"I wish what she wishes, I am sure; but it will go badly with the boy,"
said Laetitia.

"Oh, well, then I'll take him," said Vernon, "I would rather. I think I
can manage it."

Again the laboratory door opened. This time it shut behind Miss Middle-
ton.
She was highly flushed. Seeing them, she shook the storm from her
brows, with a dead smile; the best piece of serenity she could put on
for public wear.


She took a breath before she moved.

Vernon strode out of the house.

Clara swept up to Laetitia.

"You were deceived!"

The hard sob of anger barred her voice.


Laetitia begged her to come to her room with her.

"I want air: I must be by myself," said Clara, catching at her garden-hat.
She walked swiftly to the portico steps and turned to the right, to
avoid the laboratory windows.




CHAPTER 33. In Which the Comic Muse has an Eye on Two Good Souls



Clara met Vernon on the bowling-green among the laurels. She asked
him where her father was.


"Don't speak to him now," said Vernon.

"Mr. Whitford, will you?"

"It is not advisable just now. Wait."

"Wait? Why not now?"

"He is not in the right humour."

She choked. There are times when there is no medicine for us in sages,
we want slaves; we scorn to temporize, we must overbear. On she
sped, as if she had made the mistake of exchanging words with a post.
The scene between herself and Willoughby was a thick mist in her
head,
except the burden and result of it, that he held to her fast,
would neither assist her to depart nor disengage her.


Oh, men! men! They astounded the girl; she could not define them to
her understanding. Their motives, their tastes, their vanity, their
tyranny, and the domino
1 on their vanity, the baldness of their tyranny,
clinched her in feminine antagonism to brute power. She was not the
less disposed to rebellion by a very present sense of the justice of
what could be said to reprove her. She had but one answer: "Anything
but marry him!"
It threw her on her nature, our last and headlong
advocate, who is quick as the flood to hurry us from the heights to our
level, and lower, if there be accidental gaps in the channel. For say
we have been guilty of misconduct: can we redeem it by violating that
which we are and live by?
The question sinks us back to the
luxuriousness of a sunny relinquishment of effort in the direction
against tide. Our nature becomes ingenious in devices, penetrative of
the enemy, confidently citing its cause for being frankly elvish or
worse. Clara saw a particular way
2 of forcing herself to be surrendered.
She shut her eyes from it: the sight carried her too violently to her
escape; but her heart caught it up and huzzaed. To press the points of
her fingers at her bosom, looking up to the sky as she did, and cry: "I
am not my own; I am his!" was instigation sufficient to make her heart
leap up with all her body's blush to urge it to recklessness.
A despair-
ing creature then may say she has addressed the heavens and has had
no answer to restrain her.


Happily for Miss Middleton, she had walked some minutes in her chafing
fit before the falcon eye of Colonel De Craye spied her away on one of
the beech-knots.

Vernon stood irresolute. It was decidedly not a moment for disturbing
Dr. Middleton's composure. He meditated upon a conversation, as
friendly as possible, with Willoughby. Round on the front-lawn, he
beheld Willoughby and Dr. Middleton together, the latter having halted
to lend attentive ear to his excellent host. Unnoticed by them or
disregarded,
Vernon turned back to Laetitia, and sauntered, talking
with her of things current for as long as he could endure to listen to
praise of his pure self-abnegation; proof of how well he had disguised
himself, but it smacked unpleasantly to him. His humourous intimacy
with men's minds likened the source of this distaste to the gallant all
or-nothing of the gambler, who hates the little when he cannot have
the much, and would rather stalk from the tables clean-picked than
suffer ruin to be tickled by driblets of the glorious fortune he has
played for and lost. If we are not to be beloved, spare us the small
coin of compliments on character; especially when they compliment only
our acting.
It is partly endurable to win eulogy for our stately for-
titude in losing, but Laetitia was unaware that he flung away a stake;
so she could not praise him for his merits.


"Willoughby makes the pardoning of Crossjay conditional," he said,
"and the person pleading for him has to grant the terms. How could
you imagine Willoughby would give her up! How could he! Who! . . . He
should, is easily said. I was no witness of the scene between them just
now, but I could have foretold the end of it; I could almost recount
the passages. The consequence is, that everything depends upon the
amount of courage she possesses. Dr. Middleton won't leave Patterne
yet. And it is of no use to speak to him to-day. And she is by nature
impatient, and is rendered desperate."


"Why is it of no use to speak to Dr. Middleton today?" cried Laetitia.

"He drank wine yesterday that did not agree with him; he can't work.

To-day he is looking forward to Patterne Port. He is not likely to listen
to any proposals to leave to-day."

"Goodness!"

"I know the depth of that cry!"

"You are excluded, Mr. Whitford."

"Not a bit of it; I am in with the rest. Say that men are to be exclai-
med at. Men have a right to expect you to know your own minds when you
close on a bargain. You don't know the world or yourselves very well,
it's true; still the original error is on your side, and upon that you
should fix your attention. She brought her father here, and no sooner
was he very comfortably established than she wished to dislocate
him."

"I cannot explain it; I cannot comprehend it," said Laetitia.


"You are Constancy."

"No." She coloured. "I am 'in with rest'. I do not say I should have
done the same. But I have the knowledge that I must not sit in judge-
ment on her. I can waver."

She coloured again. She was anxious that he should know her to be not
that stupid statue of Constancy in a corner doating on the antic
Deception. Reminiscences of the interview overnight made it oppres-
sive to her to hear herself praised for always pointing like the
needle. Her newly enfranchised individuality pressed to assert its
existence. Vernon, however, not seeing this novelty, continued, to
her excessive discomfort, to baste her old abandoned image with his
praises. They checked hers; and, moreover, he had suddenly conceived
an envy of her life-long, uncomplaining, almost unaspiring, constancy
of sentiment. If you know lovers when they have not reason to be
blissful, you will remember that in this mood of admiring envy they
are given to fits of uncontrollable maundering. Praise of constancy,
moreover, smote shadowily a certain inconstant, enough to seem to
ruffle her smoothness and do no hurt. He found his consolation in it,
and poor Laetitia writhed. Without designing to retort, she instinct-
ively grasped at a weapon of defence in further exalting his devote-
dness; which reduced him to cast his head to the heavens and implore
them to partially enlighten her. Nevertheless, maunder he must; and
he recurred to it in a way so utterly unlike himself that Laetitia
stared in his face. She wondered whether there could be anything
secreted behind this everlasting theme of constancy. He took her
awakened gaze for a summons to asseverations of sincerity, and out
they came.
She would have fled from him, but to think of flying was
to think how little it was that urged her to fly, and yet the thought
of remaining and listening to praises undeserved and no longer flat-
tering, was a torture.

"Mr. Whitford, I bear no comparison with you."

"I do and must set you for my example, Miss Dale."

"Indeed, you do wrongly; you do not know me."

"I could say that. For years . . ."

"Pray, Mr. Whitford!"

"Well, I have admired it.
You show us how self can be smothered."

"An echo would be a retort on you!"

"On me? I am never thinking of anything else."

"I could say that."

"You are necessarily conscious of not swerving."

"But I do; I waver dreadfully; I am not the same two days running."

"You are the same, with 'ravishing divisions'
3 upon the same."

"And you without the 'divisions.' I draw such support as I have from
you."

"From some simulacrum of me, then.
And that will show you how little
you require support."

"I do not speak my own opinion only."


"Whose?"

"I am not alone."

"Again let me say, I wish I were like you!"

"Then let me add, I would willingly make the exchange!"

"You would be amazed at your bargain."

"Others would be!"

"Your exchange would give me the qualities I'm in want of, Miss Dale."

"Negative, passive, at the best, Mr. Whitford. But I should have . . ."

"Oh!--pardon me. But you inflict the sensations of a boy, with a dose
of honesty in him, called up to receive a prize he has won by the
dexterous use of a crib."

"And how do you suppose she feels who has a crown of Queen o' the
May forced on her head when she is verging on November?"

He rejected her analogy, and she his. They could neither of them bring
to light the circumstances which made one another's admiration so
unbearable. The more he exalted her for constancy, the more did her
mind become bent upon critically examining the object of that imagin-
ed virtue; and the more she praised him for possessing the spirit of
perfect friendliness, the fiercer grew the passion in him which dis-
dained the imputation, hissing like a heated iron-bar that flings the
waterdrops to steam.
He would none of it; would rather have stood
exposed in his profound foolishness.

Amiable though they were, and mutually affectionate, they came to a
stop in their walk, longing to separate, and not seeing how it was to
be done, they had so knit themselves together with the pelting of their
interlaudation.


"I think it is time for me to run home to my father for an hour," said
Laetitia.

"I ought to be working," said Vernon.

Good progress was made to the disgarlanding of themselves thus far;
yet, an acutely civilized pair, the abruptness of the transition from
floweriness to commonplace affected them both,
Laetitia chiefly, as
she had broken the pause, and she remarked:--"I am really Constancy
in my opinions."


"Another title is customary where stiff opinions are concerned.
Perhaps by and by you will learn your mistake, and then you will
acknowledge the name for it."

"How?" said she. "What shall I learn?"

"If you learn that I am a grisly Egoist?"

"You? And it would not be egoism," added Laetitia, revealing to him at
the same instant as to herself that she swung suspended on a scarce
credible guess.

"--Will nothing pierce your ears, Mr. Whitford?"

He heard the intruding voice, but he was bent on rubbing out the clou-
dy letters Laetitia had begun to spell, and he stammered, in a tone
of matter-of-fact: "Just that and no better";
then turned to Mrs.
Mountstuart Jenkinson.

"--Or are you resolved you will never see Professor Crooklyn when
you look on him?" said the great lady.

Vernon bowed to the Professor and apologized to him shufflingly and
rapidly, incoherently, and with a red face; which induced Mrs. Mount-
stuart to scan Laetitia's.

After lecturing Vernon for his abandonment of her yesterday evening,
and flouting his protestations, she returned to the business of the
day. "We walked from the lodge-gates to see the park and prepare
ourselves for Dr. Middleton. We parted last night in the middle of a
controversy and are rageing to resume it. Where is our redoubtable
antagonist?"

Mrs. Mountstuart wheeled Professor Crooklyn round to accompany
Vernon.

"We," she said, "are for modern English scholarship, opposed to the
champion of German."

"The contrary," observed Professor Crooklyn.

"Oh! We," she corrected the error serenely, "are for German
scholarship opposed to English."

"Certain editions."

"We defend certain editions."

"Defend is a term of imperfect application to my position, ma'am."

"My dear Professor, you have in Dr. Middleton a match for you in
conscientious pugnacity, and you will not waste it upon me. There,
there they are; there he is. Mr. Whitford will conduct you. I stand
away from the first shock."

Mrs. Mountstuart fell back to Laetitia, saying: "He pores over a lit-
tle inexactitude in phrases, and pecks at it like a domestic fowl."


Professor Crooklyn's attitude and air were so well described that
Laetitia could have laughed.

"These mighty scholars have their flavour," the great lady hastened
to add, lest her younger companion should be misled to suppose that
they were not valuable to a governing hostess: "their shadow-fights
are ridiculous, but they have their flavour at a table. Last night,
no: I discard all mention of last night. We failed: as none else in
this neighbourhood could fail, but we failed. If we have among us a
cormorant devouring young lady who drinks up all the--ha!--brandy
and water--of our inns and occupies all our flys, why, our condition
is abnormal, and we must expect to fail:
we are deprived of accom-
modation for accidental circumstances. How Mr. Whitford could
have missed seeing Professor Crooklyn! And what was he doing at
the station, Miss Dale?"

"Your portrait of Professor Crooklyn was too striking, Mrs Mount-
stuart, and deceived him by its excellence. He appears to have
seen only the blank side of the slate."

"Ah! He is a faithful friend of his cousin, do you not think?"

"He is the truest of friends."


"As for Dr. Middleton," Mrs. Mountstuart diverged from her inquiry,
"he will swell the letters of my vocabulary to gigantic proportions
if I see much of him: he is contagious."


"I believe it is a form of his humour."

"I caught it of him yesterday at my dinner-table in my distress, and
must pass it off as a form of mine, while it lasts.
I talked Dr. Mid-
dleton half the dreary night through to my pillow.
Your candid opinion,
my dear, come! As for me, I don't hesitate.
We seemed to have sat down
to a solitary performance on the bass-viol. We were positively an
assembly of insects during thunder. My very soul thanked Colonel De
Craye for his diversions, but I heard nothing but Dr. Middleton. It
struck me that my table was petrified, and every one sat listening to
bowls played overhead."
4

"I was amused."


"Really? You delight me. Who knows but that my guests were sincere
in their congratulations on a thoroughly successful evening? I have
fallen to this, you see! And I know, wretched people! that as often as
not it is their way of condoling with one. I do it myself: but only where
there have been amiable efforts. But imagine my being congratulated
for that!--Good-morning, Sir Willoughby.--The worst offender! and I
am in no pleasant mood with him," Mrs. Mountstuart said aside to
Laetitia, who drew back, retiring.

Sir Willoughby came on a step or two. He stopped to watch Laetitia's
figure swimming to the house.

So, as, for instance, beside a stream, when a flower on the surface
extends its petals drowning to subside in the clear still water, we
exercise our privilege to be absent in the charmed contemplation of
a beautiful natural incident.

A smile of pleased abstraction melted on his features.




CHAPTER 34. Mrs. Mountstuart and Sir Willoughby



"Good morning, my dear Mrs. Mountstuart," Sir Willoughby wakened
himself to address the great lady. "Why has she fled?"

"Has any one fled?"

"Laetitia Dale."

"Letty Dale? Oh, if you call that flying. Possibly to renew a close
conversation with Vernon Whitford, that I cut short. You frightened
me with your 'Shepherds-tell-me' air and tone. Lead me to one of your
garden-seats: out of hearing to Dr. Middleton, I beg.
He mesmerizes
me, he makes me talk Latin. I was curiously susceptible last night. I
know I shall everlastingly associate him with an abortive entertain-
ment and solos on big instruments. We were flat."


"Horace was in good vein."
1

"You were not."

"And Laetitia--Miss Dale talked well, I thought."

"She talked with you, and no doubt she talked well. We did not mix.
The yeast was bad. You shot darts at Colonel De Craye: you tried to
sting. You brought Dr. Middleton down on you. Dear me, that man is a
reverberation in my head.
Where is your lady and love?"

"Who?"

"Am I to name her?"

"Clara? I have not seen her for the last hour. Wandering, I suppose."

"A very pretty summer bower," said Mrs. Mountstuart, seating herself
"Well, my dear Sir Willoughby, preferences, preferences are not to be
accounted for, and one never knows whether to pity or congratulate,
whatever may occur. I want to see Miss Middleton."

"Your 'dainty rogue in porcelain' will be at your beck--you lunch with
us?--before you leave."

"So now you have taken to quoting me, have you?"


"But 'a romantic tale on her eyelashes' is hardly descriptive any
longer."

"Descriptive of whom? Now you are upon Laetitia Dale!"

"I quote you generally. She has now a graver look."

"And well may have!"

"Not that the romance has entirely disappeared."

"No; it looks as if it were in print."


"You have hit it perfectly, as usual, ma'am."

Sir Willoughby mused.

Like one resuming his instrument to take up the melody in a concerted
piece, he said: "I thought Laetitia Dale had a singularly animated air
last night."

"Why!--" Mrs. Mountstuart mildly gaped.


"I want a new description of her. You know, I collect your mottoes and
sentences."

"It seems to me she is coming three parts out of her shell, and wearing
it as a hood for convenience."

"Ready to issue forth at an invitation? Admirable! exact!"

"Ay, my good Sir Willoughby, but are we so very admirable and exact?
Are we never to know our own minds?"

He produced a polysyllabic sigh, like those many-jointed compounds
of poets in happy languages, which are copious in a single expression:
"Mine is known to me. It always has been. Cleverness in women is not
uncommon. Intellect is the pearl. A woman of intellect is as good as a
Greek statue; she is divinely wrought, and she is divinely rare."

"Proceed," said the lady, confiding a cough to the air.


"The rarity of it: and it is not mere intellect, it is a sympathetic
intellect; or else it is an intellect in perfect accord with an intensely
sympathetic disposition;--the rarity of it makes it too precious to be
parted with when once we have met it. I prize it the more the older I
grow."

"Are we on the feminine or the neuter?"

"I beg pardon?"

"The universal or the individual?"

He shrugged. "For the rest, psychological affinities may exist
coincident with and entirely independent of material or moral
prepossessions, relations, engagements, ties."

"Well, that is not the raving of passion, certainly," said Mrs
Mountstuart, "and it sounds as if it were a comfortable doctrine for
men. On that plea, you might all of you be having Aspasia
2 and a wife.
We saw your fair Middleton and Colonel de Craye at a distance as we
entered the park. Professor Crooklyn is under some hallucination."

"What more likely?"

The readiness and the double-bearing of the reply struck her comic
sense with awe.

"The Professor must hear that. He insists on the fly, and the inn, and
the wet boots, and the warming mixture, and the testimony of the land-
lady and the railway porter."

"I say, what more likely?"

"Than that he should insist?"

"If he is under the hallucination!"

"He may convince others."

"I have only to repeat. . ."

"'What more likely?' It's extremely philosophical. Coincident with a
pursuit of the psychological affinities."


"Professor Crooklyn will hardly descend, I suppose, from his classical
altitudes to lay his hallucinations before Dr. Middleton?"

"Sir Willoughby, you are the pink of chivalry!"

By harping on Laetitia, he had emboldened Mrs. Mountstuart to lift the
curtain upon Clara. It was offensive to him, but the injury done to his
pride had to be endured for the sake of his general plan of self-protect-
ion. "Simply desirous to save my guests from annoyance of any kind", he
said. "Dr Middleton can look 'Olympus and thunder', as Vernon calls it."


"Don't. I see him. That look! It is Dictionary-bitten! Angry, horned
Dictionary!--an apparition of Dictionary in the night--to a dunce!"


"One would undergo a good deal to avoid the sight."

"What the man must be in a storm!
Speak as you please of yourself:
you are a true and chivalrous knight to dread it for her. But now,
candidly, how is it you cannot condescend to a little management?
Listen to an old friend. You are too lordly. No lover can afford to be
incomprehensible for half an hour. Stoop a little. Sermonizings are not
to be thought of. You can govern unseen.
You are to know that I am
one who disbelieves in philosophy in love. I admire the look of it, I
give no credit to the assumption. I rather like lovers to be out at
times: it makes them picturesque, and it enlivens their monotony. I
perceived she had a spot of wildness. It's proper that she should
wear it off before marriage."


"Clara? The wildness of an infant!" said Willoughby, paternally, musing
over an inward shiver. "You saw her at a distance just now, or you
might have heard her laughing. Horace diverts her excessively."

"I owe him my eternal gratitude for his behaviour last night. She was
one of my bright faces. Her laughter was delicious; rain in the desert!

It will tell you what the load on me was, when I assure you those two
were merely a spectacle to me--points I scored in a lost game. And I
know they were witty."


"They both have wit; a kind of wit," Willoughby assented.

"They struck together like a pair of cymbals."

"Not the highest description of instrument. However, they amuse me. I
like to hear them when I am in the vein."

"That vein should be more at command with you, my friend. You can
be perfect, if you like."


"Under your tuition."

Willoughby leaned to her, bowing languidly.
He was easier in his pain
for having hoodwinked the lady. She was the outer world to him; she
could tune the world's voice; prescribe which of the two was to be
pitied, himself or Clara; and he did not intend it to be himself,
if
it came to the worst. They were far away from that at present, and he
continued:

"Probably a man's power of putting on a face is not equal to a girl's.
I detest petty dissensions. Probably I show it when all is not quite
smooth. Little fits of suspicion vex me. It is a weakness, not to play
them off, I know. Men have to learn the arts which come to women by
nature. I don't sympathize with suspicion, from having none myself."

His eyebrows shot up. That ill-omened man Flitch had sidled round by
the bushes to within a few feet of him. Flitch primarily defended
himself against the accusation of drunkenness, which was hurled at
him to account for his audacity in trespassing against the interdict;
but he admitted that he had taken "something short" for a fortifica-
tion in visiting scenes where he had once been happy--at Christmastide,
when all the servants, and the butler at head, grey old Mr. Chessington,
sat in rows, toasting the young heir of the old Hall in the old port
wine!
Happy had he been then, before ambition for a shop, to be his own
master and an independent gentleman, had led him into his quagmire:--
to look back envying a dog on the old estate, and sigh for the smell
of Patterne stables: sweeter than Arabia, his drooping nose appeared
to say.


He held up close against it something that imposed silence on Sir
Willoughby as effectively as a cunning exordium in oratory will
enchain mobs to swallow what is not complimenting them; and
this he
displayed secure in its being his licence to drivel his abominable
pathos.
Sir Willoughby recognized Clara's purse. He understood at
once how the must have come by it:
3 he was not so quick in devising a
means of stopping the tale. Flitch foiled him. "Intact," he replied to
the question: "What have you there?" He repeated this grand word. And
then
he turned to Mrs. Mountstuart to speak of Paradise and Adam, in
whom he saw the prototype of himself: also the Hebrew people in the
bondage of Egypt, discoursed of by the clergymen, not without a
likeness to him.


"Sorrows have done me one good, to send me attentive to church, my
lady," said Flitch, "when I might have gone to London, the coachman's
home, and been driving some honourable family, with no great advan-
tage to my morals, according to what I hear of.
And a purse found
under the seat of a fly in London would have a poor chance of re-
turning intact to the young lady losing it."

"Put it down on that chair; inquiries will be made, and you will see
Sir Willoughby," said Mrs. Mountstuart. "Intact, no doubt; it is not
disputed."


With one motion of a finger she set the man rounding.

Flitch halted; he was very regretful of the termination of his feast of
pathos, and he wished to relate the finding of the purse, but he could
not encounter Mrs. Mountstuart's look; he slouched away in very close
resemblance to the ejected Adam of illustrated books.


"It's my belief that naturalness among the common people has died
out of the kingdom," she said.

Willoughby charitably apologized for him. "He has been fuddling
himself."

Her vigilant considerateness had dealt the sensitive gentleman a
shock, plainly telling him she had her ideas of his actual posture.
Nor was he unhurt by her superior acuteness and her display of au-
thority on his grounds.


He said, boldly, as he weighed the purse, half tossing it: "It's not
unlike Clara's."

He feared that his lips and cheeks were twitching, and as he grew
aware of a glassiness of aspect that would reflect any suspicion of
a keen-eyed woman, he became bolder still!


"Laetitia's, I know it is not. Hers is an ancient purse."

"A present from you!"

"How do you hit on that, my dear lady?"

"Deductively."

"Well, the purse looks as good as new in quality, like the owner."

"The poor dear has not much occasion for using it."

"You are mistaken: she uses it daily."

"If it were better filled, Sir Willoughby, your old scheme might be
arranged. The parties do not appear so unwilling. Professor Crooklyn
and I came on them just now rather by surprise, and I assure you their
heads were close, faces meeting, eyes musing."

"Impossible."

"Because when they approach the point, you won't allow it! Selfish!"

"Now," said Willoughby, very animatedly, "question Clara. Now, do,
my dear Mrs. Mountstuart, do speak to Clara on that head; she will
convince you I have striven quite recently against myself, if you like.
I have instructed her to aid me, given her the fullest instructions,
carte blanche. She cannot possibly have a doubt. I may look to her to
remove any you may entertain from your mind on the subject. I have
proposed, seconded, and chorussed it, and it will not be arranged. If
you expect me to deplore that fact, I can only answer that my actions
are under my control, my feelings are not. I will do everything con-
sistent with the duties of a man of honour perpetually running into
fatal errors because he did not properly consult the dictates of those
feelings at the right season. I can violate them: but I can no more
command them than I can my destiny. They were crushed of old, and
so let them be now.
Sentiments we won't discuss; though you know that
sentiments have a bearing on social life: are factors, as they say in
their later jargon. I never speak of mine. To you I could. It is not
necessary.
If old Vernon, instead of flattening his chest at a desk,
had any manly ambition to take part in public affairs, she would be the
woman for him. I have called her my Egeria.
4 She would be his Cornelia.
One could swear of her that she would have noble offspring!--But old
Vernon has had his disappointment, and will moan over it up to the end.
And she? So it appears. I have tried; yes, personally: without effect.
In other matters I may have influence with her: not in that one. She
declines. She will live and die Laetitia Dale. We are alone: I confess
to you, I love the name. It's an old song in my ears. Do not be too ready
with a name for me. Believe me--I speak from my experience hitherto--
there is a fatality in these things. I cannot conceal from my poor girl
that this fatality exists . . ."


"Which is the poor girl at present?" said Mrs. Mountstuart, cool in a
mystification.


"And though she will tell you that I have authorized and Clara Mid-
dleton--done as much as man can to institute the union you suggest,
she will own that she is conscious of the presence of this--fatality,
I call it for want of a better title between us. It drives her in one
direction, me in another--or would, if I submitted to the pressure.
She is not the first who has been conscious of it."

"Are we laying hold of a third poor girl?" said Mrs. Mountstuart. "Ah!
I remember. And I remember we used to call it playing fast and loose
in those days, not fatality. It is very strange. It may be that you
were unblushingly courted in those days, and excusable; and we all
supposed . . . but away you went for your tour."


"My mother's medical receipt for me. Partially it succeeded. She was
for grand marriages: not I. I could make, I could not be, a sacrifice.
And then I went in due time to Dr. Cupid on my own account. She has the
kind of attraction. . . But one changes! On revient toujours.5 First we
begin with a liking; then we give ourselves up to the passion of beauty:
then comes the serious question of suitableness of the mate to match
us; and perhaps we discover that we were wiser in early youth than
somewhat later. However, she has beauty. Now, Mrs Mountstuart, you
do admire her. Chase the idea of the 'dainty rogue' out of your view of
her: you admire her: she is captivating; she has a particular charm of
her own, nay, she has real beauty."


Mrs. Mountstuart fronted him to say: "Upon my word, my dear Sir Will-
oughby, I think she has it to such a degree that I don't know the man
who could hold out against her if she took the field. She is one of
the women who are dead shots with men. Whether it's in their tongues
or their eyes, or it's an effusion and an atmosphere--whatever it is,
it's a spell, another fatality for you!"


"Animal; not spiritual!"

"Oh, she hasn't the head of Letty Dale."

Sir Willoughby allowed Mrs. Mountstuart to pause and follow her
thoughts.

"Dear me!" she exclaimed. "I noticed a change in Letty Dale last night;
and to-day. She looked fresher and younger; extremely well: which is
not what I can say for you, my friend.
Fatalizing is not good for the
complexion."

"Don't take away my health, pray," cried Willoughby, with a snapping
laugh.

"Be careful," said Mrs. Mountstuart. "You have got a sentimental tone.
You talk of 'feelings crushed of old'. It is to a woman, not to a man that
you speak, but that sort of talk is a way of making the ground slippery.
I listen in vain for a natural tongue; and when I don't hear it, I sus-
pect plotting in men. You show your under-teeth too at times when you
draw in a breath, like a condemned high-caste Hindoo my husband took
me to see in a jail in Calcutta, to give me some excitement when I
was pining for England. The creature did it regularly as he breathed;
you did it last night, and you have been doing it to-day, as if the air
cut you to the quick. You have been spoilt. You have been too much
anointed.
What I've just mentioned is a sign with me of a settled
something on the brain of a man."

"The brain?" said Sir Willoughby, frowning.

"Yes, you laugh sourly, to look at," said she. "Mountstuart told me that
the muscles of the mouth betray men sooner than the eyes, when they have
cause to be uneasy in their minds."

"But, ma'am, I shall not break my word; I shall not, not; I intend, I
have resolved to keep it. I do not fatalize, let my complexion be black
or white. Despite my resemblance to a high-caste malefactor of the Cal-
cutta prison-wards . . ."

"Friend! friend! you know how I chatter."

He saluted her finger-ends. "Despite the extraordinary display of teeth,
you will find me go to execution with perfect calmness; with a resig-
nation as good as happiness."


"Like a Jacobite lord under the Georges."
6

"You have told me that you wept to read of one: like him, then. My
principles have not changed, if I have. When I was younger, I had an
idea of a wife who would be with me in my thoughts as well as aims: a
woman with a spirit of romance, and a brain of solid sense. I shall
sooner or later dedicate myself to a public life; and shall, I suppose,
want the counsellor or comforter who ought always to be found at
home. It may be unfortunate that I have the ideal in my head. But I
would never make rigorous demands for specific qualities.
The cruel-
lest thing in the world is to set up a living model before a wife,
and compel her to copy it. In any case, here we are upon the road: the
die is cast. I shall not reprieve myself. I cannot release her. Marriage
represents facts, courtship fancies.
She will be cured by-and-by of that
coveting of everything that I do, feel, think, dream, imagine . . . ta-
ta-tata ad infinitum. Laetitia was invited here to show her
the example
of a fixed character--solid as any concrete substance you would choose
to build on, and not a whit the less feminine."


"Ta-ta-ta-ta ad infinitum. You need not tell me you have a design in
all that you do, Willoughby Patterne."

"You smell the autocrat? Yes, he can mould and govern the creatures
about him. His toughest rebel is himself! If you see Clara . . . You
wish to see her, I think you said?"

"Her behaviour to Lady Busshe last night was queer."

"If you will. She makes a mouth at porcelain. Toujours la porcelaine!
7
For me, her pettishness is one of her charms, I confess it. Ten years
younger, I could not have compared them."


"Whom?"

"Laetitia and Clara."

"Sir Willoughby, in any case, to quote you, here we are all upon the
road, and we must act as if events were going to happen; and I must
ask her to help me on the subject of my wedding-present, for I don't
want to have her making mouths at mine, however pretty--and she does
it prettily."

"'Another dedicatory offering to the rogue in me!' she says of
porcelain."

"Then porcelain it shall not be. I mean to consult her; I have come
determined upon a chat with her. I think I understand. But she pro-
duces false impressions on those who don't know you both. 'I shall
have that porcelain back,' says Lady Busshe to me, when we were
shaking hands last night: 'I think,' says she, 'it should have been
the Willow Pattern.'
And she really said: 'He's in for being jilted
a second time!'"

Sir Willoughby restrained a bound of his body that would have sent
him up some feet into the air. He felt his skull thundered at within.


"Rather than that it should fan upon her!" ejaculated he, correcting his
resemblance to the high-caste culprit as soon as it recurred to him.

"But you know Lady Busshe," said Mrs. Mountstuart, genuinely soli-
citous to ease the proud man of his pain. She could see through him
to the depth of the skin, which his fencing sensitiveness vainly
attempted to cover as it did the heart of him.
"Lady Busshe is nothing
without her flights, fads, and fancies. She has always insisted that
you have an unfortunate nose. I remember her saying on the day of your
majority, it was the nose of a monarch destined to lose a throne."

"Have I ever offended Lady Busshe?"

"She trumpets you. She carries Lady Culmer with her too, and you may
expect a visit of nods and hints and pots of alabaster.
They worship
you: you are the hope of England in their eyes, and no woman is
worthy of you: but they are a pair of fatalists, and if you begin upon
Letty Dale with them, you might as well forbid your banns. They will
be all over the country exclaiming on predestination and marriages
made in heaven."

"Clara and her father!" cried Sir Willoughby.

Dr Middleton and his daughter appeared in the circle of shrubs and
flowers.

"Bring her to me, and save me from the polyglot," said Mrs
Mountstuart, in afright at Dr. Middleton's manner of pouring forth into
the ears of the downcast girl.

The leisure he loved that he might debate with his genius upon any
next step was denied to Willoughby:
he had to place his trust in the
skill with which he had sown and prepared Mrs Mountstuart's under-
standing to meet the girl--beautiful abhorred that she was! detested
darling! thing to squeeze to death and throw to the dust, and mourn
over!

He had to risk it; and at an hour when Lady Busshe's prognostic
grievously impressed his intense apprehensiveness of nature.


As it happened that Dr. Middleton's notion of a disagreeable duty in
colloquy was to deliver all that he contained, and escape the listening
to a syllable of reply,
Willoughby withdrew his daughter from him
opportunely.

"Mrs. Mountstuart wants you, Clara."

"I shall be very happy," Clara replied, and put on a new face
. An
imperceptible nervous shrinking was met by another force in her
bosom, that pushed her to advance without a sign of reluctance. She
seemed to glitter.


She was handed to Mrs. Mountstuart.

Dr Middleton laid his hand over Willoughby's shoulder, retiring on
a bow before the great lady of the district. He blew and said: "An
opposition of female instincts to masculine intellect necessarily
creates a corresponding antagonism of intellect to instinct."

"Her answer, sir? Her reasons? Has she named any?"

"The cat," said Dr. Middleton, taking breath for a sentence, "that
humps her back in the figure of the letter H, or a Chinese bridge
8 has
given the dog her answer and her reasons, we may presume: but he
that undertakes to translate them into human speech might likewise
venture to propose an addition to the alphabet and a continuation of
Homer.
The one performance would be not more wonderful than the
other. Daughters, Willoughby, daughters! Above most human peccancies,
I do abhor a breach of faith. She will not be guilty of that. I de-
mand a cheerful fulfilment of a pledge: and I sigh to think that I
cannot count on it without administering a lecture."

"She will soon be my care, sir."

"She shall be. Why, she is as good as married. She is at the altar.
She is in her house. She is--why, where is she not? She has entered
the sanctuary. She is out of the market. This maenad
9 shriek for free-
dom would happily entitle her to the Republican cap--the Phrygian--in
a revolutionary Parisian procession.
To me it has no meaning; and but
that I cannot credit child of mine with mania, I should be in trepi-
dation of her wits."


Sir Willoughby's livelier fears were pacified by the information that
Clara had simply emitted a cry.
Clara had once or twice given him
cause for starting and considering whether to think of her sex dif-
ferently or condemningly of her, yet he could not deem her capable
of fully unbosoming herself even to him, and under excitement.
His
idea of the cowardice of girls combined with his ideal of a waxwork
sex to persuade him that though they are often (he had experienced it)
wantonly desperate in their acts, their tongues are curbed by rosy pru-
dency.
10 And this was in his favour. For if she proved speechless and
stupid with Mrs. Mountstuart, the lady would turn her over, and beat
her flat, beat her angular, in fine, turn her to any shape, despising
her, and cordially believe him to be the model gentleman of Christendom.
She would fill in the outlines he had sketched to her of a picture that
he had small pride in by comparison with his early vision of a fortune
favoured, triumphing squire, whose career is like the sun's, intelli-
gibly lordly to all comprehensions. Not like your model gentleman, that
has to be expounded--a thing for abstract esteem!
However, it was the
choice left to him. And an alternative was enfolded in that. Mrs.
Mountstuart's model gentleman could marry either one of two women,
throwing the other overboard.
He was bound to marry: he was bound
to take to himself one of them: and whichever one he selected would
cast a lustre on his reputation. At least she would rescue him from the
claws of Lady Busshe, and her owl's hoot of "Willow Pattern", and her
hag's shriek of "twice jilted". That flying infant Willoughby--his
unprotected little incorporeal omnipresent Self (not thought of so
much as passionately felt for)--would not be scoffed at as the luckless
with women.
A fall indeed from his original conception of his name of
fame abroad! But Willoughby had the high consolation of knowing that
others have fallen lower. There is the fate of the devils to comfort
us, if we are driven hard. For one of your pangs another bosom is
racked by ten
, we read in the solacing Book.


With all these nice calculations at work, Willoughby stood above
himself, contemplating his active machinery, which he could partly
criticize but could not stop, in a singular wonderment at the aims
and schemes and tremours of one who was handsome, manly, acceptable
in the world's eyes: and had he not loved himself most heartily he
would have been divided to the extent of repudiating that urgent and
excited half of his being, whose motions appeared as those of a body of
insects perpetually erecting and repairing a structure of extraordinary
pettiness. He loved himself too seriously to dwell on the division for
more than a minute or so. But having seen it, and for the first time,
as he believed, his passion for the woman causing it became surcharged
with bitterness, atrabiliar.
11

A glance behind him, as he walked away with Dr. Middleton, showed
Clara, cunning creature that she was, airily executing her malicious
graces in the preliminary courtesies with Mrs. Mountstuart.




CHAPTER 35. Miss Middleton And Mrs. Mountstuart



"Sit beside me, fair Middleton," said the great lady.

"Gladly," said Clara, bowing to her title.

"I want to sound you, my dear."

Clara presented an open countenance with a dim interrogation on the
forehead. "Yes?" she said, submissively.


"You were one of my bright faces last night. I was in love with you.
Delicate vessels ring sweetly to a finger-nail, and if the wit is true,
you answer to it; that I can see, and that is what I like. Most of the
people one has at a table are drums. A ruba-dub-dub on them is the only
way to get a sound. When they can be persuaded to do it upon one ano-
ther, they call it conversation."


"Colonel De Craye was very funny."

"Funny, and witty too."

"But never spiteful."

"These Irish or half Irishmen are my taste. If they're not politicians,
mind; I mean Irish gentlemen. I will never have another dinner-party
without one. Our men's tempers are uncertain. You can't get them to
forget themselves.
And when the wine is in them the nature comes out,
and they must be buffetting, and up start politics, and good-bye to
harmony!
My husband, I am sorry to say, was one of those who have a
long account of ruined dinners against them. I have seen him and his
friends
red as the roast and white as the boiled with wrath on a
popular topic they had excited themselves over, intrinsically not worth
a snap of the fingers.
In London!" exclaimed Mrs. Mountstuart, to
aggravate the charge against her lord in the Shades.
1 "But town or cou-
ntry, the table should be sacred. I have heard women say it is a plot
on the side of the men to teach us our littleness.
I don't believe they
have a plot. It would be to compliment them on a talent.
I believe they
fall upon one another blindly, simply because they are full;
which is,
we are told, the preparation for the fighting Englishman.
They cannot
eat and keep a truce
. Did you notice that dreadful Mr. Capes?"

"The gentleman who frequently contradicted papa? But Colonel De
Craye was good enough to relieve us."

"How, my dear?"

"You did not hear him? He took advantage of an interval when Mr.
Capes was breathing after a paean to his friend, the Governor--I
think--of one of the presidencies, to say to the lady beside him:
'He was a wonderful administrator and great logician; he married
an Anglo-Indian widow, and soon after published a pamphlet in fa-
vour of Suttee.'"
2

"And what did the lady say?"

"She said: 'Oh.'"

"Hark at her! And was it heard?"

"Mr. Capes granted the widow, but declared he had never seen the pam-
phlet in favour of Suttee, and disbelieved in it. He insisted that
it was to be named Sati. He was vehement."

"Now I do remember:--which must have delighted the colonel.
And
Mr. Capes retired from the front upon a repetition of 'in toto,
3 in
toto'. As if 'in toto' were the language of a dinner-table!
But what
will ever teach these men? Must we import Frenchmen to give them an
example in the art of conversation, as their grandfathers brought over
marquises to instruct them in salads? And our young men too! Women have
to take to the hunting-field to be able to talk with them, and be on
a par with their grooms. Now, there was Willoughby Patterne, a prince
among them formerly. Now, did you observe him last night? did you
notice how, instead of conversing, instead of assisting me--as he was
bound to do doubly owing to the defection of Vernon Whitford: a thing
I don't yet comprehend--
there he sat sharpening his lower lip for
cutting remarks.
And at my best man! at Colonel De Craye! If he had
attacked Mr. Capes, with his Governor of Bomby, as the man pronou-
nces it, or Colonel Wildjohn and his Protestant Church in Danger,
or Sir Wilson Pettifer harping on his Monarchical Republic, or any
other!
No, he preferred to be sarcastic upon friend Horace, and he
had the worst of it. Sarcasm is so silly! What is the gain if he has
been smart? People forget the epigram and remember the other's good
temper.
On that field, my dear, you must make up your mind to be
beaten by 'friend Horace'. I have my prejudices and I have my pre-
possessions, but I love good temper, and I love wit, and when I see
a man possessed of both, I set my cap at him, and there's my flat
confession, and highly unfeminine it is."


"Not at all!" cried Clara.

"We are one, then."

Clara put up a mouth empty of words: she was quite one with her. Mrs.
Mountstuart pressed her hand. "When one does get intimate with a
dainty rogue!" she said. "You forgive me all that, for I could vow
that Willoughby has betrayed me."

Clara looked soft, kind, bright, in turns, and clouded instantly when
the lady resumed: "A friend of my own sex, and young, and a close
neighbour, is just what I would have prayed for. And I'll excuse you,
my dear, for not being so anxious about the friendship of an old wo-
man. But I shall be of use to you, you will find.
In the first place, I
never tap for secrets. In the second, I keep them. Thirdly, I have
some power. And fourth, every young married woman has need of a friend
like me. Yes, and Lady Patterne heading all the county will be the
stronger for my backing. You don't look so mighty well pleased, my
dear. Speak out."

"Dear Mrs. Mountstuart!"

"I tell you, I am very fond of Willoughby, but I saw the faults of the
boy and see the man's. He has the pride of a king, and it's a pity if
you offend it. He is prodigal in generosity, but he can't forgive. As
to his own errors, you must be blind to them as a Saint. The secret of
him is, that he is one of those excessively civilized creatures who
aim at perfection: and I think he ought to be supported in his conceit
of having attained it; for the more men of that class, the greater our
influence. He excels in manly sports, because he won't be excelled in
anything, but as men don't comprehend his fineness, he comes to us;
and his wife must manage him by that key. You look down at the idea
of managing. It has to be done. One thing you may be assured of, he
will be proud of you. His wife won't be very much enamoured of herself
if she is not the happiest woman in the world. You will have the best
horses, the best dresses, the finest jewels in England; and an incom-
parable cook. The house will be changed the moment you enter it as
Lady Patterne. And, my dear, just where he is, with all his graces, de-
ficient of attraction, yours will tell. The sort of Othello he would make,
or Leontes,
4 I don't know, and none of us ever needs to know. My
impression is, that if even a shadow of a suspicion flitted across him,
he is a sort of man to double-dye himself in guilt by way of vengeance
in anticipation of an imagined offence. Not uncommon with men. I
have heard strange stories of them: and so will you in your time to
come, but not from me. No young woman shall ever be the sourer for
having been my friend.
One word of advice now we are on the topic:
never play at counter-strokes with him. He will be certain to outstroke
you, and you will be driven further than you meant to go. They
say we beat men at that game; and so we do, at the cost of beating
ourselves. And if once we are started, it is a race-course ending on a
precipice--over goes the winner. We must be moderately slavish to
keep our place; which is given us in appearance; but appearances
make up a remarkably large part of life, and far the most comfortable,
so long as we are discreet at the right moment. He is a man whose
pride, when hurt, would run his wife to perdition to solace it.
If he
married a troublesome widow, his pamphlet on Suttee would be out
within the year. Vernon Whitford would receive instructions about it
the first frosty moon. You like Miss Dale?"


"I think I like her better than she likes me," said Clara.

"Have you never warmed together?"

"I have tried it. She is not one bit to blame. I can see how it is that
she misunderstands me: or justly condemns me, perhaps I should say."

"The hero of two women must die and be wept over in common before
they can appreciate one another. You are not cold?"

"No."

"You shuddered, my dear."

"Did I?"

"I do sometimes. Feet will be walking over ones grave, wherever it
lies. Be sure of this: Willoughby Patterne is a man of unimpeachable
honour."

"I do not doubt it."

"He means to be devoted to you. He has been accustomed to have
women hanging around him like votive offerings."
5

"I . . .!"

"You cannot: of course not: any one could see that at a glance. You are
all the sweeter to me for not being tame. Marriage cures a multitude of
indispositions."

"Oh! Mrs. Mountstuart, will you listen to me?"

"Presently. Don't threaten me with confidences. Eloquence is a ter-
rible thing in woman. I suspect, my dear, that we both know as much
as could be spoken."

"You hardly suspect the truth, I fear."

"Let me tell you one thing about jealous men--when they are not black-
amoors married to disobedient daughters.
6 I speak of our civil creature
of the drawing-rooms: and lovers, mind, not husbands: two distinct
species, married or not:--they're rarely given to jealousy unless they
are flighty themselves. The jealousy fixes them. They have only to i-
magine that we are for some fun likewise and they grow as deferential
as my footman, as harmless as the sportsman whose gun has burst. Ah!
my fair Middleton, am I pretending to teach you? You have read him
his lesson, and my table suffered for it last night, but I bear no
rancour."


"You bewilder me, Mrs. Mountstuart."

"Not if I tell you that you have driven the poor man to try whether it
would be possible for him to give you up."

"I have?"

"Well, and you are successful."

"I am?"

"Jump, my dear!"

"He will?"

"When men love stale instead of fresh, withered better than blooming,
excellence in the abstract rather than the palpable. With their idle
prate of feminine intellect, and a grotto nymph, and a mother of Gra-
cchi!
7 Why, he must think me dazed with admiration of him to talk to
me! One listens, you know. And he is one of the men who cast a kind
of physical spell on you while he has you by the ear, until you begin
to think of it by talking to somebody else. I suppose there are clever
people who do see deep into the breast while dialogue is in progress.
One reads of them. No, my dear, you have very cleverly managed to show
him that it isn't at all possible: he can't. And the real cause for
alarm, in my humble opinion, is lest your amiable foil should have
been a trifle, as he would say, deceived, too much in earnest, led
too far. One may reprove him for not being wiser, but men won't learn
without groaning that they are simply weapons taken up to be put
down when done with. Leave it to me to compose him.--Willoughby can't
give you up. I'm certain he has tried; his pride has been horridly
wounded. You were shrewd, and he has had his lesson.
If these little
rufflings don't come before marriage they come after; so it's not time
lost; and it's good to be able to look back on them. You are very white,
my child."

"Can you, Mrs. Mountstuart, can you think I would be so heartlessly
treacherous?"

"Be honest, fair Middleton, and answer me: Can you say you had not a
corner of an idea of producing an effect on Willoughby?"

Clara checked the instinct of her tongue to defend her reddening
cheeks, with a sense that she was disintegrating and crumbling, but
she wanted this lady for a friend, and she had to submit to the
conditions, and be red and silent.

Mrs. Mountstuart examined her leisurely.

"That will do. Conscience blushes. One knows it by the conflagration.
Don't be hard on yourself . . . there you are in the other extreme.
That blush of yours would count with me against any quantity of
evidence--all the Crooklyns in the kingdom.
You lost your purse."

"I discovered that it was lost this morning."

"Flitch has been here with it. Willoughby has it. You will ask him for
it; he will demand payment: you will be a couple of yards' length or
so of cramoisy:
8 and there ends the episode, nobody killed, only a poor
man melancholy-wounded,
and I must offer him my hand to mend him,
vowing to prove to him that Suttee was properly abolished. Well, and
now to business. I said I wanted to sound you. You have been over-
done with porcelain. Poor Lady Busshe is in despair at your disap-
pointment. Now, I mean my wedding-present to be to your taste."

"Madam!"

"Who is the madam you are imploring?"

"Dear Mrs. Mountstuart!"

"Well?"

"I shall fall in your esteem. Perhaps you will help me. No one else can.
I am a prisoner: I am compelled to continue this imposture. Oh, I shun
speaking much: you object to it and I dislike it: but I must endeavour
to explain to you that I am unworthy of the position you think a proud
one."


"Tut-tut; we are all unworthy, cross our arms, bow our heads; and
accept the honours. Are you playing humble handmaid? What an old
organ-tune that is!
Well? Give me reasons."

"I do not wish to marry."

"He's the great match of the county!"

"I cannot marry him."

"Why, you are at the church door with him! Cannot marry him?"

"It does not bind me."

"The church door is as binding as the altar to an honourable girl. What
have you been about? Since I am in for confidences, half ones won't do.
We must have honourable young women as well as men of honour.
You can't imagine he is to be thrown over now, at this hour?
What
have you against him? come!"

"I have found that I do not . . ."

"What?"

"Love him."

Mrs. Mountstuart grimaced transiently. "That is no answer. The
cause!" she said. "What has he done?"


"Nothing."

"And when did you discover this nothing?"

"By degrees: unknown to myself; suddenly."

"Suddenly and by degrees? I suppose it's useless to ask for a head.
But if all this is true, you ought not to be here."

"I wish to go; I am unable."

"Have you had a scene together?"

"I have expressed my wish."

"In roundabout?--girl's English?"

"Quite clearly; oh, very clearly."

"Have you spoken to your father?"

"I have."

"And what does Dr. Middleton say?"

"It is incredible to him."

"To me too! I can understand little differences, little whims, ca-
prices: we don't settle into harness for a tap on the shoulder as a
man becomes a knight: but to break and bounce away from an unhappy
gentleman at the church door is either madness or it's one of the
things without a name.
You think you are quite sure of yourself?"

"I am so sure, that I look back with regret on the time when I was
not."

"But you were in love with him."

"I was mistaken."

"No love?"

"I have none to give."

"Dear me!--Yes, yes, but that tone of sorrowful conviction is often a
trick, it's not new: and I know that assumption of plain sense to pass
off a monstrosity." Mrs. Mountstuart struck her lap. "Soh! but I've had
to rack my brain for it: feminine disgust?
You have been hearing impu-
tations of his past life? moral character? No? Circumstances might make
him behave unkindly, not unhandsomely: and we have no claim over a
man's past, or it's too late to assert it. What is the case?"

"We are quite divided."

"Nothing in the way of . . . nothing green-eyed?"
9

"Far from that!"

"Then name it."

"We disagree."

"Many a very good agreement is founded on disagreeing. It's to be
regretted that you are not portionless.
10 If you had been, you would
have made very little of disagreeing. You are just as much bound in
honour as if you had the ring on your finger."

"In honour! But I appeal to his, I am no wife for him."

"But if he insists, you consent?"

"I appeal to reason. Is it, madam . . ."

"But, I say, if he insists, you consent!"

"He will insist upon his own misery as well as mine."

Mrs. Mountstuart rocked herself "My poor Sir Willoughby! What a fate!
--And I took you for a clever girl! Why, I have been admiring your
management of him! And here am I bound to take a lesson from Lady
Busshe. My dear good Middleton, don't let it be said that Lady Busshe
saw deeper than I!
I put some little vanity in it, I own: I won't con-
ceal it. She declares that when she sent her present--I don't believe
her--she had a premonition that it would come back. Surely you won't
justify the extravagances of a woman without common reverence:--for
anatomize him as we please to ourselves, he is a splendid man (and
I did it chiefly to encourage and come at you). We don't often behold
such a lordly-looking man: so conversable too when he feels at home;
a picture of an English gentleman! The very man we want married for
our neighbourhood! A woman who can openly talk of expecting him to
be twice jilted! You shrink. It is repulsive
. It would be incompre-
hensible: except, of course, to Lady Busshe, who rushed to one of
her violent conclusions, and became a prophetess.
Conceive a wo-
man's imagining it could happen twice to the same man! I am not
sure she did not send the identical present that arrived and return-
ed once before:
you know, the Durham engagement. She told me last
night she had it back. I watched her listening very suspiciously to
Professor Crooklyn.
My dear, it is her passion to foretell disasters--
her passion! And when they are confirmed, she triumphs, of course. We
shall have her domineering over us with sapient nods at every trifle
occurring. The county will be unendurable. Unsay it, my Middleton!
And don't answer like an oracle because I do all the talking. Pour out to
me. You'll soon come to a stop and find the want of reason in the want
of words.
I assure you that's true. Let me have a good gaze at you. No,"
said Mrs. Mountstuart, after posturing herself to peruse Clara's fea-
tures, "brains you have; one can see it by the nose and the mouth. I
could vow you are the girl I thought you; you have your wits on tiptoe.
How of the heart?"


"None," Clara sighed.

The sigh was partly voluntary, though unforced; as one may with rea-
dy sincerity act a character that is our own only through sympathy.

Mrs. Mountstuart felt the extra weight in the young lady's falling
breath. There was no necessity for a deep sigh over an absence of
heart or confession of it. If Clara did not love the man to whom she
was betrothed, sighing about it signified what?
some pretence; and a
pretence is the cloak of a secret. Girls do not sigh in that way with
compassion for the man they have no heart for, unless at the same
time they should be oppressed by the knowledge or dread of having a
heart for some one else. As a rule, they have no compassion to bestow
on him: you might as reasonably expect a soldier to bewail the enemy
he strikes in action: they must be very disengaged to have it. And
supposing a show of the thing to be exhibited, when it has not been
worried out of them, there is a reserve in the background:
they are
pitying themselves under a mask of decent pity of their wretch.


So ran Mrs. Mountstuart's calculations, which were like her suspicion,
coarse and broad, not absolutely incorrect,
but not of an exact measure
with the truth. That pin's head of the truth is rarely hit by design. The
search after it of the professionally penetrative in the dark of a bosom
may bring it forth by the heavy knocking all about the neighbourhood
that we call good guessing, but it does not come out clean; other
matter adheres to it; and being more it is less than truth. The
unadulterate is to be had only by faith in it or by waiting for it.


A lover! thought the sagacious dame. There was no lover: some love
there was: or, rather, there was a preparation of the chamber, with no
lamp yet lighted.


"Do you positively tell me you have no heart for the position of first
lady of the county?" said Mrs. Mountstuart.

Clara's reply was firm: "None whatever."

"My dear, I will believe you on one condition. Look at me. You have
eyes. If you are for mischief, you are armed for it. But how much
better, when you have won a prize, to settle down and wear it! Lady
Patterne will have entire occupation for her flights and whimsies in
leading the county. And the man, surely the man--he behaved badly
last night:
but a beauty like this," she pushed a finger at Clara's
cheek, and doated a half instant, "you have the very beauty to break
in an ogre's temper. And the man is as governable as he is presenta-
ble. You have the beauty the French call--no, it's the beauty of a
queen of elves: one sees them lurking about you, one here, one there.
Smile--they dance: be doleful--they hang themselves. No, there's not
a trace of satanic;
at least, not yet. And come, come, my Middleton,
the man is a man to be proud of.
You can send him into Parliament to
wear off his humours.
To my thinking, he has a fine style: conscious?
I never thought so before last night. I can't guess what has happened
to him recently. He was once a young Grand Monarque.
11 He was really a
superb young English gentleman.
Have you been wounding him?"

"It is my misfortune to be obliged to wound him,"
said Clara.

"Quite needlessly, my child, for marry him you must."

Clara's bosom rose: her shoulders rose too, narrowing, and her head
fell slight back.


Mrs. Mountstuart exclaimed: "But the scandal! You would never, never
think of following the example of that Durham girl?--whether she was
provoked to it by jealousy or not. It seems to have gone so
astonishingly far with you in a very short time, that one is alarmed as
to where you will stop. Your look just now was downright revulsion."

"I fear it is. It is. I am past my own control. Dear madam, you have my
assurance that I will not behave scandalously or dishonourably. What I
would entreat of you is to help me. I know this of myself . . . I am not
the best of women. I am impatient, wickedly. I should be no good wife.
Feelings like mine teach me unhappy things of myself.
"

"Rich, handsome, lordly, influential, brilliant health, fine estates,"
Mrs. Mountstuart enumerated in petulant accents as there started across
her mind some of Sir Willoughby's attributes for the attraction of the
soul of woman.
"I suppose you wish me to take you in earnest?"

"I appeal to you for help."

"What help?"

"Persuade him of the folly of pressing me to keep my word."

"I will believe you, my dear Middleton, on one condition: your talk of
no heart is nonsense. A change like this, if one is to believe in the
change, occurs through the heart, not because there is none. Don't you
see that? But if you want me for a friend, you must not sham stupid.
It's bad enough in itself: the imitation's horrid. You have to be honest
with me, and answer me right out. You came here on this visit intending
to marry Willoughby Patterne."

"Yes."

"And gradually you suddenly discovered, since you came here, that
you did not intend it, if you could find a means of avoiding it."

"Oh, madam, yes, it is true."


"Now comes the test. And, my lovely Middleton, your flaming cheeks
won't suffice for me this time. The old serpent can blush like an
innocent maid on occasion. You are to speak, and you are to tell me
in six words why that was: and don't waste one on 'madam', or 'Oh!
Mrs. Mountstuart' Why did you change?"


"I came--When I came I was in some doubt. Indeed I speak the truth. I
found I could not give him the admiration he has, I dare say, a right
to expect. I turned--it surprised me; it surprises me now. But so
completely! So that to think of marrying him is . . ."

"Defer the simile," Mrs. Mountstuart interposed. "If you hit on a clever
one, you will never get the better of it. Now, by just as much as you
have outstripped my limitation of words to you, you show me you are
dishonest."

"I could make a vow."

"You would forswear yourself."

"Will you help me?"

"If you are perfectly ingenuous, I may try."

"Dear lady, what more can I say?"

"It may be difficult. You can reply to a catechism."

"I shall have your help?"

"Well, yes; though I don't like stipulations between friends.
There is
no man living to whom you could willingly give your hand? That is my
question. I cannot possibly take a step unless I know. Reply briefly:
there is or there is not."

Clara sat back with bated breath, mentally taking the leap into the
abyss, realizing it, and the cold prudence of abstention, and the de-
lirium of the confession. Was there such a man? It resembled freedom
to think there was: to avow it promised freedom.

"Oh, Mrs. Mountstuart!"

"Well?"

"You will help me?"

"Upon my word, I shall begin to doubt your desire for it."

"Willingly give my hand, madam?"

"For shame! And with wits like yours, can't you perceive where
hesitation in answering such a question lands you?"


"Dearest lady, will you give me your hand? may I whisper?"

"You need not whisper; I won't look."

Clara's voice trembled on a tense chord.


"There is one . . . compared with him I feel my insignificance. If I
could aid him."

"What necessity have you to tell me more than that there is one?"


"Ah, madam, it is different: not as you imagine. You bid me be
scrupulously truthful: I am: I wish you to know the different kind of
feeling it is from what might be suspected from . . . a confession. To
give my hand, is beyond any thought I have ever encouraged. If you
had asked me whether there is one whom I admire--yes, I do. I cannot
help admiring a beautiful and brave self-denying nature. It is one
whom you must pity, and to pity casts you beneath him: for you pity
him because it is his nobleness that has been the enemy of his for-
tunes. He lives for others."

Her voice was musically thrilling in that low muted tone of the very
heart, impossible to deride or disbelieve.


Mrs. Mountstuart set her head nodding on springs.

"Is he clever?"

"Very."

"He talks well?"

"Yes."

"Handsome?"

"He might be thought so."

"Witty?"

"I think he is."

"Gay, cheerful?"

"In his manner."

"Why, the man would be a mountebank if he adopted any other. And
poor?"

"He is not wealthy."

Mrs. Mountstuart preserved a lengthened silence, but nipped Clara's
fingers once or twice to reassure her without approving. "Of course
he's poor," she said at last; "directly the reverse of what you could
have, it must be. Well, my fair Middleton, I can't say you have been
dishonest. I'll help you as far as I'm able. How, it is quite impos-
sible to tell.
We're in the mire. The best way seems to me to get
this pitiable angel to cut some ridiculous capers and present you
another view of him. I don't believe in his innocence
. He knew you
to be a plighted woman."

"He has not once by word or sign hinted a disloyalty."

"Then how do you know."

"I do not know."

"He is not the cause of your wish to break your engagement?"

"No."

"Then you have succeeded in just telling me nothing. What is?"

"Ah! madam!"

"You would break your engagement purely because the admirable
creature is in existence?"

Clara shook her head: she could not say she was dizzy. She had spoken
out more than she had ever spoken to herself, and in doing so she had
cast herself a step beyond the line she dared to contemplate.

"I won't detain you any longer," said Mrs. Mountstuart. "The more we
learn, the more we are taught that we are not so wise as we thought
we were. I have to go to school to Lady Busshe! I really took you for
a very clever girl. If you change again, you will notify the important
circumstance to me, I trust."

"I will," said Clara, and no violent declaration of the impossibility
of her changing again would have had such an effect on her hearer.
Mrs. Mountstuart scanned her face for a new reading of it to match
with her later impressions.

"I am to do as I please with the knowledge I have gained?"

"I am utterly in your hands, madam."

"I have not meant to be unkind."

"You have not been unkind; I could embrace you."


"I am rather too shattered, and kissing won't put me together. I
laughed at Lady Busshe! No wonder you went off like a rocket with a
disappointing bouquet when I told you you had been successful with
poor Sir Willoughby and he could not give you up. I noticed that. A
woman like Lady Busshe, always prying for the lamentable, would
have required no further enlightenment.
Has he a temper?"

Clara did not ask her to signalize the person thus abruptly obtruded.

"He has faults," she said.


"There's an end to Sir Willoughby, then! Though I don't say he will give
you up even when he hears the worst, if he must hear it, as for his own
sake he should. And I won't say he ought to give you up. He'll be the
pitiable angel if he does. For you--but you don't deserve compliments;
they would be immoral. You have behaved badly, badly, badly. I have
never had such a right-about-face in my life. You will deserve the
stigma: you will be notorious: you will be called Number Two. Think
of that! Not even original! We will break the conference, or I shall
twaddle to extinction.
I think I heard the luncheon bell."

"It rang."

"You don't look fit for company, but you had better come."

"Oh, yes; every day it's the same."

"Whether you're in my hands or I'm in yours, we're a couple of arch-
conspirators against the peace of the family whose table we're sitting
at, and the more we rattle the viler we are, but we must do it to ease
our minds."

Mrs. Mountstuart spread the skirts of her voluminous dress, remarking
further: "At a certain age our teachers are young people: we learn by
looking backward. It speaks highly for me that I have not called you
mad.--Full of faults, goodish-looking, not a bad talker, cheerful,
poorish;--and she prefers that to this!" the great lady exclaimed in
her reverie while emerging from the circle of shrubs upon a view of
the Hall.

Colonel De Craye advanced to her;
certainly good-looking, certainly
cheerful, by no means a bad talker, nothing of a Croesus,
12 and varie-
gated with faults.

His laughing smile attacked the irresolute hostility of her mien,
confident as the sparkle of sunlight in a breeze. The effect of it
on herself angered her on behalf of Sir Willoughby's bride.


"Good-morning, Mrs. Mountstuart; I believe I am the last to greet
you."

"And how long do you remain here, Colonel De Craye?"

"I kissed earth when I arrived, like the Norman William, and
consequently I've an attachment to the soil, ma'am."
13

"You're not going to take possession of it, I suppose?"

"A handful would satisfy me."

"You play the Conqueror pretty much, I have heard. But property is
held more sacred than in the times of the Norman William."


"And speaking of property, Miss Middleton, your purse is found." he
said.

"I know it is," she replied as unaffectedly as Mrs. Mountstuart could
have desired, though the ingenuous air of the girl incensed her
somewhat.

Clara passed on.

"You restore purses," observed Mrs. Mountstuart.

Her stress on the word and her look thrilled De Craye; for there had
been a long conversation between the young lady and the dame.

"It was an article that dropped and was not stolen," said he.

"Barely sweet enough to keep, then!"

"I think I could have felt to it like poor Flitch, the flyman, who was
the finder."

"If you are conscious of these temptations to appropriate what is not
your own, you should quit the neighbourhood."

"And do it elsewhere? But that's not virtuous counsel."

"And I'm not counselling in the interests of your virtue, Colonel De
Craye."

"And I dared for a moment to hope that you were, ma'am," he said,
ruefully drooping.


They were close to the dining-room window, and
Mrs Mountstuart
preferred the terminating of a dialogue that did not promise to leave
her features the austerely iron cast
with which she had commenced it.
She was under the spell of gratitude for his behaviour yesterday
evening at her dinner-table; she could not be very severe.




CHAPTER 36. Animated Conversation At A Luncheon-Table



Vernon was crossing the hall to the dining-room as Mrs Mountstuart
stepped in. She called to him: "Are the champions reconciled?"

He replied: "Hardly that, but they have consented to meet at an altar to
offer up a victim to the gods in the shape of modern poetic imitations
of the classical."

"That seems innocent enough. The Professor has not been anxious
about his chest?"

"He recollects his cough now and then."

"You must help him to forget it."

"Lady Busshe and Lady Culmer are here," said Vernon, not supposing
it to be a grave announcement until the effect of it on Mrs. Mountstuart
admonished him.

She dropped her voice: "Engage my fair friend for one of your walks
the moment we rise from table. You may have to rescue her; but do. I
mean it."

"She's a capital walker." Vernon remarked in simpleton style.

"There's no necessity for any of your pedestrian feats," Mrs
Mountstuart said, and let him go, turning to Colonel De Craye to
pronounce an encomium on him: "The most open-minded man I know!
Warranted to do perpetual service, and no mischief. If you were all . . .
instead of catching at every prize you covet! Yes, you would have your
reward for unselfishness, I assure you. Yes, and where you seek it!
That is what none of you men will believe."

"When you behold me in your own livery!" cried the colonel.

"Do I?" said she, dallying with a half-formed design to be confidential.

"How is it one is always tempted to address you in the language of
innuendo? I can't guess."

"Except that as a dog doesn't comprehend good English we naturally
talk bad to him."


The great lady was tickled. Who could help being amused by this man?
And after all, if her fair Middleton chose to be a fool there could be
no gainsaying her, sorry though poor Sir Willoughby's friends must feel
for him.

She tried not to smile.

"You are too absurd. Or a baby, you might have added."

"I hadn't the daring."

"I'll tell you what, Colonel De Craye,
I shall end by falling in love
with you; and without esteeming you, I fear."

"The second follows as surely as the flavour upon a draught of
Bacchus, if you'll but toss off the glass, ma'am."

"We women, sir, think it should be first."

"'Tis to transpose the seasons, and give October the blossom and April
the apple, and no sweet one! Esteem's a mellow thing that comes after
bloom and fire, like an evening at home; because if it went before it
would have no father and couldn't hope for progeny; for there'd be no
nature in the business. So please, ma'am, keep to the original order,
and you'll be nature's child, and I the most blessed of mankind."

"Really, were I fifteen years younger. I am not so certain . . . I
might try and make you harmless."

"Draw the teeth of the lamb so long as you pet him!"


"I challenged you, colonel, and I won't complain of your pitch. But
now lay your wit down beside your candour, and descend to an every-
day level with me for a minute."

"Is it innuendo?"

"No; though I daresay it would be easier for you to respond to if it
were."

"I'm the straightforwardest of men at a word of command."

"This is a whisper. Be alert, as you were last night. Shuffle the table
well. A little liveliness will do it. I don't imagine malice, but there's
curiosity, which is often as bad, and not so lightly foiled. We have Lady
Busshe and Lady Culmer here."

"To sweep the cobwebs out of the sky!"

"Well, then, can you fence with broomsticks?"


"I have had a bout with them in my time."

"They are terribly direct."

"They 'give point', as Napoleon commanded his cavalry to do."

"You must help me to ward it."

"They will require variety in the conversation."

"Constant. You are an angel of intelligence, and if I have the judgeing
of you, I'm afraid you'll be allowed to pass, in spite of the scandal
above. Open the door; I don't unbonnet."


De Craye threw the door open.

Lady Busshe was at that moment saying, "And are we indeed to have
you for a neighbour, Dr. Middleton?"

The Rev. Doctor's reply was drowned by the new arrivals.

"I thought you had forsaken us," observed Sir Willoughby to Mrs.
Mountstuart.

"And run away with Colonel De Craye? I'm too weighty, my dear
friend.

Besides, I have not looked at the wedding-presents yet."

"The very object of our call!" exclaimed Lady Culmer.

"I have to confess I am in dire alarm about mine," Lady Busshe nodded
across the table at Clara. "Oh! you may shake your head, but I would
rather hear a rough truth than the most complimentary evasion."


"How would you define a rough truth, Dr. Middleton?" said Mrs.
Mountstuart.

Like the trained warrior who is ready at all hours for the trumpet
to arms, Dr. Middleton waked up for judicial allocution in a trice.
"A rough truth, madam, I should define to be that description of
truth which is not imparted to mankind without a powerful impreg-
nation of the roughness of the teller."

"It is a rough truth, ma'am, that the world is composed of fools, and
that the exceptions are knaves," Professor Crooklyn furnished that
example avoided by the Rev. Doctor.

"Not to precipitate myself into the jaws of the foregone definition,
which strikes me as being as happy as Jonah's whale, that could carry
probably the most learned man of his time inside without the neces-
sity of digesting him," said De Craye, "a rough truth is a rather
strong charge of universal nature for the firing off of a modicum of
personal fact."

"It is a rough truth that Plato is Moses atticizing,"1 said Vernon to
Dr. Middleton, to keep the diversion alive.

"And that Aristotle had the globe under his cranium," rejoined the Rev.
Doctor.

"And that the Moderns live on the Ancients."
2

"And that not one in ten thousand can refer to the particular treasury
he filches."

"The Art of our days is a revel of rough truth," remarked Professor
Crooklyn.

"And the literature has laboriously mastered the adjective, wherever
it may be in relation to the noun," Dr. Middleton added.


"Orson's first appearance at court3 was in the figure of a rough truth,
causing the Maids of Honour, accustomed to Tapestry Adams,

astonishment and terror," said De Craye.

That he might not be left out of the sprightly play, Sir Willoughby lev-
elled a lance at the quintain,
4 smiling on Laetitia: "In fine, caricature
is rough truth."

She said, "Is one end of it, and realistic directness is the other."

He bowed. "The palm is yours."
5

Mrs. Mountstuart admired herself as each one trotted forth in turn
characteristically, with one exception unaware of the aid which was
being rendered to a distressed damsel wretchedly incapable of decent
hypocrisy. Her intrepid lead had shown her hand to the colonel and
drawn the enemy at a blow.

Sir Willoughby's "in fine", however, did not please her: still less did
his lackadaisical Lothario-like bowing and smiling to Miss Dale: and he
perceived it and was hurt. For how, carrying his tremendous load, was
he to compete with these unhandicapped men in the game of nonsense she
had such a fondness for starting at a table? He was further annoyed to
hear Miss Eleanor and Miss Isabel Patterne agree together that "cari-
cature" was the final word of the definition. Relatives should know
better than to deliver these awards to us in public.

"Well!" quoth Lady Busshe, expressive of stupefaction at the strange
dust she had raised.


"Are they on view, Miss Middleton?" inquired Lady Culmer.

"There's a regiment of us on view and ready for inspection." Colonel
DeCraye bowed to her, but she would not be foiled.

"Miss Middleton's admirers are always on view." said he.

"Are they to be seen?" said Lady Busshe.

Clara made her face a question, with a laudable smoothness.

"The wedding-presents," Lady Culmer explained.

"No."

"Otherwise, my dear, we are in danger of duplicating and triplicating
and quadruplicating, not at all to the satisfaction of the bride."

"But there's a worse danger to encounter in the 'on view', my lady,"
said De Craye; "and that's
the magnetic attraction a display of
wedding-presents is sure to have for the ineffable burglar, who must
have a nuptial soul in him,
for wherever there's that collection on
view, he's never a league off. And 'tis said he knows a lady's dress-
ingcase presented to her on the occasion fifteen years after the event."

"As many as fifteen?" said Mrs. Mountstuart.

"By computation of the police. And if the presents are on view, dogs
are of no use, nor bolts, nor bars:--he's worse than Cupid. The only
protection to be found, singular as it may be thought, is in a couple
of bottles of the oldest Jamaica rum in the British isles."

"Rum?" cried Lady Busshe.

"The liquor of the Royal Navy, my lady. And with your permission, I'll
relate the tale in proof of it. I had a friend engaged to a young lady,
niece of an old sea-captain of the old school, the Benbow
6 school,
the wooden leg and pigtail school; a perfectly salt old gentleman with
a pickled tongue, and a dash of brine in every deed he committed. He
looked rolled over to you by the last wave on the shore, sparkling:
he was Neptune's own for humour.
And when his present to the bride
was opened, sure enough there lay a couple of bottles of the oldest
Jamaica rum in the British Isles, born before himself, and his father
to boot. 'Tis a fabulous spirit I beg you to believe in, my lady, the
sole merit of the story being its portentous veracity. The bottles were
tied to make them appear twins, as they both had the same claim to
seniority. And there was a label on them, telling their great age, to
maintain their identity. They were in truth a pair of patriarchal bottles
rivalling many of the biggest houses in the kingdom for antiquity. They
would have made the donkey that stood between the two bundles of
hay look at them with obliquity: supposing him to have, for an animal,
a rum taste, and a turn for hilarity. Wonderful old bottles! So, on the
label, just over the date, was written large: UNCLE BENJAMIN'S WED-
DING PRESENT TO HIS NIECE BESSY.
Poor Bessy shed tears of disap-
pointment and indignation enough to float the old gentleman on his
native element, ship and all.
She vowed it was done curmudgeonly
to vex her, because her uncle hated wedding-presents and had grunt-
ed at the exhibition of cups and saucers, and this and that beautiful
service, and epergnes
7 and inkstands, mirrors, knives and forks,
dressing-cases, and the whole mighty category. She protested, she
flung herself about, she declared those two ugly bottles should not
join the exhibition in the dining-room, where it was laid out for
days, and the family ate their meals where they could, on the walls,
like flies. But there was also Uncle Benjamin's legacy on view, in
the distance, so it was ruled against her that the bottles should
have their place. And one fine morning down came the family after
a fearful row of the domestics; shouting, screaming, cries for the
police, and murder topping all. What did they see? They saw two
prodigious burglars extended along the floor, each with one of the
twin bottles in his hand, and a remainder of the horror of the mid-
night hanging about his person like a blown fog, sufficient to frigh-
ten them whilst they kicked the rascals entirely intoxicated. Never
was wilder disorder of wedding-presents, and not one lost!--owing,
you'll own, to Uncle Benjy's two bottles of ancient Jamaica rum."

Colonel De Craye concluded with an asseveration of the truth of the
story.

"A most provident, far-sighted old sea-captain!" exclaimed Mrs.
Mountstuart, laughing at Lady Busshe and Lady Culmer. These ladies
chimed in with her gingerly.

"And have you many more clever stories, Colonel De Craye?" said Lady
Busshe.

"Ah! my lady, when the tree begins to count its gold 'tis nigh upon
bankruptcy."

"Poetic!" ejaculated Lady Culmer, spying at Miss Middleton's rippled
countenance, and noting that she and Sir Willoughby had not inter-
changed word or look.


"But that in the case of your Patterne Port a bottle of it would out-
value the catalogue of nuptial presents, Willoughby, I would recommend
your stationing some such constabulary to keep watch and ward." said
Dr. Middleton, as he filled his glass, taking Bordeaux in the middle
of the day, under a consciousness of virtue and its reward to come at
half-past seven in the evening.8

"The rascals would require a dozen of that, sir," said De Craye.

"Then it is not to be thought of. Indeed one!" Dr. Middleton negatived
the idea.

"We are no further advanced than when we began," observed Lady
Busshe.

"If we are marked to go by stages," Mrs. Mountstuart assented.

"Why, then, we shall be called old coaches," remarked the colonel.

"You," said Lady Culmer, "have the advantage of us in a closer
acquaintance with Miss Middleton. You know her tastes, and how far
they have been consulted in the little souvenirs already grouped
somewhere, although not yet for inspection. I am at sea. And here is
Lady Busshe in deadly alarm. There is plenty of time to effect a
change--though we are drawing on rapidly to the fatal day, Miss
Middleton. We are, we are very near it. Oh! yes. I am one who thinks
that these little affairs should be spoken of openly, without that
ridiculous bourgeois affectation, so that we may be sure of giving
satisfaction. It is a transaction like everything else in life. I,
for my part, wish to be remembered favourably. I put it as a test
of breeding to speak of these things as plain matter-of-fact. You
marry; I wish you to have something by you to remind you of me.
What shall it be?--useful or ornamental. For an ordinary household
the choice is not difficult. But where wealth abounds we are in a
dilemma."


"And with persons of decided tastes," added Lady Busshe.

"I am really very unhappy," she protested to Clara.

Sir Willoughby dropped Laetitia; Clara's look of a sedate resolu-
tion to preserve silence on the topic of the nuptial gifts made
a diversion imperative.

"Your porcelain was exquisitely chosen, and I profess to be a
connoisseur," he said. "I am poor in Old Saxony, as you know; I
can match the country in Savres, and my inheritance of China will
not easily be matched in the country."
9

"You may consider your Dragon vases a present from young Crossjay,"
said De Craye.

"How?"

"Hasn't he abstained from breaking them? the capital boy! Porcelain
and a boy in the house together is a case of prospective disaster
fully equal to Flitch and a fly."


"You should understand that my friend Horace--whose wit is in this
instance founded on another tale of a boy--brought us a magnificent
piece of porcelain, destroyed by the capsizing of his conveyance from
the station," said Sir Willoughby to Lady Busshe.

She and Lady Culmer gave out lamentable Ohs, while Miss Eleanor and
Miss Isabel Patterne sketched the incident. Then the lady visitors fixed
their eyes in united sympathy upon Clara: recovering from which, after
a contemplation of marble, Lady Busshe emphasized, "No, you do not
love porcelain, it is evident, Miss Middleton."

"I am glad to be assured of it," said Lady Culmer.

"Oh, I know that face: I know that look," Lady Busshe affected to
remark rallyingly: "it is not the first time I have seen it."

Sir Willoughby smarted to his marrow. "We will rout these fancies of
an overscrupulous generosity, my dear Lady Busshe."

Her unwonted breach of delicacy in speaking publicly of her present,
and the vulgar persistency of her sticking to the theme, very much
perplexed him. And if he mistook her not, she had just alluded to the
demoniacal Constantia Durham. It might be that he had mistaken her:
he was on guard against his terrible sensitiveness. Nevertheless it was
hard to account for this behaviour of a lady greatly his friend and ad-
mirer, a lady of birth. And Lady Culmer as well!--likewise a lady of birth.
Were they in collusion? had they a suspicion? He turned to Laetitia's
face for the antidote to his pain.

"Oh, but you are not one yet, and I shall require two voices to convince
me," Lady Busshe rejoined, after another stare at the marble.


"Lady Busshe, I beg you not to think me ungrateful," said Clara.

"Fiddle!--gratitude! it is to please your taste, to satisfy you. I care
for gratitude as little as for flattery."

"But gratitude is flattering," said Vernon.

"Now, no metaphysics, Mr. Whitford."

"But do care a bit for flattery, my lady," said De Craye. "'Tis the finest
of the Arts; we might call it moral sculpture. Adepts in it can cut their
friends to any shape they like by practising it with the requisite skill.
I myself, poor hand as I am, have made a man act Solomon by constantly
praising his wisdom. He took a sagacious turn at an early period of the
dose. He weighed the smallest question of his daily occasions with a
deliberation truly oriental.
Had I pushed it, he'd have hired a baby
and a couple of mothers to squabble over the undivided morsel."
10

"I shall hope for a day in London with you," said Lady Culmer to Clara.
"You did not forget the Queen of Sheba?" said Mrs. Mountstuart to De
Craye.


"With her appearance, the game has to be resigned to her entirely," he
rejoined.

"That is," Lady Culmer continued, "if you do not despise an old woman
for your comrade on a shopping excursion."

"Despise whom we fleece!" exclaimed Dr. Middleton. "Oh, no, Lady
Culmer, the sheep is sacred."


"I am not so sure," said Vernon.

"In what way, and to what extent, are you not so sure?" said Dr.
Middleton.

"The natural tendency is to scorn the fleeced."

"I stand for the contrary. Pity, if you like: particularly when they
bleat."


"This is to assume that makers of gifts are a fleeced people: I demur,"
said Mrs. Mountstuart.

"Madam, we are expected to give; we are incited to give; you have
dubbed it the fashion to give; and the person refusing to give, or
incapable of giving, may anticipate that he will be regarded as be-
nignly as a sheep of a drooping and flaccid wool by the farmer, who
is reminded by the poor beast's appearance of a strange dog that
worried the flock. Even Captain Benjamin, as you have seen, was
unable to withstand the demand on him. The hymeneal pair are lic-
ensed freebooters levying blackmail on us; survivors of an unciv-
ilized period.
But in taking without mercy, I venture to trust that
the manners of a happier era instruct them not to scorn us. I appre-
hend that Mr. Whitford has a lower order of latrons in his mind."
11

"Permit me to say, sir, that you have not considered the ignoble as-
pect of the fleeced," said Vernon. "I appeal to the ladies: would they
not, if they beheld an ostrich walking down a Queen's Drawing Room,
cleanplucked, despise him though they were wearing his plumes?"

"An extreme supposition, indeed," said Dr. Middleton, frowning over it;
"scarcely legitimately to be suggested."

"I think it fair, sir, as an instance."

"Has the circumstance occurred, I would ask?"

"In life? a thousand times."

"I fear so," said Mrs. Mountstuart.


Lady Busshe showed symptoms of a desire to leave a profitless table.

Vernon started up, glancing at the window.

"Did you see Crossjay?" he said to Clara.

"No; I must, if he is there," said she.

She made her way out, Vernon after her. They both had the excuse.

"Which way did the poor boy go?" she asked him.

"I have not the slightest idea," he replied. "But put on your bonnet,
if you would escape that pair of inquisitors."

"Mr. Whitford, what humiliation!"

"I suspect you do not feel it the most, and the end of it can't be
remote," said he.


Thus it happened that when Lady Busshe and Lady Culmer quitted the
dining-room, Miss Middleton had spirited herself away from summoning
voice and messenger.

Sir Willoughby apologized for her absence. "If I could be jealous, it
would be of that boy Crossjay."

"You are an excellent man, and the best of cousins," was Lady Busshe's
enigmatical answer.

The exceedingly lively conversation at his table was lauded by Lady
Culmer.

"Though," said she, "what it all meant, and what was the drift of it, I
couldn't tell to save my life. Is it every day the same with you here?"

"Very much."

"How you must enjoy a spell of dulness!"

"If you said simplicity and not talking for effect! I generally cast anchor
by Laetitia Dale."

"Ah!" Lady Busshe coughed. "But the fact is, Mrs. Mountstuart is made
for cleverness!"

"I think, my lady, Laetitia Dale is to the full as clever as any of the stars
Mrs. Mountstuart assembles, or I."

"Talkative cleverness, I mean."

"In conversation as well. Perhaps you have not yet given her a chance."

"Yes, yes, she is clever, of course, poor dear. She is looking better too."

"Handsome, I thought," said Lady Culmer.

"She varies," observed Sir Willoughby.

The ladies took seat in their carriage and fell at once into a closebonnet
colloquy. Not a single allusion had they made to the weddingpresents after
leaving the luncheon-table. The cause of their visit was obvious.




CHAPTER 37. Contains Clever Fencing and Intimations of the Need for it



That woman, Lady Busshe, had predicted, after the event, Constantia
Durham's defection. She had also, subsequent to Willoughby's depar-
ture on his travels, uttered sceptical things concerning his rooted
attachment to Laetitia Dale.
In her bitter vulgarity, that beaten rival
of Mrs. Mountstuart Jenkinson for the leadership of the county had taken
his nose for a melancholy prognostic of his fortunes; she had recently
played on his name: she had spoken the hideous English of his fate.
Little as she knew, she was alive to the worst interpretation of ap-
pearances. No other eulogy occurred to her now than to call him the
best of cousins, because Vernon Whitford was housed and clothed and
fed by him. She had nothing else to say for a man she thought luckless!
She was a woman barren of wit, stripped of style, but she was wealthy
and a gossip--a forge of showering sparks--and she carried Lady Cul-
mer with her. The two had driven from his house to spread the malig-
nant rumour abroad; already they blew the biting world on his raw
wound. Neither of them was like Mrs. Mountstuart, a witty woman,
who could be hoodwinked; they were dull women, who steadily kept on
their own scent of the fact, and the only way to confound such in-
veterate forces was to be ahead of them, and seize and transform the
expected fact, and astonish them, when they came up to him, with a
totally unanticipated fact.


"You see, you were in error, ladies."

"And so we were, Sir Willoughby, and we acknowledge it. We never
could have guessed that!"

Thus the phantom couple in the future delivered themselves, as well
they might at the revelation. He could run far ahead.


Ay, but to combat these dolts, facts had to be encountered, deeds done,
in groaning earnest. These representatives of the pig-sconces
1 of the
population judged by circumstances: airy shows and seems had no effect
on them. Dexterity of fence was thrown away.


A flying peep at the remorseless might of dulness in compelling us to a
concrete performance counter to our inclinations, if we would deceive
its terrible instinct, gave Willoughby for a moment the survey of a
sage. His intensity of personal feeling struck so vivid an illumination
of mankind at intervals that he would have been individually wise, had
he not been moved by the source of his accurate perceptions to a per-
sonal feeling of opposition to his own sagacity. He loathed and he des-
pised the vision, so his mind had no benefit of it, though he himself
was whipped along. He chose rather (and the choice is open to us all)
to be flattered by the distinction it revealed between himself and
mankind.

But if he was not as others were, why was he discomfited, solicitous,
miserable? To think that it should be so,
ran dead against his con-
queror's theories wherein he had been trained, which, so long as
he gained success awarded success to native merit, grandeur to the
grand in soul, as light kindles light: nature presents the example. His
early training, his bright beginning of life, had taught him to look to
earth's principal fruits as his natural portion, and it was owing to
a girl that he stood a mark for tongues, naked, wincing at the possible
malignity of a pair of harridans. Why not whistle the girl away?

Why, then he would be free to enjoy, careless, younger than his youth
in the rebound to happiness!

And then would his nostrils begin to lift and sniff at the creeping up
of a thick pestiferous vapour. Then in that volume of stench would he
discern the sullen yellow eye of malice. A malarious earth would hunt
him all over it. The breath of the world, the world's view of him, was
partly his vital breath, his view of himself.
The ancestry of the tor-
tured man had bequeathed him this condition of high civilization among
their other bequests.
Your withered contracted Egoists of the hut and
the grot reck not of public opinion; they crave but for liberty and
leisure to scratch themselves and soothe an excessive scratch.

Willoughby was expansive, a blooming one, born to look down upon a
tributary world, and to exult in being looked to. Do we wonder at his
consternation in the prospect of that world's blowing foul on him?
Princes have their obligations to teach them they are mortal, and the
brilliant heir of a tributary world is equally enchained by the homage
it brings him;--more, inasmuch as it is immaterial, elusive, not ga-
thered by the tax, and he cannot capitally punish the treasonable re-
cusants. Still must he be brilliant; he must court his people. He must
ever, both in his reputation and his person, aching though he be, show
them a face and a leg.

The wounded gentleman shut himself up in his laboratory, where he
could stride to and fro, and stretch out his arms for physical relief,
secure from observation of his fantastical shapes, under the idea that
he was meditating. There was perhaps enough to make him fancy it
in
the heavy fire of shots exchanged between his nerves and the situa-
tion; there were notable flashes.
He would not avow that he was in
an agony: it was merely a desire for exercise.

Quintessence of worldliness, Mrs. Mountstuart appeared through his
farthest window, swinging her skirts on a turn at the end of the lawn,
with Horace De Craye smirking beside her. And the woman's vaunted
penetration was unable to detect the histrionic Irishism of the fellow.
Or she liked him for his acting and nonsense; nor she only. The voluble
beast was created to snare women. Willoughby became smitten with an
adoration of stedfastness in women. The incarnation of that divine
quality crossed his eyes. She was clad in beauty.
A horrible non-
descript convulsion composed of yawn and groan drove him to his
instruments, to avert a renewal of the shock;
and while arranging
and fixing them for their unwonted task, he compared himself ad-
vantageously with men like Vernon and De Craye, and others of the
county, his fellows in the hunting-field and on the Magistrate's bench,
who neither understood nor cared for solid work, beneficial practical
work, the work of Science.

He was obliged to relinquish it: his hand shook.

"Experiments will not advance much at this rate," he said, casting the
noxious retardation on his enemies.

It was not to be contested that he must speak with Mrs Mountstuart,
however he might shrink from the trial of his facial muscles. Her not
coming to him seemed ominous: nor was her behaviour at the
luncheon-table quite obscure. She had evidently instigated the
gentlemen to cross and counterchatter Lady Busshe and Lady Culmer.

For what purpose?

Clara's features gave the answer.

They were implacable. And he could be the same.

In the solitude of his room he cried right out: "I swear it, I will never
yield her to Horace De Craye!
She shall feel some of my torments, and
try to get the better of them by knowing she deserves them."
He had
spoken it, and it was an oath upon the record.

Desire to do her intolerable hurt became an ecstasy in his veins,
and produced another stretching fit that terminated in a violent
shake of the body and limbs;
during which he was a spectacle for Mrs.
Mountstuart at one of the windows. He laughed as he went to her,
saying: "No, no work to-day; it won't be done, positively refuses."


"I am taking the Professor away," said she; "he is fidgety about the
cold he caught."

Sir Willoughby stepped out to her. "I was trying at a bit of work for
an hour, not to be idle all day."

"You work in that den of yours every day?"

"Never less than an hour, if I can snatch it."

"It is a wonderful resource!"


The remark set him throbbing and thinking that a prolongation of his
crisis exposed him to the approaches of some organic malady, possibly
heart-disease.


"A habit," he said. "In there I throw off the world."

"We shall see some results in due time."

"I promise none: I like to be abreast of the real knowledge of my day,
that is all."

"And a pearl among country gentlemen!"

"In your gracious consideration, my dear lady. Generally speaking,
it
would be more advisable to become a chatterer and keep an anecdotal
note-book. I could not do it, simply because I could not live with
my own emptiness for the sake of making an occasional display of
fireworks. I aim at solidity. It is a narrow aim, no doubt; not
much appreciated."


"Laetitia Dale appreciates it."

A smile of enforced ruefulness, like a leaf curling in heat, wrinkled
his mouth.


Why did she not speak of her conversation with Clara?

"Have they caught Crossjay?" he said.

"Apparently they are giving chase to him."

The likelihood was, that Clara had been overcome by timidity.
"Must you leave us?"

"I think it prudent to take Professor Crooklyn away."

"He still . . . ?"

"The extraordinary resemblance!"

"A word aside to Dr. Middleton will dispel that."

"You are thoroughly good."


This hateful encomium of commiseration transfixed him. Then she
knew of his calamity!


"Philosophical," he said, "would be the proper term, I think."

"Colonel De Craye, by the way, promises me a visit when he leaves
you."

"To-morrow?"

"The earlier the better. He is too captivating; he is delightful. He
won me in five minutes. I don't accuse him. Nature gifted him to cast
the spell. We are weak women, Sir Willoughby."

She knew!

"Like to like: the witty to the witty, ma'am."

"You won't compliment me with a little bit of jealousy?"

"I forbear from complimenting him."

"Be philosophical, of course, if you have the philosophy."

"I pretend to it. Probably I suppose myself to succeed because I have
no great requirement of it; I cannot say. We are riddles to ourselves."

Mrs. Mountstuart pricked the turf with the point of her parasol. She
looked down and she looked up.

"Well?" said he to her eyes.

"Well, and where is Laetitia Dale?"

He turned about to show his face elsewhere.

When he fronted her again, she looked very fixedly, and set her head
shaking.


"It will not do, my dear Sir Willoughby!"

"What?"

"I never could solve enigmas."

"Playing ta-ta-ta-ta ad infinitum,
2 then. Things have gone far. All par-
ties would be happier for an excursion. Send her home."

"Laetitia? I can't part with her."

Mrs. Mountstuart put a tooth on her under lip as her head renewed its
brushing negative.

"In what way can it be hurtful that she should be here, ma'am?" he
ventured to persist.

"Think."

"She is proof."
3

"Twice!"

The word was big artillery. He tried the affectation of a staring
stupidity. She might have seen his heart thump, and he quitted the
mask for an agreeable grimace.


"She is inaccessible. She is my friend. I guarantee her, on my honour.
Have no fear for her. I beg you to have confidence in me. I would
perish rather. No soul on earth is to be compared with her."


Mrs. Mountstuart repeated "Twice!"

The low monosyllable, musically spoken in the same tone of warning
of a gentle ghost, rolled a thunder that maddened him, but he dared
not take it up to fight against it on plain terms.


"Is it for my sake?" he said.

"It will not do, Sir Willoughby."


She spurred him to a frenzy.

"My dear Mrs. Mountstuart, you have been listening to tales. I am not
a tyrant. I am one of the most easy-going of men. Let us preserve the
forms due to society: I say no more. As for poor old Vernon, people call
me a good sort of cousin; I should like to see him comfortably married;
decently married this time. I have proposed to contribute to his es-
tablishment. I mention it to show that the case has been practically
considered.
He has had a tolerably souring experience of the state; he
might be inclined if, say, you took him in hand, for another venture.

It's a demoralizing lottery.
However, Government sanctions it."

"But, Sir Willoughby, what is the use of my taking him in hand when, as
you tell me, Laetitia Dale holds back?"

"She certainly does."

"Then we are talking to no purpose, unless you undertake to melt her."

He suffered a lurking smile to kindle to some strength of meaning.
"You are not over-considerate in committing me to such an office."

"You are afraid of the danger?" she all but sneered.

Sharpened by her tone,
he said, "I have such a love of stedfastness of
character, that I should be a poor advocate in the endeavour to break
it. And frankly, I know the danger. I saved my honour when I made the
attempt: that is all I can say."

"Upon my word," Mrs. Mountstuart threw back her head to let her eyes
behold him summarily over their fine aquiline bridge, "you have the
art of mystification, my good friend."


"Abandon the idea of Laetitia Dale."

"And marry your cousin Vernon to whom? Where are we?"

"As I said, ma'am,
I am an easy-going man. I really have not a spice
of the tyrant in me. An intemperate creature held by the collar may
have that notion of me, while pulling to be released as promptly as it
entered the noose. But I do strictly and sternly object to the scandal
of violent separations, open breaches of solemn engagements, a public
rupture. Put it that I am the cause, I will not consent to a violation
of decorum. Is that clear?
It is just possible for things to be arran-
ged so that all parties may be happy in their way without much hubbub.
Mind, it is not I who have willed it so. I am, and I am forced to be,
passive. But I will not be obstructive."


He paused, waving his hand to signify the vanity of the more that
might be said.

Some conception of him, dashed by incredulity, excited the lady's
intelligence.

"Well!" she exclaimed,
"you have planted me in the land of conjecture.
As my husband used to say, I don't see light, but I think I see the lynx
that does.
We won't discuss it at present. I certainly must be a younger
woman than I supposed, for I am learning hard.--Here comes the Pro-
fessor, buttoned up to the ears, and Dr. Middleton flapping in the
breeze. There will be a cough, and a footnote referring to the young
lady at the station, if we stand together, so please order my carriage."

"You found Clara complacent? roguish?"

"I will call to-morrow. You have simplified my task, Sir Willoughby,
very much; that is, assuming that I have not entirely mistaken you. I
am so far in the dark that I have to help myself by recollecting how
Lady Busshe opposed my view of a certain matter formerly. Scepticism
is her forte. It will be the very oddest thing if after all . . . !
No, I shall own, romance has not departed. Are you fond of dupes?"

"I detest the race."

"An excellent answer. I could pardon you for it." She refrained from
adding, "If you are making one of me."

Sir Willoughby went to ring for her carriage.

She knew. That was palpable: Clara had betrayed him.


"The earlier Colonel De Craye leaves Patterne Hall the better:" she had
said that: and, "all parties would be happier for an excursion." She
knew the position of things and she guessed the remainder. But what
she did not know, and could not divine, was the man who fenced her.
He speculated further on the witty and the dull. These latter are the
redoubtable body. They will have facts to convince them: they had, he
confessed it to himself, precipitated him into the novel sphere of his
dark hints to Mrs. Mountstuart; from which the utter darkness might
allow him to escape, yet it embraced him singularly, and even
pleasantly, with the sense of a fact established.

It embraced him even very pleasantly. There was an end to his
tortures. He sailed on a tranquil sea, the husband of a stedfast
woman--no rogue. The exceeding beauty of stedfastness in women
clothed Laetitia in graces Clara could not match. A tried stedfast
woman is the one jewel of the sex. She points to her husband like the
sunflower; her love illuminates him; she lives in him, for him; she
testifies to his worth; she drags the world to his feet; she leads the
chorus of his praises; she justifies him in his own esteem. Surely
there is not on earth such beauty!

If we have to pass through anguish to discover it and cherish the peace
it gives to clasp it, calling it ours, is a full reward. Deep in his
reverie, he said his adieus to Mrs. Mountstuart, and strolled up the
avenue behind the carriage-wheels, unwilling to meet Laetitia till he
had exhausted the fresh savour of the cud of fancy.

Supposing it done!--

It would be generous on his part. It would redound to his credit.
His home would be a fortress, impregnable to tongues. He would have
divine security in his home.

One who read and knew and worshipped him would be sitting there
star-like: sitting there, awaiting him, his fixed star.

It would be marriage with a mirror, with an echo; marriage with a
shining mirror, a choric echo.

It would be marriage with an intellect, with a fine understanding;
to make his home a fountain of repeatable wit: to make his dear old
Patterne Hall the luminary of the county.

He revolved it as a chant: with anon and anon involuntarily a
discordant animadversion on Lady Busshe. Its attendant imps heard
the angry inward cry.

Forthwith he set about painting Laetitia in delectable human colours,
like a miniature of the past century, reserving her ideal figure for his
private satisfaction. The world was to bow to her visible beauty, and
he gave her enamel and glow, a taller stature, a swimming air, a
transcendency that exorcized the image of the old witch who had
driven him to this.

The result in him was, that Laetitia became humanly and avowedly
beautiful. Her dark eyelashes on the pallor of her cheeks lent their
aid to the transformation, which was a necessity to him, so it was
performed. He received the waxen impression.

His retinue of imps had a revel.
We hear wonders of men, and we see a
lifting up of hands in the world. The wonders would be explained, and
never a hand need to interject, if the mystifying man were but accom-
panied by
that monkey-eyed confraternity. They spy the heart and its
twists.

The heart is the magical gentleman. None of them would follow where
there was no heart. The twists of the heart are the comedy.

"The secret of the heart is its pressing love of self ", says the Book.
By that secret the mystery of the organ is legible: and a comparison of
the heart to the mountain rillet is taken up to show us the unbaffled
force of the little channel in seeking to swell its volume, strenuously,
sinuously, ever in pursuit of self;
the busiest as it is the most sing-
leaiming of forces on our earth. And we are directed to the sinuosities
for posts of observation chiefly instructive.

Few maintain a stand there. People see, and they rush away to inter-
change liftings of hands at the sight, instead of patiently studying
the phenomenon of energy.

Consequently a man in love with one woman, and in all but absolute
consciousness, behind the thinnest of veils, preparing his mind to love
another, will be barely credible.
The particular hunger of the forceful
but adaptable heart is the key of him. Behold the mountain rillet,
become a brook, become a torrent, how it inarms a handsome boulder:
yet if the stone will not go with it, on it hurries, pursuing self in
extension, down to where perchance a dam has been raised of a suffi-
cient depth to enfold and keep it from inordinate restlessness.
Laetitia represented this peaceful restraining space in prospect.

But she was a faded young woman. He was aware of it; and systema-
tically looking at himself with her upturned orbs, he accepted her
benevolently as a God grateful for worship, and used the divinity
she imparted to paint and renovate her. His heart required her so.
The heart works the springs of imagination; imagination received
its commission from the heart, and was a cunning artist.

Cunning to such a degree of seductive genius that the masterpiece it
offered to his contemplation enabled him simultaneously to gaze on
Clara and think of Laetitia. Clara came through the park-gates with
Vernon, a brilliant girl indeed, and a shallow one: a healthy creature,
and an animal; attractive, but capricious, impatient, treacherous, foul;
a woman to drag men through the mud.
She approached.



CHAPTER 38. In Which We Take a Step to the Centre of Egoism



They met; Vernon soon left them.

"You have not seen Crossjay?" Willoughby inquired.

"No," said Clara. "Once more I beg you to pardon him. He spoke falsely,
owing to his poor boy's idea of chivalry."

"The chivalry to the sex which commences in lies ends by creating the
woman's hero, whom we see about the world and in certain courts of
law."

His ability to silence her was great: she could not reply to speech like
that.


"You have," said he, "made a confidante of Mrs. Mountstuart."

"Yes."

"This is your purse."

"I thank you."

"Professor Crooklyn has managed to make your father acquainted with
your project. That, I suppose, is the railway ticket in the fold of
the purse. He was assured at the station that you had taken a ticket
to London, and would not want the fly."

"It is true. I was foolish."

"You have had a pleasant walk with Vernon--turning me in and out?"

"We did not speak of you. You allude to what he would never consent
to."

"He's an honest fellow, in his old-fashioned way. He's a secret old
fellow. Does he ever talk about his wife to you?"

Clara dropped her purse, and stooped and picked it up.

"I know nothing of Mr. Whitford's affairs," she said, and she opened
the purse and tore to pieces the railway ticket.

"The story's a proof that romantic spirits do not furnish the most
romantic history. You have the word 'chivalry' frequently on your lips.
He chivalrously married the daughter of the lodging-house where he
resided before I took him. We obtained information of the auspicious
union in a newspaper report of Mrs. Whitford's drunkenness and riot-
ing at a London railway terminus--probably the one whither your tick-
et would have taken you yesterday, for I heard the lady was on her
way to us for supplies, the connubial larder being empty."

"I am sorry; I am ignorant; I have heard nothing; I know nothing," said
Clara.

"You are disgusted. But half the students and authors you hear of
marry in that way. And very few have Vernon's luck."

"She had good qualities?" asked Clara.

Her under lip hung.

It looked like disgust; he begged her not indulge the feeling.


"Literary men, it is notorious, even with the entry to society, have
no taste in women. The housewife is their object. Ladies frighten and
would, no doubt, be an annoyance and hindrance to them at home."

"You said he was fortunate."

"You have a kindness for him."

"I respect him."

"He is a friendly old fellow in his awkward fashion; honourable, and so
forth. But a disreputable alliance of that sort sticks to a man. The world
will talk. Yes, he was fortunate so far; he fell into the mire and got out
of it. Were he to marry again . . ."

"She . . ."

"Died. Do not be startled; it was a natural death. She responded to the
sole wishes left to his family. He buried the woman, and I received him.
I took him on my tour. A second marriage might cover the first: there
would be a buzz about the old business: the woman's relatives write to
him still, try to bleed him, I dare say. However, now you understand
his gloominess. I don't imagine he regrets his loss. He probably sent-
imentalizes, like most men when they are well rid of a burden. You
must not think the worse of him."


"I do not," said Clara.

"I defend him whenever the matter's discussed."

"I hope you do."

"Without approving his folly.
I can't wash him clean."

They were at the Hall-doors. She waited for any personal communi-
cations he might be pleased to make, and as there was none, she
ran upstairs to her room.


He had tossed her to Vernon in his mind, not only painlessly, but with
a keen acid of satisfaction. The heart is the wizard.


Next he bent his deliberate steps to Laetitia.

The mind was guilty of some hesitation; the feet went forward.

She was working at an embroidery by an open window. Colonel De Craye
leaned outside, and Willoughby pardoned her air of demure amusement,
on hearing him say: "No, I have had one of the pleasantest half-hours
of my life, and would rather idle here, if idle you will have it, than
employ my faculties on horse-back,"

"Time is not lost in conversing with Miss Dale," said Willoughby.

The light was tender to her complexion where she sat in partial
shadow.


De Craye asked whether Crossjay had been caught.

Laetitia murmured a kind word for the boy. Willoughby examined her
embroidery.

The ladies Eleanor and Isabel appeared.

They invited her to take carriage exercise with them.

Laetitia did not immediately answer, and Willoughby remarked: "Miss
Dale has been reproving Horace for idleness and I recommend you to
enlist him to do duty, while I relieve him here."

The ladies had but to look at the colonel. He was at their disposal, if
they would have him. He was marched to the carriage.

Laetitia plied her threads.

"Colonel De Craye spoke of Crossjay," she said. "May I hope you have
forgiven the poor boy, Sir Willoughby?"

He replied: "Plead for him."

"I wish I had eloquence."

"In my opinion you have it."

"If he offends, it is never from meanness. At school, among comrades,
he would shine. He is in too strong a light; his feelings and his moral
nature are over-excited."


"That was not the case when he was at home with you."

"I am severe; I am stern."

"A Spartan mother!"
1

"My system of managing a boy would be after that model: except in
this: he should always feet that he could obtain forgiveness."

"Not at the expense of justice?"

"Ah! young creatures are not to be arraigned before the higher Courts.
It seems to me perilous to terrify their imaginations
. If we do so, are
we not likely to produce the very evil we are combating? The alter-
nations for the young should be school and home: and it should be
in their hearts to have confidence that forgiveness alternates with
discipline. They are of too tender an age for the rigours of the world;
we are in danger of hardening them. I prove to you that I am not
possessed of eloquence. You encouraged me to speak, Sir Willoughby."

"You speak wisely, Laetitia."

"I think it true. Will not you reflect on it? You have only to do so to
forgive him. I am growing bold indeed, and shall have to beg forgive-
ness for myself."

"You still write? you continue to work with your pen?" said
Willoughby.

"A little; a very little."

"I do not like you to squander yourself, waste yourself, on the public.
You are too precious to feed the beast. Giving out incessantly must end
by attenuating. Reserve yourself for your friends. Why should they be
robbed of so much of you? Is it not reasonable to assume that by lying
fallow you would be more enriched for domestic life? Candidly, had I
authority I would confiscate your pen: I would 'away with that bauble'.
2
You will not often find me quoting Cromwell, but his words apply in
this instance. I would say rather, that lancet. Perhaps it is the more
correct term. It bleeds you, it wastes you. For what? For a breath of
fame!"

"I write for money."


"And there--I would say of another--you subject yourself to the risk
of mental degradation. Who knows?--moral! Trafficking the brains for
money must bring them to the level of the purchasers in time.
I
confiscate your pen, Laetitia."


"It will be to confiscate your own gift, Sir Willoughby."

"Then that proves--will you tell me the date?"

"You sent me a gold pen-holder on my sixteenth birthday."

"It proves my utter thoughtlessness then, and later. And later!"

He rested an elbow on his knee, and
covered his eyes, murmuring in
that profound hollow which is haunted by the voice of a contrite past:
"And later!"

The deed could be done. He had come to the conclusion that it could be
done, though the effort to harmonize the figure sitting near him, with
the artistic figure of his purest pigments, had cost him labour and a
blinking of the eyelids. That also could be done. Her pleasant tone,
sensible talk, and the light favouring her complexion, helped him in his
effort. She was a sober cup; sober and wholesome. Deliriousness is for
adolescence. The men who seek intoxicating cups are men who invite
their fates.


Curiously, yet as positively as things can be affirmed, the husband
of this woman would be able to boast of her virtues and treasures
abroad, as he could not--impossible to say why not--boast of a
beautiful wife or a blue-stocking wife.
3 One of her merits as a wife
would be this extraordinary neutral merit of a character that demand-
ed colour from the marital hand, and would take it. Laetitia had not
to learn that he had much to distress him. Her wonder at his exposure
of his grief counteracted a fluttering of vague alarm. She was nervous;
she sat in expectation of some burst of regrets or of passion.


"I may hope that you have pardoned Crossjay?" she said.

"My friend," said he, uncovering his face, "I am governed by principles.
Convince me of an error, I shall not obstinately pursue a premeditated
course. But you know me. Men who have not principles to rule their
conduct are--well, they are unworthy of a half hour of companionship
with you. I will speak to you to-night. I have letters to dispatch.
Tonight: at twelve: in the room where we spoke last. Or await me in the
drawing-room. I have to attend to my guests till late."

He bowed; he was in a hurry to go.


The deed could be done. It must be done; it was his destiny.



CHAPTER 39. In the Heart of the Egoist



But already he had begun to regard the deed as his executioner. He
dreaded meeting Clara. The folly of having retained her stood before
him. How now to look on her and keep a sane resolution unwavering?
She tempted to the insane. Had she been away, he could have walked
through the performance composed by the sense of doing a duty to him-
self; perhaps faintly hating the poor wretch he made happy at last,
kind to her in a manner, polite. Clara's presence in the house previous
to the deed, and, oh, heaven! after it, threatened his wits. Pride? He
had none; he cast it down for her to trample it; he caught it back ere
it was trodden on. Yes; he had pride: he had it as a dagger in his
breast: his pride was his misery. But he was too proud to submit to
misery. "What I do is right." He said the words, and rectitude smooth-
ed his path, till the question clamoured for answer: Would the world
countenance and endorse his pride in Laetitia? At one time, yes. And
now? Clara's beauty ascended, laid a beam on him.
1

We are on board the labouring vessel of humanity in a storm, when
cries and countercries ring out, disorderliness mixes the crew, and
the fury of self-preservation divides: this one is for the ship, that
one for his life. Clara was the former to him, Laetitia the latter. But
what if there might not be greater safety in holding tenaciously to
Clara than in casting her off for Laetitia? No, she had done things to
set his pride throbbing in the quick. She had gone bleeding about first
to one, then to another; she had betrayed him to Vernon, and to Mrs.
Mountstuart; a look in the eyes of Horace De Craye said, to him as well:
to whom not?
He might hold to her for vengeance; but that appetite was
short-lived in him if it ministered nothing to his purposes. "I discard
all idea of vengeance," he said, and thrilled burningly to a smart in
his admiration of the man who could be so magnanimous under mortal in-
jury; for the more admirable he, the more pitiable. He drank a drop or
two of self-pity like a poison, repelling the assaults of public pity.
Clara must be given up. It must be seen by the world that, as he felt,
the thing he did was right. Laocoon of his own serpents, he struggled
to a certain magnificence of attitude in the muscular net of constric-
tions he flung around himself.
2 Clara must be given up. Oh, bright Abom-
inable! She must be given up: but not to one whose touch of her would be
darts in the blood of the yielder, snakes in his bed: she must be given
up to an extinguisher; to be the second wife of an old-fashioned semi-
recluse, disgraced in his first.
And were it publicly known that she had
been cast off, and had fallen on old Vernon for a refuge, and part in
spite, part in shame, part in desperation, part in a fit of good sense
under the circumstances, espoused him, her beauty would not influence
the world in its judgement. The world would know what to think. As the
instinct of self-preservation whispered to Willoughby, the world, were
it requisite, might be taught to think what it assuredly would not think
if she should be seen tripping to the altar with Horace De Craye. Self-
preservation, not vengeance, breathed that whisper. He glanced at her
iniquity for a justification of it, without any desire to do her a per-
manent hurt: he was highly civilized: but with a strong intention to
give her all the benefit of a scandal, supposing a scandal, or ordinary
tattle.

"And so he handed her to his cousin and secretary, Vernon Whitford,
who opened his mouth and shut his eyes."

You hear the world? How are we to stop it from chattering? Enough
that he had no desire to harm her.
Some gentle anticipations of her
being tarnished were imperative; they came spontaneously to him;
otherwise the radiance of that bright Abominable in loss would have
been insufferable; he could not have borne it; he could never have
surrendered her.

Moreover, a happy present effect was the result. He conjured up the
anticipated chatter and shrug of the world so vividly that her beauty
grew hectic with the stain, bereft of its formidable magnetism. He
could meet her calmly; he had steeled himself. Purity in women was
his principal stipulation, and a woman puffed at,
3 was not the person
to cause him tremours.


Consider him indulgently: the Egoist is the Son of Himself. He is
likewise the Father. And the son loves the father, the father the son;
they reciprocate affection through the closest of ties; and shall they
view behaviour unkindly wounding either of them, not for each other's
dear sake abhorring the criminal? They would not injure you, but they
cannot consent to see one another suffer or crave in vain. The two rub
together in sympathy besides relationship to an intenser one. Are you,
without much offending, sacrificed by them, it is on the altar of their
mutual love, to filial piety or paternal tenderness: the younger has
offered a dainty morsel to the elder, or the elder to the younger.
Absorbed in their great example of devotion do they not think of you.
They are beautiful.

Yet is it most true that the younger has the passions of youth: whereof
will come division between them; and this is a tragic state. They are
then pathetic. This was the state of Sir Willoughby lending ear to his
elder, until he submitted to bite at the fruit proposed to him--with
how wry a mouth the venerable senior chose not to mark.
At least, as
we perceive, a half of him was ripe of wisdom in his own interests. The
cruder half had but to be obedient to the leadership of sagacity for his
interests to be secured, and a filial disposition assisted him; painfully
indeed; but the same rare quality directed the good gentleman to
swallow his pain. That the son should bewail his fate were a dishonour
to the sire. He reverenced, and submitted. Thus, to say, consider him
indulgently, is too much an appeal for charity on behalf of
one
requiring but initial anatomy--a slicing in halves--to exonerate,
perchance exalt him. The Egoist is our fountain-head, primeval man:
the primitive is born again, the elemental reconstituted. Born again,
into new conditions, the primitive may be highly polished of men, and
forfeit nothing save the roughness of his original nature. He is not only
his own father, he is ours; and he is also our son. We have produced
him, he us.
Such were we, to such are we returning: not other, sings
the poet, than one who toilfully works his shallop against the tide, "si
brachia forte remisit"
4:--let him haply relax the labour of his arms,
however high up the stream, and back he goes, "in pejus",
to the early
principle of our being, with seeds and plants, that are as carelessly
weighed in the hand and as indiscriminately husbanded as our humanity.

Poets on the other side may be cited for an assurance that the
primitive is not the degenerate: rather is he a sign of the
indestructibility of the race, of the ancient energy in removing
obstacles to individual growth; a sample of what we would be, had we
his concentrated power. He is the original innocent, the pure simple.
It is we who have fallen; we have melted into Society, diluted our
essence, dissolved. He stands in the midst monumentally, a land-mark
of the tough and honest old Ages, with the symbolic alphabet of strik-
ing arms and running legs, our early language, scrawled over his per-
son, and the glorious first flint and arrow-head for his crest: at
once the spectre of the Kitchen-midden
5 and our ripest issue.

But Society is about him. The occasional spectacle of the primitive
dangling on a rope has impressed his mind with the strength of his
natural enemy: from which uncongenial sight he has turned shudder-
ing hardly less to behold the blast that is blown upon a reputation
where one has been disrespectful of the many. By these means, through
meditation on the contrast of circumstances in life, a pulse of ima-
gination has begun to stir, and he has entered the upper sphere or
circle of spiritual Egoism: he has become the civilized Egoist;
primitive still, as sure as man has teeth, but developed in his man-
ner of using them.


Degenerate or not (and there is no just reason to suppose it) Sir
Willoughby was a social Egoist, fiercely imaginative in whatsoever
concerned him. He had discovered a greater realm than that of the
sensual appetites, and he rushed across and around it in his
conquering period with an Alexander's pride. On these wind-like
journeys he had carried Constantia, subsequently Clara; and however
it may have been in the case of Miss Durham, in that of Miss Middleton
it is almost certain
she caught a glimpse of his interior from sheer
fatigue in hearing him discourse of it. What he revealed was not the
cause of her sickness: women can bear revelations--they are exciting:
but the monotonousness. He slew imagination. There is no direr
disaster in love than the death of imagination. He dragged her through
the labyrinths of his penetralia,
6 in his hungry coveting to be loved
more and still more, more still, until imagination gave up the ghost,
and he talked to her plain hearing like a monster. It must have been
that; for the spell of the primitive upon women is masterful up to the
time of contact.


"And so he handed her to his cousin and secretary, Vernon Whitford,
who opened his mouth and shut his eyes."

The urgent question was, how it was to be accomplished. Willoughby
worked at the subject with all his power of concentration: a power
that had often led him to feel and say, that as a barrister, a diplo-
matist, or a general, he would have won his grades: and granting him
a personal interest in the business, he might have achieved eminence:
he schemed and fenced remarkably well.

He projected a scene, following expressions of anxiety on account of
old Vernon and his future settlement: and then Clara maintaining her
doggedness, to which he was now so accustomed that he could not con-
ceive a change in it--says he: "If you determine on breaking I give
you back your word on one condition." Whereupon she starts: he in-
sists on her promise: she declines: affairs resume their former foot-
ing; she frets: she begs for the disclosure: he flatters her by telling
her his desire to keep her in the family: she is unilluminated, but
strongly moved by curiosity: he philosophizes on marriage "What are
we? poor creatures! we must get through life as we can, doing as much
good as we can to those we love; and think as you please, I love old
Vernon. Am I not giving you the greatest possible proof of it?" She will
not see. Then flatly out comes the one condition. That and no other.
"Take Vernon and I release you." She refuses. Now ensues the debate,
all the oratory being with him. "Is it because of his unfortunate first
marriage? You assured me you thought no worse of him," etc. She de-
clares the proposal revolting. He can distinguish nothing that should
offend her in a proposal to make his cousin happy if she will not him.
Irony and sarcasm relieve his emotions, but he convinces her he is
dealing plainly and intends generosity. She is confused; she speaks
in maiden fashion.


He touches again on Vernon's early escapade. She does not enjoy it.
The scene closes with his bidding her reflect on it, and remember the
one condition of her release. Mrs. Mountstuart Jenkinson, now re-
duced to believe that he burns to be free, is then called in for an
interview with Clara. His aunts Eleanor and Isabel besiege her. Lae-
titia in passionate earnest besieges her. Her father is wrought on to
besiege her. Finally Vernon is attacked by Willoughby and Mrs. Mount-
stuart:--and here, Willoughby chose to think, was the main difficulty.
But the girl has money; she is agreeable; Vernon likes her; she is
fond of his "Alps", they have tastes in common, he likes her father,
and in the end he besieges her. Will she yield? De Craye is absent.
There is no other way of shunning a marriage she is incomprehen-
sibly but frantically averse to. She is in the toils. Her father will
stay at Patterne Hall as long as his host desires it. She hesitates,
she is overcome; in spite of a certain nausea due to Vernon's pre-
ceding alliance, she yields.


Willoughby revolved the entire drama in Clara's presence. It helped
him to look on her coolly. Conducting her to the dinner-table, he spoke
of Crossjay, not unkindly; and at table,
he revolved the set of scenes
with a heated animation that took fire from the wine and the face of
his friend Horace,
while he encouraged Horace to be flowingly Irish.
He nipped the fellow good-humouredly once or twice, having never felt
so friendly to him since the day of his arrival; but the position of
critic is instinctively taken by men who do not flow: and Patterne Port
kept Dr Middleton in a benevolent reserve when Willoughby decided
that something said by De Craye was not new, and
laughingly accused
him of failing to consult his anecdotal notebook for the double-cross to
his last sprightly sally. "Your sallies are excellent, Horace, but
spare us your Aunt Sallies!
" De Craye had no repartee, nor did Dr.
Middleton challenge a pun. We have only to sharpen our wits to trip
your seductive rattler whenever we may choose to think proper; and
evidently, if we condescended to it, we could do better than he. The
critic who has hatched a witticism is impelled to this opinion. Judging
by the smiles of the ladies, they thought so, too.


Shortly before eleven o'clock Dr. Middleton made a Spartan stand
against the offer of another bottle of Port. The regulation couple of
bottles had been consumed in equal partnership, and the Rev. Doctor
and his host were free to pay a ceremonial visit to the drawing-room,
where they were not expected. A piece of work of the elder ladies, a
silken boudoir sofa-rug, was being examined, with high approval of the
two younger. Vernon and Colonel De Craye had gone out in search of
Crossjay, one to Mr. Dale's cottage, the other to call at the head and
under-gamekeeper's. They were said to be strolling and smoking, for
the night was fine. Willoughby left the room and came back with the
key of Crossjay's door in his pocket. He foresaw that the delinquent
might be of service to him.7

Laetitia and Clara sang together. Laetitia was flushed, Clara pale.
At eleven they saluted the ladies Eleanor and Isabel. Willoughby said
"Good-night" to each of them, contrasting as he did so the downcast
look of Laetitia with Clara's frigid directness. He divined that they
were off to talk over their one object of common interest, Crossjay.
Saluting his aunts, he took up the rug, to celebrate their diligence
and taste; and that he might make Dr. Middleton impatient for bed, he
provoked him to admire it, held it out and laid it out, and caused the
courteous old gentleman some confusion in hitting on fresh terms of
commendation.

Before midnight the room was empty. Ten minutes later Willoughby paid
it a visit, and found it untenanted by the person he had engaged to be
there. Vexed by his disappointment, he paced up and down, and chanced
abstractedly to catch the rug in his hand; for what purpose, he might
well ask himself; admiration of ladies' work, in their absence, was
unlikely to occur to him.
Nevertheless, the touch of the warm, soft
silk was meltingly feminine. A glance at the mantel-piece clock told
him Laetitia was twenty minutes behind the hour.

Her remissness might endanger all his plans, alter the whole course
of his life. The colours in which he painted her were too lively to last;
the madness in his head threatened to subside.
Certain it was that he
could not be ready a second night for the sacrifice he had been about
to perform.

The clock was at the half hour after twelve. He flung the silken thing
on the central ottoman, extinguished the lamps, and walked out of the
room, charging the absent Laetitia to bear her misfortune with a
consciousness of deserving it.




CHAPTER 40. Midnight: Sir Willoughby and Laetitia: With Young Crossjay Under a Coverlet



Young Crossjay was a glutton at holidays and never thought of home
till it was dark. The close of the day saw him several miles away
from the Hall, dubious whether he would not round his numerous
adventures by sleeping at an inn; for he had lots of money, and the
idea of jumping up in the morning in a strange place was thrilling.

Besides, when he was shaken out of sleep by Sir Willoughby, he had
been told that he was to go, and not to show his face at Patterne
again. On the other hand, Miss Middleton had bidden him come back.
There was little question with him which person he should obey: he
followed his heart.

Supper at an inn, where he found a company to listen to his adven-
tures, delayed him, and a short cut, intended to make up for it,
lost him his road. He reached the Hall very late, ready to be in
love with the horrible pleasure of a night's rest under the stars,
if necessary. But a candle burned at one of the back windows
. He
knocked, and a kitchen-maid let him in. She had a bowl of hot soup
prepared for him. Crossjay tried a mouthful to please her. His head
dropped over it. She roused him to his feet, and he pitched against her
shoulder. The dry air of the kitchen department had proved too much
for the tired youngster. Mary, the maid, got him to step as firmly as
he was able, and led him by the back-way to the hall, bidding him creep
noiselessly to bed. He understood his position in the house, and
though he could have gone fast to sleep on the stairs, he took a steady
aim at his room and gained the door cat-like. The door resisted. He
was appalled and unstrung in a minute. The door was locked. Crossjay
felt as if he were in the presence of Sir Willoughby. He fled on ricketty
legs, and had a fall and bumps down half a dozen stairs. A door opened
above. He rushed across the hall to the drawing-room, invitingly open,
and there staggered in darkness to the ottoman and rolled himself in
something sleek and warm, soft as hands of ladies, and redolent of
them; so delicious that he hugged the folds about his head and heels.
While he was endeavouring to think where he was, his legs curled, his
eyelids shut, and he was in the thick of the day's adventures, doing yet
more wonderful things.

He heard his own name: that was quite certain. He knew that he heard
it with his ears, as he pursued the fleetest dreams ever accorded to
mortal. It did not mix: it was outside him, and like the danger-pole in
the ice, which the skater shooting hither and yonder comes on again, it
recurred; and now it marked a point in his career, how it caused him
to relax his pace; he began to circle, and whirled closer round it,
until, as at a blow, his heart knocked, he tightened himself, thought
of bolting, and lay dead-still to throb and hearken.


"Oh! Sir Willoughby," a voice had said.

The accents were sharp with alarm.

"My friend! my dearest!" was the answer.


"I came to speak of Crossjay."

"Will you sit here on the ottoman?"

"No, I cannot wait. I hoped I had heard Crossjay return. I would rather
not sit down. May I entreat you to pardon him when he comes home?"

"You, and you only, may do so. I permit none else. Of Crossjay tomorrow."

"He may be lying in the fields. We are anxious."

"The rascal can take pretty good care of himself."

"Crossjay is perpetually meeting accidents."

"He shall be indemnified if he has had excess of punishment."

"I think I will say good-night, Sir Willoughby."

"When freely and unreservedly you have given me your hand."

There was hesitation.

"To say good-night?"

"I ask you for your hand."

"Good-night, Sir Willoughby."

"You do not give it. You are in doubt? Still? What language must I
use to convince you? And yet you know me. Who knows me but you? You
have always known me. You are my home and my temple. Have you for-
gotten your verses of the day of my majority?


                 'The dawn-star has arisen
                 In plenitude of light . . .'"

"Do not repeat them, pray!" cried Laetitia, with a gasp.

"I have repeated them to myself a thousand times: in India, America,
Japan: they were like our English skylark, carolling to me.

                 'My heart, now burst thy prison
                 With proud aerial flight!'"

"Oh, I beg you will not force me to listen to nonsense that I wrote when
I was a child. No more of those most foolish lines! If you knew what it
is to write and despise one's writing, you would not distress me. And
since you will not speak of Crossjay to-night, allow me to retire."
"You know me, and therefore you know my contempt for verses, as a
rule, Laetitia. But not for yours to me. Why should you call them
foolish? They expressed your feelings--hold them sacred. They are
something religious to me, not mere poetry. Perhaps the third verse
is my favourite . . ."

"It will be more than I can bear!"

"You were in earnest when you wrote them?"

"I was very young, very enthusiastic, very silly."

"You were and are my image of constancy!"


"It is an error, Sir Willoughby; I am far from being the same."

"We are all older, I trust wiser. I am, I will own; much wiser. Wise at
last! I offer you my hand."

She did not reply. "I offer you my hand and name, Laetitia."

No response.

"You think me bound in honour to another?"

She was mute.

"I am free. Thank Heaven! I am free to choose my mate--the woman I
have always loved! Freely and unreservedly, as I ask you to give your
hand, I offer mine. You are the mistress of Patterne Hall; my wife."

She had not a word.

"My dearest! do you not rightly understand? The hand I am offering
you is disengaged. It is offered to the lady I respect above all others.
I have made the discovery that I cannot love without respecting; and as
I will not marry without loving, it ensues that I am free--I am yours.
At last?--your lips move: tell me the words. Have always loved, I said.
You carry in your bosom the magnet of constancy, and I, in spite of
apparent deviations, declare to you that I have never ceased to be
sensible of the attraction.
And now there is not an impediment. We
two against the world! we are one. Let me confess to an old foible--
perfectly youthful, and you will ascribe it to youth:
once I desired to
absorb. I mistrusted; that was the reason: I perceive it. You teach me
the difference of an alliance with a lady of intellect. The pride I have
in you, Laetitia, definitely cures me of that insane passion--call it an
insatiable hunger.
I recognize it as a folly of youth. I have, as it were,
gone the tour, to come home to you--at last?--and
live our manly life
of comparative equals.
At last, then! But remember that in the younger
man you would have had a despot--perhaps a jealous despot. Young
men, I assure you, are orientally inclined in their ideas of love. Love
gets a bad name from them. We, my Laetitia, do not regard love as a
selfishness. If it is, it is the essence of life. At least it is our
selfishness rendered beautiful. I talk to you like a man who has found a
compatriot in a foreign land. It seems to me that I have not opened my
mouth for an age. I certainly have not unlocked my heart. Those who
sing for joy are not unintelligible to me. If I had not something in me
worth saying I think I should sing. In every sense you reconcile me to
men and the world, Laetitia. Why press you to speak? I will be the
speaker. As surely as you know me, I know you: and . . ."

Laetitia burst forth with: "No!"

"I do not know you?" said he, searchingly mellifluous.

"Hardly."

"How not?"

"I am changed."

"In what way?"

"Deeply."

"Sedater?"

"Materially."


"Colour will come back: have no fear; I promise it. If you imagine you
want renewing, I have the specific, I, my love, I!"


"Forgive me--will you tell me, Sir Willoughby, whether you have
broken with Miss Middleton?"

"Rest satisfied, my dear Laetitia. She is as free as I am. I can do no
more than a man of honour should do. She releases me. To-morrow or
next day she departs. We, Laetitia, you and I, my love, are home birds. It
does not do for the home bird to couple with the migratory. The little
imperceptible change you allude to, is nothing. Italy will restore you.
I am ready to stake my own health--never yet shaken by a doctor of
medicine:--I say medicine advisedly, for there are doctors of divinity
1
who would shake giants:--that an Italian trip will send you back--that
I shall bring you home from Italy a blooming bride. You shake your
head--despondently? My love, I guarantee it.
Cannot I give you colour?
Behold! Come to the light, look in the glass."

"I may redden," said Laetitia. "I suppose that is due to the action of the
heart. I am changed. Heart, for any other purpose, I have not. I am like
you, Sir Willoughby, in this: I could not marry without loving, and I do
not know what love is, except that it is an empty dream."

"Marriage, my dearest. . ."

"You are mistaken."

"I will cure you, my Laetitia. Look to me, I am the tonic. It is not
common confidence, but conviction. I, my love, I!"


"There is no cure for what I feel, Sir Willoughby."

"Spare me the formal prefix, I beg. You place your hand in mine, re-
lying on me. I am pledge for the remainder. We end as we began: my
request is for your hand--your hand in marriage."

"I cannot give it."

"To be my wife!"

"It is an honour; I must decline it."

"Are you quite well, Laetitia? I propose in the plainest terms I can
employ, to make you Lady Patterne--mine."

"I am compelled to refuse."

"Why? Refuse? Your reason!"

"The reason has been named."

He took a stride to inspirit his wits.

"There's a madness comes over women at times, I know. Answer me,
Laetitia:--by all the evidence a man can have, I could swear it:--but
answer me; you loved me once?"

"I was an exceedingly foolish, romantic girl."

"You evade my question: I am serious.
Oh!" he walked away from her
booming a sound of utter repudiation of her present imbecility, and
hurrying to her side, said: "But it was manifest to the whole world!
It was a legend. To love like Laetitia Dale, was a current phrase.
You were an example, a light to women: no one was your match for de-
votion. You were a precious cameo, still gazing! And I was the object.
You loved me. You loved me, you belonged to me, you were mine, my
possession, my jewel; I was prouder of your constancy than of any-
thing else that I had on earth. It was a part of the order of the
universe to me. A doubt of it would have disturbed my creed. Why,
good heaven! where are we? Is nothing solid on earth? You loved me!"


"I was childish, indeed."

"You loved me passionately!"

"Do you insist on shaming me through and through, Sir Willoughby? I
have been exposed enough."


"You cannot blot out the past: it is written, it is recorded. You loved
me devotedly, silence is no escape. You loved me."

"I did."

"You never loved me, you shallow woman! 'I did!' As if there could be
a cessation of a love! What are we to reckon on as ours? We prize a
woman's love; we guard it jealously, we trust to it, dream of it; there
is our wealth; there is our talisman! And when we open the casket it
has flown!--barren vacuity!--we are poorer than dogs. As well think of
keeping a costly wine in potter's clay as love in the heart of a woman!
There are women--women! Oh, they are all of a stamp coin! Coin for
any hand! It's a fiction, an imposture--they cannot love. They are
the shadows of men. Compared with men, they have as much heart in
them as the shadow beside the body. Laetitia!"


"Sir Willoughby."

"You refuse my offer?"

"I must."

"You refuse to take me for your husband?"

"I cannot be your wife."

"You have changed? . . . you have set your heart? . . . you could marry? .
. . there is a man? . . . you could marry one! I will have an answer, I
am sick of evasions. What was in the mind of Heaven when women were
created, will be the riddle to the end of the world! Every good man in
turn has made the inquiry. I have a right to know who robs me--We
may try as we like to solve it.--Satan is painted laughing!--I say I
have a right to know who robs me. Answer me."

"I shall not marry."

"That is not an answer."

"I love no one."

"You loved me.--You are silent?--but you confessed it.
Then you
confess it was a love that could die! Are you unable to perceive how
that redounds to my discredit? You loved me, you have ceased to love
me. In other words you charge me with incapacity to sustain a
woman's love. You accuse me of inspiring a miserable passion that
cannot last a lifetime! You let the world see that I am a man to be
aimed at for a temporary mark!
And simply because I happen to be in
your neighbourhood at an age when a young woman is impressionable!
You make a public example of me as a man for whom women may have
a caprice, but that is all; he cannot enchain them; he fascinates pass-
ingly; they fall off. Is it just, for me to be taken up and cast
down at your will? Reflect on that scandal!
Shadows? Why, a man's
shadow is faithful to him at least.
What are women? There is not
a comparison in nature that does not tower above them! not one that
does not hoot at them! I, throughout my life, guided by absolute
deference to their weakness--paying them politeness, courtesy--
whatever I touch I am happy in, except when I touch women! How is
it? What is the mystery? Some monstrous explanation must exist.
What can it be? I am favoured by fortune from my birth until I enter
into relations with women. But will you be so good as to account for
it in your defence of them? Oh! were the relations dishonourable, it
would be quite another matter. Then they . . .
I could recount . . . I
disdain to chronicle such victories. Quite another matter. But they are
flies, and I am something more stable. They are flies. I look beyond the
day; I owe a duty to my line. They are flies. I foresee it, I shall be
crossed in my fate so long as I fail to shun them--flies! Not merely
born for the day, I maintain that they are spiritually ephemeral--Well,
my opinion of your sex is directly traceable to you. You may alter it,
or fling another of us men out on the world with the old bitter exper-
ience. Consider this, that it is on your head if my ideal of women is
wrecked. It rests with you to restore it
. I love you. I discover that
you are the one woman I have always loved. I come to you, I sue you,
2
and suddenly--you have changed! 'I have changed: I am not the same.'
What can it mean? 'I cannot marry: I love no one.' And you say you do
not know what love is--avowing in the same breath that you did love
me! Am I the empty dream? My hand, heart, fortune, name, are yours,
at your feet; you kick them hence. I am here--you reject me. But why,
for what mortal reason am I here other than my faith in your love?
You drew me to you, to repel me, and have a wretched revenge."


"You know it is not that, Sir Willoughby."

"Have you any possible suspicion that I am still entangled, not, as I
assure you I am, perfectly free in fact and in honour?"

"It is not that."

"Name it; for you see your power. Would you have me kneel to you,
madam?"

"Oh, no; it would complete my grief."

"You feel grief? Then you believe in my affection, and you hurl it away.
I have no doubt that as a poetess you would say, love is eternal. And
you have loved me. And you tell me you love me no more. You are not
very logical, Laetitia Dale."

"Poetesses rarely are: if I am one, which I little pretend to be for
writing silly verses. I have passed out of that delusion, with the
rest."

"You shall not wrong those dear old days, Laetitia. I see them now;
when I rode by your cottage and you were at your window, pen in
hand, your hair straying over your forehead. Romantic, yes; not
foolish. Why were you foolish in thinking of me?
Some day I will
commission an artist to paint me that portrait of you from my
description. And I remember when we first whispered . . . I remember
your trembling. You have forgotten--I remember. I remember our
meeting in the park on the path to church. I remember the heavenly
morning of my return from my travels, and the same Laetitia meeting
me, stedfast and unchangeable. Could I ever forget? Those are
ineradicable scenes; pictures of my youth, interwound with me.
I may
say, that as I recede from them, I dwell on them the more. Tell me,
Laetitia, was there not a certain prophecy of your father's concerning
us two? I fancy I heard of one. There was one."

"He was an invalid. Elderly people nurse illusions."

"Ask yourself Laetitia, who is the obstacle to the fulfilment of his
prediction?--truth, if ever a truth was foreseen on earth. You have not
changed so far that you would feel no pleasure in gratifying him? I go
to him to-morrow morning with the first light."


"You will compel me to follow, and undeceive him."

"Do so, and I denounce an unworthy affection you are ashamed to
avow."


"That would be idle, though it would be base."

"Proof of love, then! For no one but you should it be done, and no
one but you dare accuse me of a baseness."


"Sir Willoughby, you will let my father die in peace."

"He and I together will contrive to persuade you."

"You tempt me to imagine that you want a wife at any cost."

"You, Laetitia, you."


"I am tired," she said. "It is late, I would rather not hear more. I
am sorry if I have caused you pain. I suppose you to have spoken with
candour. I defend neither my sex nor myself. I can only say I am a
woman as good as dead: happy to be made happy in my way, but so
little alive that I cannot realize any other way. As for love, I am
thankful to have broken a spell. You have a younger woman in your
mind; I am an old one: I have no ambition and no warmth. My utmost
prayer is to float on the stream--a purely physical desire of life: I
have no strength to swim.
Such a woman is not the wife for you, Sir
Willoughby. Good night."

"One final word. Weigh it. Express no conventional regrets. Resolutely
you refuse?"

"Resolutely I do."

"You refuse?"

"Yes."


"I have sacrificed my pride for nothing! You refuse?"

"Yes."

"Humbled myself! And this is the answer! You do refuse?"

"I do."

"Good night, Laetitia Dale."

He gave her passage.

"Good night, Sir Willoughby."


"I am in your power," he said, in a voice between supplication
and menace that laid a claw on her, and she turned and replied:

"You will not be betrayed."


"I can trust you . . . ?"

"I go home to-morrow before breakfast."

"Permit me to escort you upstairs."

"If you please: but I see no one here either to-night or tomorrow."

"It is for the privilege of seeing the last of you."

They withdrew.

Young Crossjay listened to the drumming of his head. Somewhere in or
over the cavity a drummer rattled tremendously.

Sir Willoughby's laboratory door shut with a slam.


Crossjay tumbled himself off the ottoman. He stole up to the unclos-
ed drawing-room door, and peeped. Never was a boy more thoroughly
awakened.
His object was to get out of the house and go through the
night avoiding everything human, for he was big with information of
a character that he knew to be of the nature of gunpowder, and he
feared to explode.
He crossed the hall. In the passage to the scull-
ery he ran against Colonel De Craye.

"So there you are," said the colonel, "I've been hunting you."

Crossjay related that his bedroom door was locked and the key gone,
and Sir Willoughby sitting up in the laboratory.

Colonel De Craye took the boy to his own room, where Crossjay lay on
a sofa, comfortably covered over and snug in a swelling pillow; but
he
was restless; he wanted to speak, to bellow, to cry; and he bounced
round to his left side, and bounced to his right, not knowing what to
think, except that there was treason to his adored Miss Middleton.


"Why, my lad, you're not half a campaigner," the colonel called out to
him; attributing his uneasiness to the material discomfort of the sofa:
and Crossjay had to swallow the taunt, bitter though it was. A dim
sentiment of impropriety in unburdening his overcharged mind on the
subject of Miss Middleton to Colonel De Craye restrained him from
defending himself; and so he heaved and tossed about till daybreak. At
an early hour, while his hospitable friend, who looked very handsome
in profile half breast and head above the sheets, continued to slumber,
Crossjay was on his legs and away.

"He says I'm not half a campaigner, and a couple of hours of bed are
enough for me," the boy thought proudly, and snuffed the springing air
of the young sun on the fields.
A glance back at Patterne Hall dismayed
him, for he knew not how to act, and he was immoderately combustible,
too full of knowledge for self-containment; much too zealously excited
on behalf of his dear Miss Middleton to keep silent for many hours of
the day.



CHAPTER 41. The Rev. Dr. Middleton, Clara, and Sir Willoughby



When Master Crossjay tumbled down the stairs, Laetitia was in Clara's
room, speculating on the various mishaps which might have befallen
that battered youngster; and Clara listened anxiously after Laetitia
had run out, until she heard Sir Willoughby's voice; which in some way
satisfied her that the boy was not in the house.

She waited, expecting Miss Dale to return; then undressed, went to
bed, tried to sleep.
She was tired of strife. Strange thoughts for a
young head shot through her: as, that it is possible for the sense of
duty to counteract distaste; and that one may live a life apart from
one's admirations and dislikes:
she owned1 the singular strength of
Sir Willoughby in outwearying: she asked herself how much she had
gained by struggling:--every effort seemed to expend her spirit's
force, and rendered her less able to get the clear vision of her
prospects, as though it had sunk her deeper: the contrary of her
intention to make each further step confirm her liberty. Looking
back, she marvelled at the things she had done. Looking round, how
ineffectual they appeared! She had still the great scene of positive
rebellion to go through with her father.

The anticipation of that was the cause of her extreme discouragement.
He had not spoken to her since he became aware of her attempted flight:
but the scene was coming; and besides the wish not to inflict it on
him, as well as to escape it herself, the girl's peculiar unhappiness
lay in her knowledge that they were alienated and stood opposed, owing
to one among the more perplexing masculine weaknesses, which she could
not hint at, dared barely think of, and would not name in her medita-
tions. Diverting to other subjects, she allowed herself to exclaim,
"Wine, wine!" in renewed wonder of what there could be in wine to en-
trap venerable men and obscure their judgements. She was too young
to consider that her being very much in the wrong gave all the im-
portance to the cordial glass in a venerable gentleman's apprecia-
tion of his dues. Why should he fly from a priceless wine to grati-
fy the caprices of a fantastical child guilty of seeking to commit a
breach of faith? He harped on those words. Her fault was grave. No
doubt the wine coloured it to him, as a drop or two will do in any
cup: still her fault was grave.

She was too young for such considerations. She was ready to expatiate
on the gravity of her fault, so long as the humiliation assisted to her
disentanglement: her snared nature in the toils would not permit her
to reflect on it further. She had never accurately perceived it: for
the reason perhaps that Willoughby had not been moving in his appeals:
but, admitting the charge of waywardness, she had come to terms with
conscience, upon the understanding that she was to perceive it and
regret it and do penance for it by-and-by:--by renouncing marriage
altogether? How light a penance!


In the morning, she went to Laetitia's room, knocked, and had no
answer.

She was informed at the breakfast-table of Miss Dale's departure.
The ladies Eleanor and Isabel feared it to be a case of urgency at
the cottage. No one had seen Vernon, and Clara requested Colonel De
Craye to walk over to the cottage for news of Crossjay. He accepted
the commission, simply to obey and be in her service: assuring her,
however, that there was no need to be disturbed about the boy. He
would have told her more, had not Dr. Middleton led her out.

Sir Willoughby marked a lapse of ten minutes by his watch. His
excellent aunts had ventured a comment on his appearance that
frightened him lest he himself should be the person to betray his
astounding discomfiture. He regarded his conduct as an act of
madness, and Laetitia's as no less that of a madwoman--happily mad!
Very happily mad indeed! Her rejection of his ridiculously generous
proposal seemed to show an intervening hand in his favour, that sent
her distraught at the right moment.
He entirely trusted her to be
discreet; but she was a miserable creature, who had lost the one last
chance offered her by Providence, and furnished him with a signal
instance of the mediocrity of woman's love.


Time was flying. In a little while Mrs. Mountstuart would arrive. He
could not fence her without a design in his head; he was destitute of
an armoury if he had no scheme: he racked the brain only to succeed
in rousing phantasmal vapours.
Her infernal "Twice!" would cease now
to apply to Laetitia; it would be an echo of Lady Busshe. Nay, were all
in the secret, Thrice jilted! might become the universal roar. An